Finding Their Son (14 page)

He made a rude, snorting sound. “Yeah, whatever. My dad’s Italian. My mom’s half-Mexican and half-Piute. Big deal. The only one who ever talked about that kind of bull was my great-grandpa and he died a couple of months after we moved back. So much for your big plan.”

“At least mine didn’t land me in jail,” she said, sounding way too much like the old black woman.

Damien gave her a dirty look and tried to roll over. He apparently pinched one of the wires attached to his body because an alarm started to ring and a nurse rushed in.

“Sorry, hon,” the woman told Char. “Best let the boy rest a bit.”

Char gathered her things and left. She looked around for Eli, but he wasn’t in the waiting room. Was he still talking to Wanda and her husband? An uneasy feeling in her gut told her this wasn’t a good thing. The last time she’d dealt with a lawyer she lost her son.

But she’d been a terrified young girl at the time. Now she could stand up for herself…and for Damien, if she needed to.

She hoped.

E
LI HAD BARELY GOTTEN
through the door of the motel room in Carmel before the phone in his pocket started blasting the tune “Baby, Come Back.” Grinning, he dropped his backpack in an overstuffed chair and let go of the handle of Char’s suitcase. The motel room was quaint, but it wasn’t situated close enough to the ocean for him to see water. The concierge at the hospital had arranged for the room at Wanda’s behest.

Thinking the caller had to be Char, he flipped open the unit and answered, “Eli here.”

“Dad?” A voice he hadn’t heard in two weeks.

Eli stumbled over the suitcase and nearly dropped the phone. “E.J.? How’d you get this number? Is everything okay? How are your sisters?”

“Yeah, yeah, we’re all fine. But I…um…need to talk to you. I was expecting a woman to answer. Somebody named Char. Who is she, Dad? What’s going on? Where are you?”

Questions Eli wasn’t prepared to answer. Not yet. Somehow he’d managed to block almost every aspect of his “other” life out of his mind these past few days. Maybe this was what happened on a real vision quest. Your old
world became less real as the new world took shape around you.

But E.J.’s call brought that previous life back into crisp focus. “I’m in California. I had some business to take care of. In fact, I have an appointment with a lawyer in a few minutes. Don’t worry. I’m not in trouble. It’s old business.”

He hadn’t expected that explanation to suffice, but it soon became apparent that E.J. had his own agenda and didn’t really care about his father’s situation. “Dad, things are really f-ed up around here. You need to come back right away.”

Can y’all say spoiled?

That voice again. Damn. And she was right. E.J. was spoiled. Damien, too, for that matter. Apparently both had parents who gave too much and expected too little. Either that, or it was their age.

“What’s happened?”

“Mom’s upset. Really upset. She thinks she might have made a mistake where you and her are concerned. The girls cry all the time. They want to come home. And I’ve changed my mind about joining the Marines. I’m gonna go to college, after all, Dad.”

Dad.
Eli walked to one of the windows and pulled aside the frilly curtain. The view opened to the courtyard, which was landscaped to the hilt with pretty flowers unlike anything you’d find in the frozen Midwest at the moment.

“I’m glad to hear that, E.J.,” he said, trying to keep any bitterness out of his voice. But a part of him couldn’t help recalling E.J.’s last words to him. “A real man would know his own kid, wouldn’t he? Is your mother with you, son?” He let the curtain drop.

“Yeah. She…um…just got back from the hospital in
Sioux Falls. Apparently Aunt Sue tried to kill herself. Uncle Robert’s really broken up over it and the kids are way wigged out.”

His cousin’s wife had tried to commit suicide? Good Lord. A sick feeling formed in his gut. “Is she okay?”

“Yeah, yeah. She’ll be fine. They think it was a play for attention. Right, Mom?” he asked Bobbi, who must have been standing nearby.

Eli wondered what would happen when he broke the news to his estranged family about Damien.

“Put your mom on.”

As had been the way throughout most of their marriage, Bobbi spoke, Eli listened. She told him about Sue, who, either accidentally or on purpose, took an overdose of sleeping pills and was in the hospital under a suicide watch.

She confirmed that Robert’s four children were pretty “freaked out,” as she put it. “I had no idea how much this would impact the kids, Eli. I’m so sorry. When you come back, I think we should try again. For their sakes.”

The last was the surefire kicker that always got him to do whatever she wanted, even if he wasn’t wild about the idea. Guilt by responsibility.

What could he say?
Sorry, wife and family, I’ve found a new love. Wait. An old love. And a new kid. I don’t need you to make me feel needed and complete.

“A lot’s happened since I left, Bobbi. There isn’t going to be a quick and easy fix.”

Not the answer his wife had been expecting. Eli could tell by the chilly silence that followed. “You’ve only been gone, like, five days, Eli. What does that mean?”

“It means I can’t picture us picking up again like nothing
happened.” He told her about Char and Damien as dispassionately as possible.

“Char Jones? I’ve seen her around Lower Brule. She has funny-colored hair and dresses like a wannabe squaw,” she said, using the derogatory word universally hated by Native American women. “I can’t believe you slept with her.”

In high school and a lot more recently.
A lot more recently.
“Well, apparently, I did. One look at Damien and you know he’s my kid, but we’ve already taken a DNA test to confirm it.”

She made a keening sound. “E.J.’s going to be devastated, Eli. He already blames himself for this mess. First, that stupid test blows our marriage out of the water, and now you find out you have a kid with Char Jones. How do you think he’s going to take it if you come back with another kid to replace him? Your real son. Good grief, Eli, are you trying to drive him over the edge?”

He sat on the bed, not trusting his legs to support him. He honestly hadn’t given his children’s reaction to this a great deal of thought. But there was no putting this genie back in the bottle. Somehow they’d all have to get through the rough times ahead.

“What did you expect me to do, Bobbi? Pretend the kid didn’t exist?”

“No, but you damn well don’t have to bring him back with you. And what about this Char person? Are you involved with her? Have you always had feelings for her—even when you said you were in love with me?”

Eli closed his eyes. He hated this side of Bobbi’s personality. Not that she was always self-absorbed, but given the barest hint of a slight against her and she took to chest-pounding indignation.

“I barely knew her in high school. I’m not proud that I had sex with her on the night before my wedding, but it happened. Now I have a kid who doesn’t know me, but he has my blood running through his veins. That means he’s a half brother to our daughters and a stepbrother to E.J. He’s also in trouble. I’m meeting with the local D.A. in a couple of hours to try to figure out some deal to get Damien a second chance.”

He paused, then forged on. “If they let me take him out of the state and he comes home with me, you and E.J. and the girls are going to have to work out some kind of relationship with him. Period.”

Bobbi remained quiet so long Eli thought they’d lost their connection. Then she said, “Wow, you left home and grew a pair.” Instead of snide, her tone was surprised…and a little sad. “Just my luck. You became the man I wanted you to be after I broke up with you.”

Eli shook his head. “I’m the same person I always was, Bobbi. Your problem is the grass always looks greener on the other side of the fence, and frankly I’m tired of constantly mending that fence.”

He could tell by her silence that she understood exactly what he meant. “Do you want me to tell the kids about Damien? Or do you want to surprise them?”

This time she sounded snide.

“Your call,” he said. “You’ll do whatever is best for you, Bobbi. I’m confident of that.”

“That was uncalled-for, Eli. I made a mistake. Maybe I just wanted more than you could give me. I wanted to be the center of somebody’s universe. Is that wrong?”

Eli didn’t want to get into mutual recriminations. “We both made mistakes.”

“And now you have somebody else in your life. Funny how fast that happened, isn’t it? Maybe too fast. Maybe whatever you feel for Char is tied to this boy, who psychologically might be a replacement for E.J. Is Char a replacement for me? She doesn’t have to be, Eli. I’ll be waiting here to start over, if you want to try.”

He didn’t reply. He had feelings for Char. Strong, complex feelings, different from anything he ever felt before. But everything between them was new and wobbly and awkwardly linked to a boy who needed them to act like adults and put his needs first. It seemed crazy to think that Eli could make any kind of a life with Char given their past. Was hot sex and a child neither of them had raised a valid basis for a lasting relationship? If he returned home—to an apologetic wife and three upset children—would the emasculated alter-ego Bobbi had so little respect for, Mr. Responsibility, take over?

He didn’t know.

“Change isn’t necessarily a bad thing, Bobbi. Somebody told me truth and honesty are always the best in the long run—even if they suck right now.”

“How profound,” she said snottily. “E.J.’s back. Do you want to tell him goodbye?”

He started to agree, but a beep told him a second call was coming in. This one, he could tell from the area code was local. “Sorry, Bobbi. I have another call. I’ll keep you posted on what’s happening here. Tell E.J. it was good to hear his voice.”

She made a rude sound and the line went dead. Eli hit the receive button. As he listened to Damien’s mother, he walked to the desk beside the overstuffed chair and switched on the lamp. Pulling a sheet of paper from the
drawer, he jotted down directions. He had a meeting in twenty minutes with Wanda’s husband and the District Attorney.

C
HAR WAS GLAD TO LEAVE
the hospital. The long day had taken a toll. She’d decided there was a surreal sense of disconnect that came from being inside a hospital. Days could have passed for all she knew.

“Thanks for bringing back the car in one piece,” she said, getting in the driver’s seat. “My insurance company thanks you, too.”

Eli scowled at her. She liked his scowl. How demented was that?

He stalked around the car and got in. “I told you my insurance is paid up and valid. The only reason I didn’t rent the damn car was that my uncle kept my credit card.”

That was why she’d agreed to let him drive to the meeting with the lawyer and find them a motel room. She was teasing. He usually got her humor. The fact that he was testy and defensive told her something was going on. The nervous feeling in her stomach returned.

“Which way?” she asked, starting the engine.

“Go back to the main road and head south. The hospital gets a cut rate with a place in Carmel.”

“Cool. I’ve always wanted to visit there. That’s where Clint Eastwood lives, I think.”

He snapped his seat belt into place then slouched like a sulky teen. Actually he looked a lot like the kid she’d just left in the hospital bed. She couldn’t help but smile.

“So how’d the meeting go? Wanda didn’t say much.” Damien’s mother had arrived to relieve Char a few minutes
earlier but had seemed a bit evasive when Char asked the same question of her.

“Fine. We were all on the same page, as they say. Even the Assistant D.A. in charge of Damien’s case seems to want what’s best for Damien.”

“So they’re not going to charge him?”

He didn’t answer right away. He sat forward as if worried that she wouldn’t be able to merge onto the road without his help. Odd, she thought. He hadn’t second-guessed her driving the entire trip down Highway 101 from San Francisco.

Once the car was up to speed, she glanced at him. “Well?”

He was still frowning. “Apparently California is in the middle of some really intense budget problems. Jails are full and they’ve had to cut juvenile programs. The D.A. was open to other options.”

He motioned for her to take the next exit. Ocean Avenue. She liked the sound of that.

“The Johnsons made it clear that they didn’t think Damien should walk away from this scot-free. They felt that would send the wrong message to Damien’s friends and siblings. Plus, without some sort of counseling or probation with community service, nothing would change for Damien.”

“That makes sense.”

“We agreed the best thing was to get him to finish school. And to complete a drug and alcohol program and get regular urine tests to make sure he’s not using.”

She made the turn. There was quite a bit of traffic, but she wasn’t stressed since Eli was navigating. “Damien told
me he doesn’t do drugs,” she said. “He only sold them to make enough money to leave.”

“Three blocks ahead on the left.”

She glanced sideways. His tone wasn’t exactly condescending but she could tell he thought she was being naive. “You don’t believe him?”

“In my job, I’ve learned that most drug users are also very skilled liars.”

“You think our son is a drug addict and a liar?”

He shrugged. “I don’t know him well enough to say. Neither do you.”

She disagreed, but she kept her opinion to herself until they were parked in front of a lovely, upscale motel with some of the most beautiful landscaping she’d ever seen. She turned off the engine and removed the key from the ignition then looked at Eli. The fuchsias could wait. Something was wrong.

“What’s going on, Eli?”

He unsnapped his seat belt. “I cut a deal. Maybe not the right one, but I didn’t feel like I had a lot of options. Damien broke the law and got in a fight while in the holding cell. He’s almost eighteen. Worst-case scenario, they charge him as an adult and he does six months or more with some very unsavory types. Neither of us wants that, right?”

She shook her head. “Of course not, but you said the D.A. isn’t going that route.”

“Because I gave him an option. I asked if they’d consider letting me take him back to South Dakota if I agreed to become his legal guardian.”

That made sense, she figured. Even though Damien
would turn eighteen in a few months, in the meantime, it was probably smart to put someone in charge.

“The D.A. liked the fact that I have a background in law enforcement and have a teenage son of my own.”

Have
, not
had
, as he’d said earlier. “Where do I fit in?”

When he didn’t answer right away, her heart stopped beating. “Eli? Tell me you didn’t cut a deal that cut me out of the picture.”

“Char, you said yourself you have no experience with teenage boys.”