Fever Dream (5 page)

Petra tried hard to look ashamed. “It’s true.”

“My God,” Hannah cried. “My new best friend.” She swept Petra into an impromptu hug. “Do you have any idea how long he’s had it coming to him?”

Petra grimaced. “I have some idea.”

“Tell us everything,” said Suzanne. “How did he react? Did he go mad? Did he start raging at you?”

Petra turned out the back of her pointe shoes to dry. “He didn’t do anything. I think he knew he deserved it.”

They looked deflated to learn there hadn’t been a big scene.

“He was groping me, being sly about it,” Petra explained. “He said he was sorry and that he’d made a mistake.”

Suzanne snorted. “He’s made that mistake an arseload of times.”

“Yeah,” said Hannah, shaking her head. “And you’ll be his main partner, so you’ll probably be dealing with his ‘mistakes’ a lot.”

“You guys will still dance with him sometimes, won’t you?”

Hannah shrugged. “He’ll dance with Suzanne and some of the others, but not me. He has the option in his contract to dance with whoever he wants. He thinks I’m too tall. Whatever. I’m okay not dancing with Rubio. He can be a massive prick.”

“Aw, Rubio’s okay,” said Suzanne. “And you two will work out fine,” she added, looking at Petra, “because you stood up to him.”

Hannah gazed at Petra in rapt admiration. “I can’t believe you popped him. I heard you also called him Fernando.” She grabbed her head. “God, why wasn’t I there? I should have been there.”

Petra looked between the two dancers. “Why doesn’t he like to be called Fernando? It’s his name, isn’t it?”

“It’s his name, but we’ve all learned not to use it,” said Suzanne. “And here’s another helpful hint. Don’t accept any party invitations from him. Ever.”

Hannah burst out laughing and made a fake whip-cracking sound. “What?” Petra asked. “What do you mean?”

“I mean that he doesn’t go to your average parties.” Suzanne lowered her voice to a whisper. “Now you’re joining the company, you’ll eventually hear this around the water cooler, but your new partner’s as kinky as they come. He goes to this orgy-sex-party thing in Regents Park every weekend, at his pal’s big white house. I’ve never been brave enough to try to get in and see what goes on, but I hear Rubio’s an eyeful.” She waggled her eyebrows. “If you know what I mean.”

For a moment, Petra was struck dumb. Literally, she held her breath in a kind of shock. Rubio, kinky? Attending orgy-sex-parties? She put her hands on her cheeks and then ran them down her face.

“Hey, it’s okay,” said Hannah. “He’s not that scary. Just don’t follow him to any parties at big white houses.”

“And don’t get on his bad side,” added Suzanne. “He’s a Lord-Master-Dominant, from what I understand. I mean, you know, it makes sense.”

Hannah made another whip sound and they both collapsed into laughter. Petra managed a chuckle but inside all she could think was
Oh my God
.

She might have guessed he was a Lord-Master-Dominant, from the way he moved, the way he commanded the attention of those around him, even the way he beckoned her by thrusting out his hand. She knew a little about BDSM, but she’d never done anything aside from fantasize about being tied up. She wondered what Rubio was like when he did BDSM with his partners. Rough? Sensitive? Scary?

It didn’t matter, because she herself was not into BDSM and she’d never hook up with him anyway, because they were partners, not lovers, and when her mother had taken her partner as her lover, it pretty much ruined her life. Petra didn’t want to lose her career, her self esteem, her heart, pretty much everything to someone who turned out to be undeserving.

She owed it to herself—and the memory of her mom—not to repeat Hillary Hewitt’s mistakes.

By the end of the first week, Rubio was mentally exhausted. A new partner was bad enough. A new season, shakeups in the repertoire and line ups, all those things stressed everybody out, but he struggled with more than that. Something felt off inside his body. He wasn’t sleeping well. He dreamed at night about white-blonde hair that burned him when he touched it, and lightning-fast toe shoes skittering away, always out of reach.

Rubio felt challenged for the first time in years.

He ought to have been grateful for the challenge. Artistically, he was in a great place. Yves was happy, and the City Ballet patrons were happy, buying up tickets like crazy. Maybe he was happy. He couldn’t tell because Petra Hewitt made him so tired. When Ashleigh and Liam invited him for dinner, he almost said no, even though he enjoyed spending time with them. He knew they would ask him about his new partner and the
Romeo and Juliet
premiere, and he didn’t know what he’d tell them.
Yes, everything is well.
Yes, she is a dream to dance with.

Yes, maybe, a little bit, I am enamored of her.

“I can’t stand her,” he said to Ashleigh as soon as they brought her up. “Really, she is the biggest bitch ever.”

“Ruby,” Ash chided. “I heard she’s really nice.”

“She’s about as nice as someone who kicks dogs and drinks baby’s blood.”

Liam threw a piece of dinner roll at him. “Tell the truth. Everyone loves her. Yves told me rehearsals are going great.”

“Oh, speaking of Yves,” said Rubio, “he told me to ask if you and Ashleigh would be at the
Romeo
premiere.”

“Yeah, we’ll be there,” said Liam. “Mem too. The Saturday-night revels can wait until you arrive in your triumphant glory. Or...are you planning to take Petra out afterward for a romantic candlelit dinner?”

Rubio scowled at him. Take Petra out? He might as well sit across the table from a big block of ice. She was so cold to him, so standoffish.

“If you don’t want to come to the show, you don’t have to,” he said. “Is just
Romeo and Juliet
.”

“And the first time ever that Fernando Rubio and Petra Hewitt dance onstage together,” Ashleigh added. “Just in case you’ve been on Mars, it’s a big deal here in town. I saw one of your posters on the Tube. You looked gorgeous together.”

“Hm.” Rubio shrugged. “Probably, it will be okay. She’s a good Juliet for someone who kicks dogs.”

Ash made a face at him. “I’m sure Petra doesn’t kick dogs, although I heard some gossip that she bitch-slapped you during your first rehearsal.”

Liam burst into laughter. Rubio gave him an affronted look. “It wasn’t funny. It left a mark.”

“And you’ve never left a mark on anyone?”

“Not in rehearsal I haven’t.” Rubio rubbed his cheek, feeling the ghostly outline of her hand.

“Well, why did she hit you?” asked Ashleigh.

“Because I felt her up. Three times. Not even bad.”

“Is there a way to do it that’s not bad?”

“You miss my touching, huh?”

She shook her head at him. “You should be in jail by now.”

“I don’t mean to do it. It’s only that women’s bodies feel so good. So smooth and strong, and pretty.” Especially Petra’s, but he shouldn’t think about that right now. He eyed the gentle curve of his former partner’s waist. “How is the baby inside you? All okay?”

She put her hand over the barely visible bump. “Everything’s good, thanks for asking. I’m starting to feel little
jétés
inside me.”

“Oh yeah? Baby is dancing in there?” Ruby chuckled until he noticed Liam’s sober face. Liam had grown up in the bad part of L.A., kind of how Rubio had grown up in the bad part of Rio, only Ruby had a great mom, while Liam’s mother had killed all his brothers and sisters in a bout of postpartum depression. He knew his friend was worried about Ash having a baby, because he worried about her getting depressed too. “You miss dancing?” he asked Ash, to change the subject.

She shook her head. “I mean, I miss it, and I miss you sometimes, but I’m keeping busy doing other things. I help Liam with work and hang out with my old friends from the theater. That’s where I heard that Petra is not a dog kicker or baby blood drinker. Everyone thinks she’s great. Everyone’s also wondering whether Petr Grigolyuk will drop by at some point. He lives in London, you know.”

No, Rubio didn’t know. He didn’t care, except that Grigolyuk was Petra’s dad, so maybe he should care. “She never talks about him,” he said. “She never talks about anything. Just does classes and rehearsals and goes home.”

“She probably feels lonely, being new to London and everything,” said Ashleigh. “You should invite her over here sometime.”

“For the party?” Ruby allowed himself to imagine, just for a moment, his uptight partner tied to a BDSM rack, at the mercy of his sadistic whims. Naked, aroused, pleading for release...

“No, silly,” said Ashleigh, interrupting his fantasies. “Not for the party. For dinner.”

“Oh, yeah,” said Liam. “That’s a great idea. We’d love to have her. Just don’t tell her I’m paying her salary, because that might make things awkward. You haven’t told her, have you?”

Ruby didn’t think he had. Sometimes he wasn’t sure what he said to Petra. He got distracted looking in her eyes, because the color was so unusual, and they were so pretty, the way they slanted upward. “No,” he said after he’d considered a moment. “I’m sure I haven’t. Is none of her business. Or your business, if you want to finance the salary of a dog kicker.”

Liam rolled his eyes, reaching to pour more wine. “You’re having a blast dancing with the dog kicker. And I bet in her mind, you’re the one who kicks dogs and drinks baby’s blood.”

Ash put a hand over her belly. “Mind if we stop talking about drinking baby’s blood?”

Ruby picked up his wineglass as if to make a toast. “Whatever you say, Ash. But Liam’s right. Petra won’t come to dinner, she hates me. I think she wants to be...you know...at a distance from me. Detached.”

“Give it some time,” she said. “You’re a hard partner to stay detached from. When it comes down to it, you’re a love-him-or-hate-him kind of guy.”

“And you love me, yes?” he asked, batting his eyes at her.

“On occasion,” she answered, almost keeping a straight face. “But don’t push your luck.”

He laughed with her when she finally broke into a smile. Liam laughed along with them, but Rubio could sense his mind was elsewhere. Liam was stressed out, as stressed as Ruby himself. Maybe more. He wished he could comfort his friend, tell him everything would be okay with Ashleigh and her baby, but nothing was ever sure.

Even Petra and their partnership. It wasn’t settled yet. They still circled around each other offstage, outside the studio, unsure of their relationship. What if Ashleigh was right, what if he was a love-him-or-hate-him kind of guy and Petra decided to hate him? With any other dancer, he wouldn’t have cared, but with her...

He didn’t want Petra to hate him, cause he had a lot of feelings toward her that he hadn’t straightened out yet.

*** *** ***

Rubio’s hands felt hot on Petra. She felt hot all over.

They rehearsed alone in a cavernous studio with black walls, black as his eyes and his scruffy, glossy hair. They arched as one entity, then he kissed her on the neck. She shivered at the fleeting contact of his lips. She could feel his hard cock against her ass, pressing and poking through her leotard. The bare skin of his chest burned where they brushed against each other.

Like dripping wax, the black studio melted away into a sex dungeon with candles and cages and a pair of shackles hanging from the ceiling. “Down,” he said, pointing to the floor beneath the shackles. His face was drawn in stern lines. “Kneel down and raise your arms.”

Without thought, she fell to her knees and extended her hands upward. He fixed each of her wrists into the shackles and then he roughly gripped her neck. She gasped, aroused by his force. A rush of warmth flared between her legs. His fingers dug into her hair and then his leggings were gone, disappeared along with her leotard. His cock thrust hot and thick against her face. “Suck it,” he said in his languid Portuguese accent. “Suck me, you uptight little bitch.”

Oh, but... Why did he think she was uptight? In her fantasies she was sexy and adventurous—and oh, so horny for him. She opened her mouth and tried to fellate him but his cock grew with each passing second, until it was threateningly large, until it choked her.
Uptight little bitch...
She acted like a bitch to him, she supposed. She couldn’t help it. He scared her, he endangered her. He could destroy her if he wanted to.

He doesn’t want to destroy you, you uptight little bitch.

He wrenched her hair so she swayed on her knees, rattling the shackles. He forced her to take him deeper in her throat, but then the dark walls began to waver like a desert mirage.

“That’s a good little slut,” he crooned. “Suck me, yes. Just like that.”

Her mouth ached. He was too big and it was hot in the dungeon, so hot. She felt frustrated that she couldn’t make him come. Then a shrill bell sounded. It was some kind of alarm to signify that she wasn’t really kinky, that she’d never done BDSM before. Rubio scowled down at her, shaking his head in disappointment. He was disappearing, fading into thin air. “No,” she cried. “I’m sorry. Don’t leave me. I need you.”

Again, the shrill alarm bell. No, not an alarm bell, the phone. She came awake and dived to answer her cell on the bedside table.

“Hello?”

“Good morning, Miss Hewitt. Just letting you know there’s a delivery for you at the front desk.”

“Okay, thanks.”

She blinked down at the display and then at the clock. It was almost nine in the morning and she was lying in bed having revolting sex dreams about Rubio.
Ugh.
She threw off the covers and headed to the bathroom to shower. She was sweaty and aroused, like she was infected with some kind of fever. Rubio fever. The cool water ran through her hair and over her shoulders, relaxing her by slow degrees until she came to full wakefulness.

What in holy fuck was up with that dream? She’d been dreaming about Fernando Rubio for a week now, ever since they’d begun working together, ever since she’d learned he was a kinky pervert, but that was the most depraved one yet. The wavy melting walls and his ever-growing cock, and the way Rubio had talked to her... He wasn’t exactly a gentleman at the theater but he never called her a bitch or slut, at least not to her face, and certainly not with that edge of sexual menace.