Authors: Marie Marquardt
“Wilma!” Evan broke in, proud to have made the connection. “Weeelmaaa,” he enunciated.
“Exactly! It drove me crazy. So on the first day of third grade, I took charge of the situation. When my teacher called on me, I told her my name was Julia. Not âhoo-lia' but Julia, you know, as in Julia Robertsâpretty woman.”
She paused and then continued, deadpan, “More information than you needed.”
“No, it's cool,” said Evan, “but I'm not into nineties hooker films. So, can I call you Alma?”
“You can call me anything you want,” she replied, shrugging. “But if you want to call me Alma, you have to learn to pronounce it.”
Her face broke into a wide, mocking grin.
“OK, I'm at your mercy,” he said. “Teach me.”
Alma tried to have him repeat her name, and he thought it sounded pretty damn good, but she was not impressed.
Her father called out in a stern voice from the side yard.
“Listen, I have to start pruning roses or my dad will kill me.”
“I get it,” he said. “But I'm gonna go inside and get you another cup of coffeeâyou know, since I spilled yours.”
Evan watched as Alma's eyes darted toward the house. The soft edges of her smile fell, leaving her face completely expressionless.
“This is your house?” she asked, looking past him.
“Yeah,” he said. “I mean, last I checked.”
She bit her lip and glanced down at her shoes. When she looked up, a stony expression had replaced her smile. Evan didn't get what was happening. All he knew was that he missed her smile.
“My dad doesn't let us accept drinks from clients,” she said, her tone now lacking any of its earlier playfulness. “Thanks for the offer, though.”
Even could almost see the energy being sucked out of the air between them. He felt lonely, suddenlyâwhich was strange, since she was still standing right beside him. He watched in silence as Alma pulled a pair of dirt-stained gardening gloves from the bed of the truck.
“Thank you again for stopping the truck,” she said formally as she turned to walk toward the rose garden.
Without thinking, Evan stepped forward and reached out to touch her shoulder. He stood close to herâtoo close, probably. Close enough to notice her scent, bright and buttery warm. She smelled like rays of sunshine would, he thought, if they ever carried a scent.
“Hey,” he said. “If I come help with the roses, will you teach me how to say your name?” It was a desperate move, but he had to try something. He couldn't let her walk away. Not yet.
She turned back, examining his face carefully. She was all seriousness, so he didn't even try to smile. He just held her gaze for a few seconds and left his hand resting lightly on her shoulder until he saw an almost imperceptible nod of her head.
He'd take that as a yes.
TWO
Drive
Evan tossed a pillow off the bed, glancing at the red marks on his wrists.
Pruning roses was harder than it looked.
He sighed and stood up. His feet shuffled along the carpeted floor, where at least six more pillows were heaped. They were covered in shimmering fabrics that his mom insisted were “complementary on the color wheel.” As if he cared. He brushed his teeth, pulled on a pair of soccer shorts, and headed toward the kitchen, taking the stairs two at a time.
His mom leaned against the breakfast bar in her workout clothes.
“Hey, Mom. What's up?” he asked.
“Well, my goodness,
you
are!” she chirped with exaggerated shock pulling through her Southern drawl.
“Yeah, couldn't sleep. What
is
that?” he asked, nodding toward a half-filled glass.
“A Hoodia Cactus Smoothieâgreat for burning fat. Want to try some?”
“I'll pass,” he said. The last thing Evan needed was to lose weight.
Evan glanced at his mother's toned armâskin sagging slightly, age spots beginning to appear. She was already impossibly thin.
“Evan, pumpkin, while I've got you hereâ”
“Mom,
please
stop calling me pumpkin,” Evan said. By some miracle, his hair wasn't orange anymore, and he'd prefer to forget that it ever was.
“Well, all right, sugar. I'll do my best,” she said. “Now, I need to ask you about the menu for the party. Should I order Caesar salads from the club?”
“It doesn't matter, Mom,” Evan said absently. “Anything's fine.”
“Oh, Evan,” his mom said, letting out a long sigh, “sometimes you can be just like your father.”
Evan sank onto a stool. Not this again. She shot him the look that, without a single word, convinced him to do stupid things like stop at a flower shop and pick up centerpieces for a luncheonâthings that seventeen-year-olds didn't do for their mothers. Except for Evan, apparently.
If he had to blame this ridiculous behavior on something, it would be a dinner conversation at the end of his sophomore year. His parents were about to host a charity ball, and Evan's mom was stressing about who should sit where.
His dad looked up from an empty plate. “BeBe,” he announced, “I couldn't care less where people sit. When is this party, anyway?”
“Honey, it's next Saturday. You
know
this.”
Evan's dad pulled out his phone and punched some buttons.
“Looks like you'll have an extra seat,” he said. “I'll be at a conference.”
Evan still remembered the way his mom's entire body had stiffened and her face took on a strange, forced smile.
“Oh, sweetheart,” she had said, all sweetness, “you'll just have to miss the conference.”
Evan's dad stood up from the table.
“For fifteen years, I have endured your charity events,” he said.
He actually used the word “endured.”
“But someone in this family needs to work,” he announced. “How else will you write those thousand-dollar-a-seat checks?”
They all knew that Evan's mom had inherited plenty of money. No one needed his dad's paycheck.
Evan had wanted to pummel his dad. Instead, he took a tip from his mom's playbook.
He turned calmly to his mother and put a big happy grin on his face. “Hey, Mom. If you need a date, I'm free. What's it for?”
“The local Boys and Girls Club,” she replied, a few tears running down her face, forming subtle streaks through pressed powder. “They're raising money for a youth scholarship program for underprivileged students.”
“Count me in,” he said.
“I'll have the most charming and handsome date at the party,” she replied, standing to clear plates from the table.
That was sort of the beginning of the end.
After that night, Evan's dad quietly boycotted the charity network, and Evan started his new routine: dressing up in his tuxedo, enduring hours of soft jazz music, and helping his mom bid in live auctions for ugly art and random trips they always forgot to take.
At least he got to flirt with the cute waitresses. Sometimes they even snuck him drinks to numb the pain.
Evan was nothing like his father. And he would do just about anything to prove it, no matter how boring or painful.
“Definitely order a Caesar salad from the club,” Evan said. “Those salads are good.”
“That sounds just perfect, pumpkin, and don't forget brunch with your uncle Sexton next Sunday. He wants to talk to you about college.”
Evan filled a glass with cold water and chugged it, pretending not to notice she'd called him pumpkin, pretending not to care that his uncle always stood in for his absent dad.
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Alma should have said “No.” A simple “No, thanks,” and she would have avoided the agony of the past several days.
“
¡Hija!
” her
t
Ã
a
Pera whispered sharply in her ear.
Alma bowed her head, trying to look reverent, as she joined her aunts in praying the rosary.
“
Dios te salve Mar
Ã
a, llena eres de gracia⦔
Why had she done it? Why had she let Evan come back to help her in the garden?
T
Ã
a
Pera grabbed Alma's hand and held it firmly.
Alma squeezed her eyes shut. “
El Se
ñ
or es contigo.
”
Every time she closed her eyes, she saw Evan, with his deep-green eyes intensely focused and his smooth chin thrust slightly forward, struggling to pronounce her name.
“
Bendita t
ú
eres entre todas las mujeres⦔
She saw him take a long chug of cold water and then throw his head back. That was how she had taught him. She had him say “ahhh,” after quenching his thirst with water, and then told him to follow it with the simple sounds of “ll-ma.” It worked beautifully.
“
Y bendito es el fruto en tu vientre, J
é
sus.
”
She was supposed to be praying for the repose of her mother's soul, but she couldn't even hear the words tumbling from her mouth. All she heard was Evan repeating her name while his hands gripped the rosebushes, their thorns tearing red lines into the soft flesh of his wrists. She told him to wear gloves, but he said he didn't have any. He refused the extra pair she offered from her dad's toolbox.
“
Santa Mar
Ã
a, Madre de Dios⦔
She smiled, remembering how clueless he had been, trying to chop the roses off just below the bud. He leaned into her as she explained how to follow the stem to new growth and cut carefully at an angle, just above it. And then she watched, warmth spreading through her, as he ran his fingers gently down the stem.
“
Ruega por nosotros pecadores⦔
Ay, Dios,
she thought. Alma didn't think her mother really needed help getting out of purgatory, and even if she did, Alma's stiff prayers couldn't possibly offer much.
“
Ahora y en la hora de nuestra muerte.
”
T
Ã
a
Dolores opened her eyes and shot a withering glance toward Alma.
“
Amen.
”
T
Ã
a
Pera and
T
Ã
a
Dolores continued mumbling unintelligible prayers. Alma squeezed her eyes shut, trying not to see so clearly the way that droplets of water had clung to Evan's slightly parted lips, and trying not to imagine tasting them. Was this a venial sin? God, she hoped not. Alma hated going to confession.
The three of them were kneeling on the hard wood floor of their living room. They all faced the little home altar that was set up in the corner. It had dozens of prayer cards and statues, but the centerpiece was Our Lady of
La Leche
âa statue of the Virgin Mary breastfeeding the baby Jesus. Every family had a favorite, but for most Mexicans it was Guadalupe (the queen of Mexico and empress of the Americas), or
La Virgen de San Juan de los Lagos
if they were from the north. Not Alma's
t
Ã
as
. They had a special thing for
La Leche
, this obscure
Virgencita
from St. Augustine, Florida, that no one else had ever heard of.
Alma prayed to her sometimes, tooâjust kind of spontaneously, when things got bad. After all, the Virgin's name was Spanglish, and she was sort of a Spanish immigrant to Florida. According to legend, she came over with the first Spanish settlers. She hung out in her little chapel while the city around her went from being Spanish to British to Spanish to American. Alma figured, with a history like that, Our Lady of
La Leche
probably knew what it felt like to not really have a country. She should be given some special title like the Patroness of the Immigrant's Daughter, or the Queen of the Kids Stuck in Between.
But Alma didn't get the point of these stiff, old-fashioned prayers. It had been fourteen years since her mom left this world, and every year, near the anniversary of her death, Alma's aunts guilted her into praying the entire rosary together for nine straight days. They wanted to be sure her mom would make it to heaven. Alma barely remembered her mom, but everyone described her as a saint, so she was pretty sure her mom should be comfortably ensconced in heaven by now. Even so, Alma always went along with the prayers. She probably just did it because she was afraid of
T
Ã
a
Dolores. Or maybe it was because
T
Ã
a
Pera knew exactly how to entice her out of bed: with the smell of freshly brewing coffee.
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Wiping the sweat from his eyes, Evan glanced down at his stopwatch.
1:32:15
He had been running for an hour and a half, and the summer sun was high in the hazy sky. He willed his body to turn onto another dead-end road and pumped his arms as he sprinted up a hill. When he reached the top, his eyes scanned the pavement. Neither of the two landscaping trucks parked on this road was Mr. Garcia's.
About thirty minutes into his run, Evan began to realizeâwith more than a little amusementâthat he was casing his own neighborhood. Surrounding his house were hilly dead-end streets, each wandering onto a finger of land that jutted into Lake Lanier. Typically, he stuck to the main road, which hugged the edge of the golf course. It seemed pointless to wander down a bunch of dead-end streets and then have to turn around and go back. This morning, though, he turned onto every road he passed, searching for the red Ford truck.
As he watched steam rise off of the asphalt soaked by a broken sprinkler, Evan wished he had started this run at six thirty instead of ten thirty.