Forsaken (2 page)

My blue-jean cutoffs were short and tight, and I pried free a tube of lotion that was wedged into my front pocket. I raised one foot at a time to the edge of the toilet seat and did my best to brush the dust from my legs. Then I spread the lotion over them. The ride may have turned me into a dust ball, but I was determined at least to be a soft dust ball with a coconut scent.

Before leaving I took one last look in my little corner of mirror. The hair was auburn, the dust was beige. I gave the hair a shake, sending tiny flecks floating through a slash of light that cut the room diagonally from a hole in the roof. Someone pounded on the door again. I turned away from the mirror.

“Okay, okay, I’m coming!”

When I pulled open the door and stepped into the light, I shaded my eyes and blinked to clear away the spots. All that I could think about was the little air conditioner in the front window and how great it would feel when I got inside. That’s probably why I was completely unprepared when a man’s hand reached from beside the door and clamped hard onto my wrist.

AFTER ABOUT A THOUSAND hours of self-defense classes, I expected my training would kick in when I needed it, and it did. I yanked my arm down, pulling the man with it. Pivoting on my left foot, I swung my fist in a roundhouse hammer chop. Just before it landed on his ear, his other hand shot up and caught my arm.

“Knock it off, Taylor,” he whispered. It was Dad.

I pulled my arms free. “Are you trying to give me a heart attack?”

“Would you keep it down?”

I lowered my voice. “Okay, but why are we whispering?”

He looked over his shoulder, then back at me. “I think someone is about to rob the gas station.”

“What gas station?”

He squinted at me. Without a word, he turned and pointed at the low row of faded red gas pumps next to which we’d parked just a few minutes earlier.

I got the point, but I do think that a lot of other people might have said something just as dumb under the circumstances. I shrugged. “Okay,
this
gas station. But why do you think someone’s going to rob it?”

He put his finger to his mouth. “Shhh! I told you to keep it down.” His hand trembled. He lowered it and shoved it into his pocket. The trembling didn’t embarrass him, at least not around me. He may well have been afraid—he never pretended to be a superhero—but fear didn’t make his hands shake. This was child’s play compared to what he went through in the Special Forces. No, the trembling had been there for more than a decade, a function of too much stress and even more alcohol. When the drinking finally stopped, the trembling stuck around, sort of a perpetual tickler for the twelve-step program.

“It’s just a hunch,” he said. Two guys—a strange pair—a huge one dressed like a preppy and a little fire plug who looks like he got drunk in a tattoo parlor. Preppy was doing the talking. Tattoo Man just stood back and watched. He’s got snake eyes, the little one. The owner’s an older woman. She seemed scared to death.”

“What did you do?”

“I walked out. What did you expect me to do, throw a pack of beef jerky at them?”

A drop of sweat worked its way down the back of my neck. I reached beneath my hair and swiped at it. “So what do you want to do now?”

“I’m going back in there to see what’s going on. I want you to stay out of this except to back me up. It’s probably just my imagination anyway. Here’s what we’ll do. You go to the truck and get the shotgun. I’ll go into the station. You just come to the door nice and easy, carrying the shotgun. They sell ammo in there, so I suspect people bring their guns in all the time. You’re just buying some shells. Keep your eyes on me, and don’t come into the store. Just stand in the doorway.”

“You want me to carry a shotgun into the gas station? You don’t have to bring a gun with you to buy shells. The owner will think
I’m
robbing her.”

“If your point is that the plan’s not perfect, I’m sorry that I forgot to bring my instruction manual for busting up a robbery. Have you got a better idea?”

I brushed my hair behind my ears and stared across the road. No inspiration there. Nothing but brown flatness stretching to the horizon. I shrugged.

“Okay, then, would you please just do as I say?”

“Fine, but if something happens, do you really expect me to shoot somebody?”

“Absolutely not! If something happens I expect you to turn around and run for the truck. Let me handle it. The point to all of this is to
prevent
something from happening. You’re posing with the gun, that’s all.”

“Speaking of guns, do they have any?”

“I don’t know. Now, go get the shotgun.”

I have to admit that I found the whole thing exciting. For some reason, probably the invincibility of youth, I didn’t sense much danger. I suppose I just had so much confidence in Dad that I couldn’t imagine anything happening that he couldn’t handle. I walked quickly across the crusty parking area and past the gas pumps.

Reaching into the bed of the truck, I grabbed our old Browning Over/Under. Here’s where I made my first mistake. In hindsight, though, I’m glad I didn’t do everything perfectly. It provided the last big laugh that my father and I ever had together.

You see, being the daughter of a Special Forces guy is not the same as being a Special Forces guy. I proved the point by opening the breech of the shotgun and draping the barrel over my forearm as I walked toward the door of the station. It was a gun safety point that my dad had drilled into me since I was big enough to hold a weapon. A gun with an open breech can’t fire. Unfortunately, the whole world can see that it’s not loaded. Given more time to think, it might have occurred to me that that wasn’t the effect we were looking for.

When I appeared in the door of the gas station, Dad was standing at the counter next to Preppy, near the store’s old-fashioned cash register. The place smelled of chewing tobacco and live bait, the latter of which struck me as odd since there couldn’t have been any public water within fifty miles.

The owner, swarthy and solid, could have passed for a farming grandmother in a prairie painting if she had more teeth. She stood silent, one hand in the pocket of
her faded jeans, the other resting on the closed drawer of the register. Her eyes moved from Dad to Preppy to Tattoo Man. She seemed too occupied to pay much attention to me. Although sweat glistened on her upper lip, I didn’t think she looked scared, just hot. Everything was hot.

After saying something I couldn’t catch, Dad pointed toward some boxes of shells on the shelf behind the owner’s head. When she turned to look, I saw Preppy glance at the cash register. It was puzzling that such a clean-cut guy could give off such a creepy vibe, but I could see exactly what Dad meant. Preppy was up to no good.

I cleared my throat.

The three heads near the counter turned toward me at once. When Dad saw the open gun draped over my arm, he rolled his eyes. I looked down at the yawning breech and felt the blood rush to my neck. I knew my face would soon be glowing like a Christmas light. I hate it when that happens.

To make things worse, it occurred to me that I hadn’t brought any shells from the truck, so I had no way to load the gun even if I wanted to. When you think about it, though, that part was not really so dumb. Why should I have brought shells into the store? The point of our whole cover story was that we were
buying
shells. I always made good grades, but Dad used to say that I sometimes thought so logically that I missed the forest for the trees. This may have been one of those instances.

In light of my mistakes I needed to redeem myself. I flashed my biggest smile. “Well, if we’re going to do
much shooting on this trip, we’re going to need more than just the two shells in my pocket, wouldn’t you say, Dad?” I squeezed my fingers into the front pocket of my shorts and jangled some change. Unfortunately, it sounded like change, not shotgun shells, so to divert their attention I wiggled the part of me that was in the shorts. That drew a smile from Preppy and appeared to take his mind off ammunition.

Dad frowned when he heard the change jingling, but he seemed unwilling to give up hope based on such scant evidence. He raised an eyebrow so obviously that he might as well have painted
Got shells?
on his forehead.

I looked him in the eye. “Too bad we forgot to bring the shells from home.”

He understood my code. He rolled his eyes again, apparently his expression du jour, and turned back to the owner. “Twelve-gauge, double-ought buck.” He drummed his fingers on the counter and kept one eye on Preppy while the owner turned, pulled a box of shells from a shelf, and set them next to Dad’s hand.

“All I’ve got is number-six shot,” she said.

“That will do.”

I sashayed past a sagging rack of candy bars and headed for the cash register. Dad inched his hand across the counter and slipped it into the box of ammo. That’s when I remembered I was supposed to stay in the doorway. Oh well, he always told me that the best battle plans weren’t worth the paper they were written on once the shooting started. I kept walking toward the counter.

Tattoo Man slid in so close behind me that I could feel his hot breath on my shoulder. With shelves of pork rinds and motor oil on either side of me, there was nothing to do but continue walking. “Hey, fellas,” I said, in the sultriest drawl I could conjure. I nodded toward Preppy. “What’s your name, big guy?”

“My, my, what have we here?” Preppy waggled the matchstick that he held in the corner of his mouth. His eyes moved up and down my body, and I felt as if I’d been slimed. I’d created the distraction I needed, though. Behind me, Tattoo Man’s footsteps stopped.

“I’m Chad,” Preppy said.

It figured. I kept walking, extending the space between Tattoo Man and me. When I reached the counter, I moved past Dad to within a couple of feet of Chad. He really was huge. I’m five-feet-nine, and he could have rested his chin on my head. His biceps heaved against the banded sleeves of his polo shirt. It was time to keep my mouth shut and let Dad take over, but I had already developed an intense dislike for this guy. It must have gotten the better of me.

I pointed over my shoulder at Tattoo Man. “So the gangs have reached the high schools out here too? I’ll bet you guys’ civics teacher is all aflutter about it.”

The smile disappeared from Chad’s face. Tattoo Man’s shoes began scraping toward me again. Dad’s scowl told me my remark might leave me open to second-guessing when this was over.

Chad recovered his veneer and pointed toward his friend. “I appreciate a clever comment as much as the
next person, but if I were you I would be careful around my compatriot, Will. I’m a good natured fellow, but Will—he’s got what one might call a dark side. I believe the public schools took their leave of him years ago.”

Will’s footsteps stopped a few feet behind me.

Dad moved in next to me. “You’re too young to be losing your memory, Taylor. You gave me the shells, remember?” Before anyone could move, he pulled the gun from my arm, popped two shells into the breech, and snapped it shut. He stared over my shoulder at Will while he tilted his head toward the owner. “Can I get a couple of boxes of these?”

“Sure.” She reached for another box. “Need a bag?”

Will stepped up beside me. He slid his hand into his pocket. I took a step back; Dad took a step forward. Chad moved past us and put his hand on Will’s arm. “My friend, these folks seem to have some business to conduct, so we should be moving on.”

I turned, and for the first time I saw Will’s eyes, which moved from me to Dad and back to me. They weren’t hard, but pale and empty—more like smudged camera lenses than eyes. As expressionless as if he were surveying nothing more than a broomstick or a rock.

From the time I got out of the truck, I had longed for something cold. I found it in those eyes, and it made me wish we were back in Dallas.

Chad nodded. “A pleasant day to everyone. I hope we have an opportunity to meet again.” With one hand he pulled the matchstick from his mouth. With the other, he grabbed Will’s arm and directed him out the door.

When they were gone, the owner pulled a handkerchief from her back pocket, wiped her face, and looked up at Dad. “Something told me those fellas were up to no good.”

“I had the same feeling. That’s why I came back.” He turned toward me. “But my plan of attack didn’t work quite the way I envisioned it. Taylor, you looked really scary standing in the doorway with an empty shotgun. I’ll bet they were terrified you were going to hit them with it.”

I stuck my hands in my back pockets. “I guess I didn’t think that one through very well.”

“It’s okay. I should have been more specific when I told you to get the shotgun.” He walked to the door and looked out. “Their car’s gone. Let’s give them a few minutes’ head start in case they went the same way we’re going. I don’t want to run into them on the road. Then we’ll take off. I’d like to get camp set up before dark. Will you be okay here, ma’am?”

“Oh, I’ll be fine. My husband’ll be back any minute. Besides, I’ve got a friend of my own right here.” She pulled her hand out of her pocket and placed a .38-caliber revolver next to the register.

“I’m guessing that one’s loaded.” Dad smiled.