Authors: Torey Hayden
Ghost Girl (37 page)
The cameras and video recorders become self-explanatory in light of this possibility, as does Jadie’s intense fear of having her picture taken. The soft drinks she spoke of in all likelihood would have contained drugs, in particular, muscle relaxants like Valium. This would be necessary, not only to ensure the child’s cooperation, but also to make sexual intercourse and other, more perverted, acts appear easier and more naturally occurring. And if occult-inspired scare tactics were being used, a child under the influence of drugs would not be as alert to the sleight-of-hand activities used to provide the special effects.
If child pornography were the explanation for Jadie’s experiences, it seems probable that at least one of her parents would have been directly involved, although not necessarily in committing the actual abuse. Their part may simply have been to allow the girls to be used, and this may account for Jadie’s poor recollection of where her parents were during the sessions with Miss Ellie and the others. As an organized, working group intent on turning out a product, they would not necessarily have been structured in the way Jadie perceived them. Miss Ellie may have been an actress, possibly the star, and her behavior may have been in line with the film format, rather than anything directed personally toward the girls. Or perhaps it may have been. Perhaps her sadistic inclinations were enlisted to help keep the children in line while others got on with the business of making the film.
The use of the “Dallas” character names becomes comprehensible as well in that major police departments have documented the use of cartoon character names in connection with both ritual abuse cases and pedophilic cases. Used as code names among the group, it deters discovery by making it likely that if any child involved attempts to tell an outsider, her story is more likely to be dismissed as a television-inspired fantasy. Certainly, this explanation would be a good fit in Jadie’s instance.
Much of the content of Jadie’s stories can be substantiated as typical of hard-core child pornography. Horror and occultism crop up regularly in films that combine sex and violence. The torture of children and small animals or both together is disconcertingly popular in this bleak underworld, particularly when it culminates in a sexual act. Jadie’s account of Jenny’s death and the subsequent sexual activity fulfill all these requirements. Other aberrations in sexual taste, including the use of bodily products, is also a fairly common feature of some seamier films.
As with the satanic explanation, in this theory Tashee would have to be regarded as a real child. “Snuff” films, where an individual is actually killed on camera, are mercifully uncommon, although they are regarded as the pièce de résistence for many hard-core pornography viewers. Consequently, it seems less likely in this instance that Jadie witnessed an actual murder. More likely, the murder was staged for filming purposes, and Jadie was either made to believe it genuinely happened so that her own performance would be more real, or else, as a child of six and possibly under the influence of drugs, she was unable to discern it was only acted. This explanation would give better insight into why Jadie occasionally mentioned seeing or talking to Tashee after she was supposedly murdered, because if Tashee was still alive, this would be understandable. In a similar vein, it would obviously account for the lack of criminal evidence in the police search. As to who Tashee actually was, however, that still remains firmly within the realm of speculation. Again, as in the satanic theory, she may have been an abducted child or a runaway. More likely, she would have been, like Jadie, a child willingly provided to the group.
It must be acknowledged that if hard-core pornography was responsible for Jadie’s horrific stories, those involved did have a fair insight into the darker aspects of occultism. Whether or not this contributed significantly to the content of the films is a moot point, but there is no doubt it was used to wield considerable psychological control and those using it understood the power of their subject matter. Young children, particularly those between about four and ten, are strong believers in magic. This is the age of Santa Claus, fairy tales and all the good luck/bad luck superstitions that rule childhood, and anyone who has spent much time with children of this age is only too aware of the intensity with which they believe. It is a normal developmental stage, but it is easily exploited. Adults can be terrifying enough on their own, but coupled with scary images and intimations of supernatural powers, this would be enough to ensure cooperation from the most stalwart child.
Over the course of the months that followed Jadie’s revelations, all three of these theories—the psychological, the satanic, and the pedophilic—received a good deal of attention from the professionals. Interestingly, acceptance of one explanation or another seemed to follow professional groupings, with social workers and those from mental health almost uniformly sticking to a psychological explanation, while the police and medical community tended to prefer something more concrete. The police, in particular, stuck by the satanic theory and the possibility that Tashee was a genuine murder victim.
And me? What did I believe? I don’t know. I wish I did. Some ten years on I still find this the single most harrowing case I’ve been involved with, in part because it still persistently controverts all efforts to close it. As I write the book, I so wish I could draw the kinds of satisfying conclusions that would elevate it from the inelegant real-life situation it is. Certainly, I realize a clear-cut climax and resolution would make it a much better book. Unfortunately, it would also make it fiction.
Having spent all those afternoons listening to Jadie talk in that quiet, matter-of-fact manner of hers, I find it impossible to discount all reality behind her stories. Intuitively, I feel those people must have been there in some form and must have committed at least some of those acts. However farfetched the accounts were, they
felt
real. On the other hand, all three theories assault my common sense on some level. The last, that Jadie was a victim of organized pedophiles, provides the most comprehensive answer for me. Even so, I cannot fully accept this nor fully discount the others.
What was never in doubt, however, was the fact that something
was
wrong, something serious enough to create emotional disturbance, not only in Jadie, but also eventually in Amber. It was obvious that in spite of confusing information and lack of substantial evidence, something had to be done. My loyalties, of course, lay with Jadie, and my first concern was to see her and her sisters in a safe environment. On the other hand, it was equally paramount at the stage when the girls were taken into foster care that the rights of all parties be protected, most especially in light of the fact that we had no direct evidence that the people we were accusing were the perpetrators.
One of the most difficult problems we had in dealing with this case was the potentially sensationalistic nature of much of the information. This made the media’s, and ultimately the public’s, voyeuristic curiosity a major threat, because while we, as professionals, may have been overly reluctant to acknowledge the possibility of occult-related abuse, the media was overenthusiastic. This had a twofold effect. First, it tended to frighten the more conservative professionals into rigidly maintaining their view that satanism belonged in the realm of bad novels and horror films and could not possibly turn up as the explanation of a real-life situation. Concerned particularly with the increase in right-wing, fundamentalist attitudes, they feared we would be seeding dangerously fertile grounds if, as professionals, we were seen to discuss such a topic seriously, and this could have long-term effects on the public’s perceptions of mental illness. Second, the presence of a voracious media brought fear to all of us regarding a witchhunt, not only figuratively, but literally. Jadie’s parents deserved the inalienable right of innocence until proven guilty, and, equally important, a fair trial. However, in the black-and-white world of reporting, good copy is everything. So is reader/viewer draw. Bias often isn’t. A young, physically attractive child full of gory tales of torture, murder, and sex is irresistible prey. So, while Arkie and I had parted ways in our thinking on Jadie’s case, I continued to respect the vehemence with which she defended Jadie’s parents. Sensing the potential for hysteria, Arkie was terrified that we could create a new Salem, and I feel her fear was well justified.
The investigation into Jadie’s disclosures continued actively for well over six months, during which time the police pursued all lines open to them. Social Services arranged for both Jadie and Amber to be seen on a regular basis by Phyllis Ruiz, the child psychiatrist from the Falls River mental health clinic, and eventually, both girls were hospitalized on a children’s psychiatric unit in the city to allow for further assessment in an effort to better understand their situation. I returned to my class in Pecking, although I too continued to see Jadie regularly out of school hours.
Jadie stuck by her stories. While hospitalized, she formed a close relationship with one of the therapists on the children’s unit and told this woman almost verbatim several of the incidents she’d told me. Amber, on the other hand, deteriorated during the course of the hospitalization. Confused and extremely unhappy, Amber seemed to suffer more than either of her sisters in the aftermath of Jadie’s disclosures. She coped by blocking out much of what was unpleasant to her, which made working with her at the time difficult, and has resulted in her having virtually no recollection of that period. One is left to wonder, of course, how much else she has chosen to forget.
Despite their efforts, in the end the police were unable to turn up any hard evidence to support Jadie’s accounts. Such things as the cat skeleton, which Lindy and I and several others had come to regard as “Jenny,” could be considered only circumstantial evidence, as there was no way to link it to the cat Jadie had talked about. Mr. Ekdahl maintained he’d found the cat run over in the road, and there were enough broken bones in the skeleton to support this. While the idea of collecting a dead cat in such circumstances, then taking it home, cleaning the bones and reassembling the skeleton struck most of us as a highly unsavory pastime, it was hardly illegal.
Understandably, this outcome left many of us feeling deeply frustrated. In believing a crime had been committed, and I think all of us did, whether it was straightforward child abuse or something more sinister, the desire to see justice done was strong. However, life often doesn’t work out according to how we think it should, so we needed to be satisfied with smaller gains. Still, we
did
gain. Through our efforts, all three girls were removed from the home, and, we hoped, removed from further trauma. Jadie, in particular, blossomed while in foster care, becoming more open and settled, which enabled her to return successfully to a regular school program. When the Ekdahls petitioned to have Jadie returned to them eighteen months later, Social Services felt it would be unwise to disrupt her newfound stability and stated it would be better if Jadie remained in foster care. The Ekdahls did not challenge this. A few years later, our actions were further justified when Mr. Ekdahl was arrested and convicted of molesting an eight-year-old schoolgirl near his home. He is now in prison. Jadie, Amber, and Sapphire all now live in permanent foster homes.
Whatever the past, Jadie is now doing admirably. Almost twenty, she has been living for more than six years with her current foster family and this she considers her home. By choice, she has no contact with either of her natural parents, although she does remain close to her two sisters, who both live in separate foster homes nearby. By the time Jadie had joined her current foster family, she was attending school with no special education support whatsoever. An able student, she soared academically, going through high school in the top ten percent of her class. She is now attending a large Eastern university and plans to eventually pursue an academic career, most likely in English literature. An unusually attractive young woman with her dark hair and blue eyes, she shows no indication of her former physical problems, other than a slight stoop. Indeed, when I look at her now, it’s hard to remember the shrunken, silent Jadie of long ago. If the wind catches her hair, which is still long and still a bit unruly, I’ll see the ghost of her, but that’s all. The real Jadie’s far too busy getting on with her life.
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t was a hodgepodge setup, that classroom, not unlike the rest of my life at the time. The room was huge, a cavernous old turn-of-the-century affair with a twelve-foot-high ceiling and magnificent large windows that looked out on absolutely nothing worth seeing: a brick wall and the chimney stack of the heating plant next door. A hefty chunk of the room had been partitioned off with gray steel industrial shelving units, used to store the school district’s staff library. The L-shaped area that was left, was mine. Windows ran the length of the wide, long arm of the L, where the chairs and worktable were; the narrow, shorter arm of the L contained the chalkboard on one wall and the door at the far end. It was an adequate amount of space; I had taught in considerably more cramped conditions, but it was a quirky arrangement. The blackboard was useless because it couldn’t be seen from the work area. And short of standing like a sentry at the junction of the two arms of the L, I could not monitor the door. Most eccentric, however, was the district’s decision to combine a classroom for disturbed children with a staff library.
This was to be the first official self-contained classroom in the district for E.D.—emotionally disturbed—children since the mainstreaming law had come into existence back in the seventies. I was called a consultant resource person in my job description; the children were termed behaviorally disordered; and the classroom was known, on paper, only as The Center, but we’d come full circle. For me, walking back into the schoolroom that late August morning, having been gone from teaching almost six years, had provoked a sense of intense déjà vu. It seemed simultaneously as if I had been away forever and yet had never left at all.
I hadn’t meant to be teaching again. I’d been abroad for almost two years, working full time as a writer, and I intended to return to my life in Wales, to my stone cottage, my dog and my Scottish fiancé. But family matters had brought me home, and then I’d gotten embroiled in the interminable red tape involved with gaining a permanent British visa. Every conceivable problem cropped up, from lost bank records to closed consulates, and one month’s wait stretched out to three and then four, with no clear prospect of the visa’s arrival. Disconcerted and annoyed, I traveled among friends and family.
A friend of a friend rang me one afternoon. I’d never met her, but she’d heard of me, she said. And she’d heard about my problem. They had a problem of their own, it seemed, and she was wondering if maybe we couldn’t help one another out. One of their senior special education teachers had been taken unexpectedly and seriously ill. There were only ten days left before the beginning of the new school year, and they had no immediate recourse to another special education teacher. Would I be interested in some substitute teaching?
No, I’d said immediately. I was waiting for this stupid visa. If it came through, I wanted to be able to leave instantly. But the woman wasn’t easily put off. Think about it, she said. If my visa did come through early, I
could
leave. They could find another substitute, if necessary. But otherwise, it would be a good way to spend my time. Just think about it, she urged.
Still I’d said no, but by the time the Director of Special Education contacted me, I had mellowed to the idea. Okay, I said. Why not?
Sitting there amid the paraphernalia accumulated for the start of another school year, I stared out the window at the smokestack, dull and gray in the summer sunshine. I was coming to the nettling conclusion that I wasn’t a very well directed sort of person. I didn’t have a career so much as a series of collisions with interesting opportunities. After ages away from teaching, an abortive Ph.D. attempt, several years in private research, a spell as a clinical psychologist, and time abroad spent writing, here I was again, sitting at a table converted by clutter into my teacher’s desk. I enjoyed such unpredictability and diversity; indeed, I thrived on it. But I was also growing increasingly sensitive to how capricious my lifestyle actually was.
A knock on the door brought me sharply out of my thoughts.
“Torey?” a voice called. I couldn’t see who it was from where I was sitting, so I rose. A secretary from the front office had her head around the door. “One of your kids has arrived,” she said. “The parents are in the front office.”
The old building was no longer used as a school, but rather it housed the district administration offices, most of which were on the ground floor. I had the entire upper floor to myself as the rest of the rooms were used only for storage. In fact, there were only two functional classrooms in the whole building, mine and that of the full-day program for educable retarded preschoolers two floors below, in the basement. So the halls were hauntingly quiet on this first day of school.
I followed the secretary down to the large main office, alive with clacking typewriters and cluttering word processors. A man and a woman were standing in front of the chest-high barrier that served as a reception desk. They would have been a remarkable-looking couple in any circumstance. The man must have been at least seven feet tall, because I, at almost five feet ten inches, did not even reach his shoulder. But in spite of his size, he was soft and delicate looking, with gray hair in loose, tousled curls, like a child’s. He appeared to be in his late fifties, and although not particularly handsome, he was attractive in the way aging men are, an attractiveness born more of confidence than anything physical.
The woman, who looked to be only in her thirties at the most, was startlingly beautiful. Indeed, I had never seen anyone up close who looked like she did. She was tall and angular, with chiseled cheekbones and a Kirk Douglas cleft in her chin. Her eyes were pale green, genuinely green, like cat’s eyes, only lighter, and quite prominent, giving her an intense, almost arrogant appearance. Her hair was a dark, tawny blond and very, very long. Although straight, it was thick and unruly, flowing about her like a lion’s mane. Hers was an elegant, assured kind of beauty, the sort one doesn’t usually find outside fashion magazines, and it seemed rather out of place in real life, but it had an arresting effect on me.
“Good morning,” I said and extended my hand. “I’m Torey Hayden.”
The man reached forward and gave my hand a quick, damp shake. The woman didn’t move. She was very casually dressed and made up, but there was nothing casual about her demeanor at all. Every muscle was taut. It made her beauty more impressive. She bristled with beauty, keeping it drawn up around her like a cloak.
Silence followed. I didn’t have a clue as to who these two were.
“You’ll have to excuse me,” I said. “Mrs. Adams, who was supposed to be teaching this class, has gone very unexpectedly into hospital. I’m her replacement, and I just took this job a few days ago. I’ve got to admit—”
“We can’t get her out of the car,” the woman blurted.
“Oh.”
The man was glancing around, as if not paying particular attention. The woman regarded me intently. While her expression was not precisely hostile, neither was it very friendly. She studied me with the kind of unabashed scrutiny not usually tolerated among adults.
“Let’s just leave it for today,” the man said, still gazing off. Languidly, he looked down at me. “Perhaps she’ll feel more like it tomorrow.”
Without any warning, the woman’s eyes filled with tears. She blushed brilliantly, and all the muscles tightened along her jaw. “
No
,” she said through gritted teeth. Then she turned abruptly and bolted out of the office.
The man shifted his feet uneasily, and I half expected him to take off too, but he didn’t. “My wife’s a bit upset about this,” he said softly.
“So I see.”
A pause. The man looked down at me. He had blue, watery eyes. “I think we should just leave it.”
“Why don’t I come down and help? I’m quite used to this sort of thing. It’s pretty normal. New teacher, new room, all that.”
He shook his head. “No, let’s just leave it. I’ll bring her in tomorrow.” And he turned and left before I could say more.
I gazed in stunned disbelief at the empty doorway. Turning, I saw the three secretaries watching me. We all burst out laughing, for lack of a better reaction.
“Can you believe that?” I asked. “I don’t even know who they were.”
“The Considynes,” replied one of the secretaries. “They’re our answer to
Dallas
.”
My second student arrived shortly after I returned to the room. Mariana Gilchrist. With her was her mother, a young woman who couldn’t have been more than twenty-five. Her hair was cut short and greased into thin, wet-looking spikes that stood up all over her head. Her eye makeup, a combination of heavy liner and pearly shadow, made her look like Cleopatra. By contrast, Mariana, in a red tartan jumper over a frilly white blouse, seemed sweetly old-fashioned.
“Am I the first kid here?” she asked. “Oh, goody. I get everything first. I get to pick everything I want first.” She pulled away from her mother.
“You behave yourself in here,” Mrs. Gilchrist said. “You got to behave. This here lady’ll make you. You can’t go effing around in here like in that other class.”
“Where’s my place?” Mariana was asking. She was at the far end of the room already. “Where’s my place going to be?”
“I’m going now,” her mother said.
“Are these toys for us kids?” Mariana had opened the cupboard under the sink and was hauling everything out.
“Good-bye. I’m going now. I’m leaving you in this here place.”
The girl never looked up.
Mariana was eight and came with the kind of profile that was almost a cliché in this sort of classroom: borderline IQ, short attention span, overaggressive. She also had a history of precocious sexual behavior. Her entire short career at school had been spent in one special setting or another, and she had achieved virtually nothing. After three years, she could neither read nor write and could understand only the most basic math.
“Where’s the other kids at?” Mariana asked suddenly. She rose, leaving a litter of puzzles, games and art materials behind her on the floor. “Who else is going to be in here? Will there be any girls?”
“Yes, one. There’re only going to be three of you in here to start with, although I expect we will have others join us as we go along.”
“What’s the other girl’s name? Is she eight too?”
“She’s seven, and her name is Leslie.”
“How soon’s she going to be eight? When’s her birthday?”
“Next spring.”
“Well, we’ll probably be best friends anyway, even if she is a bit young for me.” Mariana took up a pencil and tried to drill a little hole into the Formica tabletop.
The door banged, and my third student entered.
I was well prepared for Dirkie. They had all told me about Dirkie. He was eleven and had spent virtually all his life in institutions. He had had an early childhood history too horrible to bear thinking about, a litany of abandonments, abuse and bizarre family acts. Then had come a long spell in the state mental hospital. Eighteen months earlier, a husband-and-wife team of psychologists had met Dirkie while they were working at the state hospital. They had fallen in love with him, with his curiously lovable ways, and had decided to become his foster parents in an attempt to give him some chance at a normal family life. Dirkie’s problems, however, were rather more than love alone could conquer. He was diagnosed as having childhood schizophrenia and had a very poor prognosis for improvement. As a consequence of his truly amazing assortment of peculiar behaviors, he had not managed to survive the previous school year in a regular classroom and had ended up being taught at home.
Both Dirkie’s foster parents came with him that morning, dragging Dirkie between them. He struggled and screamed. “No! No! No! Don’t make me go in there! No! Help!” he yelled, nonstop.
I held the door open. Once inside, he broke free and bolted across the room. “Hoo-hoo-hoo!” he squealed with sudden glee, and leaped up on top of the table. Mariana’s eyes grew wide with surprise.
“Come down from there, please, Dirkie,” his foster mother said in a soft, patient tone. “Tables aren’t for standing on, remember. Come down now.”
“Hoo-hoo-hoo!” He was down from the table and under it.
I smiled at his foster parents. I felt an instant empathetic fondness for them. “I think we’ll be all right.”
The woman smiled back, and I saw her relief. I couldn’t tell if it came from my confidence that we really would be all right or if it was the prospect of being free of Dirkie for six hours.
After his parents left, Dirkie remained under the table and hooted like a demented monkey.
“That kid’s crazy,” Mariana said seriously. “Did you know that? Did you know that kid was going to be crazy?”
I nodded.
“The other one’s not going to be crazy too, is she? The girl, I mean. The girl’s not going to be crazy too? She’s going to be my best friend.”
“I haven’t met her yet, so I don’t know. But she’s not going to have Dirkie’s problems, if that’s what you mean. Everyone’s different.”
“Dirkie?
Dirkie?
Gad, what a stupid name. No wonder he’s crazy. Hey, Turkey-Dirkie, how you doing under there?”
“Mariana …”
“Dirkie-Turkey. Dirkie-Turkey.” Then suddenly she stopped short. She dropped down on her hands and knees to see Dirkie better through the tangle of chairs. “Gad. Look what he’s doing. Teacher. He’s rubbing hisself. Look, he’s humping. He’s humping that chair leg.” She leaped to her feet.
