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Authors: Mary Amato

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Tripp/
hi even. i’m texting you.

Lyla/
no way.

Tripp/
ok. I’m not.

Lyla presses
CALL
. He doesn’t answer.

She ends the call.

Three seconds later her phone rings.

“Hi,” she says, and winces. Kind of a lame way to start.

“This is Broody’s Rug and Carpet. That blasty rug you ordered is ready for pickup.”

She laughs.

“That’s my opening line,” he says. “I worked on that all night.”

“I like it. Hey, did you really like my song?” She winces again. Why did she ask that? It sounds like she’s trying to get a compliment.

“Indeed,” he says.

She smiles, her mouth making a little sound, and she wonders if he heard it. “Now it’s your turn to do a song,” she says quickly.

“I’m a formless meanderer.”

“Lame excuse.”

“I don’t sing.”

“Liar. I heard you.”

“When?”

“Wednesday. Practice room.”

“What! Were you spying? I was NOT singing.”

“You were humming along. Jacoby does that when he’s into it.”

“Are you stalking me?”

“You have a good voice. You sound like hot chocolate.”

“Your ear cilia aren’t working.”

“Ha.”

“I sound like a wounded aardvark.”

“I had an aardvark when I was young!”

“You have got to be kidding.”

“Not a real one. A small fuzzy one. It had big ears. My mom brought it back for me from some trip she took.”

“Most kids have teddy bears. Having an aardvark is so odd … it’s actually … 
un
even.”

She laughs. “I don’t know what ever happened to it. I loved that aardvark. What does an aardvark sound like anyway?”

“Like me trying to sing.”

“You’re not an aardvark; you’re a chicken.”

“You are insulting my aardvarkian ancestors.”

She laughs again. “Where are you?”

“Outside on the wall by the maple tree. Where are you?”

“Science hallway.”

“Are you coming out?” He sounds nervous.

“I have to meet Annie.”

“Okay. Talk to you later—”

“Wait. When can I pick up my blasty rug?”

He laughs.

“I want to hear your song soon,” she adds.

“Okay.”

T
RIPP’S
H
OUSE
; 6:33
P.M
.

Tripp is standing at the kitchen sink, eating leftover Chinese food out of the carton. Soy sauce spills onto the counter, and his mom wipes it up.

She tosses the sponge in the sink and carries a basket filled with small bottles of sparkling water to the dining room and sets it next to a plate of brownies.

“What are you going to do tonight?” She comes back into the kitchen and pulls the coffeepot out of the coffeemaker.

“Well, if I had my guitar …” He looks out the window. The sun is setting. The sky is drained of color, with only a hint of orange at the horizon. He wants to finish his song and practice it a thousand times until it’s good enough to record.

She rolls her eyes. “Please don’t start this now, Tripp.”

He puts down his fork. “I have gone forty-six days
without it. I am forty-six times closer to insanity.”

She fills up the pot and pours it into the coffeemaker. “You can’t see it, but that guitar has been nothing but trouble.”

“What?”

“It was okay at first, but then you started isolating yourself. Every day after school. All day Saturday and Sunday—”

“I had nothing else to do. Josh moved away.”

“Exactly. You should have been out making new friends. And then your grades started sliding and they’ve been downhill ever since. You have been using it to waste your time when—”

“Just because you don’t value music doesn’t mean I shouldn’t be able to play. I don’t tell you that I think you’re wasting your time on whatever it is you’re doing tonight.”

She groans. “This is called duty.” She flips on the coffeemaker and grabs a stack of small white napkins. “Susan signed me up to be chairperson for the Slater Creek Parkway Cleanup Committee, and I’m too nice to back out, so I’m hosting the meeting.” She walks the napkins into the dining room and calls back. “And I do value music.”

He feels a pang of guilt about the cleanup committee, but it is quickly replaced by anger. “You do not.”

She storms back into the kitchen, hand on her hip. “You think I’m a monster.”

He grabs his coat and walks past her to the front door.

“What are you doing?” she asks.

“Bike ride,” he says.

“No way.”

“I finished my homework.”

“It’s dark—”

“I have a light.” He opens the front door just as a woman is about to knock.

“Cindy!” his mom chirps. “Welcome, welcome!”

“Hi, Terry!” the woman chirps back. “Oh my Lord, is this Tripp? You’ve grown!”

“Indeed,” Tripp says. “Miraculously, the local termites have not stunted my growth.”

The woman’s laugh has a hollow ring.

“I’m going for a ride on Slater Creek Parkway,” he adds. “As a user of the bike path, I thank you in advance for your committee’s cleanup efforts.”

The woman thinks this is hilarious.

His mom fakes a smile and calls out: “Be careful and wear your helmet, Tripp.”

In the cool air, Tripp rides to the parkway, a road that follows a narrow creek with a thin strip of woods on either side. He breathes in the muddy smell of the creek and the woods, a rich smell that reminds him of his dad, and his throat closes. A thought emerges:
I wish it had been Mom instead of Dad
. As soon as he thinks it, he fears lightning will strike. It’s horrible, but true.

As he coasts down a hill, he sees a young deer in the
grassy area between the picnic tables and small parking lot, her head bent, nibbling the grass.

Tripp holds his breath and starts to brake. Farther beyond the deer, he sees an approaching car on the road. The deer raises her head, the patch of fur at her neck so white, and she looks right at Tripp. Her ears twitch. “Please don’t be spooked,” Tripp whispers.

The deer bolts away from Tripp and leaps onto the road. The car screeches and swerves. Tripp sees the flash of the deer’s tail as she makes it to the other side and disappears into the shadows of someone’s backyard. The car passes by, and the road is quiet again.

Tripp’s heart is pounding. He stands for a long minute, straddling his bike, feeling like he is the one who just escaped being hit. He wants to call Lyla and tell her what just happened, talk to her about how sad it is when you see a deer in such a crowded area because they have no place to go. He has this feeling that she would understand, but what if she thought it was strange that he called out of the blue? He rides on and, when he gets to the stoplight, turns onto the busy street. The pawnshop is just five blocks up; the guitar he noticed the last time he passed is still in the window, propped against an ugly green chair. After he locks up his bike, he walks in and asks the big bald guy behind the counter if he can see the guitar.

“You just want to play it or are you actually interested in buying?” the guy asks, without moving.

“I’m interested in buying,” Tripp says.

The guy gets it for him, and Tripp plays until the guy says it’s closing time already and he gets kicked out.

 OCTOBER 18. SATURDAY.
B
ANK OF
A
MERICA
; 10:01
A.M
.

Tripp walks into the Bank of America and looks around. He has been to the bank only two or three times his entire life, and he’s not entirely sure how it works. Four people are waiting in line to see one of the three women who are sitting behind windows. Tripp joins the line, pulling out the black book that has his account number and deposit and withdrawal forms. While he waits for his turn, his phone buzzes and he grins.

Lyla/
Hey what’s up?

Lyla texting out of the blue. Nice surprise indeed.

Tripp/
I’m at the bank.

Lyla/
Robbing it?

Tripp/
taking out money I saved. gonna buy a guitar.

Lyla/
Cool! Hey how did you learn to play if you don’t have one?

Tripp/
I have one but my mom confiscated it.

Lyla/
harsh

Tripp/
she locked it in a closet at her store.

Lyla/
steal it back

Tripp/
honking lock on it.

Lyla/
wait. won’t your mom be mad if you buy one?

Tripp/
beds are meant to hide things under

Lyla/
Good luck with that. I gotta go. I’m on a break at MYO rehearsal.

Tripp/
What’s MYO? The Merry Yogurt Organization?

Lyla/
Metz Youth Orchestra. Bye.

“Next,” the woman on the end says.

He steps up, slips the form under the glass partition, and smiles.

“Photo ID,” the teller says.

Tripp wasn’t expecting that. He pulls his school ID out of his pocket while she looks at the form and taps something into the computer. After a moment, she slips the form back to him. “Sorry, I can’t process this. It’s a minor account and the custodian”—she checks the screen—“Terry Broody, has essentially placed a freeze on it.”

“A freeze?”

“You can’t withdraw funds without her signature.”

“She can’t do that. It’s my money.”

“The way the account is set up, she can. Sorry.” She gives him a fake smile. She isn’t sorry at all.

He leaves and rides back home.

Depressed, he opens up the desk drawer in the kitchen and slips his black book back in. Her checkbook catches his eye. He takes it and hides it in the back of the freezer, underneath a bag of frozen lima beans. If she can freeze his account, he can freeze hers.

T
RIPP’S
R
OOM
; 12:47
P.M
.

October 18

I couldn’t get a guitar. My mom froze my bank account. I’m beyond mad.—Mr. Odd

October 18

I’m so sorry! Maybe you should write a song about it.

October 18

Ode to Rage. IF I HAD MY GUITAR I’D BE FINE.

October 18

You know how in that note you said, tell your parents you want to take a break from the cello? Well, there’s only my dad. My mom died when I was six. She was a cellist and she performed all over the world and she was on a flight going from one country to another and something went wrong and the airplane went down in the ocean. It was weird—there wasn’t room on that flight for her cello because of some mix-up and she had agreed to have it sent on the next flight. I remember my dad crying when the cello was delivered.

When I got older I thought the fact that the cello survived was like a sign that I was supposed to play it. When you and I first started exchanging notes, I thought we had nothing in common, but we are sort of living parallel lives. We both have one parent, and we both don’t have any brothers or sisters, and we both feel pressured even though it’s in different ways.

I think your mom is insane to take away the one thing that makes you feel sane. Why don’t they get it? It’s like the blasty rug. Okay. This is ridiculously long.—Ms. Even

October 18

It is weird how we have so much in common. One
day you had a mom and the next day you didn’t. Same with me. One day he was my normal dad and then a blood vessel inside his brain exploded and he was dead. Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and imagine my brain exploding. Do you ever have morbid thoughts?

October 18

Sometimes I imagine my cello exploding. And sometimes I look at myself in the mirror, and my own face looks like a mask to me.

October 18

When I ride the Metro, and it goes under, I stare at my reflection in the window and it’s like a dark ghost version of me is whooshing along at the exact same speed outside the train. And it’s like, “Who are you?”

Okay, here’s something else weird about me. You know how I said that the kid (Henry) had a connection with the blasty rug, like he was hearing the rug’s vibe and humming along with it? Well, I have a Vibe Theory. Ever since I can remember, I’ve felt like everything has a vibe, which I could sense. Inanimate things, like socks and pencils and stuff. Hard to explain, but I would look at a bunch of pencils and one would call out to me, “Pick me! I’m the happy pencil!”

October 18

That’s funny. I’ve always tried to hear things that I shouldn’t be able to hear. You know how dogs can hear a high-pitched whistle and we can’t? Annie just reminded me how I thought I could hear my bones grow in the fifth grade. Speaking of hearing things … Did you write a song? If so, I could come to the practice room at lunch tomorrow and you could play it for me. Okie-dokie?

October 18

I did write a song, but no okie-dokie on coming to the practice room. I’m not good at in-person stuff.

October 18

Bawk bawk.

October 18

I’m not a chicken. I’m an aardvark. Remember? I’m just finishing the lyrics. I haven’t even had a chance to play it with guitar.

October 18

Okay. Monday is an even day. You can have the
practice room at lunch, but you have to record your song and send me the MP3.

October 18

Deal.

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