Dragon's Moon (8 page)

“No, but a man who is a dragon also? Yes.” Chrechte had to learn to control other gifts, why not fire?

“You know nothing.”

“Or you do not know as much as you think you do.” He might be prince of his people, but he was only eight years older than her nineteen years. She'd heard Niall saying so to Guaire.

“I am the dragon. I know.”

“You controlled your fire enough not to set the forest ablaze,” she pointed out.

He didn't reply and she wondered if he'd even been aware of exerting such precise control at the time.

“I may be merely a wolf, but I had to learn to mask my scent, to control my urge to shift, to hunt and to stifle my desire to kill when the wolf rules my form. It took a lot of practice to catch prey and not kill it.” And she was beginning
to suspect that no matter how well trained a warrior and raven, Eirik's dragon was still wild.

“Why would you practice such a thing?”

“Because a wolf must know the power of her jaw and fangs if she is to be safe around cubs.” Perhaps the ravens did not understand this, not being birds of prey, but surely the eagles among them had to train for such control.

“The children of the Éan are safe with me.”

“You don't cast fire around them, but what if you did? Could you stop them from being hurt?”

“I didn't hurt Fidaich or Canaul that day, did I?”

“No. The only one that hurt a child that day was Luag.” How she hated to say the foul man's name, even if he was dead.

“If your brother had given you to him in marriage, this Luag would have hurt you, too.”

By the sacred stone. And they accused women of gossiping. Warriors were worse than grandmothers for sharing everyone's business. “You've been speaking to Lais.”

“He remembers you and your brother. He said Galen changed after your father died, though he thought your father might have shared Rowland and Wirp's beliefs.”

“He did.”

Memories of her father were not comforting ones in light of her brother's death and how it came to pass.

And Galen
had
meant to give her to Luag. She'd known it as a frightened girl and she could not erase that knowledge now, no matter how much she might wish to. She reminded herself that her adopted family seemed content for her to remain unwed, never pressing her to take a mate. Still a film of sweat broke out between her breasts and down her back as old fears assailed her.

Refusing to give in to them, Ciara moved toward the rosebushes, Abigail's favorite part of the garden. Ciara inhaled deeply of their fragrance to calm herself, to remind herself the past was just that. Done and over.

“I am sorry.”

There was no deceit in Eirik's scent. The only thing
was, she didn't know what the dragon regretted…her brother's change or his death.

“Me, too,” Ciara said, meaning both.

Eirik moved closer, his big body coming between her and the rosebushes. “You left the party early.”

“So did you.” Ciara found herself not only unable to back away but fighting a near-uncontrollable urge to step closer.

“I followed you.”

“Why?” But she knew.

His spicy Chrechte scent and arousal eclipsed even the strong aroma of the roses.

His eyes burned with a desire unlike anything that had ever been directed at her. “You know why.”

“No.”

“Yes.” His big hands cupped her face. “There is something about you, Ciara of the Sinclairs. Something I cannot deny.”

“I am nothing special.” Just a shell of a femwolf, her heart as good as dead inside her.

“I do not agree.”

“Even though I did not protect your cousin and his friend?”

“You meant to.”

“But you said…”

“You were barely more than a child yourself. It was seven years ago, but sometimes I forget that.”

“I do as well.”

“Let me help you forget all of it, for a little while.”

She had never believed anyone could help her, but this Chrechte dragon?

He could make her forget how to shift into a wolf.

“Yes.”

Teach not thy lip such scorn, for it was made for kissing, lady, not for such contempt.

—S
HAKESPEARE

E
irik smiled, his white teeth glinting in the moonlight.

That smile made Ciara's thighs clench in a way she did not understand, her belly feel hollow. She lifted her hands to press against his as they held her face.

Just that small touch went through her with the power of a lightning bolt. And finally she understood how the broken tree could continue to live after its brush with lightning. It craved that touch again, so it had to go on.

His thumbs brushed her cheeks. “You are beautiful.”

“Thank you,” she whispered, not knowing what else to say.

“You are going to taste so good.”

“I am?” He was going to taste her? Is that how kissing between men and women worked?

Remembering some of the kisses she'd witnessed between the laird and Abigail, Ciara thought maybe it was.

“Aye,” he said in a tone that made her inside swirl with molten lava as he lowered his head, and then his mouth covered hers.

Lips gentle but masterful tasted of mead and something else that could only be her dragon. More potent than
usquebagh
, whiskey only the warriors were supposed to drink, the kiss inundated Ciara's every sense.

She could only taste Eirik. No other scent reached her sensitive nose. His drowned out even the pungent aromas of the garden. The air around her was filled with his warmth, despite the chill of night. Her skin craved more contact than the kiss and yet that was enough to make her more light-headed than her lack of sleep or eating could do. She could only hear his harsh breaths, his strong dragon's heartbeat that had increased in tempo with every second of the kiss.

Wanting more of the nectar of his lips, Ciara's wolf whined for her to open her mouth. Her instincts driving her, she did and the dragon took immediate advantage. Sliding his tongue inside, he gave her what she craved while challenging her to do the same.

She was helpless to deny him, tasting, being tasted, kissing so deeply the intimacy of it overwhelmed her.

Never had she been so physically connected to another person. His arousal pushed at her, demanding acknowledgment her body was helpless to deny.

Her nipples hardened almost painfully, her own scent revealing changes in her no human man would detect. But Eirik's growl against her lips told her that he knew…and liked it.

Moving his hands from her face to her hips, he pulled her flush to him so she felt the rigidity that proved his own need. He wanted her. She wanted him. It was incredible, this desire between them.

He was amazing. So big…so strong. Even stronger than a wolf. That should have frightened her; she'd seen what the dragon could do, but all she felt was riotous desire. Her hands slid down his smooth but rigidly muscled chest.

He'd worn a shirt to latemeal, but discarded it when he and the other warriors were dancing. His skin was so hot, but she found she craved that heat. She explored each dip and ripple of muscle, her hands unable to stay still once they started.

He devoured her mouth, the predator in him demanding a submission her lips were only too happy to give.

The kiss went on and on until she felt as if she would fall if he did not hold her up. The pleasure was beyond anything she had known. Never in all her life had she felt so close to her wolf, so intimately connected with another and so very alive.

It was the last thought that had her tearing from his arms and gasping for air to calm the heat of her body.

No. She could not do this. She could not risk these feelings.

“What is wrong?” He looked around, his body tense for confrontation. “There is no one near. I would know.”

If only it were that simple. She would much rather fear another rather than herself. “I cannot do this.”

“This?”

“You know.”

“It was just a kiss.”

“That…” She swung her hand wildly as if pointing to what they had just done.
“That was not just anything.”

“I'm glad you think so.” Sounding far too satisfied, he came toward her.

But this time she showed her intelligence and backed up. When he did not stop, she put her hand up, warding him off. “No. Please.”

“What is the matter, Ciara?”

“I do not want a mate.”

“I wasn't offering to claim you.”

That stopped her short. “Sex constitutes a claiming.”

“We weren't having sex, we were kissing.” And his scent told her he wanted to continue doing so. “Besides, the Éan do not recognize that stricture.”

“Talorc is laird of this clan.”

“He is not lord over my people though.”

Ciara felt like she was drowning, her fear at what his words implied was so great. “Do you plan to murder Talorc as you did my brother?”

She could not believe she had phrased her concern that way. It had not been her intention to make such an
accusation again. Not after her talk with Lais. Certainly, Eirik was not happy about it. All arousal in the air disappeared as fury so great it was more than a scent, she could actually taste it on the air, replaced it.

Eirik's scowl condemned her in a way no one had ever done, not even him when he accused her of not protecting the Éan children. But he did not answer her question.

“Please.” Ciara tugged at her pleats, the heart that was supposed to be stone feeling ripped open in her chest. “He is the right laird for this clan. You cannot take that from him. You cannot take him from us.”

“Talorc is my friend.” Eirik's voice dripped with disgust.

“Friends have killed friends before.”

“I only answer because of your very obvious fear, but know this, I will not tolerate you seeding doubts among the clan along these lines.” The ice in his tone chilled her.

But not enough that she would not press for answers. “So, tell me you don't want to be clan leader.”

“I do not.”

After several seconds of silence, she realized he wasn't going to add anything to that simple statement. But truthfully, he did not need to. His sincerity was as apparent as his desire had been earlier.

“Thank you,” she whispered.

“Make no mistake, woman, my loyalty is to Talorc, not the little femwolf he calls daughter but has not the decency to even call him by name. I do not need
your
thanks.”

With that he left.

She'd meant to push him away. She could admit that to herself. Her worry had been real, but the way she'd phrased it had been inflammatory and the dragon had caught fire and burned her.

'Twas for the best. Truly.

Only, why was there pain when she was working so hard to save herself from it?

A minute later she was joined by another of the Éan and she knew that despite Eirik's disgust of her, he had been unwilling to leave a woman alone and unprotected outside at night.

Ciara sighed. “Hello, Lais.”

“Eirik sent me to stay with you until you returned to the keep.”

Just as she'd thought, but why did the knowledge make her heart, that stupid organ that was supposed to be hardened to stone, twinge? “I've spent many an evening out here by myself.”

“Does your laird know that?”

Probably not, so she forbore answering.

A shadow in the sky had Ciara turning her head. The dragon flew away from the keep, his dark scales barely discernable in the darkness. Her hand lifted involuntarily in a silent entreaty she was powerless to prevent.

“He is amazing, is he not?” Lais asked.

Amazing? Yes. Awesome. Incredible. And very, very frightening, but she was no longer sure that was merely because the huge creature could cast fire and end a man's life in the span of a heartbeat.

“He is very angry with me.”

Lais snorted. “Oh, aye.”

“It's probably for the best.” She hadn't meant to say that aloud.

What was the matter with her? In a sennight, she had lost the control she'd fought so hard for these past seven years. She did not want these desperate feelings Eirik elicited in her. She would prefer not to feel at all, because emotions of that depth were dangerous…very, very dangerous.

They frightened her as even his enraged beast could not do.

“You think so?” Lais asked with apparent interest.

She shrugged.

“You remind me of the laird when you do that.”

“We are not related by blood.”

“I know.”

But he called her daughter and she was too selfish and frightened to name him father. Eirik's parting shot had pierced the armor around her heart and Ciara wanted to scream at him because of it. She gave as much as she could;
she really did, but she would not risk ever feeling the kind of pain that had so nearly destroyed her seven years ago.