Authors: Lisa Jackson
Tags: #Fiction, #Suspense, #Thrillers, #General, #Mystery & Detective, #Romance, #Romantic suspense fiction, #Women journalists, #Oregon
“Derrick? He wouldn’t—”
“He would, Cassidy, and he has. I made the mistake of calling him into my office yesterday. Intended to browbeat him into confessing that he was involved in the fire.”
“Derrick? But he was with Felicity that night—”
“Maybe for part of it. But he was at the mill, Cassidy. I saw him about a half hour before the fire.”
Her mind reeled ahead. “Did you tell Wilson?”
“Not yet. It’s something I didn’t remember—I don’t know why, but the doctor said I might have trouble sorting everything out. Maybe I didn’t think it was significant enough to recall.”
“Your memory seems fine to me,” she said suspiciously.
“I thought so, too. Until yesterday. I can’t go to Wilson yet, because, so far, it’s just my word against Derrick’s, even if I can finally prove that he’s been embezzling.”
Cassidy could hardly believe her ears.
“You’ve got to call the police.”
“I will,” he said, his eyes holding hers. “When the timing’s right.”
“But—”
“Don’t worry, Cass. I’ll deal with it,” he promised.
“What did Derrick say?” She couldn’t believe he was capable of burning the sawmill or killing a man or…
Why not? He’s always had a cruel streak and thought the world owed him a living—a good living—and Felicity would do anything for him. Even lie to cover up the fact that he was a murderer
. She shivered at the thought.
“Derrick turned things around. Did all the beating himself, for now. Mistook my face for a spittoon.”
She let out a gasp of protest.
“And there wasn’t a damned thing I could do about it.”
“And now you think he might…what? Attack us here?”
“I don’t know. But I’m not going down without a fight. Come on, I’ll show you what we’ve got.” He threw her one of his sweatshirts and she scrambled into it. Then she followed him out to his truck. He opened the door and a sleek black German shepherd bounded to the ground.
“Stay!” Chase commanded and the dog froze. “Cassidy, meet Ruskin.”
She laughed at the sight of the animal, sitting and staring at her with clear gold eyes.
“You two are going to get to know each other real well, and Ruskin will make sure that no one comes sneaking around here without thinking about it twice.”
Checking her watch and silently cursing her husband, Felicity pushed open the door of her daughter’s room. Angela was there, sleeping like a baby, her breathing deep and regular. But the bedroom window was open, blinds rustling in the breeze. Something wasn’t quite right, she decided, and though she felt like a traitor, she tiptoed across the carpet and lifted the coverlet to find her firstborn completely clothed in skintight jeans, black sleeveless T-shirt and sneakers. “I know you’re awake,” she said, though Angela didn’t respond, still feigning sleep. “And I know you plan to sneak out of this house and meet that Cutler boy.” She settled into the chair by the window. “Go ahead and pretend, but I’ll sit here all night to make sure you stay in this house.”
“For Christ’s sake, Mom—”
“Don’t you ever swear at me.”
Angela pushed herself into a sitting position and tossed her dark hair out of her eyes. “Then don’t call Jeremy ‘that Cutler boy,’ like he’s not good enough or somethin’.”
“He isn’t good enough. Not for you. You’re a Buchanan.”
“Big fuckin’ deal.”
“That’s it! You use that kind of filthy language one more time and you’ll be so grounded you’ll never see the light of day, much less any more of that Cutler—Jeremy.”
Beneath the fringe of her bangs, Angela glowered at her mother. “You can’t stop me!”
“No?” Felicity wasn’t going to let a sixteen-year-old girl push her around. “I’ll have you followed by a private investigator if I have to and I’ll make sure he takes pictures, and if that boy lays one finger on you, I’ll go straight to the police and cry rape so loud that it will echo all the way to New York.”
“You wouldn’t!”
“Oh, yes I would, Angela. I’d do anything to protect you and keep you from making a mistake.”
“Jeremy isn’t a mistake.”
Felicity understood her daughter’s naïve rationale. Hadn’t she felt the same way about Derrick when she was Angela’s age? The difference was that Derrick was a Buchanan and socially correct. She’d at least made the right choices.
“What if I decide to go to the police?”
Felicity’s heart nearly stopped. “Why would you do that?”
Her daughter’s smile was a catty little grin, flashing white in the gloom of the dark room. “Because I know about Daddy,” she said in that superior way that bugged the hell out of Felicity.
“What about him?” Dread leaked into her blood.
“Uh-uh.” Angela shook her head. “I’m not trading secrets, Mom. Just understand this. If you say one word against Jeremy to anyone, I’ll pay you back in kind.”
“You little—”
“Ah, ah, ah, Mom. Careful, now,” she mocked, enjoying the fact that she had Felicity over a barrel.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Sure you do, Mom. Think about it. Now, why don’t you just run along? Pretend I’m in here sleeping and getting a good night’s rest for school tomorrow.”
“You’re not meeting that boy.”
“Sure,” Angie said. “Whatever you want to think. But if you don’t leave me alone right now, Daddy takes the fall. The big one. Think what that would do to your precious reputation?”
“I won’t be blackmailed, Angela.”
“Sure you will. You have been for years.”
Felicity stood swiftly and crossed the room. She grabbed her daughter by the shoulders, then slapped her soundly across the cheek. Angela’s head snapped backward, hitting the headboard.
“You bitch!” Angela cried. “You fucking bitch!”
Another well-aimed slap. Felicity’s hand hurt and she cringed as Angela’s head slammed hard against the headboard. Angela burst into tears. Felicity pretended she didn’t see the horror in her daughter’s eyes or witness her sixteen-year-old bravado drain away.
“Don’t push me, Angela,” she said through lips that barely moved. “You have no idea what you’re up against. You’re not to see that boy again, and that’s final. And come September, you’re going to St. Therese’s in Portland. They still have a few nuns teaching there; maybe they’ll be able to show you how to behave.” Back stiff, she left the room and felt as if she might throw up. She’d never struck her daughter before and she hated the thought of it now.
She’d grown up in a home where her father adored her, but he’d thought nothing of spanking her with the flat side of a hairbrush. It hadn’t stopped until she’d married Derrick, because The Judge intended that his headstrong daughter learn respect and learn it early.
But those blows with the brush had backfired and Felicity had sworn nothing her children ever did would force her to use violence against them. Not her children. But sometimes a woman had to take charge. Sometimes the rules had to be bent. Like tonight. And if Angela ever tried sneaking out with that horrid little lump of pimply flesh again, then Jeremy Cutler would find himself in a fight he couldn’t hope to win.
Felicity knew all too well to what lengths a woman would go for a man. She’d done them all. She’d been humiliated, felt abject terror, pain, jealousy and a rage so deep it burned. But she’d survived. She could handle a nerdy little twit like Jeremy Cutler. It would be child’s play.
“You’ll call?” a soft female voice asked Derrick as he hurried to his truck. Glancing over his shoulder, he spied her standing in the doorway of a cheap motel overlooking the Willamette River. Barefoot. A black silk teddy her only clothing. She was barely sixteen, with thick dark hair and blue eyes and a smile that reminded him of Angie, his sister. Her name was Dawn.
“I’ll think about it.”
“Come on, Derrick, you said you’d call.”
“You got paid, didn’t you?” He climbed into the cab of his truck, and the air inside was stale.
“I don’t do it for money,” she pouted as he rolled down the window.
“Sure.”
“I do it ’cause I love you.”
Christ! Every insomniac in this fleabag of a motel could hear her. Windows were open, and it was after one in the morning. He jabbed his keys in the ignition, and the engine started. “That’s good. You’ve got a ride, right?”
“Don’t worry about it. Just call me.” Dawn tossed her hair in a way that was damned sexy. An open invitation. The teddy fell off her shoulder and showed off one firm little tit.
“I will,” he promised, knowing that Felicity would kill him if she ever found out he was banging a girl who was about the same age as their daughter, a girl who reminded him of his sister, a girl who could run to the police and get him in big, big trouble. But she wouldn’t. She liked jewelry and nice clothes and her new little convertible too much to spoil a good thing.
Her mother was in on the deal, and once in a while, when Dawn wasn’t available, Lorna came on to him. He never actually initiated the action, but he didn’t stop it either. She wasn’t as young and nubile as her daughter, but she was quick with her tongue and a dirty phrase. If he didn’t show much interest, Lorna became real inventive, dressing up in all kinds of getups—bras with holes for her nipples, crotch-less panties and a leather garter belt decorated with metal studs. She’d tease him and whip him with some kind of feather and rawhide thing that tickled and cut, teased and gave pain.
But still, Lorna’s skin wasn’t supple, she was running to fat, her waist thick, and though her breasts were much bigger than her daughter’s—huge mountains decorated with a tattoo of a hummingbird—he preferred the firm solid flesh of a young butt and thighs that could wrap around his waist for hours. Even Dawn’s small breasts were a turn-on as long as she rouged them up and danced in front of him, letting her nipples hover near his mouth only to drag them away. He could play rough with Dawn and he loved it when she called him “Daddy,” begging him to spank her until she cried, then making him kiss her welts.
One night when Dawn had said she wanted to stay home rather than go to a motel, Derrick had agreed. Though the apartment was seedy and he thought she enjoyed going to an upscale hotel where they could order room service, he reluctantly agreed. The rooms smelled of stale cigarette smoke and some kind of grease that hadn’t been cleaned from the kitchen stove, but Dawn was such a turn-on that night, dressed in a little girl outfit, her hair in pigtails, that he didn’t argue. She led him into her mother’s room and he threw her on the bed. Then, while he was fucking the hell out of her, Lorna came in and watched. Right in the middle of the action, she leaned over him, holding her breasts, offering those huge pillows with nipples the size of half dollars. “Lick these, sweetie,” she’d said and he’d rubbed his tongue over them only to taste something different. “It’s coke, honey, and I’m not talking soda pop, here. You’ll love it.”
He suckled hard, humping upward while Dawn, naked except for ribbons around her pigtails and ankles, rode him. “Come on, baby,” she cried, beginning to scream in a higher pitch than he’d ever remembered. He thought his back might give out or he might suffocate as Lorna forced more tit into his mouth. With a cry, he finally bucked upward, sucking huge nipples as he came into a fresh young body. He hadn’t been so turned on in years. He’d done it again then, with both mother and daughter—the coke heightening his senses. So much pussy, coke and tits his bourbon-soaked brain could barely function and his erection had given out.
Afterward, Lorna had offered him more blow. For years he’d avoided drugs, but he was on such a rush already. He snorted just a little, but from that night on they’d gotten high together and oftentimes they’d done a three-way. Always in Lorna’s king-sized four-poster bed. Jesus, he was getting hard just thinking about it even though he’d driven away from Oregon City and was heading toward Prosperity.
Tonight had been different. Dawn had agreed to leave with him and she’d given him what he’d wanted and more, but he’d sensed a restlessness about her, as if she were keeping a secret.
You’re sick, Buchanan. Sick. The things you’re into are perverted. She’s just a kid
.
Angry with himself, he flipped on the radio hoping to hear some news or country music that would drown away the silent scoldings he inflicted upon himself. But someone, probably Felicity, had changed the station to old rock and roll.
His bones turned to ice as the words of the song wafted through the speakers and filtered into his mind, a song from a night a long time ago, an old Elvis tune he’d tried to forget.
Love me tender, love me true
All my dreams fulfill
…
He’d been seven at the time and woken up from a nightmare. When he’d called out for his mother, Lucretia hadn’t responded. Sniffing and trying to hide his tears, he walked to her room in the dark, but when he knocked on her door, she didn’t answer.
“Mommy, Mommy,” he wailed, trying the door and finding it unlocked. The bed was still made, and though it was late at night, she wasn’t in the bedroom or bathroom or dressing room. He started for his father’s room down the hall when he heard it, her favorite song by Elvis, and he followed the music, not to the living room where it was usually played but down a hallway leading to the garage. An extension cord ran the length of the hallway, a brown snake that wasn’t supposed to be there.
For my darling I love you…
Taking several deep breaths, he inched forward slowly, the sound of Elvis’s deep, comforting voice luring him.
“Mommy?” he called, beginning to worry, walking with his back pressed against the wall, knowing that the snake was evil. The song was suddenly over and the house was silent, except for the sound of a car’s engine rumbling evenly. “Mommy.”
Elvis began again, the same song, and Derrick saw that there was a hole in the bottom of the door leading to the garage. Just big enough for the extension cord to slide through.
“Mommy? Daddy?” His mouth was dry and tasted like vomit. He pushed hard on the door and it swung open, letting a cloud of blue smoke through the house. His heart was pounding and the smell was horrible. Through the veil of exhaust he saw their new stereo, sitting on its roll-away cart, the speakers on the bottom shelf as if Mommy had wanted the entire system in the garage. Heart thudding, he walked to the car and saw her inside, her head resting on the steering wheel of the shiny new car she’d gotten for her birthday, a hose hooked up from the exhaust pipe to the cracked window of the passenger side of the car. He tried to open the driver’s door, but it was locked. Crying out to her, he pounded on the windows and began to choke.
The music was so loud he could barely scream above it, and when he did, foul-tasting smoke rushed down his windpipe. “Mommy!” Why was she sleeping in her car? “Wake up! Wake up, Mommy!” She didn’t move and his eyes began to water from the exhaust fumes that leaked from the car into the garage and the fact that he was suddenly more scared than he’d ever been in his life. Something was wrong. Horribly wrong. His fists banged on the windows just as one of the garage doors opened and he looked up to find his father, tie askew, usually smooth hair rumpled, face ashen, staring in disbelief. “What’s going on?” he said. “Derrick, what’re you doing—? Lucretia?”
Rex’s face slackened in horror. “Oh, for the love of God, no!” He ran to the car, tried to open the door, fiddled with his keys, and when he couldn’t find one that fit, grabbed a hammer from the rack on the wall and began pounding at the passenger-side window, smashing the glass, sending shards into the car, onto the cement floor, flying through the air.
And I always will.
“Lucretia! Oh, baby, what have you done? What have I done?” He managed to smash enough glass to force his hand inside and lift the latch. Flinging open the door, he cut the engine and dragged his wife from the birthday gift that had become her hearse. “No! No! No!” he cried, as Elvis crooned in the background. Yanking her outside and laying her gently on the grass near the garage, he leaned over her, trying to force air through her parted lips, pressing on her chest.
“Call the police!”
Derrick stood rooted to the spot.
“Damn it, Derrick, call the police.”
“I—I don’t know how,” he said, his chin trembling, fear making him shake and cry. “Daddy, I don’t—”
“Call the operator, for God’s sake! Tell her to call an ambulance and send it to the Buchanan place on Buchanan Lane.”