Harlequin Historical May 2014 - Bundle 2 of 2: Unwed and Unrepentant\Return of the Prodigal Gilvry\A Traitor's Touch (4 page)

‘Then we won't talk of it. Should I go, Cordelia?'

‘Do you want to?'

‘You know I don't, but you also know that I will.'

‘No.' She shook her head. ‘No, I don't want you to go.'

He let go her hand. He let her foot slide back on to the floor. He got to his feet and came round to the other side of the little table and pulled her upright, sliding his arms around her waist. ‘I am glad,' he said, ‘because I have never in my life wanted any woman the way I want you. Now.' And then he kissed her.

* * *

He kissed her, and the connection was elemental. She understood it, when he kissed her, this feeling of knowing, of being known.
You. You. You.
She recognised him with such a strong physical pull that she staggered. As if she had been waiting all her life for him. As if none had gone before him. As if none but him would ever matter. She could analyse and question and dissect, but she had no interest in doing any of that, no interest in establishing a conflict between her mind and her body. Her body had already won. ‘Yes,' she said, though he had not asked, ‘the answer is yes.'

She led him into the bedchamber. No words were necessary after that, though they spoke with their lips, hands, eyes. Kissing. His mouth felt as if it were made to kiss hers, hers to fit his. His kisses were like questions.
This? And this? And this?

And this,
she replied, touching her tongue to his, relishing the sharp intake of his breath in response.
And this.
She opened her mouth. His kisses deepened, his fingers tangling in her hair, his breath warm on her face.

Her hairpins scattered. She pulled at his coat. He threw it on to the floor, then kissed her again. She reached behind her to unfasten her gown. He turned her around, wrestling with the buttons and fasteners, kissing her neck, her shoulders, his breathing ragged. The gown took some time to wriggle out of, hindered and impeded by kisses. He pulled her against him when it finally fell to the floor, her bottom against his thighs. She was frustrated by the layers of her undergarments. He curved his arms around her to cup her breasts. She shuddered, wanting his skin on hers, her nipples hard, aching for his touch. He began to untie the strings of her corsets.

He cursed under his breath. She could not understand the language, which might have been Gaelic, but might have been something more colloquial. When her stays dropped to the floor, releasing her breasts with only her chemise to cover them, he turned her around. Slashes of colour on his cheeks. His eyes glittering with desire. Her own breath quickened, the knot in her belly tightened, the low throb lower down began. ‘Take them off,' she said, pulling at his waistcoat.

He discarded his own clothes quickly, efficiently, without any modesty. He was as lean and hard as she had imagined, his shoulders broader, his skin paler, the muscles beneath tensed. And he was more than ready, his erection jutting up against his stomach. Cordelia shuddered. She had never wanted anything so much as this man inside her.

He had been watching her studying him. She smiled at him then, quite deliberately, and felt an answering heat as he smiled the same smile in response. This was going to be—everything. Anything. All. Did she say it aloud? She thought it as he pulled her to him once more, and she felt the thickness of him against the apex of her thighs. His kiss was desperate now. Her own too, her mouth ravaging his, her hands clawing at his back, at his buttocks, at his flanks.

He pulled her chemise over her head. She untied the drawstrings of her pantalettes. She wore only her stockings and her garters. He swore again, this time a word she recognised, a harsh, guttural word that should have shocked her, but expressed exactly what she was feeling. Then he cupped one of her breasts in his hand, covered the nipple of the other with his mouth.

Heat, shivering,
frissons
of pleasure, tugging, connecting up. Delightful. Delicious. But almost too late. There was no time for this, not now. She pulled his face back up to hers and kissed him frantically, pressing herself against him with abandon.
Now, now, now.
‘Now!'

‘Aye. I hear you. Dear God, I hear you. Cordelia, I am so—I don't think I can wait.'

‘Iain, I know I cannot.'

He laughed. A deep, masculine laugh that vibrated against her breasts, her stomach. Then he kissed her, pulling her on to the floor because even the small distance to the bed was too much. Her arms were wrapped around his neck, her legs around his waist, as he thrust into her.

She cried out.

‘
Wheesht
yourself, these walls are thin,' he said, but he was smiling wickedly, and he thrust, and she covered her mouth to muffle her cries, and dug her heels into his buttocks and clenched around him, holding him deep inside her, and he stopped smiling and swore again, that shocking word that said exactly what it was she wanted from him, and inside her, she felt him thicken.

He thrust again. She felt her climax building. She never climaxed as easily as this, not this way, but it hadn't even occurred to her that she would not. He was sweating. His face was strained, his eyes were dark, but focused on her with an intensity that made her feel as if they were connected. Not just joined, but connected. He was inside her. She was inside him. When he kissed her, she responded with every part of her body.

‘Come with me,' he said. She had heard that before. Had pretended before. This time, there was no need to pretend. She nodded. He thrust. She held him. He pulsed high inside her. She could feel it, the spiralling, but she could still hold on to it. He thrust again. She arched up under him, tilting her body to hold him higher, and it happened, the loss of control, the fall, the clutching, pulsing, ecstasy, and she cried out, and he thrust one more time, and cried out too, pulling himself free of her at the very last moment, and she had the urge to hold him, to keep him there inside her, regardless of the consequences. Or courting them, even.

When it was over they lay panting, sweating, tangled on the floorboards, like victims of a tempest. In the aftermath, as the urgency abated, and the bliss cocooned her, Cordelia forgot about the ending. One of Iain's legs covered hers. His hand lay possessively on her stomach. He was staring up at the ceiling, his face a blank. Empty. Sadness washed over her. Something else that was different. It had never been anything other than a pleasure before. Some more pleasurable than others, but always fun, usually satisfying, in the way that a glass of wine fresh from the cellar was satisfying, or a bowl of fresh pasta eaten in the sunshine, or a walk on hot sand in bare feet.

Not like this. This was something much more elemental. Before, during, she would have given him anything not to stop. He had invaded her, seen things she did not want anyone to see on her face.
Come with me,
he had said, and she could not have done anything but what he asked. He hadn't taken her, she had given herself to him. All of herself, in a way she never had, nor ever thought she would want to. That he had, despite the power he had over her, been so careful of her too, made it somehow much worse. That she had not wanted him to be careful, that she had for one wild, fierce moment, wanted to court the consequences, frightened her.

It was as if the whole day had been a peeling back of all her layers culminating in this revelation, the core of her, the lonely inner self. Cordelia jumped to her feet, suddenly appalled at what she had done. Her dressing gown was at the top of her trunk. Pale-yellow silk embroidered with flowers, it was masculine in cut, with straight sleeves and a collar. It was one of her favourite pieces of clothing. She tightened the belt, turning to find Iain on his feet, his expression troubled.

‘I'm sorry that was so— We got carried away. I am not usually so...' He shrugged hopelessly. ‘I'm sorry, I thought it was what you wanted.'

‘I did,' she said shortly, unwilling, unable to lie. She had never been the type of woman to take pleasure in making a man feel guilty.

‘Then what's wrong?'

‘I'm tired. I have to leave early.'

‘Don't lie to me, Cordelia, and don't think you have to pander to my ego either. If it didn't work for you—though if it did not, you're a bloody good actress.'

‘It did.'
Now
she was embarrassed. After all that. She would not think of all that. Cordelia began to pick up her clothes.

Iain was already wearing his trousers, pulling on his shirt. ‘Then what is it? And don't give me the line about being tired.'

Don't give me the line.
His accent was rougher, the Lowland gruffness taking front stage. She couldn't think what to say.
I can't believe I did that,
would give him the wrong impression, though it would certainly help get him out the door, and getting him out the door was what she needed more than anything.

Whatever he read in her face, it made him look grim. Iain picked up his coat and pulled it on, stuffing his stock into the pocket. ‘So you've had your bit of rough, and now you want to be alone, is that it?'

‘No! What an appalling thing to say.'

He ignored her, pulling on his shoes.

‘Iain, that's not it.'

‘Then what?'

Fully dressed, he looked intimidating. There was a wild look in his eye that made her think of some of the Highlanders she had seen. Cordelia ran her hand through her tangled hair, coming up with a ball of fluff and a splinter of floorboard. ‘It was too much,' she admitted.

‘Are you sorry?'

‘No.'

The answer was out without needing to think. Iain sighed heavily, but he managed a lopsided smile. ‘I'm not sorry either, but my head's reeling, if you must know. You're not the only one to find it all a bit much.'

His honesty disarmed her. ‘It has been a very strange day,' she said with a faint smile. ‘Extraordinary.'

‘Cordelia.'

He touched her temple, just as he had on the docks. This time, she had to fight the impulse to pull away, for she was fairly certain he
could
read her thoughts.

‘I hope whichever direction you take, it makes you happier,' he said.

‘Oh, I'm not unhappy.'

‘I told you not to lie,' he said gently. ‘I know you don't want to hear from me again, but if there should be anything you need me for, here's where you can find me. You understand, I would not expect you to deal with any consequences alone.'

He handed her a card.

‘Thank you,' Cordelia said, ‘but I am sure...'

‘I mean it.'

‘I know.'

‘That's something,' he said. ‘Goodbye, Cordelia.'

He did not touch her. She felt an absurd, contrary desire that he would kiss her. ‘Goodbye.' She touched his temple, echoing his own gesture. ‘I hope whichever direction you take, it makes you happier too.'

He acknowledged this admission of her own state of mind with a nod. Then he turned and walked through the door. She stood where she was. The outer door opened softly, then closed. She went to the window, pulling the curtains to hide her, and looked out. The lamps were lit around the square. He emerged a few minutes later, through the main hotel entrance. She could not imagine what the night porter must have thought, and did not care. She thought he would stop, look up, even though she was careful not to let him see her, but he did not. He pulled his coat around him, and headed across the square, in the direction of the river, without looking back.

Chapter Three

Cavendish Square, London—spring 1837

I
ain's hands automatically went round the woman to stop the pair of them falling. His body recognised her before his mind caught up, before even he had a glimpse of her face, which was burrowed into his chest. ‘Cordelia.'

Blue-grey eyes, wide with the shock, met his. Her hand went to her mouth, as if to push back the words, and he remembered that same gesture, self-silencing, only the last time it had been a cry of ecstasy she had stifled after he'd warned her about the walls of the hotel being thin. Her legs had been wrapped around his waist. The hair that was now so demurely curled and primped under her bonnet had been streaming in wild disarray over her shoulders on to the floorboards. Now, she was struggling to free herself. He let her go, but blocked the doorway, a firm shake of his head telling her he'd read her thoughts.
Not a chance,
he told her. She glared at him, but retreated into the room.

‘Mr Hunter. You are a tad early.'

Lord Henry Armstrong held out his hand. Iain took it automatically, his mind racing. ‘Five minutes at most,' he replied. ‘Am I interrupting?'

It was a rhetorical question, for the atmosphere in the room was tense. The muffled sound of heated words had been audible in the hallway as he handed over his hat and gloves. And now he looked at her properly, Cordelia's bonnet was askew, her shawl dangling from one arm. Not, it seemed, escaping his arrival, but running from the man who claimed to be her father.

The man who was now bestowing upon him a smile which Iain found peculiarly irritating. Condescending. Patronising. Mendacious. One or all, it aroused all his base instincts, and made him want to punch something.

‘Cordelia,' said his lordship, ‘this is Mr Iain Hunter.'

It was the mute appeal in her eyes that kept him silent. Lady Cordelia, whom he knew as the widow, Mrs Cordelia Williamson, was obviously eager that her father should remain in ignorance of their previous acquaintance. Her father! Iain bent over the hand she extended and just touched her fingertips. The eyes were indeed the same colour as Lord Armstrong's, but he could discern no other resemblance.

‘Do sit down, Mr Hunter. And you, Cordelia.'

When he spoke to his daughter, there was a steeliness that made Iain's hackles rise. ‘I came here to discuss business,' he said. ‘I don't see that is any concern of your—your—Lady Cordelia's.'

Lord Armstrong laughed, a dry little sound like paper rustling. ‘Take a seat, Mr Hunter, and I'll explain,' he said, taking his own seat behind the desk.

Iain paid him no heed. Cordelia stood poised for flight, but he was damned if he'd let her go without an explanation. ‘You'll take the weight off your feet, Mrs—Lady Cordelia,' he said, pressing her down firmly into one of the uncomfortable-looking chairs, pulling the other closer to her, stretching out a leg casually in front of hers, just to make his message clear. She threw him a look, but he was pretty certain it was because she resented his managing her, rather than any desire to flee.

‘Mr Hunter,' Lord Armstrong said, addressing his daughter, ‘is hoping to win a contract to build steam ships for Sheikh al-Muhanna.'

‘Celia's husband!' From the tone of her voice, this was news to Cordelia. ‘You mean the prince has entrusted you to award a contract to build ships on his behalf?' she demanded of her father.

‘As you would know, if you were
au fait
with family matters,' Lord Armstrong replied pointedly, ‘my son-in-law is very ambitious for his principality. It is not simply a matter of building ships, he wishes the skills to be passed on to his own people. Since it is a well-known fact that England is at the forefront of the industry...'

‘I think you'll find that it's Scotland, actually. The Clyde to be more specific,' Iain interjected.

‘Yes, yes, we are all one country,' Lord Armstrong said with a condescending smile.

‘Aye, when it suits you.'

‘As you say.'

His lordship took a visible breath. His daughter—hell and damnation, that woman was Lord Armstrong's daughter!—sat quite still, ramrod straight, only the nervous tapping of her little boot at the hem of her gown giving her away.

‘The long and the short of it is,' Iain said, addressing Cordelia directly, ‘I've the best people for the job, and I build the best ships, so his lordship here is going to grease the diplomatic wheels and jump through all the hoops of permissions and licences on my behalf. Not to put too fine a point on it, unless I have him on my side to tell me which pockets should be lined and which pieces of paper must be signed, it doesn't matter how good my ships are, they will never be built. In return for these valuable services, your father will get a hefty fee. Isn't that right, Lord Armstrong?'

Cordelia's response to this straightforward speech was, to Iain's relief, one of glee. Lord Armstrong, who should have been put firmly in his place, had the look of a cat about to pounce.

‘Not quite right, Mr Hunter,' he said. ‘My terms have changed.'

‘I'm not giving you any more money.'

His lordship smiled. ‘I don't want
any
of your money.'

The hairs on Iain's neck stood on end, for that smile was the very opposite of benign, whatever that was. Malign? ‘You were keen enough to take it when we first talked.'

‘Since we first talked, Mr Hunter, my circumstances have changed.'

‘Be that as it may, your circumstances have nothing to do with me.'

‘On the contrary,' Lord Armstrong said. ‘In fact, I hope that in the future our circumstances will be very much—entwined.'

Iain was now thoroughly rattled. ‘I'm a plain-talking man, and I'm a plain-dealing one too. I'm not interested in playing games, your lordship, just name your price.'

‘My daughter, Mr Hunter, is my price. I wish you to ally yourself with my daughter.'

* * *

Cordelia's jaw actually dropped. It was no consolation at all to see that Iain's did the same.

Her father took advantage of their stunned silence to inform Iain of the excellent bargain he would be making. ‘Now, I accept that Cordelia here may not be as young as you would wish,' he said, ‘but she comes from excellent breeding stock and her lineage, Mr Hunter, unlike yours, is impeccable.'

As if she were a prize ewe past her prime! Cordelia felt her mouth drop further. Just when she thought she had his measure, her father surprised her. Really, he quite took her breath away. A bubble of hysterical laughter threatened to escape. She made a choking sound, quickly muffling it with her hand.

‘Our alliance will bring you benefits far beyond the contract with my son-in-law,' Lord Armstrong continued, getting into his stride. ‘Marrying into one of the oldest families in the land will give you access to my considerable experience and influence. If I say so myself...'

‘You've said more than enough. I don't want to hear any more!'

Iain's accent thickened considerably as his temper rose. It broadened even more in the heat of passion, Cordelia recalled, then wished fervently that she had not. This situation was beyond belief. Iain was on his feet, leaning over the desk. She too got up from her chair. The three of them faced each other, an oddly assorted triangle which under any other circumstances would have made her laugh.

‘Mr Hunter...'

‘Lord Armstrong, sit down and shut your mouth.'

The menace in his voice had finally registered with her father. Cordelia watched, fascinated, for she could almost see his diplomatic mind flicking through and discarding a myriad of responses. He seemed to be, for one of the very few times in his life, at a loss for words.

‘I came here to discuss contracts for steamships,' Iain continued. ‘I'm not on the hunt for a wife, and if I was, I wouldn't need you or anyone else to pick one for me.'

Iain was refusing her, which was absolutely what she wanted, so it was really rather silly of her to feel rejected, though it did give her the advantage of being able to claim that she would have complied, Cordelia thought, frowning. Not that she intended entering into a bargaining war with her father. And actually, it was insulting to be rejected so firmly and with so little consideration, especially by a man who had— With whom she had— And what's more it had been— Well, it had been memorable. Very memorable. So memorable that she had only to close her eyes to conjure up...

‘...think it for the best if we discuss it alone.'

Cordelia's eyes snapped open. Was this her cue to leave? But to her surprise, Iain was ushering her father out of his own book room, and her father was making not one sound of protest. The door closed once again, and Iain leaned his really very broad shoulders against it, smiling at her in a way that made her want to run as fast as she could in the other direction—which would be out the window on to the Cavendish Square, so that was out of the question—and at the same time rooted her to the spot.

‘What are you doing?' she demanded. ‘What did you say to my father?'

‘Weren't you listening, Mrs Williamson—or should I say Lady Cordelia?'

Corr-dee-lia.
‘Mr Hunter...'

‘Iain. It was Iain the last time we met, and given what went on between us, I'm not particularly inclined to go back to more formal terms now.'

He eased himself away from the doorway. She found herself trapped in his gaze. ‘I see no reason why we should be on any terms at all,' Cordelia said. ‘You made it very clear that you were not interested in my father's proposal.'

‘I wanted to get you alone.'

‘Oh.' Cordelia tried to back away, and her bottom encountered the desk. She folded her arms, unfolded them again and pulled off her bonnet. It was giving her a headache. She was deflated and depressed by the encounter with her father.

‘So you've a title,' Iain said. ‘Not plain missus after all, but a lady.'

He was standing right beside her now. It irked her that she was so aware of him. Not that he was in any way bulky, Iain Hunter was tall and lean. It was not his dress either. Not for this dour Scotsman the wasp-waisted coats and padded shoulders of fashion, his brown wool suit was plain, austere even, but he had no need of artificial aids to emphasise the breadth of those shoulders, and the modest cut of his trousers only drew attention to the length of his legs. She was tall, but she still had to tilt her head to meet his eyes.

She hated being put on the back foot, especially when she was not in the wrong. ‘I find that a
plain missus
attracts rather less notice than a title.' Claiming to be another man's relic also legitimised her lack of innocence, but Cordelia saw no need to point that out.

‘Your father had no idea we'd met before. I'm wondering why you were so hell-bent on not telling him.'

‘My father trades in information. I find a policy of withholding as much as I can works best.'

Iain laughed. ‘In other words, it's better to lie. It's not a policy I'd normally advocate, but in this case—I doubt the man's ever been honest with anyone in his life. Not even himself.'

‘Especially not himself. It is how he manages to be so very convincing in his mendacity,' Cordelia said with feeling.

Her cheeks were hot. There was barely a few inches between them. Beneath the tension it was still there, that—that thing between them.
Remember me. Remember me. Remember me.
She didn't want to remember. She didn't want to notice that in the year since that night, the grooves that separated his brows had deepened. She didn't want to notice that his hair was still the same shade of auburn, that he still kept it so close-cropped. She was having great difficulty regulating her breathing. She yearned for him to touch her. She would die rather than admit that. She needed to get away. Regroup. Retrench. Re-something. But first she wanted to get into bed in a dark room and pull the covers over her head and hide.

It occurred to her that he was probably just as keen to escape. Then it occurred to her that he had come to Cavendish Square expecting to conclude a very lucrative business deal and that she, inadvertently, had put a spoke in the wheel. They were both suffering at her father's hands, but Iain was utterly innocent.

‘Forget about what passed between you and me,' Cordelia said, ‘it's quite irrelevant. If I had not happened to be here when you called, this would not have happened. I am very, very sorry that I was. I am sure that when my father comes to his senses and realises that you will walk away from this contract rather than marry me...'

‘I've no intentions of walking away from this contract.'

‘Yes, I know. I mean I assumed— You told me, remember? You said that you needed new markets. I know how important this must be to you, but I merely meant you would call his bluff.'

‘Oh, I'll do that all right.'

‘Good. Excellent.' Cordelia picked up her bonnet again.

Iain took it from her and set it back down. ‘You remembered, didn't you? The minute you crashed into me, you remembered that day. That night.'

‘I said we should forget it.'

‘I haven't been able to forget. Have you?'

‘Oh, for heaven's sake. No! Are you happy now?'

‘Do you remember, I had to tell you to
wheesht?
' Iain closed the tiny space between them. His voice was soft, a whispering burr without any trace of the Lowland growl. If it were not for that look in his eyes, she would have said it was seductive. He took one of her artful curls and began to twist it round his finger. He had an artist's hands, the fingers long and delicate, though the skin was rough.

The muscles in her belly clenched. ‘You were every bit as— You enjoyed it every bit as much, as I recall.'

‘I did.' He let her curl slip from her finger, only to cup her jaw in his hand, his thumb running along the length of her bottom lip. ‘Too right I did,' he said, and covered her mouth with his.