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It was The Dream, again. Same one, three nights running.

Bell Elkins didn't believe in dreams. Not the nighttime kind, anyway. Not the kind that came because you were restless and preoccupied, your mind unable to shed the burden of a problem and so the problem invaded your sleep, too, just as it invaded your conscious hours, until you solved it or learned to live with it. She didn't believe that dreams carried any particular significance. They weren't symbols or omens or portents. They weren't trying to send a message. You couldn't sift through them for clues about the future. Or for dire warnings. That, she was sure, was total crap.

But this one wouldn't go away. Wouldn't leave her alone. When she awoke on the third straight morning and realized that she'd had it again—same dream, which meant the same sticky residue from it would cling to her thoughts throughout the day—Bell was annoyed. She pushed away the comforter and sat up on the side of the bed, rubbing her eyes, rubbing her temples. Remembering.

The Dream was about a child.
Cliché 101,
she scolded herself. A woman in her mid-forties, dreaming about a child? It was so lame and predictable. The road not taken; the children never born because she was too busy with her job as prosecuting attorney for a small county in West Virginia; the bittersweet regrets; the sense of lost opportunities. Last chances. Etcetera, etcetera. Right?

Ridiculous. For one thing, she already had a child. Her daughter, Carla, was twenty years old now. She lived with Bell's ex-husband in Alexandria, Virginia, and she was a great kid, levelheaded and generous-hearted, spirited and smart. Bell talked to her several times a week.

And for another, Bell was doing exactly what she wanted to do with her life. Armed with a law degree from Georgetown, from which she'd graduated near the top of her class, she could've become a highly paid corporate lawyer in a big, interesting city; instead she was a poorly paid prosecutor in the middle of nowhere. But it was her choice. It was the kind of choice you didn't make just once. You made it over and over again, each morning when you woke up and decided to stay. Your reasons for staying might change over the years, but still: Here you were.

So what was the deal with The Dream? Three nights in a row. It was really starting to piss her off. It kept her from getting a good night's sleep—sleep she needed, because her days brimmed with challenge.

The Dream was always the same: The face of a young boy is visible through a cloudy window. He never moves. Never even blinks. He just stares. He's undersized, thin-cheeked, with a narrow forehead and a straight-line mouth. His hair is razed brutally short. He wears a dark sweater, ragged around the collar. She senses that he is in distress of some kind, and so she signals to him:
I'm coming. I'm coming.
No response. She runs to the front door and tries to enter the house, but the door is locked. She rattles the knob, pounds her fist on the wood. Nothing. She comes back around to the window, to somehow communicate to him that he needs to open the door for her, but he's gone. The space is blank.

It always ends the same way, this infuriatingly stubborn dream, this dream that wouldn't let go of her: She keeps looking for him. She goes back to hammer on the door, using both fists now, and then she returns to the window, and back to the door. Back and forth she goes, and by now she's yelling, screaming, demanding that somebody let her in so that she can check on the boy. What have they done with him? She threatens, she claws at the door, she returns to the window. She's out of breath from running. She bends over, sucking in air, releasing it. Then she stands upright again, rejuvenated, ready to storm the place. She races to the front door. Turns sideways. Lowers her right shoulder. She plunges toward the door, breaking it down with a loud splintering crack of wood. The hinges give way with a snowflake-flutter of rust.

There are no separate rooms inside. Just one small, square, empty space. She stands in the threshold, holding her throbbing shoulder, her eyes sweeping across the emptiness. No boy. No people, period. No furniture. Nothing. The only sound is her own husky, erratic breathing, in and out, in and out. She looks toward the window, the one through which she saw the boy's lonely, solemn face.

The window is boarded up from the inside. A sheet of plywood has been nailed over the space. The plywood is covered with a thick layer of dust. No one's looked out of that window for a long, long time.

And that was when she'd wake up, frantic and sweaty and confused—and aware, inexplicably, of a soreness in her right shoulder.

*   *   *

“Somebody's lookin' for you.”

By way of response to this remark, Bell Elkins aimed a thin smile at Jesse Jarvis, the postmistress of Raythune County. She didn't ask Jesse to elaborate. She knew that Jesse would, whether encouraged to do so or not. There was no one else in line, and without the press of impatient customers, Jesse might go on for a long time, mistaking Bell's silence for curiosity.

“Older fella,” the postmistress added, a gleam in her eye. Bell had dubbed this particular look the gossip-gleam. Jesse was not the only one who exhibited it regularly around here.

Bell still didn't reply. Once again, Jesse decided to interpret that not as indifference, but of an interest so profound as to have leapt beyond the provinces of speech to express it.

“Old or not, though, he was in real good shape,” Jesse said. “I mean, his hair was gray and all, but he moved like somebody lots younger. Thought maybe he was a retired astronaut, you know? Had that air about him. Like he'd been to places that the rest of us ain't.”

Bell decided not to offer the observation that the chances of a retired astronaut fetching up in Acker's Gap, West Virginia, were small. She continued to thumb through her mail while Jesse talked. Catalog, catalog, catalog, offer for credit card, catalog, bill, credit card, catalog. At what point, Bell wondered, did mail go from being something you looked forward to, something you savored, to something that left you either bored or irritated?

Her mail came to her house, of course, but if she had a minute, if things settled down at the courthouse long enough for her to leave the premises for a mind-clearing stroll, Bell sometimes walked over to the post office in the next block to collect it herself.

Jesse relished her visits. The postmistress was sixty-four years old, edging closer each day to the mandatory retirement age that frankly frightened her, meaning as it did that she'd be trapped in her house with nowhere to go, no post office to run, no responsibility for getting the mail in and out of a small Appalachian town that was wedged so tightly down in this mountain valley that not even a crowbar could likely pry it loose. White-haired, with a weary, crumpled-looking face that seemed at odds with her bright and lively eyes, Jesse loved to talk to people. If you bought a book of stamps, you'd get, along with your purchase, an update on somebody's hip replacement surgery or pending divorce; if you mailed a package, you'd get a well-considered opinion about global warming as well as the receipt for the transaction.

“And so I finally just asked him,” Jesse was saying. “Bold as brass. I said, ‘Hey, mister. Bell's our prosecuting attorney and we all think the world of her, so if you're here to make some kind of trouble, you better turn around and go back the way you came—because you'll be fighting the whole town. Not just her.' “

“So he didn't know I was prosecutor?”

“Well, see—that's the funny part. He did and he didn't. He said, ‘Oh, so she's still in office?' And I said, ‘Yeah, why wouldn't she be?' And then he said, ‘Just thought maybe she'd moved away by now.' And then I said, ‘Why would she do that?' And then he said, ‘After all that happened, figured maybe she'd had enough.' And then I said—.”

“Got the picture, Jess.” Bell scooped up the rest of her mail from the tall wooden counter. Jesse, she knew, had to stand on a stool on the other side in order to serve the customers. The post office was a very small brick building with dark wooden floors. Jesse ran the counter, and the single delivery man, Artie Minton, used his own car, a swaybacked, rust-scored white station wagon, to make his rounds.

There'd been talk, a few years ago, of shutting down this post office for good, forcing the residents to drive over to the one in Blythesburg. Fortunately, the place had been granted a reprieve. Everyone knew, though, that the clock was ticking. If the population kept dropping, the postal service would have no choice. Thus Jesse Jarvis had a two-pronged anxiety: the years creeping up on her from one side, and from the other, the deteriorating economic situation of Acker's Gap, which also threatened her position.

She didn't let the worry show. She was a merry woman, one who luxuriated in the information that came her way, hour by hour, as people stopped in at the post office and chatted.

“Well,” she said, “you be careful, Belfa. Never know about some folks.” Because Jesse perused her mail, including official correspondence, she sometimes slipped and called Bell by her formal name. Bell didn't like it, but let it go. “You heading back to the courthouse?”

“Got to stop at the bank first,” Bell answered.

When she'd first moved back to Acker's Gap seven years ago, she would've answered Jesse's inquiry with a decided snippiness: “And what the hell business is it of yours?” But she understood a few things now, like the fact that Jesse wasn't being nosy. Jesse was being Jesse. And the postmistress never hid the fact that, if another customer came in thirty seconds after Bell went out the door, the new person would be fully informed about Bell's morning plans. That's how it was around here.

The bank was two doors down. Bell had gone to Acker's Gap High School with the manager, Dot Burdette, and if the office door was open when Bell finished her business with a teller, as it was today, Dot always waved at her, beckoning her to come inside and sit down.

“Thank the Lord it's finally spring,” Dot said. She was a thin woman, sinewy, given to long tunics with matching skirts and heels, plus necklaces that ended in dangling gold pendants, all of which tended to emphasize her height. In high school she'd been serenely, untouchably popular, vastly more popular than Bell. Bell, raised in foster care, was a dark cipher, a girl whose face was absent of expression and who seemed to find her only true friendships in books. Her clothes were wrong, her hair was wrong. Dot had never acknowledged her existence. But now Bell was prosecuting attorney, and Dot acted as if she and Bell had been BFFs back then, as if they'd hung out on weekends and braided each other's hair and giggled their way through prank calls. It was a lie—but some lies, Bell knew, you simply had to find a way to live with.

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