Every Soul a Star (21 page)
I know it’s not what he wants to hear, but I shake my head. “The storm isn’t going anywhere for a while. The thunder and lightning are very close together, that means we’re right in the middle of it.”
Jack takes a breath and nods in grim acceptance. “Well, no matter what we do, I’m NOT painting my nails!”
“Don’t worry,” I tell him. “It’s not for painting nails. It’s for painting the lenses of flashlights red.”
“Oh,” he says, clearly relieved. “Well, that I would do.”
“We should save our flashlight batteries,” Kenny suggests. “In case something happens and we really need them.”
We agree to leave one running at all times. Otherwise it would be pitch black in here. The moon is less than a quarter full tonight, and behind all those storm clouds, it isn’t shedding any light.
“We should call down to Mom and Dad,” Kenny says. “To tell them we’re staying the night.”
“Okay.” I hand him the walkie-talkie. He hands it back. I forgot he is still giving them the silent treatment.
After a few beeps, Dad picks up. I ask if we can stay the night, and to let Melanie’s parents and Ryan’s grandfather know. I glance over at Jack. No one is expecting him back tonight. Without Mr. Silver, he’s really on his own. I’ll just have to look out for him myself. I have to repeat my request a few times before Dad hears me. The wind howls, and I shiver. Even though I’m cold and wet and disappointed that we can’t do the experiment tonight, I’m glad I’m not spending the night in my bed.
Jack gives me a smile as I sit down, almost like he’d heard my thoughts.
“Let’s tell ghost stories,” Kenny suggests, grabbing the sleeping bags. We lay them out on top of the concrete floor and settle back down.
“I’ll start,” Ryan says. “Now if anyone gets too scared, you let me know and I’ll stop.” This time both Melanie and Kenny kick him in the shins. He takes the one flashlight and shines in under his chin. He looks very eerie. When we were younger, Ryan’s grandfather and mine used to compete to see who could tell us the scariest ghost stories. A pang goes through me. I hope Grandpa knows how much I wish he were here.
In a sinister voice, Ryan says, “It was a cold and rainy night. Five kids were stuck in an abandoned shed in the middle of the woods. A man with a hook for a hand was spotted in the area. The children were afraid. They were very, very afraid.”
I shiver again, and so does Melanie. We catch sight of each other doing it, and share a smile.
“Hungry and scared, these kids were so far away, no one would ever hear them scream. They kept their ears out for any noises outside, especially the rattling of a hook on the door. They tried to stay awake, but one by one they succumbed to sleep. But they had forgotten something.”
We all lean forward. His eyes narrow and he says, “They had forgotten to lock the door!”
At that very second, seriously, that very second, the door of the shed bangs open. We all scream and scramble backward, including Ryan who drops the flashlight.
Outlined in the flashing of the lightning is a figure, but we can’t see its features. It sweeps its tangled hair off its face and says, “Hey, guys, room for one more?”
6
“Why so jumpy?” I ask, stepping out of the rain into the warm, dry shed.
“Bree?”
Melanie asks, surprise and relief mixing in her voice. She turns to Ryan and puts her hands on her hips. “Did you guys plan this?”
“Plan what?” I ask, squeezing into the circle between Ally and Ryan. Everyone is staring at me. You’d think they’d seen a ghost.
“Your entrance,” Ally says, looking from the door to me and back again. “Ryan was telling a ghost story, and then you . . . right at the . . . oh, never mind. Now that I say it, it sounds kinda dumb.”
Melanie jumps up and hugs me.
“What was that for?” I ask, peeling her off of me.
“You came,” she says. “I can’t believe it.”
“How did you get up here?” Ally asks, peering at me closely. “The path must be so slippery. Are you hurt anywhere?”
“And the lightning!” Ryan adds, seeming genuinely concerned. “What were you thinking?”
I don’t know how to answer. Yes, it was slippery. And muddy. And really, really dark. Basically it was the scariest thing I’ve ever done in my life, and I’ve had my legs waxed by a twelve-year-old (Claire, last year). But I couldn’t stay in that cabin alone. Mom and Dad were at the main house, learning about running the campground. I was just sitting there on the floor, surrounded by all my clothes, and it hit me how out-of-place it all was. All those bright colors were a welcome sight, and it felt good to touch fabrics other than boring cotton. But my wardrobe belonged to someone else. Someone who I don’t get to be anymore. It was like I was looking at the clothes of a dead person. How can I explain how that felt? The goose bumps that ran down my arms and legs. The sudden tightness in my throat that made me feel like I was choking. How can I explain that after sitting there for an hour, not moving, I got up, carefully packed most of my clothes back into the boxes so they’ll be ready for me when I, like Frankenstein, am brought back to life, and then headed up here?
So I shrug and say, “I figured you guys needed me.”
They all laugh, which is better than them saying they
don’t
need me, which I know is really the case. “So aren’t we supposed to be finding a planet or something?”
“Rained out,” Kenny says. “We get to try again tomorrow night.” He looks longingly at the huge bulky object in the middle of the room, which I figure is the telescope. Drops of water are slipping off the silver cover and forming a puddle underneath it. This is definitely different from sleepovers with my friends. No one’s painting anyone’s toenails, no pictures of models are being torn from fashion magazines, and I haven’t thought of rating anyone even once. Whenever my friends are together it’s usually up to me to organize the activities. But now I feel like I interrupted something. “So you were telling ghost stories?”
“Ryan was just telling us about a guy with a hook for a hand who haunts campgrounds,” Jack says. “We thought you were him. You didn’t see him on your way up, did you?”
A few years ago I might have believed him. Jack seems different than when I first met him a few days ago. He’s less shy, and not as pasty. Of course that could just be the lack of light in here.
“You didn’t happen to bring any food with you, did you?” he asks.
“Or dry clothes?” Ally adds.
I shake my head. Honestly, I hadn’t thought this thing through. I only had a general idea where the shed was from Melanie’s description. It wasn’t raining like this when I left. I had no idea the path or the hillside would be so treacherous. I actually had my flip-flops on at first and turned back around for sneakers. I’ll keep that part to myself.
Jack divides his Milky Way bar into six pieces and passes them around the circle. I hand mine to Ryan. “Bad for the complexion,” I explain.
“But good for the belly,” he replies, popping it in his mouth.
One minute everyone (except me) is happily eating their chocolate, the next minute Ally bursts into tears. And not ladylike, glide-silently-down-the-cheek-type tears. Messy, snotty, gulping tears.
At first we’re all too stunned to say anything. “Did I miss something?” I ask.
“I don’t want to leave the Moon Shadow!” she says between sobs. “I’ll never make it out there. I don’t want to live somewhere I have to worry about my complexion!”
“Not everyone worries about that,” Melanie insists.
“Yes, they do,” I say.
Melanie glares at me.
“Well, it’s true!”
“I don’t want to leave either,” Kenny declares.
“Me either,” Jack says so quietly I almost didn’t hear it.
“And I don’t want to stay,” I said. “But something tells me you guys already know that.”
We all look expectantly at Melanie.
“I’m happy either way. Here, there, it’s all okay.”
I shake my head. “You’re hopeless.”
Ally continues to cry. I dig into my pocket for a tissue, but all I find is lipstick and a movie stub. This just makes her cry harder.
Jack passes her a napkin. She takes it and blows her nose. I don’t think I’ve ever in my life blown my nose in front of anyone. It’s never pretty, even when
I
do it.
“We’ve got to help each other,” Jack says firmly. “That’s all there is to it.”
“We already tried,” I explain. “We had all these great plans to make our parents change their minds. It didn’t work at all.”
Ally sniffles loudly. No one says anything for a few minutes as the rain continues to pelt down on the roof.
Eventually Ryan says, “Um, I don’t mean to sound obnoxious or anything, but have you all tried just accepting it? You know, making the best of things?”
I give him a glare that would make most boys shudder. “That’s easy for you to say. Your biggest problem is what position you’ll get on the football team.” As soon as it’s out of my mouth I wish I hadn’t said it. Ryan’s been good company these past few days. It’s not his fault that he doesn’t have any problems.
He breathes in sharply. “Just so you know, my life isn’t always easy. How about the fact that I have a dad who I’m pretty sure hates me, and that my grandparents who practically raised me just got a divorce? But I try to make the best of things, and that’s all I’m suggesting.”
Great. Now I’m the jerk. “I’m sorry. I didn’t realize.” But in my defense, he had never mentioned his parents to me, or told me much about his grandparents other than to say he came out here with them every summer.
Ally stops sniffling and her swollen eyes open as wide as they can. “Your grandparents got divorced? Can they do that at their age?”
“Of course they can,” he replies.
“But why?”
“When I asked, they just said something about drifting apart. But I heard my grandmother on the phone a few weeks ago, and she said she was tired of taking care of someone. She said fifty years was long enough. She lives with her friend Shirley down the block now. Grandpa was pretty down for a while, but I think he’s going to be okay. He has a lot of friends from his astronomy club, and I go over to visit a lot.”
“I just can’t believe it,” Ally says. “Why did you tell me that story about the bridge tournament?”
“That’s what she asked me to tell everyone. I guess she doesn’t want people to judge her. I really felt bad lying to you.”
“My mom heard she was sick and that’s why she’s not here.”
He shakes his head. “Nope. She says she’s going to travel to the next eclipse somewhere in the Pacific Ocean.” He squirms a little on the sleeping bag, obviously uncomfortable talking about it. Turning back to me he says, “But this isn’t about me, it’s about you guys. Can’t you just help each other? You know, tell the other what they’ll need to survive in the new place?”
I grunt in reply, but I have to admit it’s not the worst idea I ever heard. Ally and Kenny look glum but don’t argue. Jack picks at a loose thread in the sleeping bag, like he wants to say something, but can’t make himself say it.
“How about you first, Bree?”
“Fine.” I pause for a minute to think about what I want to say. “Okay. Here’s the thing about going to a real school. The only way to survive is by being popular, and you have to —”
“That’s not true!” Melanie interrupts. “Don’t tell them that!”
“When it’s your turn you can say whatever you want. I’m telling them how I see it.”
She grumbles but lets me continue.
“As I was saying,” I say with a glare at Melanie, “you have to learn the rules of the school. You have to figure out who the popular kids are, and why they’re popular. Each school will be different. In some schools the popular kids are the rich kids, or the best-looking, or the ones on a certain sports team. You’ll need to find this out before school starts so you can be prepared.”
“Wait a second,” Ally says, her eyes still rimmed red. “How can I be prepared? I won’t fit into any of those groups.”
“You don’t have to
really
fit in with them, you just need to make them
think
you do. You can pretend you played a certain sport at your old school, but now your parents are making you focus on schoolwork so that’s why you’re not playing now. Or you can say you just moved from Beverly Hills and lived next door to movie stars. As the new kid, they’ll try to put you in a category right away. Your job is to make sure it’s the one you want.”
Ally turns to Ryan. “Movie stars? This isn’t helping.”
Kenny says, “I don’t know, it sort of makes sense. Like if I go in there on the first day and try out for the math team, then I’ll be known as this math wiz, and no one in the entomology club will take me seri-ously.”
“The
what
club?” I ask.
“Entomology,” he repeats. “The study of bugs.”
“Who told you there’s going to be a
bug
club at your school?”
“You mean there won’t be?”
Jack and Ryan shake their heads. I don’t even trust myself to respond.
“Is it my turn yet?” Melanie asks.
“Yes, please!” Ryan says, shooting me a look.
“Sheesh,” I say, pulling my sweatshirt tighter around me. “I was just trying to help.”
“Okay, so let’s say there are no bug clubs at your school,” Melanie says with a lot more patience than I could have mustered. “Then you can start one. That’s the great thing about living in a big town. You can do so many things. My sister might be a little obsessed with being popular, but she’s right about kids wanting to put you in a box.”
Kenny freezes.
“Not a
real
box,” Melanie quickly assures him. Kenny breathes a sigh of relief.
“The trick is that as long as
you
know who you are, and what makes you happy, it doesn’t matter how others see you.”
I snort.
“It’s true,” Melanie argues.
“Yeah,” Jack says, “if you want to get teased all the time.”
Melanie shakes her head. “Kids respect you if you don’t show fear. They think you know something they don’t.”
“Which is what?” Kenny asks.
I find myself leaning forward a bit to hear her answer. Jack does the same.
