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“‘Blue Lady.’ That what you call her.” Big Mama’s broad forehead smoothed out, getting rid of wrinkles Oneida had assumed were always there. “Well, she certainly is. The Blue Lady.”

Oneida realized why no one but Mizz Curtis and Dad had come to her rescue when the white men tried to arrest her: for the Blue Lady to appear in person, you were supposed to call her, using her real name. Which Mercy and Emilio had never known.

“What do you call her?”

“Yemaya.”

Oneida practiced saying it to herself while she poured the iced tea and stirred in three spoons of sugar for each of them. Yeh-mah-yah. It was strange, yet easy. Easy to say. Easy to remember. Yeh-mah-yah.

She told Big Mama everything.

“Hmmph.” Big Mama took a long drink of tea. “You think you able to do what I tell you to?”

Oneida nodded. Of course she could.

Big Mama closed the curtains and lit a white candle in a jar, putting a metal tube over its top. Holes in the sides let through spots of light the shape of six-pointed stars. She made Oneida fill a huge shell with water from the bathroom and sprinkled it on both their heads. Oneida brought the chair so Big Mama could sit in front of Yemaya’s altar. She watched while Big Mama twirled the necklace of watermelon seeds around in the basket’s lid and let it go.

“Awright. Look like Yemaya say I be teachin you.”

“Can I—”

“Four questions a day. That’s all Ima answer. Otherwise you jus haveta listen closer to what I say.”

Oneida decided to ask anyway. “What were you doing?”

“Divinin. Special way a speakin, more important, a hearin what Yemaya an Shango wanna tell me.”

“Will I learn that? Who’s Shango?”

“Shango Yemaya’s son. We start tomorrow. See how much you able to take in.” Big Mama held up her hand, pink palm out. “One more question is all you got for today. Might wanna use it later.”

They left the bedroom to hang the clean laundry from the clothesline, under trellises heavy with blooming vines. In the machine on the back porch behind them, a new load sloshed away. Royal was watching tv; the rest of the kids were over at the park. Oneida felt the way she often did after discussing adult topics with her parents. It was a combination of coziness and exhilaration, as if she were tucked safe and warm beneath the feathers of a high-soaring bird. A soft breeze lifted the legs of her pajama bottoms, made the top flap its arms as if it were flying.

Mornings were for housework. Oneida wasted one whole question finding that out.

Sundays they went to the Detroit Institute of Arts. Not to church. “God ain’t in there. Only reason to go to church is so people don’t talk bad about you,” Big Mama told them. “Anything they gone say about me they already said it.” They got dressed up the same as everyone else in the neighborhood, nodded and waved at the families who had no feud with Big Mama, even exchanging remarks with those walking their direction, toward Cass. But then they headed north by themselves.

Big Mama ended each trip through the exhibits in the museum’s tea room. She always ordered a chicken salad sandwich with the crusts cut off. Ivy Joe and Luemma sat beside her, drinking a black cow apiece. Royal drew on all their napkins, floppy-eared rabbits and mean-looking monsters.

Oneida’s favorite part to go to was the gift shop. Mainly because they had so many beautiful books, but also because she could touch things in there. Own them, if she paid. Smaller versions of the paintings on the walls, of the huge weird statues that resembled nothing on Earth except themselves.

The second Sunday, she bought Mercy’s birthday card there. It was a postcard, actually, but bigger than most. The French lady on the front had sad, soft eyes like Mercy’s. On the back, Oneida told her how she was learning “lots of stuff.” It would have been nice to say more; not on a postcard, though, where anyone would be able to read it.

In fact, in the hour a day Big Mama consented to teach her, Oneida couldn’t begin to tackle half what she wanted to know. Mostly she memorized: prayers; songs; long, often incomprehensible stories.

Big Mama gave her a green scarf to wrap the seeds in. She said to leave them on Yemaya’s altar since Oneida shared a room with the three other girls. After that, she seemed to forget all about them. They were right there, but she never seemed to notice them. Her own necklace had disappeared. Oneida asked where it was three days in a row.

“That’s for me to know and you to find out,” Big Mama answered every time.

Oneida saved up a week’s worth of questions. She wrote them on a pad of paper, pale purple with irises along the edges, which she’d bought at the gift shop:

1. Is your necklace in the house?

2. Is it in this room?

3. Is it in your closet?

4. Under the bed?

5. In your dresser?

And so on, with lines drawn from one to another to show which to ask next, depending on whether the response was yes or no. On a separate page she put bonus questions in case Big Mama was so forthcoming some of the others became unnecessary. These included why her brother had hardly any chores, and what was the name of Yemaya’s husband, who had never turned up in any story.

But when Big Mama called Oneida upstairs, she wound up not using any of them, because there on the bed was the basket again, open, with the necklace inside. “Seem like you learnt somethin about when to hole your peace,” said Big Mama. “I know you been itchin to get your hands on my
eleke.”
That was an African word for necklace. “Fact that you managed to keep quiet about it one entire week mean you ready for this.”

It was only Oneida’s seeds; she recognized the scarf they were wrapped in. Was she going to have to put them somewhere else, now? Reluctantly, she set her pad on the bed and took them out of Big Mama’s hands, trying to hide her disappointment.

“Whynchou open it?”

Inside was another eleke, almost identical to Big Mama’s. The threads that bound the black and brown seeds together were whiter, the necklace itself not quite as long.

Hers. Her eleke. Made out of Mercy’s gift, the magic seeds from the Blue Lady.

“So. Ima teach you how to ask questions with one a two answers, yes or no. ’Bout what you
gotta
know. What you
gotta.
An another even more important lesson: why you better off not tryin to fine out every little thing you think you wanna.”

Oneida remembered her manners. “Thank you, Big Mama.”

“You welcome, baby.” Big Mama stood and walked to the room’s other end, to the mirror between her two altars. “Come on over here an get a good look.” Stepping aside, she pulled the black cloth off the mirror.

The reflection seemed darker than it should be. Oneida barely saw herself. Then Big Mama edged in behind her, shining. By that light, Oneida’s thick black braids stood out so clearly every single hair escaping them cast its own shadow on the glass.

“Mos mirrors don’t show the difference that sharp.” Big Mama pushed Oneida’s bangs down against her forehead. “Folks will notice it anyhow.”

Oneida glanced back over her shoulder. No glow. Regular daylight. Ahead again. A radiant woman and a ghostly little girl.

This was the second magic Oneida had ever seen. Mercy better believe me when I tell her, she thought. It was as if Big Mama was a vampire, or more accurately, its exact opposite. “How—” She stopped herself, not quite in time.

“S’all right. Some questions you need an answer.” But she stayed silent for several seconds.

“More you learn, brighter you burn. You know, it’s gonna show. People react all kinda ways to that. They shun you, or they forget how to leave you alone. Wanna ask you all kinda things, then complain about the cost.

“What you gotta remember, Oneida, is this: there is always a price.
Always
a price. Only things up in the air is who gonna pay it, an how much.”

No Mercy.

When Oneida got home from Detroit, her friend was gone. Had been the whole time. Not moved out, but run away. Mizz Nichols didn’t know where. Florida, maybe, if she had left to take care of Emilio like she was saying.

Mizz Nichols gave Oneida back the birthday card. Which Mercy had never seen.

The white people’s house next to Mizz Curtis’s was almost finished being built. Everyone was supposed to keep away from it, especially Cousin Alphonse. While she’d been in Detroit, unable to watch him, he had jumped into the big basement hole and broken his collarbone. Even with his arm in a sling, Aunt Elise had barely been able to keep him away. Why? Was it the smell of fresh cut wood, or the way you could see through the walls and how everything inside them fit together? Or just the thought that it was somewhere he wasn’t allowed to go?

No one wanted any trouble with white people. Whatever the cause of Cousin Alphonse’s latest fascination, Oneida fought it hard. She took him along when she walked Limoges to Vacation Bible School and managed to keep him occupied on Lincoln’s playground all morning. After school, they walked all the way to the river, stopping at Topoll’s to buy sausage sandwiches for lunch.

So successful was this expedition that they were a little late getting home. Oneida had to carry Limoges eight blocks on her back. Aunt Elise was already parked in front and talking angrily to Dad in the tv room. It was all right, though. She was just mad about the house. She thought the people building it should put a big fence around it. She thought one of their kids would get killed there before long. She thanked Jesus, Mary, and Joseph Oneida had enough sense to keep the others away from it.

But after dark, Oneida went there without telling anyone. Alone.

Below the hole where the picture window would go, light from the street lamp made a lopsided square. She opened up her green scarf and lifted her eleke in both hands.

Would it tell her what she wanted to know? What would be the price?

Twirl it in the air. Let it fall. Count the seeds: so many with their pointed ends up, so many down. Compare the totals.

The answer was no. No running away for Oneida. She should stay here.

Her responsibility for Cousin Alphonse—that had to be the reason. The Blue Lady made sure kids got taken care of.

Would Mercy return, then?

Yes.

When? Before winter?

No.

Oneida asked and asked. With each response her heart and hands grew colder. Not at Christmas. Not next summer. Not next autumn.

When? And where was she? There were ways to ask other questions, with answers besides yes or no, but Big Mama said she was too young to use those.

Finally she gave up guessing and flung the necklace aside. No one should see her this way. Crying like a baby. She was a big girl, biggest on the block.

“Yemaya. Yemaya.” Why was she saying that, the Blue Lady’s name? Oneida had never had a chance to tell Mercy what it was. It wouldn’t do any good to say it now, when no one was in danger. She hoped.

Eventually, she was able to stop. She wiped her eyes with the green scarf. On the floor, scattered around the necklace, were several loose watermelon seeds. But her eleke was unbroken.

Yemaya was trying to tell Oneida something. Eleven seeds. Eleven years? Age eleven? It was an answer. She clung to that idea. An answer, even if she couldn’t understand it.