WHILE WISHY AND I
had been talking, the twins had organised the cream of the neighbourhoodâamong them a possum-eyed charmer in a crimson dress, a tall boy on a short horse and a hotwired kelpieâinto a cricket team.
The younger of Wishy's sons was pushing a roller up and down an ant-bed pitch, the other was organising fielding practice.
âWhere's Simone?' asked Wishy.
âWhere do you reckon?' moaned Tiger Lily. âSimmie!'
Everybody's eyes turned skyward, and the pallid face of the older daughter emerged from the tree-house.
âCan't a person ever get a bit of peace and quiet around this madhouse?'
âCome on, Sim,' said her father. âCan't spend your life with your nose in a book.'
Spend her life with her nose in a book seemed to be exactly what Simone wanted to do, but she was eventually persuaded to join in the game. More or less. She took up a fielding position on the fence and lowered her book only when the ball was in her immediate vicinity. She was wearing a long blue dress that failed to conceal her spindly legs.
As guest of honour I was invited to bowl the first ball. Tiger Lily took strike, eyed me hungrily. I lobbed a gentle lollipop at herâshe was, after all, not much more than a toddlerâand she let fly with full-blooded slog that sent the ball rocketing past my ear.
âSix!' she yelled. A grin, a contemptuous, told-you-so gleam in her eyes.
The kelpie dashed off after the ball, dropped it, slobber-coated, in my hand then bounced around trying to snatch it back.
My father, the mystery spinner from Green Swamp, might not have given me much, but he had taught me how to bowl. I upped the ante with my next delivery, a googly that would have taken her off-stump if she hadn't jumped down the pitch, met it on the up and lofted it into the coolibah.
âNother six!'
Again, the dog. Again, the slobber and bounce.
I opted for a change of pace, and sent down a quicker ballâwhich was dispatched with a rattling cover drive. The ball shot across the outfield, ran up the veranda steps and startled another dog, a yellow one dozing by the door.
âHow old did you say this kid was?' I grumbled to Wishy as I walked back to bowl the next delivery.
âSeven, last time I looked. Shit!' The ball had come fizzing back down the pitch, clunked into his ankle, and ricocheted into the outer. âMaybe eightâ¦'
âWhat did you raise her on?'
âRaised herselfâCoco Pops, mainly.' He ceased hopping, rested his hands on his knees. âGetting a bit old for this bloody game.'
I decided I was too; figured it'd be safer fielding to the little monster than bowling at her. Soon afterwards I found myself diving for a ball that bounced off the pony boy, cut back at me and crash-landed in a pile of boxes and rocks by the garage door. I took a moment to collect myself. As I climbed onto my knees, I glanced at the rocks, wondering why they looked familiar.
âAlbie's rock collection,' said Loreena, who was weeding the garden nearby.
âWishy brought em in?'
âBeen at him to move the wretched thingsâbreeding place for snakes, if nothing else.'
âBe happy to move em if you could tell me where to put em,' said Wishy, coming up behind us. âNo room in the house. Couldn't just dump em in the corner like Albie did.'
As I retrieved the ball, I shifted one of the rocks aside, then paused, my attention caught by a dull green seam running through it.
âInteresting,' I commented, picking the specimen up for a closer look.
âOh?' asked Wishy.
âNative copper, I think. Dad's got a few pieces.'
âWorth anything?'
âDon't think so, but you oughta get somebody to look at the collection. Might be something useful in there.'
Wishy's eyebrows curved. âBeen hoarding this stuff all his life, Albie. Didn't give a rat's arse for what it was worthâjust interested in the geology.'
âMaybe, but you never knowâ¦Dad sells the odd thing to a dealer in Melbourne. Feller by the name of Dale Cockayne.'
âCoc
aine
?âjust what is it he deals in?'
âAnything mineralogical. Don't have a number, but if you googled himâ¦'
âWatch it!'
The ball was coming in at head height, hard and fast. I threw up a hand. Managed to deflect it back towards Wishy, who, with a reflex remarkable for a man of his age, rolled to his left and caught it a whisker from the ground.
Tiger Lily departed with a glare and a grudging admission that the catch wasn't bad. The Time Bomb swaggered to the crease, and she was worse. Just as aggressive, but more cunning, bristling with sneaky little cuts and pull shots that had us scurrying about like hamsters, until her stumps were finally rattled by one of the boys.
Simone was gradually persuaded to take a more active part in the game, although she was nowhere near as athletic as her siblings. They all seemed to make subtle allowances: when she gathered up the ball, the intensity of the game ebbed a little, when she had the bat, the bowling slowed. There was even a gentle lob from one of the brothers that fell sweetly into her hands.
I thought, as I had at the funeral, what a finely tuned unit this family wasâhow intimately they knew each other's strengths and weaknesses, how much accommodation they made for one another.
So when Simone swooped at a ball, then stumbled and lay on the ground for a moment, gasping, I wasn't surprised that they decided it was time to up stumps. Simone disappeared inside the house. The neighbourhood kids dispersed, the twins beguiled me into a game of canasta that ended up in a rugby scrum. The boys fired up a barbie under the ghost gum while Wishy and Loreena prepared dinner at the kitchen bench.
I watched them together. Unsurprised to see how well they worked: one would hand the other a knife or piece of food without looking and let go, confident that the other was there. The space between them was familiar, intuitive territory.
The meal was goodâheavy, old fashioned, heaps of spuds and onions, not a scrap of bok choy or rocket in sightâthe company better. Simone had gone missing but various members of the family disappeared from time to time bearing plates of food, most of which seemed to come straight back.
When it was time to leave, I went inside to grab my hat. As I walked out over the veranda, I came across the older daughter resting on a couchâpositioned, I noticed, in a manner that gave her a clear view of the family gathering.
I thought she was asleep, but as I slipped past, I saw that her eyes were open and focused on me.
âSee ya later, Simone.'
âBye.'
âFeeling better now?'
âMuch better, thank you. You'll have to excuse me. I'm feeling a little tired. All this heatâ¦'
There was a lantern at her head, a mosquito coil at her feet and, in her hands, a bookâwhich she self-consciously flipped over as I drew near. A natural reaction for these parts. Books tend to be regarded as enemy despatches, readers as fair game.
âWhat are you reading?'
She hesitated, cautiously turned the book over.
âEmily Dickinson,' I read, surprised. A battered, moth-eaten paperback edition, one that had done a lot of miles.
âDo you know her?' Wary.
â
Because I would not stop for death
â¦'
I broke off. They were the first words that had sprung into my head, but there was something about the sceneâthe girl's pale, hollow cheeks, the intensity with which she clutched those cut-glass meditations on mortalityâthat sent a chill through me.
âYou read a lot of poetry?' I asked.
âMainly this.'
âGuess that's enough; they don't come any better. Where'd you get it?'
The ghost of a smile. âI found itâyears agoâin a roadhouse in Longreach. In the toilet, actually. I felt guilty, taking it. I wondered if somebody hadn't left it there to inspire travellers. You know, as they set off on the journey.'
I grinned. âNah, you did the right thing. Longreach? They would have wiped their arses with it.'
She studied me. Didn't quite manage to suppress a small bubble of laughter. âYou seem to be an unusual personâ¦'
âMostly unusual persons, aren't we? When you get up close.'
âMaybe. Butâ¦I was watching, the way you look around, like you're hungry, taking everything in. Even a simple game of cricket.'
âNothing simple about cricket when your sisters are playing it.'
âOf course there isâall that clash and batter. But not you.'
âThought you were looking at your book.'
She ignored that. âIf I had to speculate, I'd say you were looking for something. I wonder what?'
I heard a throat clear behind me, turned around. Wishy was standing in the doorway, his face a rocky escarpment even Doc would have had trouble reading.
âI'll be on my way then.' I was suddenly uncomfortable.
As I stepped off the veranda, I paused, turned back to the girl on the couch.
âHey Simmieâ¦'
âEmily?'
â
I started early, took my dog, and visited the sea.
'
The gloominess of the first lines I'd thrown at her seemed an unfortunate note to leave on.
Her face became radiant. âYou'd have to start awfully early to get to the sea from Bluebush, dog or no dog.'
âWait long enough, the sea'll come to you. Your Uncle Albie knew that.'
âGood bye, Emily Tempest.'
âBe seeing you, Simone.'
Wishy walked me to my car; I almost had the feeling he was marching me to it.
âShe's a nice girl, that.'
âShe is.'
âYou've got a lovely family.'
He nodded. âI'm blessed.'
And yet, I thought to myself as I drove away. There's something there I can't quite put my finger on.
I PULLED INTO THE
police station car park, parked the Hilux next to a beautiful new police Landcruiser. It could only have been Cockburn's; any car like that coming into the region always went straight to the top.
I wasn't the vehicle's only admirer. Jukut and Nyayi, a couple of patch-and-baggy-pants boys from the Sandhill Camp, stood marvelling at it, the dazzle of its paintwork, the breadth of its technology. Even from the outside, you could tell the car had every accessory known to automotive engineering: spotties and PTO winch, snorkel, alloy wheels and bull-bar. Inside, god knew: Cockburn probably had a squash court in there.
Jukut made the mistake of pressing his nose against the glass. The moment he did so, a window in the station flew open and the senior sergeant's head appeared.
âOi! You! Get your filthy hands off that vehicle!'
The kids disappeared; some primordial guilt made me want to join them. Seconds later Cockburn himself came out, moving like a man lunging at a well-placed drop shot.
He made a careful inspection of the window, then gazed up and down the street, searching for the dirty little bastards who'd violated his space. He pulled a shammy from his pants and began polishing.
He paused; his gaze fell on my pickup. He realised I was in it.
He flushed, thrust the rag back into a pocket, strode inside.
I gave him a few minutes. He was at the front desk, animatedly chatting to Harley and Bunter. Trail and Flam, two other constables, wandered in from the cells, where they'd been depositing a couple of smack-in-the-mouth drunks.
âNew car, sarge?'
âActing superintendent now, Emily. Paperwork came through this morning.'
âCongratulations.'
âSo it's “sir” now thanks. And yes, the car came with the position. Managed to pull a few strings in Darwin. Just telling the lads: it's got the latest twin turbocharged V8 diesels. Ought to be the fastest thing on the road.'
He sounded so enthusiastic I couldn't bring myself to remind him how much of our work was off-road.
âNice. Reckon I'll ever be allowed to drive it?'
âWhen you get to acting super.'
I smiled. âShouldn't take long then. What's the latest on McGillivray?'
âCouple of months. At least.'
âHe's gone across to Queensland,' put in Griffo. âBrother's place at Nambour.'
âWell, that ought to get him back on his feetâall that saltwater and sunshine.' I turned to Cockburn. âGotta moment, boss?'
âSir.'
âRight. Sir. Wanted to talk about something.'
âAlways got a moment for you, Emily.' He glanced at the boys, shared something that wasn't quite a smile. Suddenly I felt small and outnumbered among these burly white males. âMaybe in your officeâ¦?'
He waved an arm at the room. âOpen door policyâkey to a successful team.'
âI'll remember that for the post-its. When I get to acting super.'
His eyes narrowed.
âIt's about this Green Swamp deathâ¦'
He tensed, ever so slightly, leaned back against the desk, crossed his arms. âYes, Emily?'
âI know the evidence against Wireless looks badâ¦'
âBad? Irrefutable from where I stand. But it's out of our hands now: prosecutor'll take it from here.'
I took a deep breath.
âI think we need to examine it more closely.'
âChrist, Emily, couple of miners fighting in an isolated shack, one ends up with a pick in his throat. How close do you want?'
âI'm not saying he isn't guilty, but there'sâ¦there's something wrong with the whole set-up. It just doesn't feel right.'
â
Feel
right!' The words weren't just dripping with sarcasm, they were pissing it out, like he'd punctured an artery in the spleen. âProbably didn't feel too good for the poor bastard on the other end of the pick, either.'
âThere's just too many unanswered questions.'
âUnanswered questions!' he snorted. âI can't remember a case where there's been
less
unanswered questions. There was nobody else within a bull's roar.'
âYou'd hear a bull roar from the hill behind the shack.'
âAh yes. Your killer in green cotton. Or maybe it was a dingo in a matinee jacket now?' The rest of the office shared a smirk.
It was the smile that did me.
âYep, the Territory police covered themselves in glory that time, didn't they. You want Wireless to go down like Lindy Chamberlain?' My voice kicked up a gear. âSomebody was up there spying on him. Well, why? Don't you think we oughta find out before we start cooking up a death sentence for the poor old bugger?'
Harley snorted. âDeath! He'll be out in a couple of years, soft-cock courts we gotta work with.'
I turned on him. âYou saw Wireless when they shuffled him away. He'll be the next funeral we go to.'
âFucked if I'll be going to it; still haven't forgiven the old bugger for putting us through that fuckin weather the other day.'
â
You
couldn't handle the heatâyou reckon our so-called witnesses were any better?'
Cockburn twisted his watchâand what a watch it was, all galloping hands and golden wheels. âAll you're doing, Emily, is muddying the waters. Might even stir up enough mud to get him off, Legal Aid gets wind of it. But is it going to change the basic facts? I don't think so.'
âFact's an elusive thing, this part of the world. Sir.'
He looked like something nasty had fallen out of a tree and landed in his lap. Sighed heavily, popped a stick of spearmint into his mouth, made to go. âUnless you can come up with fresh evidenceâ¦'
âMaybe I can.'
Five sets of eyes homed in on me.
âWhat?' Cockburn growled.
âDoc was researching the geology of the del Fuego Desert.'
âHe did have a lot of it piled up in his backyard.'
âThat was part of his research: the rocks were a model.'
âModel of what?'
âNot quite sure, but I do know he was investigating one theory in particularâknown as Snowball Earth.'
âSnowball?' His gaze flitted to the window, through which a glimpse of the desert beyond the town boundary could be seen. âSounds relevant.'
âHis research centred on a rock formation out west.'
âFascinating. And this provesâ¦what, exactly?'
âWell, I don't suppose it proves anything, but I went through his files, and any reference to the site or the theory has been systematically removed. You can see there was a file that hadâ¦'
âWhat do you mean, you went through his files?' Cockburn peered at me suspiciously.
I took a deep breath, wondered if I was going to be in the shit. âI went and spoke to his brother.'
Cockburn glared. âYou what!'
I was.
âHe told meâ¦'
Cockburn turned on his heels. âMy office. Now!'
I glanced back at the rest of the team, all suddenly engrossed in paperwork.
What happened to the open door policy, I wondered as he closed it behind me.
He turned to face me, his blue eyes blades of ice, his mouth taut. Motioned me to a chair.
âI'm right, thanks.' Fight or flightâboth easier on my feet.
âSiddown!'
I sat.
âLet me get this straight. Despite clear instructions to the contrary, you've been pursuing this matter on your own?'
âWell, Iâ¦'
âHarassing members of the victim's family?'
âI wouldn't call itâ¦'
âMister Ozolins isn't some drunken cobber of your old man's: he's the regional manager of a government department.'
âWhat does it matter what heâ¦'
âBlundering about in a manner which may well compromise an ongoing investigation. All of this without informing your superiors or co-operating with your colleagues in any way.' He leaned in so close I copped a blast of spearmint. âDo you have any idea at all what your role in this region is meant to be?'
âSomething to do with upholding the law?'
âYou're meant to provide liaison between us and the Aborigines. Liaison: fancy word, but I hear you got a degree.'
He'd heard wrongâstarted three, finished none, the story of my lifeâbut right now the shortcomings of my CV were the least of his concerns.
âIt means talking to people,' he continued. âTo
your
people. Explaining the law to them. Trying to persuade them not to stuff a dozen brothers into the back of the pickup truck when they're running home from the boozer. Getting the kids to go to school. Maybe even gathering a bit of dirt on which of them's responsible for the epidemic of drugs and break-ins that seems to underpin the economy of this town.' He was warming to his theme, his voice rising but tightly controlled, his face as hard and sharp as a chisel. âWhat it
doesn't
mean is sticking your bib in every time some whitefeller breaks the law north of Alice.'
âBut Iâ¦'
âYour actions could allow a killer to go free. There are protocols, procedures, points of law, none of which you know anything about.'
âProtocols? Procedures? Is that as far as you can see?' I found my mouth shooting into overdrive, something it does all too easily. âAre you a cop or a bureaucrat? If it's the latter then you oughter stay behind the desk and leave the policing to somebody else. And if you think you're a cop, maybe you could take a leaf out of your predecessor's book.'
âMy predecessor.' His nostrils stiffened. âThat would be the feller let his head get smashed in by a geriatric cripple?'
âHe dropped his guard for a moment. But he knows the job and he knows the country. Knows when to act, when to watch and wait. There are things out here you have to grow into. You and your protocols and points of lawâthere are protocols and points of law out there more subtle than the eye can see. Whitefeller eye, any rate.'
âLook Emily, you're talking black law? No worries.' He shifted the gum inside his mouth. âThat's got nothing to do withâ¦'
âBut it does. Don't ask me how or why, it just does. That Law's evolved over Christ knows how many yearsâor Christ doesn't, actually, cos it's older than He isâit affects everything.'
âOh don't give meâ¦'
âThat's what's been bugging me about this business ever since Green Swamp. That's why I've been sniffing round, why I went and spoke to the brother. Something's out of place. Something's wrong. I know it is. I can feel it.'
âI'd say everything's out of place from your perspective.'
We locked eyes. âWhat's that supposed to mean?'
âI mean when you've got a chip the size of a dump truck on your shoulder, maybe it throws your sense of perspective out a little. You're complicating a perfectly straightforward homicide investigation.'
âBunch of blokes flashing a video round a cabin? There hasn't
been
a homicide investigation.'
He rose from his seat, went over and stood by the window, put a hand on the frame. His neck pulse became visible. I could almost hear his teeth grinding. He glanced at the door, wondering how this was going down with our audience. âAre you questioning my competence?'
âI'm sure as hell questioning somethingâreckon that'd be a reasonable place to start.'
He turned, took a couple of steps towards me. âDon't think I didn't have you sussed out first time I laid eyes on you.' His voice grew hard and sharp. âAll this earth-my-mother bullshit.'
I heard myself yelling, saw his face loom large, my fist slam into the desk: never use the word âmother' to taunt somebody who hasn't got one. âFirst time you laid eyes on me? Before you even knew I existed, you mean?'
This wasn't how I'd meant the discussion to go, but right now my genes or hormones or some other unstoppable bloody force of nature wasn't giving me much choice. âColour of my skin'd slot me into the fuckin box for you, you white prick!
Sir.
' I stormed out of the office, past the studiously heads-down constables. I could sense the gawks and grins as I slammed the door.
I jumped into the pickup, hit the bitumen, charged out to the Watchtower, flat-chat. Not much chance of a speeding ticket today: every cop in the district was back there sniggering at my humiliation.
I sat in the cab glowering, fired up a smoke with trembling fingers. Scrawled Cockburn's face in the dashboard's dust, then smashed it with the palm of my hand. The smug, smarmy bastard. Deaf to anything but his protocols and points of law, his big fat car and his pissy little post-it notes, so stupidly sure that he had all the answers.
As if.
âCockburn, Cockburnâ¦' I muttered to the wind. âYou know fuck all.'
I'd been away, sure, but I knew this country: I knew its people, crazy and sane, I knew its cracked landscape. I understood the way the two intertwined.
Something was amiss. Out of place. I could feel it in my bones. I'd first suspected it that morning on the road to Green Swamp: I remembered that strange, stomach-churning sense I'd had of something moving beyond the horizon. And it was still there, buzzing away in some dim-lit corner of my brain, driving me out onto the edge.
My blood was just off the boil an hour later when I headed back to town. As I cut through the back streets, I passed the government housing area. Couldn't help but notice the new police Cruiser squatting in the driveway of the most anal house in the street: viciously manicured lawn, pesticide splatter-marks, pot plants lined up like a police academy parade. Even the driveway had been blasted with a fire hose.
Cockburn, for sure. He'd been washing the car, even though it was brand new. Venting his spleen on an automobile. That'd be right. I allowed myself a brief smile: maybe I was getting to him as much as he was getting to me.