Fallen Angels 01 - Covet (33 page)

Which was a mess.

So much so, he paused for a moment. Her beautiful features were distorted by swelling on the cheeks, chin, and eyes; her lip was split open; and the purple bruising on her pale skin was like a stain on a wedding gown—ugly and tragic.

“It's that bad, isn't it,” she said, raising a shaking hand to shield herself.

“Jesus...Christ. Are you okay?”

“I will be, I think. They held me over because I have a concussion.”

As she tugged up the thin blanket that covered her, Jim eagle-eyed her hands. No bruising on the knuckles.

Which meant she didn't do this to herself and didn't—or more likely couldn't—fight back.

Staring at her, Jim felt his resolve shift around like it was trying to find level ground. What if...no, Vin couldn't have done this. Could he?

“I'm so sorry,” Jim murmured, sinking down onto the corner of the bed.

“I shouldn't have told him about you and me....” She snapped a Kleenex out of a box and carefully dabbed under her eyes. “But my conscience was killing me and I...didn't expect this. He broke off the engagement, too.”

Jim frowned, thinking last he'd heard, the plan had been for the guy to break up with her. “He asked you to marry him?”

“That's why I had to tell him. He got down on one knee and asked me...and I said yes, but then I had to tell him what had happened.”

Devina sat forward and gripped his forearm. “I'd stay away from him.

For your sake. He's furious.”

Thinking back on the guy's expression when he'd been talking about Devina's blue dress smelling like another man's cologne, it wasn't hard to imagine that was true. But there were parts of this situation that just didn't compute—although it was hard to think like that, looking at Devina's face... and her arm.

Which had a series of bruises that formed the shape of a man's hand.

“When are they letting you out of here?” he asked. “Probably this afternoon. God, I hate that you're seeing me like this.”

“I'm the last person you should worry about.”

There was a silence. “Can you believe where we ended up?” she said softly. No. On so many levels. “You got family coming to pick you up?”

“They're due here around one when I'm supposed to be discharged.

They're really concerned.”

“I can understand why.”

“The thing is, part of me wants to see him. I want to...talk this through. I just don't know.... And before you judge, I'm aware of how bad that sounds. I should just walk away, put as much distance as I can between us. But I can't let go that easily. I love him.”

The defeat in her was as hard to bear as the condition she was in, and Jim took her hand.

“I'm sorry,” he whispered. “I'm so damned sorry.”

She squeezed his palm. “You are such a good friend.”

There was a sharp knock and then a nurse came in. “How're we doing?”

“I'd better go,” Jim said. As he got to his feet, he nodded to the nurse and refocused on Devina. “Is there anything I can do for you?”

“Can I have your number? Just in case...I don't know...” He gave her the digits, said another good-bye, and took off.

As he left the ward, he felt the way he had on many of his military missions: Conflicting information, incomprehensible actions, unpredictable choices...he'd seen it all before, with only the vocabulary of names and locations changing.

Sifting through what he knew to be true, there were a lot of blanks to be filled, and more questions were raised than solid answers found.

As he got on the elevator and watched the numbers decrease until the readout showed an L, he fell back on training and experience: When you didn't know what was doing, you gathered information.

Back at the help desk, he approached the little old lady and pointed to the double doors he'd come into the building through. “Is this the only way out for patients?”

She smiled in that warm way—which gave him the impression she might make really good Christmas cookies. “Most of them leave from here, yes. Especially if they're getting picked up.”

“Thanks.”

“You're welcome.”

Jim went out and scoped the front of the building. There were a number of places to sit down and watch the exit, but the little benches between the bald trees that ran along the sidewalk didn't have enough cover. And there were no corners to duck behind.

He looked past the overhang of the porte cochere to the parking lot, wishing like hell he could find a spot—

At that very moment, an SUV backed out of a space that was two down from the ones marked with blue-and-white handicapped signs.

Three minutes later, Jim pulled his truck into the empty slot, killed the engine, and trained his eyes on the inpatient center. The fact that he had to look through the window of the minivan next door was the perfect camouflage.

He'd learned long ago that the information you got when you gathered in secret was likely to be the most helpful.

***

Robbie shouted down.

Checking her watch, she decided a more hands-on approach was needed to get them out of the house on time. Mounting the carpeted stairs one by one, her flats were quiet on the blue-and-maroon zigzag pattern. Like the rest of the decor, the runner was nothing she would have picked, but understandable for a high-traffic area in a rental house.

She found her son in front of his mirror, trying to get his mini-man tie to hang straight.

For a moment, she was overcome by maternal extrapolation: In a flash, she saw him standing gangly but strong on his way to his senior prom. And then proud and tall at his college graduation. And even later, in a tuxedo at his wedding.

“What are you looking at?” he said, fidgeting.

The future, she prayed. A nice, normal future that was as far away as possible from what the last couple years had been like for them. “Do you need help?' she asked.

“I can't do this.” His hands flopped to his sides and he pivoted to her in capitulation.

Coming forward, she knelt down before him and loosened the off-kilter knot. While she worked, he stood with such patience and trust, it was hard not to think of herself as at least a halfway decent mother.

“I think we're going to have to get you a bigger blazer.”

“Yeah...it's getting tight in the top part. And look...see?” Putting out his arms, he frowned at the way the sleeves rode up halfway to his elbows. “I hate it.”

She made quick work of the short strip of navy blue and red, not at all surprised he approved of the jacket's fit. Her son always liked dressing up in suits, and he preferred his shoes, even his sneakers, to be scuff-free. The same was true about everything he had: Open his drawers or his closet and the clothes were all arranged and hanging neatly; his books were lined up on the shelves; and his bed was never unmade unless he was between the sheets.

His father had been the same, always particular about how his clothes and his things were.

Her son also had Mark's dark hair and dark eyes.

God...she wished there were no part of that man in him, but biology was biology. And the stuff she really worried about, her ex's temper and meanness, had never been apparent.

“There, you're good to go.” As he turned around to inspect, she fought the urge to hug him hard. “Look okay?”

“It's much gooderer than I did.” She glanced over at him. “Sorry, Ferrer than I did.”

“Thank you.”

Staring at his reflection, she thought about the cost of new blazers...and shoes...and winter coats and summer shorts and tried not to panic. She could always waitress, after all. It wouldn't bring in nearly as much as she had been making...but it would be enough. It would have to be enough.

Especially when she moved them to a smaller city where rents were less. -

God...she didn't want to leave Caldwell, though—she truly didn't. Not after last night with Vin.

“We're going to be late, come on,” she said.

Downstairs, they coated and gloved up together and then got in the Camry. The morning was chilly, which meant the garage was an icebox, and the engine wheezed and sputtered.

“We need a new car,” Robbie said as she cranked the key again. “I know.”

She hit the garage door and waited as it revealed the drive and the world beyond. Backing out, she K-turned, punched the remote again, and took off for St. Patrick's.

By the time they got to the cathedral, there were cars parked all along the street, stretching for blocks. She drove around, checking out the illegal options, and settled on a corner slot that put the butt of her car in the breeze. Getting out, she walked around and measured how far her bumper was over the yellow-curbed no-parking zone.

'Bout two feet. “Damn it.”

As the cathedral's bells started to ring, she decided she was going to hope that if a policeman drove by he or she was either a good Christian or color-blind.

“Let's go,” she said, holding out her hand to Robbie, who'd come over. As his palm slid into hers, she started walking fast and he clipped right along next to her, his little loafers having to go twice as fast over the bare sidewalk.

“I think we're late, Mom,” he said breathlessly. “And it's my fault. I just wanted my tie to be right.”

She glanced down at him. As they rushed along, the top of his hair flopped to the same beat as his navy blue pea-coat did, but his eyes were unmoving: They were locked on the pavement and he was blinking too fast.

Marie-Terese stopped, tugged him to a halt, and sank down on her haunches. Putting her hands on both his arms, she gave him a little shake. “There's nothing wrong with being late. People are late all the time. We do our best to be on time for everything and that's all we can do, okay? Okay? Robbie?”

The cathedral's bells went silent. And a moment later a car eased by them. Then off in the distance a dog barked.

This had nothing to do with being late, she realized.

“Talk to me,” she whispered, putting her face in the line of his vision, even though she practicaly had to lie down to do it. “Please, Robbie.”

His words exploded out of his mouth: “I liked my own name better.

And I don't want to move again. I like my babysitters and my room. I like the Y. I like...here and now.”

Marie-Terese sat back on her heels...and wanted to kill her ex-husband. “I'm really sorry. I know this has been so hard on you.”

“We're leaving, aren't we. You came home early last night and I heard you talking to Quinesha. You told her you might have to make other arrangements.” The word
arrangements
came out
mermangements.
“I like Quinesha. I don't want other arrangements.”

Again with the
mermangements.

Looking at her son, she wondered just exactly how she could tell him that they had to move because she had the unshakable conviction that

“the bad times,” as he'd called them, were definitely back.

The car that had passed them before came around again, having evidently failed to find a place to park.

“I quit my job last night,” she said, getting as close to the truth as she could. “I stopped waitressing where I had been because I wasn't happy there. So I'm going to need to get another job somewhere.”

Robbie's eyes lifted to hers and he measured her face. “There are a lot of restaurants in Caldwell.”

“True, but they might not need help right now and I have to make us money to live off of.”

“Oh.” He seemed to be thinking the whole thing over. “Okay. That's different.”

Abruptly, he relaxed, as if what had been bothering him were a helium balloon that he'd just released into the wind.

“I love you,” she said, hating that precisely what he'd been worried about was in fact happening. They were leaving for reasons other than her “job.” But she didn't want him having to carry that burden.

“Me, too, Mom.” He gave her a quick hug, his little arms not reaching even halfway around her. Still, she felt the embrace through her whole body. “You ready?” she said roughly. “Yup.”

They fell back into hustle mode, jangling their way over to the cathedral and up its broad stone steps; then sneaking in through its massive door. Inside the vestibule, they removed their coats and she took a program from the greeter who was positioned in the narthex.

At the man's urging, she and Robbie headed for one of the side doors and ghosted down to a pew that was fairly empty.

Just as they sat, the call for children to come forward for Sunday school went out. Robbie stayed right with her, though. He never went off with the other kids—had never asked to and she'd certainly never suggested it.

As the priests and the choir got the service rolling, she took a deep breath and let the balmy warmth of the church seep into her. And for a split second, she imagined what it would be like to have Vin sitting with her and Robbie, maybe on the far side of her son. It would be nice to look over Robbie's head and see a man she loved. Maybe they would share a secret smile as couples did from time to time. Maybe Vin would have been the one to help with Robbie's tie.

Maybe there would be a daughter between the bookends.

With a frown, Marie-Terese realized that for the first time in nearly forever, she was daydreaming. Actually fantasizing about a pleasant, happy future. God...how long it had been? In the beginning with Mark...that was how long.

She'd met him at the Mandalay Bay casino. She and her girlfriends, who'd all turned twenty-one the same year, had flown to Las Vegas for their first girls' weekend out of town, and she could remember how ready they'd all been for their taste of truly grown-up freedom.

As she and her friends had futzed around with one-dollar bets on the cheap side of the velvet rope, Mark had been at a high rollers' table in the VIP section. After he'd caught sight of her, he'd sent a waitress to invite them into the deluxe section—where the drinks were free and the lowest you could wager was twenty dollars.

At first, she'd assumed it was all about Sarah. Sarah had been, and no doubt still was, a six-foot-tall blonde who somehow came across as naked even while fully clothed. That girl had been a man magnet, and given how many candidates she had to choose from, she'd had very high standards. And what do you know, someone who could afford high stakes was definitely up her alley.