Authors: Sara Craven
signified that love by giving herself to
him, wasn't that how it would end for her
too—her pain, her hunger and need
answered by his indifference?
She shuddered. It was an unbearable
thought, yet it had to be faced. The only
way in which a casual affair could be
conducted, she thought dully, was for
both parties to play it cool, to remain
basically lighthearted and uncommitted.
Perhaps that was what the American
woman had originally intended—a brief
fling to brighten a dull marriage. But if
that had been the intention, the evidence
showed it had gone sadly awry. The
strained face that had, stared up at her
lover's coolly impassive countenance
had spoken of a passionate involvement.
.
Rachel thought, 'But I knew—I've
always known how it would be. I knew
on the way here that he had the ability to
break my heart.'
Even now, it would be impossible to
escape
from
him
unscathed,
but
somehow she had to prevent herself
falling any deeper into his toils—the
total involvement with him that her
surrender would inevitably bring.
She wondered bitterly whether it had
been the memory of his blonde
enamorador
which had spared her the
previous night. Perhaps his conscience
had troubled him at last, reminding him
of scenes and tears and despair which he
would not wish to have repeated.
Perhaps, she thought, she was going to
be the fortunate one who could walk
away with her self-respect intact,
knowing that she had never grovelled to
him emotionally.
But the thought gave her no sense of
triumph, or even any comfort.
She was running very fast through an
endless green tunnel. Behind her a
horse's hooves thudded remorselessly in
pursuit, but she dared not look round to
see if horse and rider were gaining on
her in case she stumbled. Salvation,
somehow, lay up ahead, around the next
bend.
But as the tunnel wound on she realised
she was in a trap. There was no way out,
because ahead of her reared a sheer cliff
face with one small dark opening. But as
she ran gasping towards it, she saw
incredulously that the opening was
getting larger until it became the
entrance to a cave, and Mark was
standing there. She called to him
urgently, begging him to save her, but he
was staring at something he held in his
hand—something which burned with a
vivid green flame like a witch-light—
and he did not seem to hear her. She
screamed his name again, and at the
sound of her voice, the green flame in
his hand seemed to surge upwards
suddenly and she saw the cave entrance
and the rock above it begin to collapse,
Mark falling backwards into the
darkness, his mouth widening in a
soundless scream. She cried his name
again in desolation-, but the hoofbeats
were almost on top of her now and
hands were reaching down to seize her,
and she began to struggle. Only the hands
that touched her were not cruel and
predatory, but oddly gentle and a voice
she knew was telling her, 'Wake up,
querida.
It's a dream—only a dream!'
She opened her eyes and stayed
motionless for a moment, dazed and
terrified, unable to distinguish between
reality and the nightmare world she had
left.
But the reality soon made itself plain
enough. She was in bed in her room at
the
finca,
and Vitas was sitting on the
bed beside her, holding her in his arms.
Her cheek was pressed against his bare
chest, and his hand was gentling her hair
while he murmured something in his own
tongue.
Rachel said with a gasp, 'Oh, God, I was
dreaming!'
'As I told you,' he said drily.
It was dark in the room. She could only
see the outline of him as she pulled
away.
'I had to wake you,' he went on. 'I was
afraid you would frighten the children if
they heard you.'
'Was I making a noise?'
'You were shouting for Mark.'
'Yes.' She hid her face in her hands for a
moment. 'I remember now. He was in the
most terrible danger. We both were. I
must get to him. I know he needs me.'
'What danger could possibly befall an
innocent geologist on a field trip?' he
drawled. 'Or is it possible you are
keeping something from me,
querida
?
Something possibly to do with the nature
of the—samples he hopes to collect?'
She remembered with a start how
careful she had been to conceal the truth
about Mark's quest. And remembered
something else too. She was sitting up in
bed, in Vitas' arms, without a stitch on.
She had not bothered to wear Maria's
nightgown because she had believed she
would have the room to herself. There
had been no sign of either Vitas or
Ramon at supper or afterwards, and it
was clear Maria was not expecting them
back. The bedroom had felt stiflingly hot
when she entered it, so she had simply
undressed and slipped underneath the
blanket.
She shot down under the cover, pulling it
almost to her chin, hoping frantically that
Vitas would not have noticed her state of
disarray in the darkness.
'Of course it's got nothing to do with
that,' she said coldly. 'I'm just a little on
edge, that's all, after being left to kick
my heels around here all day.'
'I thought that might rankle,' he
murmured, and she could hear the
amusement in his voice. 'But there was
no way in which I could take you with
me,
chica.
There were things I had to
do.'
'Man's work,' she muttered sarcastically.
'As you say. You were sleeping so
peacefully when I left yesterday morning
that I did not have the heart to wake you
and explain. I hope you didn't have too
boring a day.'
'Oh, no. It was a laugh a minute,' she
said savagely. T suppose you're not
going to favour me with an explanation
as to where you've been. I'm paying for
your time, in case you'd forgotten.'
'You are quite right in your supposition,'
he returned silkily. 'I do not propose to
tell you what I've been doing. As to
paying for my time—perhaps I should
remind you that no payment has been
made as yet.' His voice hardened. 'But I
intend to collect something on account
right now.'
With one deft movement he tugged the
concealing blanket free of her clutching
hands and slid beneath its shelter beside
her. His arms went round her, pulling
her against the warmth of his body and
she knew the ecstatic torment of his flesh
against hers.
'Your body feels like silk,' he muttered
roughly against her ear. 'So smooth, so
cool, so beautiful. I want to look at you,
mi amada.
Let me light the lamp and ...'
'No!' Her hands came up, frenziedly
beating at his chest, trying to push him
away, while she twisted her head from
side to side, evading his seeking lips.
'Still so shy of me?' he demanded almost
resignedly. His hand pinioned her
wrists. 'All right,
querida,
you've made
your point. This first time, it shall be in
the dark, as you wish. But don't fight me
now. Relax, and I will show you
Paradise.'
'Let go of me! Leave me alone,' she
moaned.
'Don't be a little fool.
For Dios,
Raquel,
what are you trying to do to me?' he
asked hoarsely. 'You want me as much
as I want you—why not admit it? Or is it
that you're afraid I'll hurt you? I won't, I
swear it.
Amada,
a man who wants a
flower to bloom in his garden must
cherish the blossom, and I will cherish
you, with every breath in my body, with
every fibre of my being. How could I be
anything but gentle with you?'
Still holding her wrists in one hand, with
the other he began to caress her
sensuously, intimately, and she felt the
shock of response run through her entire
body, invading it with a treacherous
sweetness. A strange languor was
threatening to overcome her, a languor
which invited her to move closer to him,
to hold him in her arms, and yield her
mouth, her breasts, her entire body to his
kisses and his touch.
But she couldn't do that. She had to stop
him somehow. She had
to
fight.
'Tell me you're mine,' he murmured
against her lips. 'Say it.'
Desperately, she jerked her head back.
'But I'm not! I—I can't be.' A wild
inspiration dawned. 'Because I belong to
someone else.'
He was very tense suddenly, and his
hands fell away from her.
'You'd better explain yourself,' he said
after a pause.
1 lied to you,' she said almost in a
whisper. 'I told you that Mark was my
brother. Well, he isn't. He's my lover.
We're going to be married. We—we
should have been married before, only
he had to come on this trip, and then
Grandfather got sick—and he wanted to
see us married before he—before he ...'
She stopped.
Her words seemed to be falling into a
silence so ominous she wanted to fling
up her hands to ward it off. She felt
Vitas move away in the darkness and
then there was the scrape of a match as
he lit the lamp beside the bed.
He looked down at her and there was no
desire in his face, no warmth, just a
bleak emptiness which seemed to cut her
to the bone.
'You lied?' he said very quietly. 'Why?'
Rachel shrugged, aware that she was
trembling violently. 'I thought if I told
you the truth, you wouldn't act as
my
guide.' She swallowed. 'I—I knew you
fancied me, and I thought I could use that
in order to get to Mark more quickly.'
There was another long silence, then he
said expressionlessly, 'I see.' And she
wanted to shriek, 'No, you don't! You
don't see at all. I can't let you love me
because if I do I shall be bound to you
for ever, and you don't want that from
me.' But she said nothing. She couldn't
move either, even to pull the blanket up
to cover herself from the growing
contempt she saw in his face.
He said almost pleasantly, 'There is a
name for women like you,
querida,
but I
do not intend to soil my tongue with it.'
He threw back the blanket and got out of
bed. Through the mist of tears that veiled
her eyes, she saw him turn away from
her. Then the lamp went out, and his
voice came to her again from the
darkness.
'I wish your
novio
joy of you.'
CHAPTER EIGHT
They came to Diablo the following day,
as the late afternoon was beginning to
dwindle towards sunset.
Rachel stared about her with a curious
feeling of unreality. It was not, in any
way, what she had expected. She'd had a
vague picture in her mind of a rough
mining town based on Hollywood's
conception of the old Gold Rush days,
complete with sleazy hotels and bars,
that was nothing like this narrow ravine
with its high rugged cliffs. It looked
incredibly
peaceful,
she
thought
wonderingly, so why then had Vitas been
so reluctant to bring her here— and
Carlos too for that matter?
And she remembered too when she had
said goodbye to Maria that morning how
the older woman's eyes had filled with
sudden tears, and how she had traced a
swift sign of the Cross on Rachel's
forehead. At the time, she had been
warmed and touched by the gesture, but
now remembrance sent a shiver of
apprehension down her spine as if it had