âSay, “Thank you, Kevin.” ' âGet stuffed, Kevin.'
Throughout, I'd been conscious of Reka, waiting at my shoulder. She didn't fake patience very well, and the second the conversation lagged she stuck her hand out at Kevin. âHello,' she said, smiling. âI'm Reka Gordon.' Her voice had an accent I couldn't place, part upper-class English, part something that purred around the vowels. Her acting voice had been pure Royal Shakespeare Company.
Kevin's social training kicked in. He took her hand and gripped it firmly. âKevin Waldgrave. And this is Ellie.'
âWe've met,' I put in. âBriefly.'
Reka's eyes flicked toward me, then back to Kevin's face. She was directing that beautiful smile at him again, and I wondered if I'd imagined that brief glimpse of surprise and malice in her glance at me. Kevin, unusually, hadn't let go of her hand as soon as was polite. He was smiling back, looking slightly dazed.
It wasn't fair. I was doomed to be surrounded by beautiful people being beautiful at each other.
âCome on,' Iris called from the wings, and Kevin dropped Reka's hand. I thought Iris's mock frown wasn't entirely faked. âI want to see if Sarah's costume might fit you, Reka.'
âComing,' Kevin said, and led the way to the greenroom.
The reason Iris had borrowed Kevin's car became apparent, as bags and boxes disgorged from Theodore's boot and backseat. I did my bit, carrying in a long white cardboard box. It was light in my hands, and I thought it must contain something delicate, so I sat on the sagging couch with the box in my lap, balancing it over my knees. It was about the size of three of my Granny Spencer's old hatboxes stuck together, but much flatter.
The greenroom was crowded with activity. Some of the actors were already snatching up costumes, admiring the lush fabrics and darting in and out of the dressing rooms in states of undress that might have made Samia blush. Well, definitely would have. She was very careful about being covered up in front of boys.
Iris was talking into her mobile phone, looking increasingly more strained, and I shamelessly eavesdropped. âWell, of course, your exams are important. Yes, yes, but you did say . . . all right, can you just give us everything you've already organised? . . . really. No, no, that's fine. I'm sure we'll find someone to take over. Thanks for letting me know.' She snapped the phone closed and took a deep breath. âWell! Malika's quit.' She shook her head and darted into one of the dressing rooms.
âWho's Malika?' I asked the room at large.
âThe props mistress,' sighed the guy who was playing Puck. He sat down beside me, wide mouth quirking. âThis production is cursed. That's what we get for putting a first year in charge.'
âIf you didn't want a first year, why did you make Iris the director?' I asked tartly. âShe looks like she's doing a good job to me. And how old are
you
?'
He grinned and waved spindly fingers. âOh, I'm an ancient and world-wise twenty. Forgive the complaint; she's doing fine. She shouldn't even have to do all this, but the producer is useless. What's in the box?'
âAll the evils sent to plague mankind.'
âHah! Someone's a classical scholar.'
âI just like Greek myths,' I said, absurdly pleased. It was ridiculous to be so thrilled just because a uni student thought I'd said something clever. Too late, I remembered that Pandora had actually opened a jar, not a box, but he didn't seem to have noticed the slip.
Carrie waltzed over and sat in Puck's lap, wrapping one arm around his shoulders. I swallowed envy and tried not to let it show on my face. âThis is a disaster,' she moaned.
âJust a small one,' he told her. âThere's hope still.' He winked at me, and I grinned back. Carrie, reacting to either the disagreement or the wink, glared at me.
âWhat's this?' she asked, and grabbed for the box on my lap. I let her take it and she ripped the lid off to reveal a pile of costume jewellery. I reached out curiously, but she backed away. âDon't smudge them!'
âThey're plastic, Carrie,' Puck said, raising his thick eyebrows, and I decided to like him, girlfriend and all.
She hesitated, then inclined her head. âSorry. I'm a bit stressed. This damn show.' She handed the box to me and sat back in Puck's lap.
âEverything will be fine,' Iris said, appearing out of no-where like a perky jack-in-the-box. âNow, can anyone help me with props on Saturday afternoon?'
âI've got to study,' Puck said.
âMe too,' Carrie said, wriggling a little more into his lap.
Iris's shoulders bent infinitesimally. âOkay! I'm sure I can manage by myself.'
âI can probably help,' I blurted. âWhere are we going?'
âOh,
fantastic
. Just into Cathedral Square. Kevin said we can use Theodore, so it shouldn't take more than a couple of hours. Thank you so much!'
Oh,
God
. A city centre full of people looking at Iris and me and making the inevitable comparison. âSure,' I said weakly. âNo problem.'
She whirled away again. Carrie shook her head and stalked off, bullying Lysander and Demetrius into helping her carry out bags.
Puck sighed happily and got up. âShow business,' he said, and sauntered into the crowd.
Kevin came over to add my box of fake jewels to the pile in his arms. âI saw that. You'd better watch it; people might start to think you're nice.'
I gestured at the chaos â Carla trying to duct tape a bodice onto busty Hippolyta, Demetrius and Lysander trying to whip each other with rolled up scarves, Reka leaning against the wall and ignoring everything but Kevin â and screwed up my face. âHardly. Kevin, I'm not sure if you've noticed this, but you and all of your friends are insane.'
âDon't put yourself down, Ellie,' he said, shaking his head wisely. âYou need all the self-esteem you can get.'
By nine-thirty the security guard had appeared to boot us all out and Puck had laughed at three more of my jokes.
Iris was the last to leave, locking the outside door of the greenroom with her own key, and stepping carefully down the narrow flight of stairs that slanted to the mist-dampened car park. I was huddled outside Theodore, waiting for Kevin to unlock the bloody doors. Reka was hanging around too, apparently trying to get Kevin to drop her home.
âSure,' he said easily. âYou, then Iris, then Ellie and me. Where do you live?'
For the first time, that melting smile vanished while she was looking at him. âNever mind,' she said at last, putting her face back together. âIt's not a bad night. I'll walk.'
It was freezing, and wisps of fog still hung heavy in the air. Reka walked around the corner of the theatre's foundations and disappeared. Kevin looked as if he might call her back, then shrugged and finally let us into the car. I hugged my cramped knees and shivered until the ancient heater warmed up.
Iris lived fairly close to the university and to Mansfield, along one of the roads that wound about the little rivers that cut through the city. On the way, Kevin was less talkative than usual; Iris was much more so, chattering about blocking and budgets and set design. âOh, look, Ellie,' she interrupted herself, leaning over my shoulder and pointing. âThat's Riccarton Bush. Have you ever been?'
I craned to make out the rounded heads of kahikatea trees rising over the dark houses. âNo. That's the patch of original forest, right?'
âYes. Right in the middle of Christchurch. They've stuck a big wire fence around it to keep bird predators out, so it's really left as it would have been before. The family of the first settlers left it to the city government on the condition that it never be cleared.'
âThe first
white
settlers,' Kevin murmured, and took a right. The Bush dropped away behind us. âWe should go in the summer, Ellie. There's a boardwalk, it's cool.'
âWe should definitely go,' Iris agreed, and I fought the urge to say that
she
hadn't been invited. Kevin seemed to be working himself up to his promised confession, and being nasty to Iris right now would be even more than usually like kicking a cute but annoying puppy.
Sure enough, when we stopped outside Iris's neatly painted front door, Kevin offered to walk her to the door and in, shooting me a look that I had no trouble interpreting as an invitation to stay in the car with my book for company. At least he left me the keys, to drive the engine and keep the heat running.
I did more worrying than reading, biting at my already well-gnawed nails. There were so many ways this could go wrong. Iris could react to Kevin's revelation like my parents had to Magda's. She could laugh at him, or insist he must be wrong, or tell him it was just a phase, or any number of other horrible, devastating things. Kevin was the second-bravest person I knew, I reflected. I wouldn't have had the guts to do it in a thousand years.
When he returned, Kevin's face was tight and closed in the car's internal light. I could see no trace of tears in the few seconds it took him to turn off the light and brace his arms against the wheel, bending his big head into the tense darkness there.
I was horribly curious, but it could definitely wait until tomorrow. âIt's been a long day,' I said.
Kevin sat up straight. I caught the white flash of teeth as he directed half a smile at me. âYeah. Let's go home.'
First period on Friday mornings was school assembly, where the principal made announcements and handed out awards to sporting, academic, and cultural high-achievers (not me). Musically or dramatically talented students (definitely not me) were given an opportunity to perform for an audience of their bored and whispering peers. This week's performance was a skit by several fellow Year Thirteens, featuring students fearfully discussing which of the substitute teachers might be taking over their Geography class. It turned out it was only the Eyeslasher (Jeff Forbes, in a balaclava, with a knife I was betting he'd swiped from the kitchen) and they were all really relieved.
A lot of people thought this was hilarious, but I wasn't impressed. Real people with real families were dying, outside these walls. I leaned back into the uncomfortable wooden bench, trying not to crowd the people on either side of me, and wishing I hadn't eaten quite so many scrambled eggs that morning. I was relieved when we were finally allowed to stand and make our way through a limping rendition of the school song.
Second period on Friday mornings was Classics, which meant there were several good reasons to make it through assembly. I managed to snag one of the desks at the back, not too far from the best of those reasons, but my usual practice of picturing Mark Nolan with his shirt off was continually disrupted by a vague and traitorous memory. I couldn't actually remember what it was I wasn't remembering, but something about him was troubling, and it wasn't that he still hadn't washed his hair. My head started to ache again.
I forgot all about Mark when class started, and barely noticed my headache fading. Professor Gribaldi always demanded complete attention. Her braided hair was pinned into a black-and-silver crown that, in the harsh classroom lighting, assumed all the menace of a hoplite helmet. Her arms were bared to the shoulder and muscles bunched ominously under dark, smooth skin as she flung her hands about, all flowing yellow skirts and passion. I wondered, for a moment, what La Gribaldi might think of Lysander's line about ugly Ethiopes. She was Eritrean by birth, not Ethiopian, but I thought the two countries were related somehow. I made a vague attempt at chasing the memory down, but it faded when she started reading from Homer's
Odyssey
.
The original text was well beyond us. Mansfield offered Latin as a language option (mostly for the prestige; hardly anyone actually took it), but not ancient Greek, an appalling oversight that clearly enraged La Gribaldi. But she'd won the battle to use Chapman's Homer instead of a more literal translation, informing us on the first day that, âTranslation can never do more than approximate, so we shall, at least, be gloriously inaccurate.' Today, her voice became Circe's voice, her American drawl transmuted into the witch's clever seduction. Not even daydreams about Mark Nolan's eyes could intrude very long into that.