Highland Wolf Pact (15 page)

“Ye
wanna
war!” Raife threw up his hands and stood too, a head taller than his brother.

“Not like this, I do’na.” Darrow pointed a finger at Sibyl so that everyone around the table turned their heads to look at her. “She puts all of us at risk. Ye wan’me t’speak English? I’ll say’t in plain English then! Are ye doin’ what’s right fer the pack? Or are ye doing what’s right fer yerself?”

Sibyl couldn’t breathe. She knew it was true, that her mere presence here put them all in danger. She’d tried to leave, but Raife wouldn’t let her, said it was safer here for all of them. She’d never felt so welcome anywhere before, but she also had never had a family like the wulvers. She didn’t want any of them harmed.

But if Alistair’s men had finally given up…

“What about ye, Darrow?” Raife glanced down at Sibyl and then back to his brother, eyes flashing. “Ye wan’me t’say’t plainly? Ye risked yer woman’s life and the life of yer bairn, and if it weren’t for this woman ye want ta toss out into the woods on her own,
ye’d’ve lost ’em both!”

“Raife…” Sibyl’s wide eyes met Laina’s across the table, seeing the pained look on the woman’s face.

The two men stood, face to face, eyes locked, unmoving.

“Raife, please.” She tugged his hand as she stood beside him. “Don’t.”

He wasn’t listening. A low growl came from his throat, from both of them. She imagined them leaping across the table at one another, brother against brother, tearing each other to pieces, and couldn’t stand it.

“D’ye wanna tell ’er the truth, or should I?” Raife asked his brother. Darrow reddened but did not speak, so Raife continued, his voice thundering through the cavern. “They stopped lookin’ fer her over a month ago, but ye kept yer mouth shut til now, didn’ye? Now that ye got what ye wanted outta ’er, that is. Now yer fine tossin’er out on ’er own!”

His words sunk in, deep. She felt faint.

Sibyl put her hand in Raife’s, squeezing hard.

“Tiugainn,” she whispered, pleading with him in his native tongue, begging him. She couldn’t stand another moment of this. “Tiugainn!”

He looked down, seeing her eyes brimming with tears, and the word registered in his eyes.

Come. Come on.

He turned away from his brother, away from his pack, and followed her into the tunnels.

There was nothing but silence as they made their way through the tunnel. Slowly, she heard the sound of the pack beginning to talk again, but it was far away now. She saw the light of a torch in the distance and knew there was a sentry on duty, as always, near the front of the cave.

Raife stopped outside her room, hand on the latch, looking down at her.

“I’m sorry ’bout that, lass,” he apologized softly. “Me brother overstepped ’is bounds.”

“Is it true?” Sibyl asked. “Did the MacFalons stop looking for me over a month ago?”

“Aye,” Raife admitted, frowning. “Darrow did’na tell ye because he wanted ye to find the plant.”

“And you did not tell me either.” She blinked at him. “Why?”

“Ah lass…” He sighed, shaking his head. “T’isn’t safe for ye out there, even if the MacFalons stopped lookin’. The MacFalons and the wulvers, we’ve a history…”

“I know.” Sibyl knew, more than she let on. Raife didn’t know what the wulver women had told her by the stream that day.

“Ye know?”

“The wolf pact.” She rolled her eyes when his brows went up in surprise. “I am not an idiot. I know the story. But I don’t care about that. What I want to know is…”

“Sibyl, I can’na…”

“Tiugainn,” she said softly in Gaelic. “Come.”

Raife reluctantly followed her into the room—his room, a place he hadn’t slept in over a month—shutting the door behind him. Sibyl went to the fire and fed it. The flames were low and she used a poker to stoke it, glancing over her shoulder to see Raife still standing in front of the door like a sentry.

“Tiugainn.” She said it again, holding her hand out to him. “Sit with me by the fire.”

The rug in front of it was made from lamb’s wool, soft and white and inviting. She had fallen asleep in front of the fire a few times on that rug, wrapped up in her plaid, just like a real Scot.

“Yer startin’ t’look like one of us.” Raife approached slowly, looking down at her in her shirt and plaid as she pulled her knees up, resting her chin on them. She’d gotten used to this way of living quite quickly. No more corsets. She liked going around with bare legs, even running through the valley in bare feet. It was like reliving her childhood again. “Yer even gettin' some color.”

“Just my freckles.” She rolled her eyes, patting the floor beside her. “Sit.”

Raife did as she asked, sitting next to her on the rug in the firelight. She searched his face and that faraway look in his eyes as he stared into the flames, and wondered what he was thinking.

“D’ye like it ’ere?” he asked softly. He didn’t look at her when he asked. She knew he was thinking about her mounting that horse, riding hell-bent on escape. She’d told him she felt like a prisoner, but it wasn’t true, and she felt guilty now for saying it.

“Yes,” she confessed. “It’s beautiful.”

Sometimes she was afraid to admit how much she’d grown to love it in the den. As strange and frightening as it had once been, it was now just as familiar, like home. Even her childhood home had never felt like this. Traveling through the mountain and its tunnels had become routine, and their valley, with its sheep and goats and pigs, its running stream and fields of heather, was one of her favorite places in the world.

“Bóidheach.” Raife turned his head to look at her, reaching out to touch her face. His fingers were rough against her flushed cheek. “Tha thu bóidheach.”

“No.” Sibyl felt her cheeks redden at his words, biting her lip and shaking her head. “Not me.”

“Yes, ye know those words.” He tilted her chin up when she tried to avoid his eyes. “Yer beautiful. Me bonnie lass.”

Hearing him say it made her feel dizzy and flushed, but she told herself it was the warmth of the fire that made her feel that way, not the heat of his gaze.

“Darrow was right. He’s always been right.” Her voice trembled. “I’m putting all of you in danger just by being here.”

Raife shook his head but he didn’t deny it.

“I can’t continue to risk your lives,” she said, the thought of Alistair and his men attacking the wulvers in their mountain too horrific to contemplate. She had the image in her mind of four hundred wulvers being slaughtered, blood splattered everywhere like red paint against the mountain walls, turning the stream that ran through it red. She couldn’t be responsible for that. She wouldn’t.

“Raife, will you tell me the truth?” she whispered.

“Sibyl, do’na ask this of me.” His voice was hoarse, pained.

“Please,” she begged him. “You knew Alistair and his men had stopped looking for me. A month—over a month ago!
You knew.
Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I’m weak.” Raife sighed, closing his eyes and hanging his dark head. His hair spilled across his cheek, a black waterfall, obscuring her view of his face.

“You’re the strongest man I’ve ever known,” Sibyl countered, reaching out to touch his arm.

“I can’na let ye go, lass.” He lifted his head to meet her eyes, the look in them so filled with longing it took her breath away.

“And I don’t want to go,” she confessed, swallowing, feeling tears brimming at the thought. She couldn't leave them. Couldn’t leave
him.
“But I
should
go, Raife.”

“Nuh.” His jaw tightened, eyes flashing. “Ye will’na leave me.”

His words thrilled and terrified her at the same time.

“There is a woman in a village not too far from here. She was my ladies’ maid, but she…” Sibyl swallowed, remembering. How long ago it seemed now. “She found herself in the family way while we were traveling.”

“Wit’out a family?” he guessed.

“Aye.”

“Listen t’ye.” His smile was infectious. “
Aye
.”

How much of his Scottish brogue had she picked up? Sibyl wondered, smiling at her own choice of words.

“They wanted to leave her on the side of the road.” Her face hardened when she remembered the men denying relations with Rose, as if she had been the one solely responsible for her chastity. “I found a family to take her in. I know they would take me in, too.”

“Nuh.” His brow knitted as he looked at her in the firelight. “I can’na allow it.”

“Allow it?” Her shoulders straightened and squared as she faced him. “No. You do not allow anything. You do not get a say, Raife. You are not my father. You are not my…”

He didn’t say anything as she struggled to finish the sentence and found she couldn’t.

“But I am.” Those incredible blue eyes, so bright in the firelight, sought hers. “I’m yers. I’ve been yers since the moment I first saw ye, Sibyl.”

And hadn’t she been his, from that very moment when he broke out of the underbrush, throwing her over his shoulder and carrying her out of her intended’s reach? Hadn’t she been his, ever since?

“Raife…” She whispered his name, so dear to her, a name she spoke in her mind a thousand times a day. “You’ve been right to deny me. You’re protecting your pack, your family. No matter what I feel… I can’t be yours.”

“But y’are, lass.” He traced the outline of her hand, still gripping his arm, with his index finger. “I’m yers and ye’re mine. Nothin’ can change that. N’matter wha’happens.”

“Things are so different here.” She felt a tear tremble on her lashes and she let it fall. “Wulvers get to choose who you love. But I never had a choice. I was used as a political pawn, sold by my uncle to a man who… who…”

“I’ll not let ’im hurt ye.” Raife cupped her face in his hands, turning her chin up so she was forced to look at him through the blur of tears.

“I was born a girl and not a boy,” she whispered, remembering her father’s constant lament. “Do you know what that means?”

“Aye.” He smiled, those blue eyes dancing devilishly. “I do.”

“No, you don’t,” she choked, jerking her head away from him. “You don’t understand. You’re a man—you can do what you like. I’m a woman. I only ever had one thing of value in the world to offer.”

“And what’s that?” Raife asked softly.

“My virginity.” The words hung between them, much to Sibyl’s horrible shame. Even after all of the training her father had bestowed upon her, she had, in the end, still been sold to the highest bidder as his ornament, his brood mare.

“It’s hardly yer only valuable feature,” Raife teased. She sniffed and tried not to smile at his words. “Although I would’na dismiss it outta hand.”

“But it is all that makes me valuable to
them.
To
him.
” She sneered, remembering Alistair’s snide comments, the way he’d treated her like property.

“But ye’re here now,” Raife reminded her. “And here, ye get to choose.”

“Then I choose you.” She met his eyes, knowing if she did this, there would be no going back, not ever. And she didn’t want to go back. Not anymore. She wanted this man, more than she’d ever wanted anything. He made her want to give up everything for him, to him.

“Will you take me now?” she urged, kneeling up in front of him so they were eye to eye in the firelight.

She leaned in to him, her mouth quivering as she touched her lips to his. She felt his spine stiffen, heard his gasp at the daring press of her mouth.

“Please,” she pleaded, her lips burning where they touched his. “Raife, please…”

“Believe me, lass, I want nothin’ more.” He captured her face in his hands again, searching her eyes. “But Sibyl… what ye’re askin’… wulvers mate for life. This is’na simple matter of a man takin’ yer virginity. I’d be claimin’ ye. Makin’ ye me own.”

“If you really don’t want me….” She swallowed, blinking in surprise at his words.

A simple matter?
Did he think she took it so lightly?

“Och!” He closed his eyes, pressing his forehead to hers, a pained expression on his face. “Tis not that, lass.
Tha gaol agam ort.”

“I… I don’t know…” She didn’t understand his Gaelic words.

“I love ye.”
He opened his eyes and met hers. “I love ye, Sibyl.”

His mouth took hers and all the feeling between them was caught in that kiss. Sibyl whimpered, putting her arms around his neck, spilling into his lap, unable to contain herself. Raife moaned like he was in pain when she tumbled into his arms, so eager for him she scrambled to get closer, desperate for more of the hard press of his chest against the soft give of her breasts, the way his hands roamed through her thick, red hair.

“And I want ye,” he confessed, breathless, when they parted. “But I do’na jus’ want yer maidenhood. I want
all
of ye. Yer brave heart, yer quick mind, yer very soul, lass. I would claim ye and mark ye and ye would belong to me alone. And if I can’na have that—”

“Don’t you know how much I want you?” she choked. “How much I want to be yours? Really and truly yours?”

“Ye realize what yer askin’?” His eyes were bright with the knowledge, and the fire in his gaze matched her own.

“Yes,” she whispered, knowing only that she wanted him, needed him, that more than anything, she loved him. She had never experienced anything like it before, and knew she never would again.

“On th’morrow I’ll declare ye as me mate in front of our family, our pack.” His words thrilled her to her very foundation and she trembled with anticipation in his arms. “Tonight, I claim ye as mine own.”

Finally.

Her body screamed it, her mind too, as she wrapped herself around him, giving into the feelings that had been building between them for overlong. Raife held her in his arms a long time in the firelight, kissing her lips until they were raw and swollen and she was desperate for more, something more, but she didn’t know what. She felt as if she wanted to climb inside his skin and wear him like a coat.

“Hungry lil thing,” he murmured against her mouth as she pulled at her clothes, too hot to keep wearing them. “Easy now. Lemme.”

She watched, reclining on the rug, swallowing hard as he unbuckled her leather belt, pulling it through the loops on her plaid. This caused it all to fall apart in his hands, the yards and yards of material coming away in an instant. Her Scots clothes gave no resistance. There was no corset, nor a hundred tiny buttons to grapple with. She surrendered the last bit of her clothing herself, pulling her shirt off over her head, leaving her completely nude on the rug.

“Bóidheach.” Raife’s gaze moved over her form and his hands followed, tracing the curve of her waist, the swell of her hips, the gentle slope of her thighs.

“Mine,” she whispered, reaching for his thick, leather belt, unbuckling it.

“Aye,” he whispered again as he pulled off his plaid in the dimness.

She’d never been so afraid in her life, even watching him change into a wolf, as she was when he disrobed in front of her. Looking at him, rising up stiff and erect, her breath caught in her throat. She didn’t know what to expect now that they were both naked together, whether it was from man, wolf or wulver. The stories she’d heard her ladies’ maids tell had contained a lot of innuendo but not a lot of details.

“I’m afraid,” she confessed, clinging to him as he leaned in to kiss her.