House of the Lost (36 page)

She thought the guards felt the same about the screams. As they carried the ladders towards the well-house, she heard one of them say, ‘Jesus Christ, I can’t stand that row much longer. It’s like a bloody animal in a snare.’

‘Don’t let that one hear you,’ said the other, nodding to where Zoia was standing at the open door, wringing her hands, calling to Annaleise that they would get her out, just to wait a very little longer.

‘Simonescu will likely be brought out a piece at a time if she fell all the way down,’ said the guard. ‘Any takers on how many pieces she’ll be in?’

‘No. Let’s get on with it.’

When one of the guards came back outside a bit later to pick up a length of new rope, he passed the tree where Mara was curled up, and she plucked up courage to ask him what was happening.

‘No idea. They can’t get the ladders down,’ he said. ‘There’s not enough space to manoeuvre. They need very long ladders because the well’s so deep, but the well-house is too small for them to tilt the ladders and drop them into the shaft.’

‘She’s very badly hurt, isn’t she?’

‘Yes.’ He picked up the coil of rope and went back.

Zoia and the guards did not exactly forget Mara, but they did not take much notice of her. At one point the ladders became stuck in the doorway, and shortly after this men came with pickaxes and massive hammers and began to break through the roof. They carried the ladders onto the roof, and lowered them into the shaft.

While they were intent on this, Mara cautiously stood up, hoping to tiptoe away into the trees without being noticed, but one of the men saw and pounced on her, dragging her back. ‘None of that,’ he said. ‘We don’t let children run away from us. You try that again and I’ll tie you up and leave you for the wolves to eat.’

‘There are no such things as wolves any more,’ said Mara, clinging to defiance for as long as possible.

‘Aren’t there? You stay in this forest on your own after dark, and you’ll change your mind,’ said the man nastily.

The screaming stopped eventually and Mara thought they had finally been able to reach Annaleise. After a time, something swathed in blankets was carried out. Mara tried not to look at it, but could not help herself. The face was covered but one hand, smeared with dried blood, hung down. She’s dead, thought Mara. They wouldn’t have covered her face if she wasn’t. I killed her.

Zoia came out. Her face was smeared with grime, her hands bloodied and torn, and she looked as if something inside her had shrivelled and died. She beckoned to one of the guards.

‘Take a couple of the other men and bring Andrei Valk to the Black House. You know where he lives? After that go to the convent school.’

The guard had not looked surprised at the mention of Matthew’s father, but he did look surprised when Zoia said this. ‘The convent? At this hour of the night?’

‘I don’t care what hour of the night – or day – it is. Just do as you’re told. Go to the convent and ask for Sister Teresa. The nuns – all of them, mind – are to be assembled for questioning in an hour’s time.’

The guard nodded. Zoia walked across to where Mara was still sitting by the tree, her arms wrapped round her knees, trying to get warm. She bent down so her face was level with Mara’s, and in a voice that made Mara shiver, she said, ‘You’re an evil little cat, and you’re bound for hell. All murderers go to hell, and once they get there, they burn for eternity. That’s what will happen to you.’ She paused, then said, ‘But I’ll see you live in hell for the rest of your life on earth. I’ll make sure you’re shut away and never see the world again.’

Mara stared up at the thin white face and thought, She’s going to put me back inside the well-house, but Zoia did not. She straightened up, and called to two of the guards. ‘Take her back to the house. See to it that she’s locked up.’ The guards nodded, and half-carried Mara back to the cold, sour-smelling room with the black stove. This time, the door was locked.

Mara huddled miserably on the bed, crying at intervals, wondering whether Zoia would tell her grandmother and brother that she had killed Annaleise. It was still night, but she had no idea what time of night it was. She sat by the window hoping to hear the church clock chiming the hour; it would make her feel she was not so very far away from her home and she would be able to count the chimes and know the time. But either the Black House was too far away or the windows were too tightly closed, because although she sat there until she was cramped and frozen through, she did not hear the familiar friendly chimes.

Eventually there were footsteps in the passage outside, the door was unlocked, and Zoia and Sister Teresa came in. Mara had not expected this.

She wiped her eyes on a corner of the scratchy sheet and sat up because Sister Teresa always made people sit up straight; she said a sloppy posture meant a sloppy mind. She was quite strict which meant no one ever dared play around in her class and, although she looked strict now, she did not punish people unless they really deserved it. She and Zoia sat together at the narrow table under one window. Mara knew it was important to listen to what they said, but she was frightened and exhausted and found it difficult to follow.

Sister Teresa took control of the discussion at once, by asking why Mara had been shut inside the well-house in the first place.

‘A harsh penance for such a small child, surely, no matter the sin?’

Zoia mumbled a bit and for a moment there were two scarlet patches on her pale cheeks. ‘Mara had been wilful and unruly,’ she said at length. ‘The rules here are strict, but I have to do what my masters say.’

Sister Teresa did not look as if she entirely believed this, but before she could say anything, Zoia said, ‘The question of the child can wait, Sister. You know we’re holding two of your nuns on suspicion of plotting the escape of a prisoner?’

‘I do know and it’s a ridiculous idea. None of the sisters know anything about Elisabeth Valk or any other prisoner. None of us even have any idea where she is.’

‘The child was clear about it, though.’

‘The child was mistaken,’ said Sister Teresa at once. ‘Frightened and confused. She’d have said anything to get back to her home. Can I take her with me now?’

‘No. She’s not going home for a very long time.’

Mara was so sick with disappointment at this, she had to will herself not to cry, and did not hear what was said next. By the time she had fought the tears down, Sister Teresa and Zoia were talking about appropriate treatment for a child, and whether a doctor should be called for an examination. This was worrying in a whole new way because nobody went to doctors if they could help it. Mara had never been to one in her life. Doctors, always supposing you knew where to find one, were for rich people, her grandmother said.

Sister Teresa said they were in a situation that had probably never arisen before. In some countries there were special places for such children, she said – hostels and institutions, but out here . . . She gave the bony-shouldered shrug she gave in class when people had not done their homework. It usually meant she was annoyed but puzzled at such bad behaviour.

She was annoyed and puzzled now, Mara could see that.

‘I should like to hear what Mara has to say,’ she said, and without waiting for an answer, went over to the bed. ‘Well, Mara? What have you to say for yourself? Miss Simonescu is dead and I’m told you were responsible. You know that killing someone is a very grave sin. A mortal sin. God is good and merciful and loves all children, but He will find it difficult to love you if you’ve killed another human being.’

‘I didn’t mean to kill her,’ said Mara, not knowing whether to be relieved that this was not about the lie, or frightened that God might not love her any longer. ‘I was trying to get out of that place – the well-house, because it’s got a face and I thought it might be a troll turned into stone.’ She started crying again, but Sister Teresa waited and after a few moments, Mara was able to say, ‘Truly, Sister, I was fighting them to get away. I didn’t mean Ann – I didn’t mean Miss Simonescu to fall into the well.’ This sounded a bit ridiculous, like the nursery rhyme about the cat in the well.

But Sister Teresa gave a small nod as if this was enough, and went back to the table. ‘I believe there was no malice,’ she said. ‘No serious intent.’

‘You didn’t see it,’ said Zoia, her lips folded into a thin hard line like a steel ruler in a pencil-box. ‘The child flew at Miss Simonescu and pushed her very hard. I saw the malice and the intent all right – it blazed in her eyes. If you won’t take steps to have her shut away, I’ll hand her over to the Securitate.’

‘No, don’t do that,’ said Sister Teresa at once. ‘I have a suggestion.’ She looked across at Mara and then back to Zoia. ‘We have a convent just outside Debreczen.’

‘In Hungary?’

‘Yes, but only just over the border. It’s not too difficult a journey – I go there two or three times each year. But it’s a very poor House in a remote area and if Mara went there, she would be expected to help with the running of the convent – cleaning and cooking. She would be given teaching as well, of course, as she must have at her age.’

‘Why should I hand her over to you? The Securitate will deal with her very satisfactorily.’

Sister Teresa thought for a moment, then said, ‘There are rumours in the village that this house is to be closed.’

Zoia looked up. ‘How do you know that?’

‘People get to hear things. We get told some of those things. Is it true?’

‘It’s been considered for some time,’ said Zoia, ‘and after tonight it’s very probable. I shall leave anyway – Miss Simonescu was a very dear friend and I don’t think I shall want to stay in the place where . . .’

‘I understand.’

‘They probably won’t replace me if I go. What has this to do with Mara?’

‘Am I right in thinking you have some very young children here?’

‘Yes,’ said Zoia after a moment. ‘A dozen or so. It’s difficult to provide care for them – we aren’t given the money or the facilities.’

‘I understand.’

‘There never was enough money in the first place,’ said Zoia with sudden anger. ‘The ruling made by Elena Ceau
escu – the ruling intended to increase the birth rate – forced an impossible situation on this country. People had babies without being able to feed or clothe them.’ She stopped and looked scared. ‘I shouldn’t have said that—’

‘It won’t go beyond this room. It was in confidence between us.’

‘And will the two nuns being held by the Securitate keep what they know in confidence?’ said Zoia.

‘I’ve already told you they know nothing,’ said Sister Teresa.

‘The Church keeps its own counsel?’ said Zoia a bit sneeringly.

‘It always has done,’ said Sister Teresa. She frowned, then said, ‘Miss Calciu, if the Black House is to be closed, what will happen to the children in your care? Will they be sent to another orphanage?’

‘I suppose so.’

‘Will that be your responsibility? Won’t it be difficult to find places for them?’

‘Yes. Most of the other orphanages are overcrowded.’

‘You would have to – to hawk the children around the countryside like a pedlar,’ said Sister Teresa, nodding. ‘Very unpleasant and exhausting. But I have a proposal that might make that unnecessary. I sometimes visit another House within our Order – a convent in England.’

Zoia looked interested; Mara guessed it was the mention of England which everyone said was a marvellous place, a place where everyone was rich and you could walk into shops and buy anything you wanted.

‘We have strong links with the English House,’ said Sister Teresa. ‘It’s in a tiny place, it’s not a school as we have here, but the sisters are hospitable and generous and if I were to approach them it’s possible they would take in some children for a while. They might find them homes with English families – at worst places in good children’s homes. Papers would have to be in order – visas and so on, however.’

‘Papers could be arranged,’ said Zoia at once. ‘I know people who would help with that.’

‘It would mean you could leave this place much sooner,’ said Sister Teresa. ‘You could put the sadness behind you much quicker.’

There was another silence and Mara saw that Zoia was thinking about what Sister Teresa had said. ‘This place in Debreczen,’ she said at last, ‘is it a house of correction?’

‘No, but if Mara went there she would have to keep to a strict regime. No distractions. Prayer and study and work.’

‘Would there be other children?’

‘There might be. The sisters sometimes take one or two in for various reasons. If parents die, for instance.’

‘If I were to agree to your suggestion,’ said Zoia, not sounding as if she was yet convinced, ‘how long could Mara stay there?’

‘A few years, certainly. Say until she reaches young adulthood – sixteen, seventeen. It’s possible that by then she will have become imbued with the way of life – with the outlook of the sisters – and decide to take her vows.’ Sister Teresa sent another of the quick glances towards the listening Mara. ‘We wouldn’t force that if there’s no real vocation, but if she did join the Order it would indicate full contrition. An atonement for her sin.’