Everything Changes (16 page)

   “Why are you sniffing my top?” he asks when he walks in, crap. I didn’t even hear him come in.

   “It smells like you
” I shrug and take it away from my nose.

  He shakes his he
ad and climbs in the bed beside me.

   “Are we snuggling tonight?”

   “Makes it sound really girly Cass. I will cuddle you like I always do but no funny business. After that kiss my control is near breaking point” I nod and give him my best innocent look. Not that he can see properly with it dark in here.

  I wiggle over and lay my head on his chest.

   “I have a song for you” I say.

  He sighs.

   “Don’t you want to let me listen to it in the morning?”

   “
It technically is morning, silly” I slap his chest playfully.

   “So what is this song then?”

   “
Christina Aguilera – Not Myself Tonight
” I sigh. I roll over and look for my phone.

   “Did you pick up my bag?” I ask in a panicked tone.

   “It’s in the living room, Cass. Just listen to it on my phone” He hands me his and I go on YouTube and get the song up. We listen quietly.

   “Well you’re definitely
not yourself tonight, why did you drink more than normal?” he asks when the song is finished. I shrug my shoulder. “Ok another question, why did you kiss me?” I don’t do anything why did I kiss him? I know I shouldn’t but it was more out of impulse.

   “I don’t know, I just had the urge to
kiss you, I couldn’t fight it anymore” I sigh and make circles with my finger on his abs. I run my finger over the defined bumps.

   “What made you come over and talk to me at Pulse?” I ask quietly. It’s always had me wondering.

   “You are different. I knocked into you accidently and instead of falling at my feet like girls normally do you shouted at me. Your eyes drew me in too. They are like the colour of melted chocolate”

   “Were
you there to get pissed or to get laid?”

   “Honestly a little of bo
th” I nod.

  My hand seems to have a mind of its own, it starts going lower and lower with me making patterns on him.

   “You’re getting a little too close, babe”, he says in a low voice. The back of my hand brushes against his erection.

   “Cassie
”, he says in a warning tone.

   “Sorry, sorry
” I move my hand away.

  I think of both the kisses in the pub. He’s a really good kisser. I move my head a little and stick my tongue out and lick his chest.

   “Did you just lick me?”

   “Just a little
I was curious, you tasted good when you kissed me I wanted to see if anywhere else tasted as good”

   “And do I?”

   “Yep, but I want to taste something else. My mouth waters to taste it” he groans.

   “Cassie, I told you my
self control is hanging on by a thread here” I shuffle a little and start making circles again.

   “You
need to take the edge off, Cass”, he says in a low voice.

   “My fingers are not going to cut it tonight, T
y. I’m aching for you not my vibrator for you. I had a very real dream the other night that you fucked me. It felt so good to have you inside me, even if it was a dream” He moans. He moves so he is looming above me. He crushes his mouth to mine, I open my mouth and he slips his tongue inside my mouth. This kiss isn’t gentle it is full of pent up lust and frustration. I move my legs and wrap them around his waist and he grinds his erection against my core.

  We continue to kiss and grind, I scratch my nails down his back and a growl rumbles from his chest.

  He moves his hand and cups my breast though his t- shirt and rolls my nipple between his thumb and forefinger. I break away from the kiss and moan. He moves his mouth down to my neck. He licks a path from the bottom of my ear, not before scraping his teeth across my ear lobe. He licks down to my collar bone and sucks.

  The little bit of stubble he has on his jaw
scraps across. I know I’m going to have little marks from it but I don’t care, it feels so good. He shifts so he can get the top over my head.

  As soon as the top is over my head he sucks a nipple into his mouth and moans. While he sucks on one nipple his hand still plays with the other one. He moves his hand down to my knickers and pulls them off and chucks them somewhere.

  “I can smell your need for me”, he groans out and moves his fingers. The pad of his thumb brushes my clit, I nearly leap of the bed I’m so sensitive.

  I move my hand in-between us and grip his erection through his shorts. He hisses between his teeth. I slip my hand into his shorts
and slide my hand up and down his cock.

  He moves his head so he can suck my other nipple in his mouth, he swirls his tongue around the tip and grazes his teeth slightly. I give his erection a firm squeeze and he moans.

   “Stop or this will be over before I’ve even been inside you” I take my hand away and move my lips across his jaw and down his neck.

  He lets go of my nipple with a pop and moves down my body so I can feel his warm breath on my over sensitized clit. Before I can even tell him to do something his mouth is on me. He circles my clit and moves his hand so it runs down my thigh. He lifts my thigh so it’s over his shoulder so I’m more open for him.

   “I knew you would taste so good, but this is better than I thought” He sucks my clit into his mouth and I moan his name. He brings his hand down and plunges to fingers inside me.

   “
So fucking tight squeezing my fingers, you’re going to fit me perfectly when I sink balls deep inside you” He moves his fingers and finds that spot inside me that makes you see stars. He flicks his tongue over my clit in quick little strokes and I cry out as I come all over his fingers.

   “That
’s it, baby squeeze my fingers”

  Once I come down for my orgasm the first tho
ught in my head was, my vibrator really wasn’t cutting it.

  Tyler kneels up between my legs. He got rid of his shorts at some point.

   “You ready for me, babe?” he asks while stroking his cock slowly.

  I don’t know if it’s going to fit. He looks a lot bigger than before.

  He moves and drops down so he rests on his forearms either side of my head. I can feel the head at my opening, he moves slowly so just the head is inside. He hasn’t taken his eyes off mine the whole time. He moves so a little more goes inside me. He feels so good but really big inside me already my muscles clench around him.

   “You’re squeezing me so tight
and I’m not even half way in” he whispers down to me. Not half way in?

  He moves again and fills me with more this time. Ok he must be nearly all the way inside now.

  He gives one more quick thrust and fills me completely I feel the air get pushed out of my lungs quickly. He doesn’t move for a couple of seconds and looks down at me. I can see the restraint on his face. I wiggle my hips to let him know it is ok to move, he groans. He moves one arm and hooks my leg around his hip it feels so much deeper like this. I squeeze my inner muscles around him.

   “I’m sorry,
Cass. I can’t be gentle anymore” Well at least he gave me a bit of warning. He pulls back and slams back inside me. I squeeze my eyes shut. Fuck.

   “Open
. Your. Fucking. Eyes. I want to see you”, he says, he pulls back and thrusts back inside me. I open my eyes slowly and look directly into his eyes. He groans and moves faster.

   “You feel so good, Cass
” He kneels up in between my legs and pulls my hips off the bed. I wrap my other thigh around his hip. He pounds into me with hard thrusts. He grabs my hand and places it on my clit.

   “Rub yourself for me” h
e growls out. Fuck. That voice does things to me. I clench.

   “You re
ally do like my voice like that”, he says in a low voice, he speeds up his thrust. I’m guessing I missed out on this with the other two blokes I’ve slept with. They hardly lasted a couple of thrusts before they would be grunting out their release.

  I move my fore
finger and middle finger in circles over my clit. I can feel myself getting ready to come again.

  
“I’m going to come again, Tyler”, he groans. I love watching his face the pleasure etched on there, knowing it’s me that is doing it.

  I move my fingers quicker. Shit.

   “Come. Now!”, he growls out and I come so hard I think I stop breathing. He slams inside me a couple more times and roars out his release. Well that is a sight.

  I can still feel his cock twitching inside me, it causes me to clench. He stares at me with his chest heaving.
He pulls out of me slowly and I moan. I lay there trying to catch my breath. How can I be out of breath? I didn’t do anything.

He lies
beside me. He doesn’t put his shorts back on and I don’t put my clothes on. He pulls me so my back is flush up against his front. He runs his thumb back and forth over my stomach.

   “Don’t hate me, p
lease” Tyler whispers. I frown he waited until I’m half asleep to say that?

  Why would I hate him?

  I drift off to sleep thinking what Tyler said.

Cassie

 
It’s been a couple of days since Saturday night I wouldn’t say I’m avoiding Tyler. Well that makes it sound like I’m lying. I am avoiding Tyler. I’ve had hundreds of texts and phone calls from him.

  It sounds selfish but I just can’t face him. What makes it worse I snuck out of his place while he was still sleeping on Sunday morning. I’m no be
tter than what Georgina said. I am a home wrecker.

  I
didn’t even cook Sunday dinner my brothers grumbled but didn’t say anything bad. I stayed cooped up in a coffee shop down the road. I know if I had stayed at home he would have found me.

  I walk up to the doors at the library when I see Tyler standing there. Shit. I knew i
t was only a matter of time until he came here.

  I make my way to the doors slowly when he spots me. He glares at me.

   “Why the fuck haven’t you been returning my calls or texts, or anything I’ve sent you! I’ve been round your house and your brothers say you’re not there”, he growls at me. He stalks over to me, he’s breathing hard. I’m surprised there aren’t flames coming out of his mouth.

  “I needed to think
” I go to walk around him but he holds my arm, not tight enough to hurt but enough to know he is pissed.

   “
Think? Why because of what happened Saturday? It was inevitable Cassie! I’m not saying I planned it but I didn’t think you would go running either! Shit Cassie. I’ve been going out of my mind because I couldn’t find you” He runs his hand through his hair.

   “Tyler. I didn’t want to run,
you’re my friend, but you’re still engaged” He looks at me in disbelief.

   “Really Cassie you didn’t want to run.
Then why the fuck did you?” I look away from him and stare at the library doors.

  He grabs my chin and makes me look at him.

   “We need to talk properly. No running. I will see you on your lunch” He lets my chin go and stalks to his car. If I was paying more attention I would have noticed it.

  I open the doors and close them behind me, I’ve still got a little while before I open up. I’ve been coming here early to avoid him because I knew he would turn up at some point.

*

Lunch time comes around too quick for my liking. I grab my bag from the back room and walk to the door.

   “Why don’t you have the rest of the d
ay off? You look tired and pale” Helen says from behind the counter. I wave her off.

   “Its fine, Helen I promise
” She shakes her head.

   “I’m not taking no for ans
wer. I will see you on Thursday” And with that she walks off. I stand there in shock. I’ve got the rest of the day off and tomorrow. Shit. I can’t even use the excuse of I’ve got to get back to work now.

  I walk out the doors and look around. I see Tyler leaning against his car with his arms crossed. He still doesn’t look happy.

  I walk over and smile sweetly at him, hoping it will sweeten him up a little.

   “Don’t give me that lo
ok. We are still talking it out”, he grumbles and opens the door for me. He is pissed off at me but still acts like a gentleman. I climb in the car and put my bag in the foot well.

  He climbs in beside me and looks at me.

   “What time have you got to be back at work?”

   “Thursday
” I shrug and look out the window. Oh come on Cassie your being childish now. He did say his control was at breaking point but I still pushed him.

  He nods and starts the car. This is going to be one fun day.

   “Are you going to ignore me the whole time?” Tyler says when we get to his.

   “I di
dn’t realise I was ignoring you” I huff and walk up to the front door. I want to slap myself right now. Jesus Christ.

 
I’m lifted off my feet and slung over his shoulder. He walks in the door and closes it.

   “I can walk you know!” I slap his arse. At least I get a good view while
I’m like this.

  He moves me and sits down on the sofa and leaves me on his lap.

   “You’re not moving until you’ve told me why you ran, why you didn’t answer my phone calls or texts and until you stop acting like a child” He places his arms around me so I can’t move. At least he didn’t trap my arms down too.

   “
I’ve already told you I needed to think” I sigh and accept that I’m not moving anywhere. I don’t want to either.

   “
Not good enough”, he growls. I narrow my eyes at him.

   “
What do you want from me?” I throw my hands up in the air.

   “I just told you!” he cocks an eyebrow and smirks. Normally I love that look but at the moment I want to slap it off his face.

   “Fine!” I huff and look away from him. I mentally shake myself. I’m just proving to him that I’m being childish. He moves his hand so it brushes my ribs and I jolt.

   “Oh, no you don’t
mister! You’re not tickling me”

   “Are you going t
o stop me? You seem to be stuck” He sounds smug. He moves his hand again. But this time he doesn’t just brush, he moves his fingers relentlessly over my ribs. I squeal and wriggle around on his lap trying to find some reprieve.

   “Please
I’ll talk, I’ll do anything just stop tickling me!” I wheeze out. He stops and stares at me. He wants me to talk right now? I move again and rest my forehead against his shoulder.

   “The guilt was suffocating. It’s my fault that your control sna
pped because I was horny and my alcohol riddled brain wasn’t taking no for an answer. I feel like I failed my nan, she taught me not to do anything with a taken man and I slept with you” I whisper. I don’t think he heard me when he wraps his arms around me tighter.

   “Cassie, like I said before it was inevitable. Did you really think the amount of sexual tension there was between us that we wouldn’t slip up at some point?
I mean come on Cassie, we can’t have a normal conversation without either one of us getting horny or there is this sexual innuendo”, he says in a low voice. It’s hard to believe he was spitting mad earlier. This is my Tyler.

   “I was hoping we had better self-control than that, or maybe you would be able to get out of this shitty engagement before
you slipped in any of my holes”

   “Any of your holes, a
re you saying there isn’t a hole I couldn’t go in?” his cock twitching against my arse tells me he likes the idea.

   “That’s all you got from that? That I would let you fuck my arse?” he inhales sharply.

   “That is my point Cassie, it’s like we have a no holds barred policy. We have conversations that I would probably never talk to my friends about” I sigh and move my head so my cheek is on his shoulder.

   “
You didn’t pee on me”, he murmurs. What? I look up at him and give him my best what the fuck face. “You told me next time I tickled you, you will pee on me just to teach me a lesson and you didn’t pee on me” He gives me a smug smile.

   “
There is still time” I smile.

   “You wouldn’t dare
”, Tyler smiles at me. He’s right I probably wouldn’t. I smirk and close my eyes.

   “So is that the reason why you avoided me?”

   “Yes” I sigh.

  We sit silently, all you can hear is each other’s breathing. I sigh and sit up to look at him. He has his head tilted back so it is resting on th
e cushion with his eyes closed. I know he isn’t sleeping but he just lays there.

   “Enjoying your perving?” he mummers out. Perving?

   “I’m not perving. I was just watching you”

   “You look tired
” I muse while tracing my finger along his jaw.

   “I am tired l
ooking for you is tiring work” I sigh and stand up from his lap. I hold my hand out for him to take.

   “Where are we going?” he frowns.

   “Bed” I say simply and move my hand for him to take it again. He closes his fingers around my hand and gets off the sofa. I lead him towards the bedroom. I walk in and walk over to the bed I strip out of my skirt and heels and leave my top on. I look at Tyler and see him just staring at me.

   “Are you going to lay down with your jeans, top and shoes on?” he shakes his head and peels out of his clothes. Shit, I forgot he goes commando. I turn to face the bed and climb underneath the covers. Tyler puts on a pair of basketball shorts and climbs in beside me.

   “I think I’ve screwed myself over. I can’t sleep properly without you beside me or lying on top of me” He says in a low voice when we have got ourselves all comfy. My leg is bent across his thigh he’s got his hand resting just above the knee. My arm is thrown over his chest and my head is lying on his shoulder. His arm is around my back and he’s running his fingers back and forward on the bottom of my back. I let out a sigh and close my eyes.

  I haven’t been sleeping well without him either. Maybe this wasn’t such a good idea after all.

****

  I wake with a start. I’m not sure what woke me up but my heart is hammering against my chest. I lay quietly listening to see if there is any noise. I hear a phone going off.
It’s not my phone, because that isn’t my ring tone.

  I turn my head and look at Tyler. He is still sound asleep snoring softly. The room is in complete darkness, Shit how long hav
e we been asleep? It was light when we laid down, neither of us bothered to shut the curtains. I remember my bag being left in the living room so I can’t even check the time on my phone.

  His phone starts making a noise again. I shift and roll over to look at Tyler.

  “Tyler, your phone is ringing” I shake him gently. Not even an eyelid flutter. Maybe the gentle approach wasn’t the way to go. I smirk and suck in a big breath and blow in his face. He frowns but still doesn’t wake up. Jesus Christ what did he do knock himself out?

  I lean over and press my lips to his. He stirs and kisses me back. I pull back and look at him. His dark eyes are looking at me. I can just make the outline of his features.

   “Why did you wake me? It’s not morning”, he grumbles and flops on his back. I love that he gets a little grumpy when he is woken up shows he’s human.

   “I wouldn’t be awake if it was
n’t for your phone keep on ringing”

  He sighs and rubs his eyes. His phone starts ringing again. He grumbles something I can’t understand and sits up. He gets up and walks over to his jeans and grabs his phone from his pocket.

   “Hello?” he doesn’t look at the screen before he answers. He flicks on the overhead light and nearly blinds me.

   “Giv
e me a bit of warning next time” I grumble chucking my arm over my eyes to shield the harsh light.

   “It was Cassie… what is it to do with you? I’ve told you and she has told you we are friends… no
I don’t want you to come round” Just from hearing his side of the conversation I can guess, that it’s Georgina.

  I take my arm away from my eyes and see Tyler tense standing by his jeans.

   “No... I don’t care what you heard”, he says in a low voice. The anger in his tone has me on alert. Somehow he gets even more tensed, he’s like an elastic band about to snap.

   “Tyler, come back to bed
I’m lonely” I say loud enough for her to hear on the other side of the phone. He pulls the phone away from his ear, I can hear her shouting.

   “What the fuck was that? I don’t know if
you’ve made it better or worse” He has a look of shock and disbelief on his face.

  I shrug. “She was obviously say
ing something to piss you off so I thought I’d get my own back” I cover my eyes again.

   “It was a joke Georgina. Jesus Christ. Don
’t get your knickers in a twist” he sighs and rubs his forehead.

   “No it isn’t
” I say it quieter this time so she can’t hear me. I smile and look at Tyler and see he is smiling at me.

   “Yes… okay… n
o… whatever, bye” He shakes his head and ends the call.

   “How the fuck am I going to marry her? I can’t stand hav
ing a conversation on the phone” He walks back over to the bed and sits against the headboard. I look up at him and smile.

   “You’ll be okay m
aybe get some earplugs” He laughs softly. I close my eyes again and sigh. He shifts, I crack one eye open to see what he is doing, he has lay down beside me.

   “You f
orgot to the turn the light off” I grumble playfully. He sighs and gets off the bed and turns the light off again. He climbs back on the bed again.

   “Happy?”

   “Immensely so” I snuggle into my own hand. “What did she ring you up for anyway?”