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He could not move, facing this evidence of just how wrong he’d been.

…and then Lesandurel smiled and touched his palm to his breast, bowing as one would to the seal-bearer of the family. “My Lord Jisiensire.”

“God and Lady,” Hirianthial exclaimed. “Call me not that.”

Lesandurel cocked a brow. He spoke beautifully in their tongue… but he had an accent. A Universal accent. “You are no longer the head of the family?”

“He still bears the swords,” Liolesa said, silvering the words. She was still sitting, as was her right. She was also, he discerned from her aura with some irritation, amused. “But his cousin now holds the seal.”

“Ah,” Lesandurel said. “I apologize. I have not been keeping up with affairs at home the way I should.”

“Lesandurel just joined me,” Liolesa said. “Won’t you sit, cousin? This is a conversation you should take part in anyway.”

“Are you no longer the Queen’s White Sword as well?” Lesandurel asked as he settled again.

“I no longer guard her body,” Hirianthial replied. “I appear to be helping her to guard our Body, now.” And shaded the final words in white, for purity and abstractions, to evoke a people rather than a person. He caught the edge of Liolesa’s approving glance and decided to ignore it; she was already enjoying herself too much, and if Sascha had been right he could bear some mortification to keep her from living too deeply in her anger.

“You have joined a rare brotherhood, then.” Lesandurel leaned forward to pick up a cup of coffee from the table. “So, my Queen.” He looked at her, growing somber from face to aura, a gray weight settling around him like a cloak. His words slid into shadows. “We arrive at last at that we most feared.”

“We have,” she said. “What can you give me to the task?”

“A great deal… and none of it what you need.” Lesandurel shook his head, a gesture less minute than it should have been among their own. His body language was some seamless amalgamation of Eldritch reserve and Pelted openness; Hirianthial found it mesmerizing. “I have money, my Lady. It can buy you weapons, but not people who have been trained in their use. It has bought you ships, but they are couriers, not corvettes. It can buy you intelligence—that has its utility—but the most important intelligence available you will already have access to, if the Alliance is sharing its with you…?” At her dipped chin, he sighed. “Then you have some notion of what transpires. There are some in the family who have gone into Fleet, and while they cannot say much, what they have does not inspire confidence.”

“No,” she murmured, words shadowed. “It would not.”

“I tell you true, liegeman to lady,” he said. “What I have made all these years passing was never intended for the purposes of war, but of peace. I have for you builders, my Lady, and engineers, doctors and messengers. We are positioned to solve the problems that developed during the reign of Queen Maraesa, and the ones you identified yourself later. To fight a war…” He shook his head again. “That is a matter for your alliance with the Pelted.”

“Surely there must be mercenaries,” Hirianthial said. “There have been in every culture.”

“Mercenaries you would trust with the fate of our world?” Liolesa asked, arch.

“We have few options,” he said.

“I am to know soon what our allies are willing to offer us by way of aid,” Liolesa said. “Even a single Fleet ship should be enough to deal with a pirate. And after that.…”

“And after that,” Lesandurel said. “We will build you your infrastructure, my Lady. Money cannot buy warriors. But it can buy a world fixed defenses, and with time the warriors can be trained.”

“And you?” Liolesa asked. “Will you come home?”

“If my family is permitted?” Lesandurel smiled. “Maybe. For a while.”

She laughed. “For a while.”

“A man who has centuries to nurture his investments is rich among people who don’t have that luxury.” Lesandurel had a sip of his coffee. “It is not unusual for the rich to have more than one residence.”

He was—was he?—yes. His aura sparkled with the laughter he was withholding. How could this man have such equanimity after centuries among the short-lived Pelted? Not just living among them, but living with them? Liolesa had teased Hirianthial about beginning to develop a mortal household like this distant House-cousin, but the idea had horrified him. It obviously did nothing of the sort to Lesandurel… but he also did not seem heart-lamed, or callous, to be insensible to the pain of people’s passage. Nor did he seem as angry about the condition of their world as he thought proper—”You aren’t worried,” he said suddenly. “About the pirates.”

Lesandurel paused, then set his cup down carefully and folded his hands. “No.”

“Because?” Hirianthial demanded. “You speak of the death of our people!”

“We speak of the death of the Veil,” Lesandurel said. “They are not the same things. And the world is not the people, as you well know, cousin. It is a fine world, and it would be an inconvenience to lose it, but it was not our first and need not be our last. And if I have no access to warships, what I do have access to… is lift.”

“Lift,” Hirianthial repeated, aware that Liolesa was not as surprised by this comment as he was.

“If things become that dire—if in fact, they are so dire already—then it would take very little to move all of us off the world. There are not so many of us anymore. A single colony ship would be sufficient to the task.” He tilted his head. “It would use up all the Meriaen fortune, but it could be done.”

“With pirates in orbit?” Hirianthial said. “Such a ship would not last long. Indeed, it would merely give our enemies a convenient prize to tow away.”

“They must leave orbit sometime,” Lesandurel said. “And then there will be an opportunity.”

“Too much risk,” Hirianthial murmured.

Lesandurel said, “Which has described our philosophy for most of our lives, has it not? And this has served us how?”

Liolesa held up a hand. “A matter to consider after we have put paid to the situation that besets us now.”

The chime that sounded then managed an air of diffidence, as did the Tam-illee male who entered at the Queen’s permission. Another of Lesandurel’s, from the uniform, and the foxine bowed and informed her that she was wanted by some ambassador, if she was available. The Queen rose and said to them, “I will return anon. I leave you to the discussion of the issue.”

“As if there is much left to discuss,” Lesandurel said after she’d gone. “Coffee, House-cousin?”

Hirianthial supposed that was somewhat better than ‘My Lord Jisiensire,’ which while strictly correct put far too many layers of formality between him and this man, whom he did not sense to be his to command at all. Lesandurel, he thought, belonged to the Alliance… and because of that, he dared honesty and said, “I do not believe that was the issue she left us here to discuss.”

“Ah?”

“She believes I might learn from you something of what it is to have short-lived companionship.”

Lesandurel’s ‘ah’ then was softer. He poured a second cup and offered it, and not wanting to be ungracious Hirianthial accepted it. Their auras lapped, though their fingers did not touch, and Lesandurel paused.

“You felt it?”

“That was you?” At Hirianthial’s nod, Lesandurel shook himself. “I don’t envy you that.”

“I don’t envy me it either,” Hirianthial said. Had Urise come with them? God and Lady knew the priest had needed a Medplex as badly as he had. Surely moreso, given the frailty of the elderly. And if he had come, then Hirianthial had access yet to spiritual counsel… and his lessons, which had suddenly become far more important, if they gave him a sword to use against his enemies. Liolesa’s enemies. Theresa’s enemies. His enemies.

“So why does she want us to discuss it?” Lesandurel was saying. “You have companions of your own already. You don’t need to be talked into it, as I see the matter.”

Hirianthial looked at him, really looked: at the ease of him, at the depth and layers of his aura, at the calm that lived so well with his vibrant engagement in life. There was nothing languid about Lesandurel, nothing broken and seeping. His eyes, a rare silver, were present in a way Hirianthial had yet to see among almost any of his kind. “How do you bear it?” he said, because he had to know.

“You ask me that, though you have the mien of someone who has known loss?”

“I ask you that because I have known loss, and you must have also. But you are bearing it better than I am.”

Lesandurel smiled. “Are you wed, House-cousin?”

“I—was.”

“Forgive me—”

Hirianthial lifted his fingers, just enough to still the guest. “You gave no offense.”

“I hope I continue not to,” Lesandurel said. “Have you children?”

“No.”

Lesandurel nodded. “That would be my guess, then. I bear it because I have a large family. A very large family.”

“The Tam-illee you have cultivated…?”

“Cultivated!” Lesandurel laughed. “You make it sound so premeditated. I did not intend to “cultivate” a family, House-cousin. I made a friend in a young and uncertain Tam-illee foxine when I visited Earth. And I decided to remain friends with her. She married, and then they had children, and when she died I thought…” He trailed off, then looked up at Hirianthial. “That was it, you understand. That was my moment of decision. When I buried her and thought ‘it is over.’ But then her daughter came to me asked me how it was fair, that I should abandon the children who’d grown up knowing me when they’d so lately lost their mother. And… I couldn’t.”

Hirianthial tried to imagine being confronted by Irine and Sascha’s children, did he try to leave after the death of the twins, and felt sympathy like a cramp in his heart. “You could yet have gone,” he said after a moment. “No matter their claim. To stay and give up the possibility of a wife and children of your own body—”

Lesandurel stared at him, brows lifted. “When did I say I had given up that possibility?”

“You live among outworlders, and have for centuries.”

“And I will live another four or five yet,” Lesandurel said. “Whoever said anything about giving up the thought of a wife?” He shook his head. “God, House-cousin. I have time. I fully plan to return and see if anyone will have me.” A flash of a smile then, and a ripple of merriment through his aura that shone like the silver of his gaze. “I am waiting for the Queen to remake the world in her image; that will transform me from outré exile to a very rich and very eligible bachelor. And more seriously… I will not go back until I can take this, my first family, with me. I love my Tams, Lord Hirianthial. I know them each by name, and have seen them grow and struggle and prevail, love and bear young and die, carry on and carry forth and carry through every possible hardship. If they cannot stand with me at my wedding, I will not have one.”

For a very long moment, Hirianthial said nothing. Could say nothing in response to the understanding that he had been thinking enough like an Eldritch to deny himself the company of the Alliance’s aliens… but not enough like one to realize that, if he survived, if he lived his entire span, he would have time for everything.

What he said at last was, “You did not say ‘return home.’”

“I have a home,” Lesandurel answered, quiet. “It is in the midst of my Tams. That gift Sydnie gave me, when she welcomed me into her family, and everyone who came after.” He set his cup down. “Make no mistake, Lord Hirianthial. I may return to our world to take a wife. I may even buy myself a holding there. But I will never live again on our world. I belong out here, among my own.”

Another hesitation, one he felt like a hiccup in his heart. Then he said, “Tell me about them?”

The other man smiled. “I would be glad to.”

Some hours later, after Lesandurel had left in the company of three of his foxines, Sascha found him alone there, still sitting, looking out the window. Hesitantly, the Harat-Shar said, “Long day?”

It struck him as ridiculous, a crazy humor: a long day. Days to people of his lifespan were supposed to be short, and they were, and yet he could answer honestly, “Yes.” Not because the day had been long, but because the revelations in it had been painfully vast, and he found himself troubled at how deeply he’d erred in so many ways. “Sascha, did the elder priest come with us?”

“He did,” Sascha said, still choosing his words carefully. “You want to see him? I can take you.”

“No.” Hirianthial stood. “Tomorrow, perhaps. It’s evening, by starbase time, is it not?”

“Yes….”

“Tomorrow, then. If there is a room prepared for me….”

“Well, you’ll laugh,” Sascha said, scratching his arm until the fur on it bristled.

Hirianthial glanced at him, brows lifted.

“This is your room, more or less. It’s a suite for the Queen, and she said you were family, so if you go through that door—” Pointing. “You get to your bedroom. Hers is on the opposite side.” He paused, tail sagging. “Hopefully you’re not going to find that inappropriate or something.”

“Inappropriate…” He shook his head slowly, feeling again the brush of hair against throat. “No. Once upon a time, I was a man who slept in a chamber adjacent to Liolesa’s, when I was not standing at her door. If anything, it feels like going back. And going forward.”

“How do you mean?”

“You said it once on Kerayle, arii. There’s no running from one’s problems.”

“And if I remember right,” Sascha said dryly, “You answered that it depended on whether you were running toward or away from them.”

Hirianthial paused, allowed himself a laugh. “I did, didn’t I?”

“You are good with the one-liners,” Sascha said, and added modestly, “It’s why I set myself up for them.”

He did laugh then. Then said, quieter, “I have spent almost six decades running from my problem, Sascha. And the Eldritch have spent over a thousand years running from theirs. Now all those birds are returning to the glove, and we can blame no one but ourselves for training them to it.” He shook his head again. “Well. I am done with running.”

Sascha’s ears perked. “Great. Does that mean we’re finally going to go kill the bad guys? All of them this time?”

The flare in the tigraine’s aura was like the coronal ejection of a sun. Hirianthial hesitated, caught off guard. “Are you so eager then?”

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