Homeland: Carrie's Run: A Homeland Novel (15 page)

He shrugged. “I didn’t talk politics with them. Just fashion, photos and”—he picked a shred of tobacco from the tip of his tongue—“
enculer
.” French for screwing.

“Dima dropped out of sight more than a month ago. Where’d she go?”

“You’re the Sûreté or the CIA or whoever the hell you are. You tell me.”

“You have no idea?”

“
La adri
,” he shrugged.
No idea.
“Ask Rana. She might know.”

“Tell me about Rana. Is she affiliated with any group?”

“Don’t know. Wouldn’t tell you if I did.” He smirked.

“Trust me, if I want I can make you tell me,” she said. She leaned over, ripped the lit cigarette from his lips and stubbed the lighted end hard against his cheek.

“Yeoww!” he howled, and jumped away. “Crazy bitch!” he shouted in Arabic. He poured water from the bottle onto his hand and rubbed it on his burned cheek. The receptionist ran in and looked at them.

“Tell her to leave,” Carrie said. “And not do anything stupid.”

“
C’est
okay, Yasmine. Just go back to the front. Truly,” he said to the girl, who waited for a moment, then left.

“Bitch! Don’t do that again,” he said, wincing as he touched the burn mark on his cheek with his finger.

“Don’t make me,” she said. “Is Rana affiliated with any group?”

“I don’t know. Ask her,” he said sulkily.

“Is she seeing anyone?”

He hesitated. “Are you looking into Dima’s death? Is that what this is about?”

Carrie nodded. He looked at the window, then back at her.

“I can’t believe she’s dead. I liked her,” he said.

“So did I.”

“
La pauvre
.” He frowned.
The poor thing.
“Dima had a new boyfriend. I never saw him. He was from Dubai,” he said, rubbing his thumb against his fingers in the universal sign for money. “I figured that’s where she went, because you’re right, nobody saw her in weeks. Poor Dima.”

“And Rana has a boyfriend too?”

He nodded. “An American. He must have money.” He smirked again. “Rana is high-priced goods.”

“Do you know who he is?”

His answer shocked her to her core. It told her the entire mission in Beirut had been blown.

“What are you asking me for? You should know. He’s with the CIA,” he said.

CHAPTER 19

Halba, Lebanon

The house was an old-fashioned stone building on a hill looking out toward the town of Bebnine and the sea. Asking around at the
salon tagmil
,
the local hair salon, the one place in the Middle East where it was an advantage to be a woman because you could find out everything about everybody, Carrie learned that Dima’s parents were deceased. But she found an uncle of the Hamdan family and soon she was sitting in the parlor with an older woman, Khala Majida, Aunt Majida, sipping iced tea, Lebanese-style, made with rose water and pine nuts. They sat on a sofa facing the balcony, the French doors open to the sun. Carrie, in jeans and a sweater, wore her
hijab
. She told Aunt Majida she was a friend of Dima’s from America. She didn’t tell her Dima was dead; the FBI was still keeping the attackers’ identities from the media.

“Did she tell you her father, Hamid Ali Hamdan, was with al-Murabitun?” the aunt said in Arabic.

“She told me,” Carrie lied. The Murabitun was the most powerful of the Sunni militias during the long Lebanese civil war. None of this had been in Dima’s file and she had never revealed any of this to Carrie or anyone else.

“He fought side by side with Ibrahim Kulaylat. The Israelis killed him in ’82, to Allah we belong, and may those sons of apes and pigs rot in hell. Dima was an infant. It was hard for her, a girl without a father,” Aunt Majida said.

“Of course,” Carrie murmured, looking around. It seemed inconceivable that sophisticated, party-girl Dima, the girl who knew everyone who was anyone in Christian North Beirut, came from this conservative Sunni Muslim setting.

“And no money. And then her mother got the cancer.” The aunt shook her head.

“How did she survive?”

“Her grandmother. And me. We helped, but then she went to Beirut and we didn’t see her after that.”

“How did she come to leave Halba?”

“You know the famous actress Rana? The one who’s on the television?”

“Rana Saadi?” Carrie said, her mind racing. It wasn’t just the magazine photo!

“That’s the one. Rana’s father and poor Hamid Ali, to Allah we belong, were friends in al-Murabitun. Rana came from Tripoli and took her to Beirut. They were going to become models there. I warned her against it. There are many Christians and unbelievers in Beirut. Much that is
haram
,
I told her. But she said, ‘I have nothing but my looks, Khala. It’s the only chance I have. And I’ll be with my father’s friend’s daughter.’ ”

“Why would Rana take her?”

“
Ikram.
A debt of honor. Hamid Ali had saved Rana’s father’s life in the civil war.”

“
Min fathleki
,
excuse me, I understand her father, to Allah we belong, was a hero, but Dima didn’t strike me as political—or religious. Not to say she wasn’t a good Muslim girl, but you know what I mean,” Carrie said.

The aunt looked at her sharply. “She knew who her father was and who she was,
alhamdulillah,
” Aunt Majida said.
Thank God.

“Of course,
Allahu akbar
,
” Carrie murmured.
God is great.

“
Allahu akbar
,
” the aunt said sternly.

So Dima was
a Sunni Muslim who had moved a long way from her roots, Carrie thought on the way back to Beirut in Virgil’s Peugeot. She was driving south on the coast road. To her left were fields and clusters of houses and on her right, beyond the houses, the sea. Well, haven’t we all? A point Saul had made when she spoke with him on an encrypted cell phone call last night.

“Beirut Station’s blown. This place is a shambles,” she told him.

“How bad is it?” Saul asked, his voice a bit blurry from the encryption.

“Listen, if a fashion photographer in Gemmayzeh knows Fielding is CIA, everybody knows. That’s how bad.”

“And Dima?”

“She comes from Halba. That little tidbit wasn’t in her 201,” Carrie said.

Saul caught it right away. She loved that about him. “Is it possible she’s Sunni?” he said.

“I’m checking it out. Kind of leaves us nowhere in figuring out how New York happened. A Sunni op set up by Shiites? And according to Fielding, Dima was supposed to be March 14, which is Christian. Makes no sense. Not in Lebanon.”

“There’s something else going on. We’re not seeing it,” he said. “What about this other woman, Rana?”

“She’s from the north too. Tripoli. Also probably Sunni. She and Dima knew each other. Their fathers did too. Interesting, huh?”

“What does it tell you?” he said.

“Maybe Rana is part of it.”

“Obviously. What else?”

“They were outsiders. Both of them.”

“Aren’t we all?” he said, reminding her of their conversation just before she left.

Saul had come over to drive her the short distance from her apartment in Reston to Dulles International for the flight to Beirut.

“Keep clear of Beirut Station, especially Fielding,” he warned her. “Otherwise you’ll never find out what’s going on.”

“What if we run into each other? Beirut’s a small town sometimes.”

“Tell him you’re on a Special Access op.” Special Access operations were the CIA’s highest-level operations that could only be authorized directly by the director of the CIA and were on a strict need-to-know basis, including those with top secret clearance, even station chiefs. “If he makes a fuss, refer him to me or to David. Remember, no one from Beirut Station is to even know you’re in Lebanon.”

“Except Virgil.”

“No one else. You can’t come to Langley for help either. You’re on your own.”

“Story of my life,” she said.

Saying it, she remembered the little white house on Farragut Avenue in Kensington and how none of their neighbors spoke to them after her father bought a big RV trailer and parked it in the driveway, and when the neighbors asked where he was going, her father told them it was so he could take the family to the Great Lakes to see the miracle. And how she and Maggie had no friends because playdates at their house were unimaginable and they couldn’t go to other kids’ houses either because their father might call. Her mother was of no help and her sister, Maggie, only wanted out. Theirs was a house of silence, each of them hiding from the others as if madness was contagious like the flu.

“Sometimes I think you prefer it alone,” Saul said.

“I’ve always been an outsider.”

“All of us. This is a business for outsiders,” he said.

“You too?”

“Are you kidding? Can you even begin to imagine what it was like growing up as the only Orthodox Jewish kid in tiny white-bread Calliope, Indiana? In the fifties and early sixties? My parents were Holocaust survivors. It made them ultra-Orthodox. They clung to God as if to the side of a cliff. My father owned the local drugstore. But there was no one like us in that town. We were like Martians in that place.

“I couldn’t participate in anything like Christmas pageants at school. Anything goyish or that even smacked of what they considered idolatry. I had to fight with my parents just to say the Pledge of Allegiance because there was a metal eagle at the top of the flagpole. I couldn’t even play Little League even though I loved baseball, because they began the games with a prayer that mentioned Jesus. We’re all outsiders, Carrie. The reason we do this is because this is the only profession that’ll let us in.”

She was driving
south, approaching Byblos, the town where the word “bible” came from, when she got the call from Virgil. Ahead, she could see Byblos’s old city, crowded along the Mediterranean coast, and in clusters on the hills white houses, churches and a mosque.

“We got a hit,” Virgil said.

“I’m listening.”

“She made a call on that cell phone, our little actress. I tracked who it went to via the No Such database. Your pal Jimbo. You do collect admirers, Sweet Pea.” Virgil called the NSA “No Such” because for a long time the joke in Washington had been that the acronym for the super-secret National Security Agency stood for “No Such Agency.” “Sweet Pea,” his sarcastic nickname for her, rhymed with “Sweet C,” for “Sweet Caroline,” the Neil Diamond song.

“Cut the crap, Vee. Who was it?”

“An old friend of yours. A certain singing little birdie?”

Oh my God! Nightingale, she thought excitedly. Taha al-Douni. It closed the circle: Dima—Nightingale—Rana. And don’t forget the third woman in the photo, she reminded herself. Marielle.

“What’d they say?”

“I’ll tell you tonight. The usual place? Twenty fifteen?” That meant he didn’t want to speak about it over a cell phone connection. The usual place was the circular Khalil Gibran Garden, opposite the UN House in the Hamra district. Subtracting forty-five minutes from 2015 hours meant to meet him at 1930 hours. Seven thirty
P.M
.

“Okay, bye.”

“
Ma’al salaama
,
” he said mockingly, and ended the call.

Driving along the coast, the sun shining on the sea, she had never felt better, almost as if she were gliding unmoving on the air like a hawk. Although she couldn’t see all the pieces in the puzzle, she could sense them falling into place. Everything was perfect. A feeling of well-being enveloped her, like slipping into a warm bathtub. She was closing in on what had happened and who was behind it. They were just out of sight, behind a curtain that rose behind Beirut like the mountains. It was all coming together. Like sex at that moment when it starts to build and you’re not there yet, but you can feel it coming and it’s getting better and better.

She drove past farm fields on the coastal highway that divided Byblos’s old city from the more modern part of town, thinking maybe she should take some time off. Do a little sightseeing. See the Crusader castle or the Roman ruins or maybe stop off at one of the seaside hotels. Wouldn’t that be good? Go out on the beach, let her bare feet feel the sand. Sit in a beach lounge and have a waiter bring her a margarita and watch the seabirds fly and dip toward the water as they spotted a fish and—

Pay attention! she thought, sitting up and focusing on the road. When was the last time she’d had her pill? Was she really feeling this way or was it one of her flights coming on?

Shit!

Focus, Carrie. It’s the bipolar doing the thinking, not you, she told herself. Think. Rana, who was both Fielding’s girlfriend and Dima’s friend, had called Nightingale. It was like closing an electrical circuit. She needed to be sharp now. She couldn’t drift. That bullshit about the beach. It’s the missing clozapine that’s talking. Time to get more at the pharmacy on Rue Nakhle. She needed to get back to Beirut before they closed. She had to get her meds. And she had to pay attention. The last time she’d dealt with Nightingale he’d nearly kidnapped or killed her. He wasn’t someone she could take on without having her wits about her.

And then there was the third woman in the photograph. Another mystery. She checked her watch.

If she stepped on it, she just had time to get back to Beirut, get to the Rue Nakhle pharmacy, then meet Virgil. And find Marielle Hilal, the third woman in the photograph. She shook her head to clear it and, going around a slow-moving car, pressed her foot down on the accelerator.

CHAPTER 20

Karantina, Beirut, Lebanon

It was late; the pharmacy was just about to close when she got there, the shop windows along the street glowing with neon in the night. She handed the pharmacist, a bald middle-aged Lebanese man with a fringe of white hair, her old prescription. He barely glanced at it.

“This is out of date, mademoiselle,” he said.

“Here’s my new one,” she said, putting two hundred dollars U.S. on the counter. He looked at it but didn’t pick it up. “
Min fathleki
,
” she added.
Please.
She didn’t have to fake the desperation in her voice; it was already there.

He glanced the door, then swept the money into his pocket. He went in back and while she waited she thought about Virgil’s news. Rana was to meet Nightingale tomorrow in Baalbek, the town with the famous Roman ruins in the Beqaa Valley, about eighty-five kilometers northeast of Beirut. The three of them, her, Virgil and Ziad, would also be there.

The pharmacist came back. He was holding two containers of pills.

“You understand these are serious?” he said.

“I know,
shokran
,
” she said, thanking him.

“You should be tested. The side effects can be very bad.”

“I know. But I’ve been taking them for years without any problems,” she said, thinking, Just give it to me, dammit. Her heart was beating a mile a minute; the street was already becoming a maze of moving patterns and if she didn’t get one inside her soon, she didn’t know what she would do. Murder the bastard.

“No more old prescriptions, mademoiselle. Next time, I will insist,” he said.

“I understand,
assayid
. Thank you so much.” She was thinking, What does he want, a blow job? Please, just give them to me.

“Good night, mademoiselle,” he said, handing them to her in a little plastic bag.

“Bye,” she said, not looking back as she headed out the door. She stopped at a neighborhood grocery
bakkal
a few doors down just as he was shuttering for the night, bought a bottle of water and washed a pill down. She checked her watch. Just after nine. The nighttime city was coming alive. The streets were clogged with traffic and noisy horns from drivers.

The question now was whether she could find Marielle. The third woman.

The address she
had from the photographer, Abou Murad, for Marielle Hilal was on Rue Mar Yousef in Bourj Hammoud, the Armenian quarter. It was in a six-story building on a crowded street just a few blocks from the Municipality building. There was a hole-in-the-wall kebab restaurant on the ground floor with the building door right next to it. Someone had strung a red-blue-and-yellow-striped Armenian flag over the street. She used a credit card slipped between the door lock and the jamb to unlock the apartment building’s front door.

Going up the stairs—there was no elevator—she could smell the roast kebabs from the restaurant. The hallway was dark and there was no timed light. She found the apartment and lit her cell phone to see the name handwritten in Arabic on a piece of tape pasted on the doorpost of the apartment door. It wasn’t “Hilal” or anything like it. She listened at the door. Someone was watching television. It sounded like a popular show about a beautiful woman journalist in the middle of a divorce. She knocked. No answer. After a minute, she knocked again and the door opened.

A thin woman with streaked blond hair, in jeans and a red B018 Club T-shirt—she must have been in her forties—opened the door.

“
Aiwa,
what is it?” the woman asked in Arabic.

“I’m looking for Marielle,” Carrie said.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about. There’s no Marielle here,” the woman said.

“Please, madame. I’m a friend of hers and Dima Hamdan’s. I have to see her. It’s urgent.”

“I told you. There’s no such person here,” the woman said.

“Is that
Kinda
?” Carrie asked, talking about the TV show. “I like that show.”

The woman nodded. “It’s good,” she said, and started to close the door. “Sorry, I can’t help you.”

“Wait! Could you at least give her a message? Her life is in danger,” Carrie said, stepping into the doorway so the woman couldn’t close the door.

“Whoever you are, go away! I don’t know any Marielle Hilal!” the woman snapped.

Carrie looked at her. I’ve got you, she thought, thinking, thank God she’d gotten her meds or she wouldn’t have caught it.

“How did you know her family name was Hilal? I didn’t say it,” she said.

The woman stood there, her face working. She looked around as if for a weapon.

“If you don’t leave, I’ll call the police,” she said.

“Go ahead.” Carrie crossed her arms. “You’re hiding something. I think we both know the last thing you want is the police.”

The woman hesitated, stepped out into the hallway to make sure Carrie was alone, then let her in. They stood awkwardly in the foyer; after a moment the woman led her into the living room.

“How do you know Marielle?” the woman asked, turning to confront her.

“I know Rana and Dima,” Carrie said.

“How do you know Dima?”

“From Le Gray and the fashion photographer François Abou Murad—and other places.”

The woman stood there, calculating.

“You said Marielle’s life was in danger. What did you mean?”

“You know exactly what I mean or you wouldn’t be trying to protect her. I have to talk to her.” She decided to take a chance. “Dima is dead, madame.”

The woman stared at her, stunned. “Dead? What are you saying?”

“I have to talk to Marielle. It is unbelievably urgent.”

“You’re American?” she asked, studying her.

“Yes. I’m Carrie. A friend.”

“Wait here,” she said, and went to a bedroom. Carrie assumed she was calling Marielle. It was puzzling. The woman—she assumed she was a relative of Marielle’s—didn’t look Armenian, and looking around, there was no sign of a cross or pictures of Mount Ararat or anything Armenian, so why did she live in Bourj Hammoud? Except, Carrie thought, everyone knew everyone here. They were aware of outsiders. Maybe Marielle lived near here for safety. On the TV, Kinda was being threatened by a man in a business suit. The woman came back.

“She’ll meet you tonight after midnight at B Dix-Huit. Come alone or you won’t get to talk to her.” The woman frowned. “I’m sorry for all the precaution.”

“No, she’s right. She may be in great danger,” Carrie said.

B018 was in
the Karantina district, sandwiched between the Beirut River in its narrow concrete channel and the harbor. In times past, the area was called La Quarantaine and had been a refugee camp for survivors of the Armenian massacre in Turkey during World War I. Later, during the Lebanese civil war, it was a camp for Palestinians. Now it was a working-class industrial area that, as an oddity, housed the most exclusive club in town.

From the outside, the B018 Club looked like a concrete spaceship, and going down the narrow inclined ramp to the underground entrance, Carrie, who’d gone home and changed into her Terani and highest heels, wondered if her midthigh minidress was short enough. It was that kind of place. Coming down to the front-door area, she could hear the music throbbing loud enough to make the walls vibrate.

Even before she got past the six-foot bouncers at the door, a man in a Hugo Boss jacket put his arm around her waist and asked her if she wanted a Johnnie Walker Blue. At club prices, a drink like that could go for five hundred dollars.

“Maybe later,” she said, disentangling herself. After the bouncers gave her a once-over that lasted only a few seconds but felt as probing as a gynecological exam and waved her through—thanks to the Terani and her Jimmy Choos, she thought—she went inside. The main club, with its hangarlike space and endlessly long bar, was jammed with people, many of them dancing for all they were worth to Chris Brown’s “Run It.” A half dozen beautiful women in ultratight miniskirts were writhing to the music on top of the bar to raucous cheers.

Someone shoved a cocktail into her hand, nearly spilling it, while a drop-dead gorgeous girl with gold eye shadow and purple lipstick stared at her and said, “What a pretty face,
cherie
. Can I kiss you?” Without waiting for an answer, she kissed Carrie full on the lips, her tongue darting in like a little fish. So different than kissing a man, Carrie thought. Softer, the sensation oddly disconcerting and interesting.

“Come with me,” the girl said, putting her hand on Carrie’s breast.

“Maybe later,” Carrie said—it was fast becoming her new mantra—and moved quickly away.

She weaved her way around the dance floor and along the walls, looking for Marielle. All she had to go on was the photograph; she hoped the woman hadn’t changed her hairstyle too much. A man grabbed her free hand and kissed it.

“Have a drink,
habibi
,
” he said. She freed her hand and moved on. The music was deafening and someone shouted in Arabic that things were just getting started, you
kahleteen
! Laserlike lights flashed and someone said they were going to open the retractable roof to the stars, but nothing happened. The music had changed and everyone was going wild to the Finnish heavy metal band Nightwish.

Carrie spotted someone who could have been Marielle seated near the far end of the bar. Crossing the dance floor, she was groped twice and barely escaped getting pulled into a group of three girls dancing so hard their bouncing breasts threatened to escape their décolletage.

When she got closer, she saw that it was Marielle. She’d dyed her hair red, wore a low-cut al-Ansar Sporting Club tank top that showed her cleavage and Escada jeans so tight they could’ve been spray-painted on. She wasn’t as pretty as her photo, but her face was more interesting, Carrie thought, squeezing in next to her.

“Where can we talk?” Carrie asked in Arabic.

“You Carrie?” Marielle said, leaning closer.

“It’s too loud. Let’s go somewhere.”

“I’m not moving till I know you are who you say you are. Where was Dima from? Really from?” the redhead said into her ear.

“The Akkar. Halba.”

“Come,” Marielle said, getting off her stool and marching away. Carrie followed. After a long walk out of the main club to a hallway, they found a line snaking out of the women’s bathroom. Marielle walked past it and, taking out a key, unlocked a side door at the end of the corridor. It opened to an empty storage space. Looking behind them to make sure no one was paying attention, they stepped inside. Except for a single lightbulb, the room was dark, with cartons stacked at the back. They could hear the music throbbing through the walls.

“Is Dima dead?” Marielle asked.

Carrie nodded.

“I knew it. These people . . . ,” Marielle said, shaking her head bitterly.

“Which people?”

“I don’t know. I don’t know them. I don’t know you. All I know is that it’s dangerous. I knew she was in trouble.”

“How’d you know?”

“Dima and Rana were always playing with fire. Rana is with some guy we think is CIA.”

“Fielding?” Carrie put in.

“American.” She nodded. “Like you. Did you come from him?”

“What do you think?”

“I don’t know what to think. I’m scared, that’s what I think. If they killed Dima, they can kill me. Look at me. My hand is shaking.” She held out her hand in the dim light.

“Less than two months ago, Dima disappeared out of sight. What happened?”

“It was him,” Marielle said.

“Who?”

“Her new boyfriend. Mohammed. Mohammed Siddiqi. She was with him.”

“The one from Dubai?”

“Where’d you hear Dubai?”

“The photographer, François.”

“He’s such a
khara
liar. Mohammed’s Iraqi. From Baghdad. He claimed to be from Qatar, but I knew he lied, the dog.” She made a face. “At first, she was in love. It was all about how wonderful he was. He had all this money. How good-looking he was. What an incredible lover. They walked on the beach at Saint Georges and watched the sun come up. All that
khara
.”

“What happened?”

“It was an act. Once he had her, he changed. She was afraid of him. She showed me the bruises. Cigarette burns on the inside of her thighs where no one would see. One time he shoved her face into a toilet and held her under the water till she promised she would do anything he said. I told her to run. Or talk to Rana’s CIA guy, but she was too terrified. All he had to do was look at her and she would go white. She told me there was a woman, someone she thought she could trust. American.” Her eyes searched Carrie’s face, shadowed by the lightbulb in the darkness. “Was that you?”

Carrie nodded. “I failed her,” she said. “I’m sorry. I might’ve helped her, but she disappeared. I couldn’t find her.”

“She was in Doha. In Qatar. With him,” she said, spitting the words out. “I don’t know what they were doing, but before she left, she warned me to stay away. He said I’d be next.”

“So you went to ground in Bourj Hammoud? Is that why? For safety? You’re not Armenian,” Carrie said.

“The people there notice outsiders. They protect us. You won’t tell anyone?”

Carrie shook her head. “This Mohammed Siddiqi. You say he’s Iraqi?” she asked.

Marielle nodded, a grim smile on her face. “He claimed to be Qatari, but he lied.”

“How do you know?”

“My mother’s family spent time in Qatar. I asked him where he went to school. The Doha Academy on B Ring Road? Everyone who’s anyone goes there. He said yes. Liar! Everyone in Qatar knows Doha Academy is in al-Khalifa al-Jadeeda, nowhere near the B Ring. And his slang was Iraqi Arabic, not Qatari or Lebanese.”

“Do you know where he is now?”

She shook her head.

It’s a dead end. We don’t have enough, Carrie thought, casting around desperately for something else. This Mohammed was part of the attack on New York. She was sure of it.

“Were you ever together with them? Did anybody ever take any photos?” she asked.

“He didn’t want pictures. One time Dima asked me to take a snapshot of the two of them on the Corniche and before I could do anything, he took the camera out of my hand and smashed it.”