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Authors: Marie Bostwick

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Chapter 1
1922
“
E
va,” Mama called from the kitchen window, “when you've finished picking the tomatoes, bring me in some of those cucumbers too. It's so hot I believe we'll just have salad and bread for supper. That sound all right to you? “
“Yes, Mama.”
“Don't forget to get all the ripe ones. Pick up the vines so you can see the little red ones underneath. You don't want to waste them.”
“No, Mama.”
Actually, I didn't care if I wasted them or not, but there was no use arguing that we already had more tomatoes than we could eat in a month of Sundays. The tomatoes were ripe and had to be picked. It was part of Mama's creed. Just as Papa had been firm that naming me was his right, Mama was firm that she be in charge of my religious and moral training, which included those good Christian virtues, hard work and thrift. On that score, Mama was working toward sainthood.
She saved everything: bacon fat, paper sacks, bits of twine, and the smallest scraps of leftover fabric that she kept in a bag and used to make quilts. When I was young it seemed silly, saving every little thing, but now I'm glad she did. If not, I would never have started quilting. Trying to imagine my life today without a number ten needle clasped in the fingers of my right hand would be like trying to imagine myself mute.
My first quilt was a wobbly-seamed nine-patch in bright spring greens and yellows. Mama kept a sharp eye on me, making sure I didn't throw away even the tiniest patches of leftover fabric, urging me to experiment with my own patterns where smaller and smaller bits of cotton could be used. Eventually, all those scraps became the mosaic of my imagination, but in the beginning I was just trying to please Mama. “Economy is nothing to be ashamed of, Eva,” she moralized. “I won't have you growing up to be a spendthrift.”
For years I didn't even know what a spendthrift was, but the way Mama said it made me pretty sure it led down the path to hell, so I stitched tiny patches and picked the vegetable plot clean, both without complaining, at least not out loud.
It was so hot that day. Our farm was never a particularly beautiful place, not like those clean and green farms from out East like you saw on Currier & Ives cards, where the barns were painted to match the privies and the sheep never got mud splattered on their wool. Nobody would have ever thought of making a picture postcard of our farm. The house was small, just four rooms before Morgan was born and Papa added on a third bedroom. Except for those few dustbowl years when it was impossible to keep ahead of the dirt, it was always clean and neat, with crisp blue gingham curtains that Mama took down to wash, iron, and starch every spring. We had a few pictures on the wall, an average number of crocheted doilies and painted china figurines, and far more books than our neighbors, but we weren't exactly weighed down with ornaments.
We were too poor to think of wasting time and money painting fences and outhouses. All the farm outbuildings, except the barn, were weathered silver gray. The barn had been an honest midwestern red at one time, but the pigments had faded so much in the sun and the prairie winds had blown so hard that the boards now mostly matched the color of the barnyard, a deep, dull mahogany.
The barn itself was too close to the house, and there was no yard to speak of. Every inch of ground was used to grow crops; there was none that could be spared for decoration. Of course, Mama always planted a few petunias by the front porch each spring, about the same time the wildflowers came out and dotted the hills with specks of pink, blue, and gold for a few precious weeks, but by July the sun had burned all the wildflowers to straw and Mama's petunias had grown leggy and brown in the heat. August was worse. In August even the house looked dusty and oven-baked, as though if the temperature rose one degree higher the chipped white paint on the siding would crackle and peel off like the skin of an onion and the little blinking windowpanes might shatter in the shimmering heat.
Normally I loved working in the diligently tended half acre that was our garden, the only green space for miles around. Working among the tender stalks and curling vines seemed to give rest to my eyes and soul, but that day it was too hot and the rows too long to think of gardening as anything but a chore. I wanted to lie down in the shade of our one big oak tree and ignore the vegetables; I knew I couldn't, so I picked up another vine and continued plucking at an epidemic of ripe tomatoes. At least I was outside, I thought a little guiltily. Mama was stuck in the house, standing over a mess of steaming canning jars, making sure every last one was filled with tomatoes against the coming winter. The shelves were already full of jars of stewed tomatoes, pickled beets, green beans, and yellow corn, but boxes and boxes of empty jars still sat on the kitchen floor waiting to be filled. How would we ever eat so many? And yet, come spring all those jars would be empty again, just like every year. I popped a tiny, fully ripened tomato into my mouth and crushed it against my teeth to feel the sweet, summery juice spill onto my tongue. Nothing ever changed, I thought with a sigh. Not in Dillon. Not to me. I wished it would.
With the taste of the wish and the summer still lingering in my mouth, I heard a faint, buzzing noise coming toward me, growing louder by the second. It was a sound I couldn't place, not like a bee or a locust, but more machine-like, though I knew it wasn't a car or a tractor.
The noise got louder, and I wondered if maybe I'd been in the sun too long and was going to faint. I'd heard of girls who fainted at school say their ears started buzzing just before everything went black, but I didn't feel dizzy. For an instant, a shadow shielded me from the sun, and I looked up to see a great sapphire bird soaring across the still, white sky—a flying machine! It moved so fast, faster than any car. I could see it clearly, right down to the riblike supports in each double wing and the cables that were strung between them. It was just like the planes I'd seen on the newsreels and in a book Papa had about the Wright brothers, but I'd never imagined them to be so loud and bright, vibrating like a living thing.
Mama stepped out onto the porch to see what all the noise was. We waved as the pilot dipped his wings and raised his arm to greet us. For a moment I could see him, his chin and the sharp line of his jaw jutting below a pair of goggles, like eyes on a grasshopper. In another moment he was gone, over the roof of our barn and toward the edge of the hill where Papa's fields lay. The humming grew fainter and fainter until it finally stopped and I remembered to breathe.
“Did you see that, Mama!” I marveled. “Did you ever see anything so fast?”
“I never did. That was something, wasn't it? Up in the air like that.” We both stood and watched the sky for an expectant minute until Mama murmured distractedly, “Well, this isn't getting supper on the table, is it? I still need those cucumbers, Eva. It's nearly five o'clock.”
“Yes, ma'am. Right away.” But I didn't move. I stood very still in the middle of the garden, holding my breath and listening for the hum of a plane engine, wishing he'd come back.
 
Twice in a day my wish came true. Suddenly, there he was, wiping his feet on our front mat as Papa held the door and urged him to come in and make himself at home.
I knew him. I recognized the tanned curve of his face clearly, as though he'd been standing next to me and not soaring two hundred feet overhead, but in the plane I hadn't been able to see how tall and slender he was. He was a good head taller than Papa, thin but strong, like a tree you could cling to in a hard wind. Papa was grinning even wider than usual, bursting with the surprise.
“Look what dropped out of the sky and into our field! One minute I was alone, minding my own business, and the next minute a flying machine appears out of a cloud and lands on the wheat stubble, easy as you please, right where I'd been working not an hour before!”
The young man smiled shyly and pushed a blond curl off his forehead. He was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen, tall and blond with serious gray-blue eyes and cheekbones so perfect they seemed chiseled out of marble and brushed over and over again with the scarlet feathers of some exotic, magical bird until they glowed pink and hearty. He smiled in my direction, showing teeth so white and straight they might have been crocheted in place, like one of Mama's lace doilies. My eyes clung to his face as though he were talking just to me. For a moment, I saw a spark of recognition in his eyes, like he remembered me from somewhere. I felt the same way. I'd known him for all my life, but I didn't realize it until just that moment. If only I could stand still and not move a muscle, maybe he'd leave thinking, “What a pretty girl.” Maybe that night he'd dream about me, as I knew I would about him. He broke our gaze and turned to greet Mama.
“Well, the landing wasn't as easy as I'd have liked, Mrs. Glennon. I'm afraid I bent your fence a little in the process. Did a fair bit of damage to the Jenny, too.”
“The Jenny?” Mama asked.
“That's my plane. She's a surplus trainer left from the war, a Curtiss JN4-D. Short name is Jenny.”
“Don't you worry about the fence. It was due for some work anyway,” Papa said offhandedly. “And if you need any tools to fix your plane, you're welcome to borrow anything I've got.” Still grinning, Papa took off his hat and sat down at the table. “Clare, I told this young man we'd love to have him to supper, that is, if we've got anything to eat.”
“I think we might come up with something. Eva?” Mama wiped her hands on her apron and shot me a look that said we'd need to scour the kitchen to find something suitable for a company supper. I didn't want to move. I didn't want him to see me walk, but I couldn't just stand there forever. Slowly, trying to be as quiet as possible, I limped to the pantry to see if there was any pie left from Sunday. I could feel his eyes following me, and I kept my head down, not wanting to see his reaction to my twisted gait. The thumping of my cane against the wooden floorboards seemed like a pounding drum in my ears. I was grateful when Mama spoke.
“Tomato salad and fresh bread and cold fried chicken sound all right to you, Mr ... ?”
“That would be wonderful, ma'am. Thank you. You can skip the mister, though. Everybody calls me Slim.”
He stayed at the farm, camping in our field next to his airplane for three nights. I didn't see much of him, but I thought about him all the time. Every hour it grew stronger, the feeling that I was being pulled toward him, inch by inch, and there was nothing I could do to stop it even if I'd wanted to. The breeze was full of sparks no one but I could feel. The night shimmered and crackled just because he was nearby, out of sight over the hill. I'd never talked to him, but I loved him. I knew it. I knew him. Better than anyone else ever could, ever would. It was real, like an electricity experiment we did in school showing how different things will or won't let a current pass through them. I was metal and copper wire, a perfect receptor for his every thought, dream, and longing.
He was full of ambition, I knew that, but it was the kind of ambition that didn't need an audience. He only cared to be tested against his own standard, because no other measure of merit could be as rigorous. He was a poet, saw music in the natural movements of life that other people missed, and wrote down his thoughts in a little book, transparent and completely honest because he thought no one else would ever see his words. I knew, too, that he was often afraid, but not of death or gravity. When he woke in the night, sweating and startled by the vapors of a bad dream, it wasn't twisted metal and flame that brushed across his memory, but a vision of a stretched white ribbon across his path, a finish line that he could never quite reach, no matter how hard he ran.
Oh yes, I knew him, every bit of him. Though I can't tell you how.
 
Two days later, the Jenny was fixed, and people started coming past our house, in trucks, wagons, on horseback, and on foot, to see Slim fly his airplane. If they were richer than we were and had five dollars to pay for the ride, they could even climb in beside him and see what Dillon looked like to the birds.
I watched the parade all day from behind the front-porch screen where I sat snapping the stems off a mountain of just picked pole beans. People waved as they went by, smiling and yoo-hooing like they were headed to a church picnic. I wished I could go too, but Mama had to get the beans into jars while they were still fresh. Of course, I wasn't missing all the fun. I'd seen Slim fly over five or six times that morning. Every time he did, my heart pounded with excitement and I craned my neck to see him soaring overhead like a proclaiming angel with a message just for me. Still, I longed to go out to the field with the rest of the crowd. Maybe just to see how an airplane got off the ground, to be where he was. Maybe to say hello.
Another cloud of dust rose on the road. It was Mr. Walden's ice truck bringing our order. My best and only friend, Ruby, was with him. I called to Mama that the ice was here and heard her shaking the baking-soda can she used for a bank, looking for a dime to pay for the ice. She came out onto the porch, smoothing her hair back, just as the truck pulled into our yard. Ruby leaped out of the cab and ran toward the house while Mr. Walden hoisted an ice block out of the back of his truck and onto his shoulder.

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