Home to Hope Mountain (Harlequin Superromance) (4 page)

“No, I’m still looking.” Adam avoided a muddy puddle in a depression between the ruts. “Have you changed your mind?”

“No one’s dropped out of the program, if that’s what you mean.” He didn’t seem the kind of man to go for alternative practices. Maybe he didn’t realize certain things about her. “I’m not a qualified psychologist, you know. I didn’t go to university, and I don’t have any letters after my name.”

“But you get results.”

“Yes, I get results,” she conceded. “Why don’t you buy her a horse? It might not fix all her problems, but it would help. Give her something to focus on besides herself.” She didn’t know what she would do if it weren’t for Shane and her horses. She’d probably need therapy herself.

“Can’t do that. We’re not staying in Hope Mountain,” Adam said. “I hope to sell Timbertop and move back to the city before Christmas.”

Good. She didn’t want him bringing his city ways and his handsome face into her woods. But if she felt like that, why did she also feel disappointed?

“Summer’s not happy about the idea,” he went on, a troubled frown creasing his forehead. “I don’t understand why, really. She’s only been here a year or so.”

“She’ll miss her friends. And maybe she’s fallen in love with the area.” He looked skeptical. Hayley shook her head. “You haven’t actually
lived
in Hope Mountain, have you? I understand you used to come out on weekends occasionally, but that’s not living here, that’s just visiting.”

He threw her a glance filled with suppressed annoyance and chagrin. Had she hit a sore spot?

Diane had thrown a divorce party last year. Hayley and Leif had been the only locals, and she’d felt uncomfortable. But Diane and her friends regularly went on trail rides, so she supposed Diane was being polite.

“Even if you don’t want to live here, Diane will be back eventually, when her mother gets better,” Hayley said.

“I’ll have to discuss it with her. She hinted before she left that she may not want to come back.”

“Seems a shame to take Summer away, though.”

Adam stopped walking and planted his hands on his hips. “Yes, but this is where my sweet, smart, sunny little girl has inexplicably gone haywire and turned dark and miserable.”

“She’s, what, about fourteen? That’s a tough age.”

“I don’t believe it’s typical teenage blues. I know I haven’t been around much, but I’m her father. I can tell something is eating away at her.”

“Losing her horse to the bushfires?” Hayley still felt the ache in her own heart when she thought of her dead horses—Ranger, Lady, Sham, Smokey and Bella. They’d been part of her family. Even after nearly a year she still missed them.

“Maybe it’s that. I don’t know. She won’t talk to me.”

“Patience,” Hayley said. “Maybe you just need time to reconnect with her, get her to trust you.”

“What do I do in the meantime when the police catch her shoplifting? Next time that might not be enough for her. She might...do anything.”

Hayley’s first instinct was to offer help. Her opinion of Adam had improved slightly. He wasn’t just looking to off-load a problem; he was genuinely concerned about his daughter. She probably could carve out a couple of hours a week for Summer if she really wanted to.

Then the bellbird called again, reminding her of Leif. She owed Adam and his daughter nothing. Let them leave Hope Mountain. What was it to her?

The creek, when they came to it, was swollen with rain and rushing, overflowing the near bank and forming a large boggy area stretching ten yards toward them. On the other side of the creek, the coursing water had carved the bank into an undercut.

“Still need that sugar?” Hayley asked.

“No worries. I’ll take my shoes off and roll up my pants.”

“I wouldn’t take my shoes off if I were you. There are broken branches and stones in among the muck. Might even be snakes.”

That gave him pause, but only for a moment. “I didn’t like these runners much anyway.” He started rolling up his jeans.

“You must really want that barbecue sauce.”

Adam startled and gave a shamefaced grin. “To tell you the truth, I almost forgot what I was after. I just knew I had a goal and had to reach it. I guess that sounds crazy to you.”

“No, not really.” She understood goals, even crazy ones. Her goal was to rebuild her house on the spot her great-grandparents homesteaded and where she’d grown up and had lived as a married woman. She was going to do it despite everyone telling her she was wasting her time and despite what little money she had.

Sell the land, her city-dwelling divorced parents said. Use the proceeds to buy a house closer to the town, or better yet, in a Melbourne suburb close to one of them. She wouldn’t consider it. So, yes, she understood a man who’d walk through muck for something he wanted.

Where she and he differed was that she would never ruin a brand-new pair of shoes. When her house had gone up in flames, so had all her possessions. She clothed herself with donations and the odd new item. With so little to her name, everything she owned was precious.

“Stay here,” Hayley said. “I’ll ride back to the house and bring the sugar to you.”

“How long will that take? I don’t want to put you out.”

“Twenty minutes or so, round trip.”

“I couldn’t ask that of you. It was my bad for not checking the pantry before I started cooking. I’ll take my lumps.”

Before he stepped into the mud, she raised her hand to stop him. “Wait. I’ll double you.”

“Beg your pardon?”

“You can ride behind me. Bo can handle it.” She’d carried an extra passenger plenty of times on the big old carthorse.

“Well, all right. Thanks.” He studied the problem. “That is one very large horse. How do I get up there?”

“Over here.” She manoeuvred Bo to a fallen log. After a couple of tries Adam hoisted himself up and swung a leg over the back of the horse. Hayley moved forward to accommodate him. “Don’t sit too far back or you’ll be on Bo’s kidneys. Have you ridden before?”

“When I was a kid, on my grandfather’s farm.” As he found his balance his hands hovered near her waist for a second before settling on his own legs.

She gave Bo an encouraging pat and nudged his sides with her heels. “Let’s go home, boy.”

Bo lifted his enormous hooves with their shaggy white fetlocks and started through the sinking mud toward the creek.

Hayley hadn’t counted on being so aware of Adam close behind her. The heat from his body warmed her back and with every lurching step of Bo’s, Adam swayed forward, his quadriceps nudging the backs of her thighs. For the first time in many months she was reminded that she was a woman and a sexual being. In close proximity was a man. A very sexy man.

It was too soon after Leif’s death to even be thinking about someone else—especially Adam. He was indirectly responsible for the fact that she didn’t have her husband to warm her bed at night, to work alongside her during the day and to share her dreams and goals. Sure, they’d had their rocky times, but Leif had changed and their marriage had been on the mend.

At the edge of the rushing stream Bo needed a few encouraging digs of her heels to keep moving. Slowly he picked his way across, and then scrambled up the steep bank, his big hooves sliding in the mud.

Hayley leaned forward, one hand gripping the mane. Adam started to slide backward. “Hang on.”

He wrapped an arm around her waist and leaned forward, reaching for his own bit of mane. His fingers dug into her just below her ribcage and his hard chest pressed against her back. “Are we having fun yet?” he said, his warm breath close to her ear.

In the midst of feeling uncomfortable about his closeness, she laughed. Bloody Adam Banks. She should have let him get his damn shoes dirty. Or she should have gone farther upstream before attempting to cross. It was her own darn fault for wanting to make this journey as short as possible.

At the top of the bank, Bo made a final surge, crashing through the tree ferns. Adam lost his grip and slid right over the horse’s rump, landing in the mud. When he scrambled to his feet, dark brown streaks covered the front of his polo shirt and his pants. Hayley hooted with laughter, then quickly covered her mouth.

Adam tried to brush off the clods but only smeared them around. “Only the truly depraved laugh at other people’s misfortunes.”

“Sometimes if you don’t laugh, you cry.”

He glanced up sharply, then smiled. “Glad I could provide you with some light entertainment.”

“Want to get back up?” she asked, hoping he’d say no.

“Thanks, but I’ll walk from here.”

“Suit yourself.” And no, she was not disappointed. Well, maybe a little. But that must only be because she truly was depraved.

All levity evaporated as they walked up the slope of the ridge. At the highest point they emerged from the untouched forest and into a stand of trees with charred trunks and bare limbs, stark reminders of the firestorm that had swept through nearly a year ago. Another fifty yards and even these blackened ghosts petered out. Then there were no trees at all. The mountain was a wasteland as far as the eye could see, down into the valley and halfway up the other side of the hill.

Adam’s steps slowed, then stopped altogether. “Holy shit.”

“No kidding,” Hayley said grimly.

He glanced back to the untouched forest a mere hundred meters away. “So how did it happen? How did your property get razed and mine escaped with barely a singed leaf?”

“A fluke of nature.”

“Tell me more. All I know is that the wind pushed the fire up the mountain.”

“That’s right.” Hayley didn’t like to relive that day. She actively tried to cast it out of her mind, but the stark landscape never let her forget. “The wind was blowing steadily from the northwest, seventy miles an hour and gusting up to ninety, ninety-five. Leif led his firefighting crew down the slope below Timbertop, clearing and back-burning to create a firebreak. During the afternoon the wind veered around to the northeast.”
Just as the Bureau of Meteorology had predicted
. “It pushed the fire in the other direction.” She swallowed. “Toward the volunteer fire crew.”

For a moment she couldn’t speak and the taut silence stretched.

“It’s okay,” Adam said. “You don’t have to talk about it. I get the picture.”

“The fire roared up the mountain like a freaking freight train,” Hayley said, barely hearing him. “Jumping the break and taking out everything in its path.... Including Leif and his crew. They...they were dead before they could retreat.”

Her halting recitation of the details stalled on the choking pain in her chest.
Breathe, just breathe
. After a few seconds she was able to go on. “The fire continued to advance this way. There was no one to stop it. My house and outbuildings were burned to the ground. Leif sent me a message about an hour before he died. He couldn’t get out. He wanted me to head into town and stay with his parents. But I couldn’t leave the horses.”

Why hadn’t Leif listened to the weather bureau and positioned the firebreak on their side of the ridge? Was it because the fire was heading toward Timbertop and he wanted to help their neighbor? It had been a judgment call. A fatal one.

Damn Leif. Always had to be the hero.

“Where were you when the fire went through?” Adam asked.

She turned her gaze toward him but she wasn’t seeing him, she was seeing the black sky and hearing the unearthly roar of the fire, breathing in the choking smoke. “I was in the dam. Shane and I got in the dam, right out in the middle where I had to stand on my tiptoes. Shane kept wanting to swim to shore. I had to hold him in my arms. Hold him up so he could breathe. There were only three inches of air between the surface of the water and the smoke. We stayed in the dam for four hours.”

Adam swore. “That must have been awful.”

“I was lucky.” He looked surprised. She went on fiercely, “When people commiserate and tell me how sorry they are for me, losing everything, I say, no, I was the lucky one. I’m still alive.” Whenever she started feeling sorry for herself she thought about Leif, caught out in the bush with no protection from the inferno racing up the mountainside.

She had the garage to live in and her horses had shelter, albeit temporary. One day, the house and stables would be rebuilt. She would have a home again.

She started Bo walking again, and soon they came to the paddock. It was black and barren all the way from here to the garage, three hundred yards on the right.

She and Adam didn’t speak again until they approached the horse shelter, a three-sided corrugated iron box. Major emerged and whickered to Bo.

“What are your horses grazing on?” Adam said. “There’s not a blade of grass in there.”

“I buy timothy-hay and have it trucked in.” It was expensive, but she was used to most of her income going toward the horses. Some days the road back to solvency and a normal life seemed like a mountain she was climbing, but there was only one way she could go—onward.

She slid off Bo, removed his bridle and replaced it with a halter before letting him into the paddock. She would brush him down later.

“Did the horses get into the dam as well?” Adam asked.

“No. When the fire got close I opened the gate and let them out. They ran around the yard for a bit and then headed into the woods.” She still had nightmares about hearing their screams as burning shards of the barn’s corrugated iron roof rained down. One had struck Asha in the neck.... “Four of the five I have left came home one by one over the next week. Blaze was found months later. The rest I never saw again.”

“Do you think they’re alive somewhere out there?”

She cut him a scathing glance. “I’m too old to believe in fairy tales and happily-ever-afters.” She’d tried to find her horses. For weeks she’d gone up to the high country, scouting the alpine meadows and talking to the ranchers and park rangers.

“Sorry,” he murmured.

There was that pity again. Pity and charity. They had to be the two worst virtues in the world. They reminded the person on the receiving end that they needed help. That they were victims.

Brushing past him, she strode toward the garage at a fast clip with Shane at her heels. “I’ll get you that sugar.”