He had vague plans of using the money he’d make from this job to start something straight. Buy some tools, start working carpentry or something like that. But he wasn’t about to go fully clean. He didn’t really want to leave the grimy life behind. He liked making money from drugs, from illegal shit. It made him feel high. He’d been doing it most of his life, and he wasn’t about to quit now. He didn’t really care for carpentry all that much.
Gloria Ocampo showed up exactly at eight. She was slightly plump, nothing like Raymond had expected. He had pictured a club girl: skinny, with tight jeans. Gloria
was probably in her fifties. She had dark circles under her eyes that made her look tired. But she was still pretty; she dressed nice, and she smelled good, too.
When she came in she looked the room over like she was making sure nobody else was there. Then she walked to the one window and looked out into the light well.
“You just got out?” she asked, turning back around. She had a strong accent, just like Arthur had said.
“Just today,” Raymond said, feeling a wave of embarrassment at the poorness of the room. He wiped at his face.
Gloria dug into her inside jacket pocket and pulled out a folded sheet of paper. When she handed it to Raymond he saw that there were three hundred-dollar bills inside—crisp and clean, the faces up.
“That’s all I have now, but I give you more later,” she said.
Raymond shrugged and put the money in his back pocket. He realized he was thirsty, and licked his lips. He wanted to ask Gloria if she was Arthur’s girlfriend, but he worried that she’d think he was hitting on her. He looked at her body instead, imagined having sex with her, then looked away, aware of the silence. He could feel his heart pumping in his chest; it occurred to him that he might already be in over his head.
“How’s Arty?” Gloria asked. Raymond had never heard anyone call him that before.
“He’s fine.”
“What he say you doing here?”
The curiosity on her face, the intensity of it, struck Raymond for a second. “He wants me to look in on one of your partners,” he said. “Make sure everything stays clicking.”
She nodded. Then she walked back to the door, which was still cracked open, and closed it. “Don’t say anything stupid,” she said, pointing at her ear and then at the ceiling. “But what’d he say about this partner?”
“He said the boy was acting reckless,” Raymond said.
“Shadrack’s not a boy,” Gloria said, shaking her head. “And he’s not acting reckless. He’s acting crazy. He’s acting like one of these homeless men that shouts at walls. You know this kind of crazy? A lot of people are not happy with him, Mr. Gaspar.” She looked at Raymond for a moment, made sure he was listening. Then she continued.
“These people, they want to know if you’re the right man to take care of this. You know what I mean? They don’t want you to start something and then decide that you can’t finish it.”
This wasn’t what Raymond had been expecting. He’d thought Gloria would meet him with resistance, say that Shadrack was fine, that she didn’t need his help. Raymond hadn’t heard of any other people. He didn’t know what to think of this news, but he felt his interest tick up. He watched her for a second and reminded himself not to get too eager.
Sit, breathe, wait.
“I’m worried about it,” Gloria went on. “I’m worried he’s going to ruin the entire arrangement. You fix that. You come at the right time.” She raised her eyebrows and looked into Raymond’s eyes searchingly.
He felt his neck get warm. “Well, that’s why I’m here,” he said. He prided himself on his ability to read people, and right at that moment his bullshit detectors were sounding.
“Tell me now,” Gloria said. “Why’d Arthur send you?” She turned her head, worked at removing something from
her teeth with her tongue, and turned back to him. “As opposed to that other guy?”
Raymond didn’t know who she was talking about. “I guess he thinks I’m a people person,” he said. “I guess he thinks I got a gift for fixing problems. Truth of the matter is I couldn’t tell you. You should ask him.”
Her face did something resembling a smile when she heard this. “Tomorrow’s Sunday,” she said. “On Monday I take you to get a new ID.” She raised her finger like Raymond had protested. “I take you to get an ID. Arthur told me to. On Tuesday you go to Shadrack’s house and we’ll see what kind of people person you are.” Her face transformed itself into a friendly thing. She said good-bye, and left.
As soon as she was gone, Raymond sent a text message to Arthur. An inmate named Duck held a phone for him in prison.
New number. Met your girlfriend. She on one.
On Monday, after checking in with his parole officer, Raymond went back to his room and texted Gloria. She picked him up in a tan minivan driven by a silent young Asian man with a thin mustache. The driver barely looked at Raymond when he got in. There were crumbs on the floor of the van, like someone had been tearing up loaves of bread. Raymond sat in back, feeling stressed by all the activity around him.
They drove to an industrial neighborhood lined with barbwire in South San Francisco. A few semitrucks sat parked and quiet on the shady side of the road. When the van stopped, Gloria handed him an envelope and said it contained seven
hundred dollars. She told him to give it to a man named Javier.
“Don’t worry,” she said. She pointed at the building. “Go on.”
There was a garage door open. The place looked like an auto-body shop. Inside Raymond noticed a bank of security monitors within an office on the right. He saw himself in black and white on one of the screens. Farther in, two men stood hunched, working on the door of a car. One of them sensed Raymond standing there, and turned.
Raymond said he was looking for Javier. The man said something in Spanish to the other man, who walked over to a doorway toward the back.
What the hell am I doing this for?
Raymond thought.
The man who’d spoken stood there smiling and nodding like they’d shared some kind of joke. Then he shifted his eyes toward the lot. Raymond told himself to calm down. He took a deep breath, let his shoulders relax.
After a short time another man came from the back with his eyebrows raised. He wore blue coveralls, like the other men. He had the look and walk of a convict. Raymond pulled out the envelope and handed it to him.
“Who sent you?” the man asked, in a casual way. He opened the envelope and counted the money with his head tilted.
“Gloria,” Raymond said, pointing without conviction over his shoulder.
Javier walked Raymond into the back room and had him stand against a blue backdrop. A camera was already set up on a tripod. Javier looked through the viewfinder, adjusted
the tripod, adjusted the camera, and snapped three pictures of Raymond. The flash from the camera popped with each shot.
“Real cards with holograms,” he said. “We’ll call you when it’s ready.”
As Raymond walked back out to the car he realized he hadn’t given Javier his number, but he kept going.
“What the fuck was that for?” he asked when he got back into the van. He felt genuinely angry.
“Got to have a backup plan,” said Gloria. She was using the passenger-side visor mirror to apply wine-colored lipstick. She didn’t stop what she was doing to look at him.
They rode without talking all the way back to the Mission. Raymond had an uneasy feeling in his gut; it felt like a test of wills. He didn’t like having his picture taken. He didn’t like being told what to do, either. He remembered Arthur saying how crafty Gloria was and he wondered if he’d just been played.
Before he got out, she handed him another envelope, this one holding a thousand dollars. His silence suddenly felt immature, but he realized that’s exactly how she wanted it. “It’s from Arthur,” she said.
“Well, thanks,” Raymond said. For a moment, he felt, inexplicably, like crying—but it passed.
“Fifty-six Colby,” Gloria said when he got out. “Five-six Colby, C-O-L-B-Y. Got it?”
“Fifty-six Colby,” he said.
“That’s Shadrack Pullman’s address. Go see him tomorrow evening.”
Colby Street was off Silver Avenue. Raymond took a taxi there, which, after four years in prison, felt luxurious. He arrived about an hour before the sun set. The house was plain, a box on a block filled with similar-looking ones. He stared at it for a moment and then made his approach. There was a garage on the bottom, with a gated front entrance beside it and stairs leading up to the living area. Plastic blinds covered the windows on the second floor. The walls were dirty; even on a rundown block, they stood out.
Raymond felt nerves swimming in his stomach as the doorbell buzzed upstairs. After a few moments, he heard the metallic sounds of locks being unbolted, chains being undone, and finally the door—around a corner and out of sight, at the top of the stairs—being pulled open.
“Who is it?” called an angry voice.
“It’s Raymond Gaspar,” he said. “Arthur’s friend.”
Silence. Raymond studied the stairway, noticing dust and hair on the ground, dark smudges on the walls. He felt his heart speed up a little.
“What’s the password?”
Gloria hadn’t mentioned any password. “Arthur,” he said, trying his best to sound confident.
During all the talk about Shadrack Pullman, Raymond had never been told how he looked. The man coming down the stairs now must have been about six feet four, 180 pounds. He wore loose jeans and no shirt, and he had long hair, though the hair up top was receding a little. He was white, Raymond thought, but there was something Asian-looking about his face. No, not Asian, Raymond remembered. Native.
He was angry. Raymond couldn’t tell if he’d heard what he’d said, so he repeated it once the man had reached the bottom of the stairs.
Shadrack came right up to the metal gate and looked down at his visitor. Raymond took a step back.
“Arthur’s not the password,” Shadrack said.
His eyes seemed speedy; he was looking at Raymond wrong, focusing behind him. He held his face tight, scanning the block to see if Raymond had come alone before settling his eyes back behind Raymond.
“They call you Ray, Raymond, or Raymundo?” he asked.
“Well, Ray, or Raymond.”
“Shit, then come on,” he said, opening the gate. “Get on up.”
Raymond walked in past Shadrack and up the stairs, then turned and waited. Shadrack waved him forward. In his mind, Raymond pictured throwing an elbow at his host’s throat if the man tried anything. The doorway led to a living room. The lights were off, but a huge television played a nature show with the volume muted. As Raymond’s eyes adjusted, he saw that the room was cluttered with stacks of books, with boxes and newspapers. A female mannequin leaned against the wall in one corner, bald and white. She had been drawn on with a marker; it looked like a child had scribbled out her breasts and face. The house smelled dirty.
“Shh—turn,” said Shadrack.
Raymond turned. The man held a pistol in his hand. Raymond felt a pulse of fear, but he stayed still, and as he focused on the gun he saw that it wasn’t real, that the barrel was solid. Still, he didn’t like it; his heart beat hard in his chest.
“Give me your driver’s license.”
Raymond reached into his front pocket, felt for the rubber band that served as his wallet, separated his state ID from his money, and handed it over. Shadrack stepped back into the doorway so he could use the daylight to see it. He looked from the card to Raymond’s face and back again. The gun hung loose in his hand.
“Raymond Gaspar,” he said. “You’re the one Arthur sent?”
Raymond nodded. “He told me to check in on you,” he said. “Make sure everything was cool.”
“Do I look like I need help?”
“No, not you,” said Raymond. “You seem all right.”
“What’d you do? You was his bodyguard, in Tracy?”
“Something like that.”
“You don’t look like a bodyguard, though,” Shadrack said.
“Well, I’m more gifted at thinking than fighting, if that’s what you mean.”
“So you’re a deep thinker?”
“Just as a way of saying that I’m not a great fighter.”
Shadrack raised the gun toward Raymond’s head and pulled the trigger. A burst of water hit him in the neck.
Anger spread through Raymond’s stomach and chest. Where he’d been for the past handful of years, that was grounds for a fight. He was ready to rip the man apart. In the darkness, he felt his face turn red.
“I’m just playing, boy,” Shadrack said, tossing the gun to Raymond. “Shoot me if it make you feel better.” He stepped in front of Raymond, holding his hands wide in surrender.
Raymond could smell the man’s underarms. He turned away, and set the gun down on the TV.
“Take your shirt off,” Shadrack said.
Raymond waited.
“You gonna take your fucking clothes off before we talk about anything. You heard me?”
The door clicked, and the room lit up. Raymond turned in time to see Shadrack lock two dead bolts, then set a metal police lock at a 45-degree angle to the floor. Raymond’s eyes swept over the room. A real sawed-off shotgun lay on a table against the wall, closer to Shadrack than himself.
“Let me tell you something,” said Shadrack. “Where I’m from, a stranger show up at your house, it’s the stranger’s duty gotta prove who he is, not the other way around.” His voice dropped down to a whisper. “I’m sure you understand if your shyness is outweighed by my need for caution.”
Raymond watched the man breathe, watched his chest fill up with air and empty.
“I already got my shirt off,” said Shadrack. “Shit, you might be wearing a wire, boy. Feds, Gloria, they all listening. Now take your hands and pull out your pant pockets.”
Raymond did as Shadrack said.
“Pull your pockets out, good. Turn around.”
Raymond turned, and Shadrack stepped forward to pat the back pockets of his pants.
“Put that shit down on the floor.”
Raymond took his room key and money from his back pocket and dropped them onto the carpet. Shadrack reached into his jacket pockets next, then opened the coat and fingered the breast pocket.
“Take off your coat. Drop it there.”