Far from Xanadu (13 page)

Miz S drew a parallelogram on the board and I flipped open my note-book. Xanadu turned and smiled at me. I melted. She had on jeans today, plain old blue jeans. They looked sexy as hell on her, though. What didn’t? A light blue, V-neck, long-sleeved shirt exposed her cleavage — oh yes — and highlighted her hair — uh-huh — which was pulled up in a ponytail. She looked different. Like one of us.

I was too far away today, physically and mentally, to care about Geometry. Ratios or hypotenuses or Pythagorean theorems, what did they have to do with my life? Unless there was a connection I was missing to flare nuts or tag outs or trisets. A whole hour passed with-out me. When the bell rang, I glanced down at my notebook. I’d been doodling. One letter, X, filled the entire page. X X X X X.

She was waiting for me outside the door. “How come you didn’t call me last night?” She linked her arm in mine. My day suddenly took on meaning. “Did you lose my number?”

“No. I got home late.” I loved how she was always touching me, making physical contact.

“Heavy date?” She wiggled her eyebrows.

Right. She was so fresh in the morning. The afternoon. Evening. I realized I was staring and refocused ahead. Bailey stood at the end of the hall, talking with Skip and a couple of other guys. Bailey’s eyes traveled the length of Xanadu, taking her in. Deliberately, I pulled her closer, meshing our arms together.

“Hey, Mike,” he said when we neared.

“Hey.” I hitched my chin. “How’s it going?”

“Can’t complain.”

This was more conversation than Bailey and I had had since elementary. He’d been sitting in front of me all term and hadn’t said boo. I take that back. He asked once if he could borrow a sheet of paper for a quiz. Be still my heart.

There was a slight tug on my arm. Xanadu detached herself from me and hugged her books to her chest. “Hi, Bailey,” she said, her voice low and sultry.

“Hi,” he mumbled. He lowered his head. Then bolted.

Why? What’d he do, piss himself ?

Xanadu said, “Oh my God. He’s shy. That is such a turn-on in a guy.”

I could be shy. I was shy.

She added, “Should I call him? Do girls do that here? Call guys?”

How would I know? “Ask Deb Pastore,” I said.

“Deb? Oh, you mean that skank in our class.”

Deb wasn’t a skank.

“I asked Jamie if they were going together and he said no. Deb’s been after Bailey for years and he’s definitely not interested.”

Jamie and his big mouth.

“So should I?” Xanadu repeated. “Call him?”

We’d reached my locker and I drew a deep breath. Spinning my combination lock, I said, “Do whatever you want.”

Xanadu wedged her shoulder against the locker next to mine, facing me. Her books pressed against her breasts, heightening the cleavage. “What I want is for him to call me. Do you think you could give him my number without making it seem too obvious?”

I closed my eyes. Why was she torturing me?
I’d
call her. I’d call her every night. Unless it was too late. From now on, it was never going to be too late. I felt her eyes on me. Waiting, hoping.

“Sure, I guess.” I shoved my books onto the shelf. The promise welled up from some distant, detached place inside me. Whatever you want, Xanadu. Whatever you need me to do.

I did the evil deed at lunch. Moseyed by Bailey’s table and dropped a folded note onto his mound of mashed potatoes. Just like junior high. How weak. Bailey arched bushy eyebrows up at me.

“I’m only the messenger,” I said. The delivery drone who feels like hurling all over you. Blowing some chunks on those potatoes.

I didn’t stay to watch him open and read the note. I didn’t stay to eat. It was all I could do to keep my head up all the way out the exit.

Wakeeney was a respectable team. The score was tied 4-4, bottom of the seventh. I was up.

“Sza-bo. Mighty Mike. Sza-bo.”

The bleachers were packed, of course, this being a home game. Jamie led the chant.

T.C. was on first, two outs. I bounced the bat off the bottom of my cleat and took a practice swing. “Come on, Mike. You can do it,” I heard Gina holler behind me from the dugout. Rather, the lean-to. The rest of the Cougars stood at the edge, cheering me on. My stomach cartwheeled around the bases. Forget what I said about one player not determining the outcome. It was up to me to win this game.

I took my stance. Visualized a hit.

“Sza-bo. Mighty Mike. Sza-bo.”

The rhythm of the chant pulsed through my head. Wakeeney’s pitcher nodded, narrowed her eyes, and let one rip. Too high. Ball one.

I straightened and took a deep breath. Under the bill of her cap, the pitcher eyed me; tried to psych me out. Me, Mike Szabo. In your dreams. Casually, I removed my batting helmet and smoothed back my bangs. I smooshed the helmet back on. The pitcher began her windup and reared to throw. Just as she was about to release the ball, I held up a hand and called, “Time.”

The ump stepped out, throwing up his hands. The pitcher faltered, stumbling off the mound. The smirk may have registered on my face as I squatted to retie my shoe. When all the posturing was over, the pitch was dead center and

I smoked it. The crack of my bat echoed as the ball sailed over the heads of the infielders. Like they say in the movies, the crowd went wild.

I don’t usually grandstand or even look at the spectators when I cross the plate, but my eye happened to catch the motion of shimmering gold pompoms behind the backstop. Jamie. He was whooping and split jumping in the air. That wasn’t what interested me though. In front of him, at the fence, stood Xanadu.

She gazed into my eyes and smiled. My knees went weak. She stuck two fingers in her mouth and whistled, shrilly.

I cracked up. This girl was full of surprises.

She motioned me over to the fence. Hands were reaching through the chain-link and I touched fingers and palms on my way. Xanadu grabbed my wrist and held on. “I have to talk to you,” she said, urgency in her voice.

“Okay.” I waved to the crowd that was hailing me. God, I loved this game. “What is it?”

“Not now.” Xanadu lowered her voice. “In private.”

Private? My stomach fluttered. Just the two of us?

She said, “You’re a hero.”

A hero. Dad called me that. He was the only one who ever called me that. “Baby,” he’d say, “you were the hero today. Believe it. You’re going pro.”

Sure, Dad. Thanks to you I’m not. After our post-game hand slap with Wakeeney, Coach Kinneson cornered me in the dugout. “Have you talked to your mom about softball camp?” she asked.

I pretended to rearrange the stuff in my duffel. I’d pored over the brochures, front to back. The camp sounded cool. The stuff dreams are made of. Someone else’s dreams. The glossy folder ended up on Darryl’s stack of auto zines bound for the incinerator one of these years.

Coach said, “Mike —” “We can’t swing it.” I stood and slung my duffel over my shoulder.

“Are you sure? It’s such a great oppor —”

“I’m sure.”

“But Mike, there are scholarships.”

Was she deaf ? I crossed in front of her and jogged out onto the field.

I didn’t see Xanadu at the backstop anymore. A flash of red hair disappeared inside the Davenports’ hearse. She’d come with Faye and Leland. Jamie said in my ear, “She told me to tell you to call her. Bossy bitch, isn’t she?”

I sneered at Jamie. Everyone was congregating on the lawn to walk to the Dairy Delite for a victory celebration. It was tradition. T.C. called, “Mike, your banana split’s on us.”

“Next time.” I waved them off. “I have to get home.”

Jamie did a double take. “You’re refusing free food? Since when?” Jamie looked at me, through me.

Cram it. I wanted her cell to ring the minute she stepped in the door, the minute I got her alone.

“He hasn’t called me,” were the first words out of her mouth. “Are you sure you gave him the right number?”

“I gave him your note, like you asked.” I assumed her number was on it. Was I supposed to stand by and make sure Bailey could read? I was pretty sure he could.

She exhaled audibly. “Why wouldn’t he call?”

He wasn’t interested? Yeah, right. “Maybe he’s just busy,” I said. “With calving and branding and butchering baby animals.”

“Shit,” Xanadu hissed. “I hate this podunk town. Totoland. No offense, but your lives move in super slo-mo. You could die of stagnation here. How can you stand it? Okay. I’m going to call him. I’ll ask about our math assignment. We had one, right? Get him to talk. I know once we start talking, he’ll loosen up. If there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s talking. And coming on to guys.” She laughed.

My stomach felt queasy.

“Do you know his number?” she asked.

Silence.

“Okay, that was stupid. I just thought maybe you all knew each other’s numbers by heart. I hate to ask you this —”

“No,” I said. I wasn’t calling him. Not now, not ever. “Why don’t you look him up in the phone book?”

“The phone book? Oh yeah, huh?”

I could picture her crossing her eyes, tossing her hair over her shoulder, switching the phone to her other ear, maybe. Licking her glossy lips.

“Jamie was right,” she said. “You’re a kick-ass player.”

My head swelled. “Thanks.” She was sure chummy with Jamie lately. Probably because she saw more of him than me. They were in Journalism together, and History and Home Ec. Was it too late in the year for me to rearrange my schedule?

“Hey, why don’t the three of us go out and celebrate?” Xanadu said. “Like, on Friday night.”

The three of us, meaning her, me, and Jamie? “That’d be cool.” I’d rather it was just the two of us, but I’d take what I could get — for now. Let’s see, today was Wednesday. Count down the hours.

Xanadu exhaled relief. “Finally. I have something to look forward to. Promise me, no cow pies.”

“Ah, shucks.”

She laughed. I loved her laugh. She added, “I’ll get with Jamie and we’ll figure out how to celebrate you in style.”

Celebrate me? Nobody had ever “celebrated” me. Well, Dad. When I was heroic. He’d brag on me at home. And, come to think of it, Jamie’s mom. She’d baked a sheet cake for my sixteenth birthday in September and surprised me with it in homeroom. It was a little embarrassing, everyone in class singing to me. I’d made a wish and blew out the one big candle in the middle. It was a stupid wish. I knew it would never come true. You can’t bring someone back from the dead.

Chapter Twelve

J
amie and Xanadu were secretive, whispering behind my back all week, scheming. It made me nervous, anxious. They revealed part of the plan, that the party wouldn’t start until later, ten o’clock. Which was fine with me. I was scheduled to work the Merc Friday night.

I kept looking at my watch every few minutes during my shift. Flicking the crystal on the Timex to make sure the hands weren’t stuck. I was antsy to bail. Everett didn’t even have to remind me to sweep up before closing.

When I got home the house was dark. Darryl must’ve gone out, or gone to bed. His overactive lifestyle had to be exhausting. The truck was available, that’s all I cared about. I took a shower, then called Xanadu to let her know I’d be picking her up in a few minutes. Right after I stopped for Jamie.

“Change of plans,” Xanadu said, her voice lowered, conspiratorial. “Don’t come until eleven. I’ll have to sneak out, and Aunt Faye and Uncle Lee are still up watching TV. Don’t come to the house either. Meet me at the road.”

“Okay.” What was the problem? Wasn’t she allowed to go out? Now I’d worry all night she was going to get busted.

I called Jamie back to fill him in on the revised plan. He already knew; he and Xanadu had been in touch. At the designated time, I pulled up in front of his trailer to find him sitting on the front stoop, his cordless phone plugged into his ear. He leaped to his feet, disconnected, and tossed the phone through the front door. Shouldering his backpack, he skipped to the curb. Sly grin on his face.

“What are we doing tonight?” I asked as he climbed into the truck.

The grin exaggerated.

“I said —”

“I heard you.”

“Jamie, if you guys embarrass me —”

“Just drive,” he ordered. “That was Xana on the phone. She says Auntie Petunia and Uncle Fester finally went to bed, so she’s heading out. She’ll meet us by the power line.”

“Why didn’t she just tell them we were going out together?” Faye wouldn’t have minded. Would she? I got a weird feeling from Faye.

Jamie said, “That’d be too easy. I’m guessing it’s a game with her. She wants to see how far she can push it. I’m guessing she’s a girl who likes to flirt with danger. ‘Flirt’ being the operative word.”

“She shouldn’t be walking alone on the road at night,” I said. “Anyone could be out there.” Drunks, serial killers. It wasn’t always safe in the country. “Why didn’t you tell her to wait?”

“Far be it from me. Maybe if you rescue her from the Bogeyman, she’ll let you spank her.”

I flung a fist and slugged his chest.

He went all limp, feigning death.

She appeared like an apparition, her short white T-shirt reflecting the harsh glare of my headlights. Over the shirt she wore a long, lacy sweater, and tight red leather pants. God. I could take her now. Dump Jamie at the side of the road and celebrate in style.

I pulled up alongside her. The backpack crooked in her elbow looked heavy. What was with the backpacks? They didn’t tell me to bring my backpack.

Xanadu opened the door on Jamie’s side and he hopped out to let her in. “Hey, guys.” She grinned at Jamie — same evil grin as his. What were they up to? She had to scoot way over next to me because Jamie wedged his backpack and hers between them. Did he do that on purpose? Thank you.

“Where to?” I asked.

“The caboose,” Jamie answered.

“No way.”

“Just drive.”

“Jamie —”

“What’s the caboose?” Xanadu cut in.

Neither of us replied.

“Come on. What is it?”

Jamie leaned around her and smirked at me. “You’ll see.”

Kill you, my expression relayed. I didn’t want to go to the caboose. We hadn’t reached that stage in our relationship yet. If I did take her though, she might start thinking about it. Consider the possibility. I’d been thinking about it.