Embrace (Evolve Series #2) (23 page)

I don’t want to leave. I want to stay and talk, ask
questions, smell her, tell her all kinds of things, but she’s done.

“Bye, Mom,” I choke out, refusing to end my first
visit crying. “See you.” I reach out to her hand and squeeze.

She squeezes back.

“
H
ow’d it go?” Sawyer hustles up the walk to
sling an arm around my shoulder.

“Good, I guess.”

I have nothing to compare it to, but I assume it
went pretty well.

“You’re pale, Gidge. You okay? What happened?” His
arm pulls me tighter to his side and he kisses the crown of my head. “I’ll
drive, come on, girl.”

Sawyer helps me in the truck. All that I register is
that he drives and there’s no music. Outside of that, I’m in a daze. It’s like
that head in a bottle feeling, like when you have a really bad ear infection,
and I can’t quite shake myself out of it.

“Are you close with your mom?” I randomly spurt out,
shattering the long silence we’ve been traveling in.

“Nope,” he pops out effortlessly.

“Do you miss her?”

“Maybe I miss having
a mom
, but I’d rather go
without than have her version.”

“What’s her version?”

 I have no filter…must be delirious from the “ear
infection.”

“A cranked out, slap-happy whore.”

Damn. He must be having pseudo-auditory problems as
well. Aren’t we just a truck full of eloquence?

“Sawyer…” I had every intention of chastising him,
but it just came out sympathetic and weary. “I’m sorry I asked.”

“No worries, Gidge. So sum up today’s visit with
yours for me.”

“My mom’s not unkind or
bad
, her mind just
doesn’t work like other people’s minds do; she can’t help it. She thought she
was doing us a favor by leaving.”

I realize, with those few words, that I’ve forgiven
her. I saw it firsthand today; she didn’t take off to travel or bag a different
man and start a new family. She lives in her room, her world, thinking of me
and trying to capture small pieces of what she had to let go so that I could
have normalcy…whatever that means.

“What about your dad?” I ask him.

“No idea.”

I could definitely have it worse. My dad is better than
the best, and he never strapped me with an evil stepmother.

“Sawyer, I love you. Dane does, too. The whole Crew.
You know you always have us, right?”

“Yeah, Gidge.” He turns his head and flashes me a
Sawyer smile full of deep blue eyes and dimples. “I know. Don’t go feeling
sorry for me over there. I’m all good.”

It’s the first lie Sawyer’s ever told me, but I
don’t call him out on it. Instead I let it be, laying my head against my
window, counting the rises and falls of my chest; I’m all talked out.

“
L
aney?”

Go away, talky dream thing.

“Gidge, wake up.”

My eyes open, Sawyer’s face looming over mine while
he shakes me awake.

“Huh?” is all I manage. I guess I fell deep asleep
on the way home.

“Do you trust me, Laney?”

“Huh?”

“You’re kinda a zombie when you wake up, aren’t ya?”

I’m coherent enough to take in Sawyer’s laughter at
my disillusioned state. “Where are we?”

“Airport. Do you trust me?”

“Yes, Sawyer,” I bark, not appreciating the
onslaught of weird vibes and questions upon just waking. “Why are we at the
airport and why do you need my trust?”

“Come on, I’ll explain on the plane.” He grabs my
hand and helps me out of the truck.

Oh, ok, sure,
let me just board a plane with
you to God knows where immediately following the most emotionally-charged day
of my life.

Is he high?

“Sawyer, stop! Explain now, you’re freaking me the
fuck out.” I snatch my hand from his and dig in my heels.

“I’m not kidnapping ya!” He turns with a smug smirk
that desperately needs wiped off his face. “Relax, I’m trying to help you, all
of you. I swear, sometimes it really seems like you and Dane are one soul split
in two bodies. You guys even unknowingly play your major drama cards on the
same day. But then again, you tell each other nothing; not the big stuff
anyway. You guys confuse the hell out of me.”

He. Is. Exasperating.

“Can you try that again, in say, English?” My
shoulders droop and I sigh loudly. “What are you
talking
about?”

“I found Dane. Should have clicked sooner, but, like
I said, you guys both have major breakthroughs and shitstorms on the same damn
day, so it didn’t. Your boy’s had a big day and he needs you. I’m taking you to
him.”

“Where is he?’

“Connecticut.”

Just around the corner; sure, let’s go. I wonder if
my current friends know there are actually people in the world who have to wait
for other people to pick up a phone or drive home because they don’t have
private planes on standby.

Seeing as how I am staring at a plane, stairs down
and ready to whisk us to Dane’s rescue, I guess not. “We’re flying to
Connecticut?”

“Yep.”

“How’d you find him? That’s his plane, isn’t it?’

“Group effort and yes, one of them. I called Tate,
Whitley, you name it, while you were visiting, and we finally fit the pieces
together. Tate got us the flight and a car waiting on us, Whit tracked down the
address where I’m sure we’ll find him. Now all I need is you on the plane.”

I slacken my stance, letting him pull me towards the
awaiting plane now. He didn’t say he talked to Dane, which tells me we’re
swooping in unannounced. If Whitley knew, and he’s in Connecticut, this is
something about his past; his life before Georgia.

Seems my love spent his day with his own ghosts.

“Okay, let’s go.” I square my shoulders and board,
ready to go uncover another part of Dane.

Chapter 24

Haunted

~Dane~

L
aney’s got to be worried sick. I’ve
ignored her calls and texts all day, like the coward I am, sitting here in my
car hiding from everyone. I simply can’t talk to her right now. I can’t be who
she thinks I am, her strong and capable man. Not today.

Samantha walks out the front door of the house I’ve
been staring at for hours and I fold down lower in my seat, praying she doesn’t
see me. She hates me and I don’t blame her. I have a new life in Georgia where
an unbelievable girl loves me, my brother thrives, and I have all that money
can buy while she’s still here, dealing with the life I forced upon her.

So strong, resilient, loyal, loving—Samantha is an
angel. Her brown hair is pulled back from her face, her beauty obvious even
from here. She still looks as young and gorgeous, but her gait and carriage
show she’s tired, strained from years of carrying my burden.

She won’t accept my help, my money, my calls;
nothing. I’ve been buried along with everything else she can’t think about; the
hurt, anger, and betrayal is too much. I want to jump out, run across the
street, and beg her to let me help her, but instead I watch from afar, the
shrinking coward, as she struggles to unload the wheelchair from the back of
her car.

Chapter 25

Positive

~Laney~

I
gasp as the wheels touch down on the
runway; it gets me every time. We’ve just landed in Connecticut after the
shortest flight ever, giving me not nearly enough time to drag any helpful
information out of Sawyer.

He believes what he’s doing is right, of that I am
100% sure, but I can’t help but be apprehensive. I’m not real big on walking
into monumental situations blindly and uninvited, and Dane obviously doesn’t
want me to know, or need my help, seeing as how he didn’t trust me with the details
of whatever it is he’s doing today. So yes, my mouth goes dry and my stomach
rolls trying to guess what I’m about to find.

“Sawyer, are you sure about this?” I ask him for at
least the tenth time.

“Do you love him, Laney? The stand by and support
him through anything kind of love?”

I do, without a doubt I do. There are some things I
wouldn’t stay through, though. If I find him with another woman, I’m gone, but
I know bone deep that’s not what’s going on with him today. Dane wouldn’t do
that, I know it just as I know I’m breathing right now. So whatever it is, yes,
I’m beside him.

“Absolutely.”

“Then yes, I’m sure. Now come on, let’s go save your
man.”

Chapter 26

‘Bout to Need Jesus

~Dane~

S
he reappears about thirty minutes later,
Andy now in the wheelchair that she pushes to the car. Why won’t she let me pay
for a nurse to help with these kinds of things? Does Andy even know I’ve
offered? He’d accept, want her to have some help.

One of the wheels gets caught on the edge of the
walkway, and as if in slow motion, I watch the chair tilt, tipping to one side
on two wheels, as Sam fights with all her might to keep it upright. Unwanted
but needed, I fly out of my car and across the street.
Hold on five more
seconds, Sam.
I make it just in time to grab a handle and turn all four
wheels flat on the ground.

Six eyes, three heaving chests, one heartache.

None of us speak, flinch or move a single muscle for
long minutes.

But, much like a woman, she can hold it no longer.

“Why the fuck are you here?” Sam hisses, hatred
radiating from her every pore.

“Honey, don’t,” Andy lays a hand on her arm, “don’t
be someone you’re not.”

“You needed help. I didn’t want him to fall.” Even I
wince at my poor choice of words, but Sam gasps, her head snapping back like
someone just slapped her. “I mean, it looked like—”

“Shut up!” she screams at me. “You don’t get to show
up once a year and play hero! We don’t need your help!”

“Sam, sweetie.” Andy, helplessly watching from his
chair, tries to calm her. “Please go inside, let Dane and I talk alone. I don’t
want you upset. Please,” he begs.

“No, no,” she shakes her head, “don’t listen to him,
Andy.
We
have nothing to say to him, it’s you and me, babe. He’ll trick
you,
buy
you. I won’t let him!” She’s screeching now, barreling around
his chair straight at me. “This is all your fault, you asshole!”

“Not another step or you’re going down.” Her voice
is eerily calm, slicing through the tension with the precision of a deadly
sharp knife. “You touch him, I touch you.”

Sam stops mid-stomp, frozen by the other female
voice cutting through the dusk. I turn around slowly, no sudden movements in
front of the irate, protective girlfriend who has no idea where I’ve been all
day or what she’s just walked up on, but knows she’ll protect me to the death
regardless.

Love my badass girl so fucking much.

“Who the fuck are you? And why are you all even
here?!” Samantha screams. “God, just leave us alone. Haven’t you done enough?”
She pokes her finger in my chest with each last word.

Laney’s hand flies up and locks around Sam’s wrist,
wrenching and tossing it from my chest. Let the face-off begin. Laney’s blonde
ambition versus Sam’s dark and dangerous…but both women I adore. Both strong,
protective and scrupulous. I know my girl and I trust her ability to react
appropriately, so I stay still. Andy, well, his jaw is in his lap, his eyes
flying nervously back and forth between the two girls.

 “I’m guessing there’s a lot of past here, a lot I
don’t know, but whatever you need to say, you’re gonna say without touching my
man. Hear me, girlie? I’m not gonna say it again,” Laney warns in a deathly
calm voice.

“Dane, get out of here and take your psycho bitch
with you! We don’t need any more of your
help
.”

“Oh, Lord.” Sawyer steps from the shadows. “You need
more than help, Sam, you ‘bout to need Jesus.” He turns to Laney. “Did she just
call you what I think she called you?”

“She did,” Laney nods, “but I’m willing to let it slide,
long as she keeps her hands to herself.” Laney smokes Sam with a deadly glare
as she says it. “My daddy always said women who take that “man shouldn’t hit a
woman” rule as their free pass to put their hands on men expecting to get away
with it are manipulative and for sure too weak to handle things if it
backfires. So probably too weak to go around hitting anybody in the first
place. What do you think, Sawyer?”

“I think your daddy is a wise man.”

“Smartest man I know.” Laney cocks one brow at Sam,
asking silently if she’s made her point.

Sam, wisely, remains silent, with her hands to her
side, perfectly still.

“Good, now that we got that settled, why doesn’t
somebody tell me what’s going on before things get out of hand again?”

“I agree with her,” Andy pipes in, pointing to the
love of my life. “Samantha, I adore you, sweetheart, but you need to go inside
and calm down, lest Sawyer have to carry you in and
make
you calm down.”

“Are you fucking kidding me, Andrew? This rich prick
ruins your,
our
, fucking lives and you’re threatening me?”

Her words pierce me, but they’re all true. Just look
what I’ve done to this wonderful people, my friends, my comrades. Samantha is
tough but kind, hardworking and admirable, yet I’ve turned her into an angry,
bitter screecher. And Andy, all-American guy, heading to college with his girl,
the only apple of his parents’ eyes, and I pulled him off the field and slammed
him in a chair.

And Laney’s hearing it all. Everything I never
wanted her to know. The part of me that stayed in Connecticut when I came to
Georgia…to find her.

She’ll leave me now for sure, taking any hope of
happiness with her.

“Sawyer,” Andy beckons.

“On it, Chief,” he mumbles, grabbing Sam around the
torso, pinning her arms to her sides and moving her quickly to the house. “Good
to see you, Andy, looking good, man!” he calls over his shoulder while hauling
the livid Sam, kicking her heels into his shins furiously, inside.

“Laney.” I turn to her, my eyes begging her not to
leave me forever, to forgive the man I once was. “Can you please give Andy and
me some time alone? And
try
not to hate me before we’ve had a chance to
talk, to let me explain.”

She ignores me, offering Andy her hand and a
sparkling smile. “Hi, I’m Laney. I’m not at all psycho, I swear. I hope you can
understand why I couldn’t let her continue like that.”

“I do, I do,” he laughs, shaking her hand with
approval in his eyes. “Real pleasure to meet you, Laney. I can tell I like you
already.”

That’s Andy for ya, ever the optimistic, glass-looks-damn-near-full
guy.

“Baby, please.” I try once more to coerce her to go.
I can’t share my shame with her now, in front of Andy. I at least ask for
privacy when she tells me she can’t love a monster.

“Dane Kendrick,” she bites out as she turns to me,
cheeks flushed, lips straight and tense, eyes… Her eyes filled are with love,
but I know that will change soon and the thought leaves me barren and hopeless.

Shit, what a mess!
How had she even found me?
How did she get here? We’re in Connecticut, for fuck’s sake! I swear to God,
Sawyer and his do-gooder ass
could
find the needle in the haystack.
While blindfolded. In the dark.

“You listening again now?” she asks, and I quickly
nod, feeling like anything but the boss right now. “As I was saying, you’ve
been missing all day. I’ve been to see my mother after years and years of
nothing, I’ve seriously begun to question Mr. Disney’s mindset, and I’ve been
flown across the country in the blink of an eye by that Neanderthal in there
and walked up to a woman trying to kick your ass. Do not say it again; I’m not
leaving. I love you, therefore, you bossy, stubborn man, I. Am. With. You.”

I should probably concentrate on the part about her
mom, a huge revelation that I had left her alone for, but the last six words
are all I hear, playing through my mind over and over like the perfect melody.

“Okay, baby.” I sigh, turning to Andy. “She really
isn’t the boss all the time,” I explain in an attempt at humor.

“Oh, I can see that,” he goads, but his face quickly
turns solemn. “How are you, Dane?”

“Better than I deserve.” I feel stupid even asking,
but it seems the natural thing to say next. “You?”

“I’m good. I know you don’t believe that, and my
girl’s just as crazy protective as yours, so she makes it seem awful, but I
really am good.”

“Don’t be too hard on Sam. She loves you, man.”

“Best thing to ever happen to me. I
was
gonna
let her kick your ass.”

“Can’t say I didn’t have it coming; can’t blame her.
I know I shouldn’t just show up, but today’s the day—”

“I know what today is,” he interrupts me.

I chance a look at Laney, wondering if Sawyer filled
her in or if she’s just standing there cluelessly supporting me in good faith,
hand rubbing circles on my back.

Well, if she doesn’t know, she’s about to get an
earful. There’s certain things I’d come here to convey, whether she’s listening
or not.

“I…geez…” I struggle for the words. “I wanted to
come and say I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, Andy, you have to know how much I mean
that. I’d do anything to trade places with you. I wish you’d accept my help,
let me take care of things for you, since you can’t—”

“Can’t what? Make love to my woman? Thanks,” he
jokes, his laugh forced and sarcastic, “but I don’t want your help with that.
Sorry,” he apologizes to Laney with a blush.

“I was gonna say work,” I mutter.

“What are you talking about? I work, six days a
week, computer programming. Make damn good money at it too. Sam’s just about to
finish her LPN, which I helped her pay for, and we’re buying this house.” He
points behind him. “I’m angry, but not at you, Dane. And some things challenge
me, but I’m far from helpless.” His voice is growing in volume and intensity. “My
life’s not bad, Dane. And what it is or it isn’t,” he pauses, making sure I
hear him, “is
not
your fault.”

“I tend to agree with Sam,” I fire back, not about
to let myself off the hook. I feel Laney’s hand stop rubbing and tense on my
back.

“Sam’s angry, but not at you, really, just at life.
She feels cheated; there are things I can’t do for her or for myself.”

I can’t imagine not being able to make love to
Laney. Worse yet, I can’t imagine Laney having to remain faithful to me, not
ever feeling the weight of the man who loves her on top of her body, breath and
sweat mingling, cherishing her.

“I took that from you.”

“You’re not
that
powerful, Kendrick.” His
laugh is genuine now, but does nothing to ease my guilt. “I made my choice. You
didn’t hold a gun to my head. Now knock it the fuck off, enough’s enough.”

This man, broken but stronger than anyone I know,
he’s the epitome of life value. I don’t deserve his forgiveness, but thank God
I appear to have it.

“What can I do for you, Andy? Really, anything, just
name it. Please tell me, it would mean the world to me to help you in any way I
can.”

“Jesus, but you’re hardheaded. I’ll tell ya what.
I’ll take your marker, and if I ever think of something, I’ll let you know. Now
let’s go see if Sawyer’s still alive.”

I
should have known, between her and
Sawyer, they’d find me, force my hand, and see me through. Those two together—hell
on wheels.

Somehow, when we made it inside the house, Laney had
found a moment to talk with Sam, calm her down and hear the story from someone
affected more so than me. You can imagine all of our shock when the girls
stayed in the kitchen for a while, alone, and we heard no signs of things
breaking or fists flying. And I still haven’t decided if I imagined it or not,
but I
think
they may have hugged when we left.

There’s just something about Laney; she draws them
in like bees to honey.

When we got on the plane for home, Laney was full of
questions and wouldn’t let me hide any longer. The minute we were in the air,
she was in my lap, which was a very clever way of holding me captive in one
spot.

“So, Andy, a grown ass guy, decides to go skydiving
with his best friend, you, and unfortunately—tragically—he pulls too late,
hitting the ground with enough force that he’s now paralyzed from the waist
down. Am I right so far?

“Yes.”

“I understand the anger; it’s a shitty, unfair
thing. But what I don’t understand is, how is that
your
fault?”

“I talked him in to going, badgered him to death…may
have even called him a pussy until he agreed.” God but I did. “When my parents
died, I was alone, young, suddenly very rich and mad at the damn world. I blew
through 70k in mere months, Laney. Booze, rec drugs, cruises, women, parties; it
was a total path of self-destructive, fuck the world bullshit. Andy was a good
guy with whole world ahead of him, in love with Sam, young, free—my don’t-give-a-shit
daredevil ass landed him in a wheelchair for the rest of his goddamned life!
Meanwhile, the guy who didn’t value life walked away!”

“Did you hold a gun to his head and make him do it?”

“No.” I frown at her question, knowing where she’s
going with this.

She simply kisses the frown line on my forehead.
“Oh, so you pushed him out of the plane?”