Diary of a Painted Lady (15 page)

She certainly would. If he went this far with her, he might go further with someone else.

“No, of course not. It’s just between you and me,” she said in a soothing tone. “We all have moments like this. It’s the profession we’re in.”

“Yes, that’s right. It’s a bitch of a profession we’re in….” He walked out the patio door and down the back steps. With a sob, Astrid locked and bolted the door. She ran to grab her cell phone and checked for Dylan’s number. When he answered, she rushed to explain.

“Astrid, for God’s sake. English, please,” Dylan said, alarmed.

She took a deep breath. “Dylan, can you come. Now, please?”

Chapter Twenty-Three

London, 1890

Gina arrived at the offices of Pear’s Soap on Monday to find Mr. Preston waiting. “Good day to you, Miss Russo. I’m looking forward to seeing these latest ones. It’s for our new poster line.”

He took her across the hall to the studio, a large, brightly lit white painted room where a camera was set up waiting. Gina stared at the electric light, so much brighter than gas. The photographer, a Mr. Miles, told her where to stand. He came to move her into different poses then stepped back to study his arrangement.

“That will do,” he said finally. “Irene?” He nodded to a young girl who stood watching. “Take Miss Russo to the dressing room. We’ll begin with the white.”

In the dressing room, an older lady sat Gina before a mirror. She powdered and rouged her face, adding color to her lips and darkening her brows. Then she brushed out her hair and piled it artfully on top of her head with pins.

Irene helped her into the dress. Gina gasped. The white satin had a low neckline. It hugged her curves in a way no dress had ever done before. She slipped into silver sandals and made her way back to the studio. A painted backdrop of a colorful flower garden with a path weaving through it, stood against a wall.

“Good. Stand there,” Mr. Miles pointed to the backdrop. “Bring the flowers, Irene.”

Irene handed a bunch of white lilies to Gina.

Mr. Miles came to adjust her pose, fussing with the bunch of lilies in her arms. He raised her chin. The lilies tickled her chest and Gina felt an awful urge to sneeze. “Hold that pose.” Disappearing behind the camera under a black cloth, he yelled, “Still!”

Gina relaxed into the pose as she had done so many times before for Milo.

A flash startled her and she blinked.

Mr. Miles fiddled with the camera. “Right. Hold for another.”

“This time I want you to turn slightly to the right and smile.”

The shots went on for over an hour, before Gina returned to the dressing room to change. She sat and rubbed her feet, where the silver sandals had chaffed them. She couldn’t wait to see the results. The camera was so different to being captured in paint. Hadn’t it been said that the camera didn’t lie?

* * *

Gina returned to Pear’s the next day to view the results of their efforts. She had to admit the photos were beautiful. The backdrop looked quite real and the dress was lovely. They all seemed as pleased as she and asked her to return for more at a later date. Although the work wouldn’t pay a great amount, she calculated she could save enough money to leave London before the end of the year.

At noon on Thursday, Gina walked down the street to Lord Leighton’s house, confident and optimistic at her new found independence. A working woman for the first time in her life, she could take care of herself. Handling money didn’t alarm her, she had always done it. And her savings were growing. Another of Milo’s paintings had been sold at the Crystal Palace exhibition and Arthur felt sure the last would soon follow.

Apart from her dreams, over which she had no control, she hadn’t thought about Blair Dunleavy for almost two days. She laughed ruefully at herself, she was thinking of him now, the blend of humor and command in his blue eyes that turned her legs to jelly, the twitch of a smile at the corner of his mouth that made her long to kiss him, the thrill when he merely spoke her name.

A black carriage stood outside Frederik Leighton’s house, the coachman waiting, smoking a pipe. Perhaps Frederik had visitors, she thought. Would he want her to sit? As she walked past, the carriage door opened and Blair stepped out.

“Mr. Dunleavy!” Gina gasped her heart racing. Was he real or had she dreamed him up?

“Gina.” Blair removed his hat and a lock of dark hair fell forward onto his forehead. He brushed it back impatiently.

The familiar gesture made Gina’s heart miss a beat. “What are you doing here?” She tried to suppress her delight at seeing his handsome face. “How did you find me?”

“I’ve been looking for you for weeks, and have become quite bad tempered, which my poor staff will attest to.”

She frowned. “Why did you wish to find me?”

“This isn’t the right place for us to talk. Can we go somewhere?”

“I have an appointment with Lord Leighton.”

“Then come and sit in the carriage for a moment.”

She allowed him to lead her to the carriage and help her inside. I should run away, she thought. What a weak woman I am.

He sat close beside her and his knee touched hers, making her feel slightly breathless.

“Why did you leave the apartment,” he asked. “Was I so horrible to you?”

She looked down at her lap. “You didn’t want me.”

“Not want you?” He seized both her hands and kissed the delicate skin on the underside of her wrists. “I have thought of nothing but you since I left the apartment.”

Ignoring the fact that she’d done exactly the same about him, she withdrew her hands. “It would not have worked. It was wrong.”

He lifted her chin with a finger and gazed into her eyes. “Was it so wrong for us to love each other?”

“You never said you loved me.”

“But I do love you, Gina. I want you in my life.”

“I consented to be your mistress in a moment of weakness, Blair Dunleavy,” she said. “I am much stronger now.”

He smiled and titled his head. “I’m glad you are strong. I want to win you fairly.” He pulled her closer his voice almost a growl. “I want you to bear my sons.”

“They would be bastards!” Like her. She could never do such a thing to a child not after what had happened to her.

“I want to marry you, Gina, despite everything.”

A gentleman like Blair did not marry women like her. Despite her fear that if she stayed another moment she would prove not to be as strong as she claimed, she was caught by his words. “
Cosa intendi
?”

Blair shook his head helplessly and grinned. “I can see I shall have to brush up on my Italian.”

“What do you mean when you say, despite everything?” she asked impatiently.

He laughed. “Because life with you won’t be easy, Gina.”

Thoughts flew through her mind, like clouds with a gale behind them. When had he come to this? Did he pity her or suffer from guilt at the way he’d treated her? She shook him off as he tried to draw her into his arms. “You don’t need to rescue me.” At the passionate intent in his eyes, mirroring her own feelings, she rushed on. “I am now in control of my own destiny. And I like it.”

“Cannot your destiny and mine be one?” Blair traced her bottom lip with a finger. “I want to wake up every morning to find you beside me. To love you in ways you’ve never dreamed of. To have your beautiful eyes beg me for more and hear you cry out in passion.”

Giddy with desire for him, Gina beseechingly placed her hands on his chest. “No, please.”

His eyes rested on her mouth. “Kiss me and then tell me you never want to see me again.”

He was impossible to resist as he pulled her close. His eyes lit with blue fire searched hers. At the touch of his lips on hers, all her senses came alive, suddenly weak she yearned to draw him closer.

“Gina!” He groaned, holding her tight, his lips on her throat.

It was wrong to think she’d found her rightful place in his arms, even though her treacherous body burned for him. She longed to lie down in the carriage with him in the bright light of day with the coachman standing outside. This would not do; he would destroy all that she fought for. Her independence and self-respect.  She gathered her scattered wits and pushed him away. Opening the door, she jumped down into the street.

“You kissed me back, Gina,” he called after her.

She heard him call her name again as she hurried toward the house, a sob rising in her throat. Life had become so confusing; she didn’t know where she belonged. It had been so hard to leave him, but if she’d given in to everything he demanded, he would not have desired her for long. And he would never marry her.

It would be so easy to return to the apartment with him and have him make love to her, and be caught by the need to be with him, the days passing into months, perhaps into years. She would live for those moments when, as he had admitted, he would choose to visit her. She knew herself too well. She loved with all her heart. Her need for him would consume her, burn her up. When he tired of her, it would be too late for a loving marriage and children, those things that she valued most.

She banged on the door and when Mary opened it, Gina ran up the stairs to Frederik’s studio.

“I see you’ve met Mr. Dunleavy, Gina,” Lord Leighton said, squeezing paint onto his palette.

Gina swiped a tear from her cheek and perched on the stool. “I did.”

“You didn’t ask him in for tea?”

“Bah!”

Lord Leighton turned to the canvas and began to work. “He loves you, you know.”

“As a man desires a mistress,” Gina said fiercely.

“Are you sure, Cara?

She shook her head miserably.

“Hold your head still. How can I paint you when you do that? “You don’t care for him?” he asked as he brushed paint over the canvas.

“But I do,” she almost cried, her chest heaving. Had she lost Blair forever?

Lord Leighton threw down his brush. “I can’t work with you like this,” he said, crossly, although his eyes twinkled. “Go and find your young man and sort out your problems. Come back on Monday. I can find other work to do until then.”

Perhaps it was possible to have Blair on her own terms. She need not be beholden to him for her life. The excitement caused her to jump down from the stool. She threw her arms around the artist and kissed his cheek. “
Grazie amico mio
.”

He placed his hands on her shoulders looking down at her. “Listen to this friend then, Cara. Don’t turn away from such a passionate love. Only a few of us ever experience it. Think on it when you are calmer. You are far too emotional to make a decision that affects your whole life.”

“I hope that you found such love too, Frederik.”

He smiled. “Oh, I had my moments.”

Gina blew him a kiss and ran from the room.

Outside, the black carriage still stood at the curb. The door opened and, without hesitating, Gina climbed inside. She looked up. Instead of Blair’s loving face, Lord Ogilvie stared back at her.

He reached out and grabbed her. “Well, this is a pleasant surprise.”

“Let me go!” Gina tried to pull away from his strong grip. The door slammed behind her, and with a tap of the earl’s cane on the roof, the coachman jimmied his horses, throwing her back against the squabs. The carriage took off down the road, rocking wildly.

“Stop! Let me out,” Gina yelled, wrestling with the door handle.

“My coachman has his instructions and knows better than to query them,” Ogilvie said. He drew a pistol from beneath his traveling coat. “The door is bolted. Sit back and enjoy the journey.”

The coachmen cracked the whip and the horses galloped on, the outskirts of London passing the window. As she searched desperately for help, another carriage passed them. She saw a man’s face at the window. She yelled and banged, but they were gone in a flash.

“Where are you taking me?” she demanded. “Let me out of this carriage!” She lunged and raked Ogilvie’s face with her nails, drawing blood.

“Vixen!” he cursed, and pushed her hard. She fell back as his hand went to his cheek.

Her hands balled into fists and she attacked again, striking Ogilvie on his bony chest.

He grabbed her wrists and held them easily with one hand. “You are distraught.” His cold voice struck more fear in her than if he’d been angry. “Perhaps you’d best rest a while.”

He reacted so quickly she barely had time to move. She felt a sharp blow to her chin and darkness enveloped her.

Chapter Twenty-Four

Gina opened her eyes. Her head throbbed and a wave of nausea brought bile to her throat.

“Where am I,” she croaked. It had grown dark and she barely made out Ogilvie’s face in the moonlight. The horses were at full gallop and there were no lights to be seen, except the moon trailing across the sky through the trees and the lanterns swinging from the carriage.

Ogilvie ignored her. She turned back to the window. It appeared they traveled through woods. She rubbed her bruised jaw. How long had she been unconscious? She tried the door handle again, thinking it better to lie dead on the road than suffer what this man must have in store for her.

“The door is still locked. If you misbehave, I shall have to knock you out again,” Ogilvie said. “As you see there is no one around to help you.”

“Where are you taking me?”

“We are on the road to Scotland. We’ve changed horses and had a meal. All, while you slept.”

Gina fought to hide her fear from him. “I’m hungry,” she said, hoping to distract him.

Leaning over, he pulled the straps from a wicker basket on the seat beside him. He flung the lid open. “Here.” He held a plate toward her with a chicken leg and a slice of bread and butter on it.

“And I’m thirsty. Can I have some water?”

“You are a complainer, Miss Russo, are you not? You may have some wine.”

“Water, thank you.”

“Wine or nothing.”

She wanted to fling it in his face, but she needed time to think–she had to plan an escape from this madman. She drank the red wine thirstily and nibbled on the chicken, aware she must keep up her strength.

“This is a tediously long trip we are on, Miss Russo. “It will take another two days. We will shortly arrive at an inn for the night. If you behave, I will leave you alone. If you are going to be difficult, I’ll have no recourse but to render you unconscious.”

Aware she’d been holding her breath, she tried to calm herself by breathing deeply. “Why have you done this? What did I ever do to you?”

Ogilvie yawned. “I’m tired, Miss Russo. You shall learn it all in due course.”

“I want to know now.”

“You do?” He looked at her with cruel amusement. “I don’t believe you are the one in charge here.”

She shoved the plate away and watched as Ogilvie put it back in the basket. The horses slowed and the carriage turned off the road. Ahead, the lights from a building appeared through the trees. “Good. We’ve arrived,” he said, pleased.

Gina’s head grew strangely foggy. A sudden cold realization hit her, that the man enjoyed the cat and mouse game he played. She wanted to slap the smug look off his face and promised herself that sometime soon, she would do it. As the carriage approached the inn, she planned to cry for help, but her limbs grew strangely heavy and her head spun.

Gina came to in darkness. She lay on a bed. Moonlight swam in through the window, filling the room with silvery light. She hastily felt her clothes, finding herself fully dressed with a cry of relief. She jumped up and then staggered. Stumbling and still woozy, she made her way to the door, pulling at the handle. It was locked.

Shaking uncontrollably with fear and cold, she rushed to the window. It was barred and too small for her to climb through. She looked around wildly for something with which to smash it.

She seized the chamber pot and bashed at it furiously, but the bars prevented her breaking the glass. Screaming with frustration she threw the thick china pot to the floor. Holding onto the bars, she stared out.

She was in some kind of rough cabin surrounded by woodlands. The flickering lights from the inn showed through the trees, too far away for her voice to carry, even if she managed to break the glass.

She used the chamber pot, planning to throw it at Ogilvie when he appeared in the morning. There was water in the basin on the night stand. She washed her face and attempted to tidy her hair that hung in her eyes. Sick and drowsy, she wrapped herself in a blanket and lay stiffly on the bed, listening for someone approaching. She would hide behind the door and try to escape them by running into the trees. If she could make it to the inn, someone might help her.

Gina woke suddenly. Daylight streamed through the window. She looked up to find Ogilvie standing beside the bed. He reminded her of a big spider. Her heart began its wild pounding. On the table sat a tray with a slice of cold meat, bread and butter and a glass of milk.

“Is this drugged with laudanum too, like the last meal you gave me?”

“You’ll have to trust it isn’t, won’t you? Or starve to death. I’ll give you five minutes before we get back on the road.”

“You seem to have planned this very carefully,” Gina said, raising her chin. She didn’t want him to know how scared she was.

A spark appeared in his pale green eyes. “Oh, I have.”

“I don’t understand why.”

“You have five minutes.” He left the room locking the door behind him.

Gina sat dizzily on the edge of the bed and drank the milk. “What did he want with her? He hadn’t touched her and she saw no desire in his eyes when he looked at her, apart from that fiery glance when he wished to control her. No one would ever find out what had happened to her or where she’d been taken. She wiped away a tear. Blair would believe she didn’t love him.

Ogilvie returned with the coachman. “You’ll be a lot worse off if you struggle,” Ogilvie warned.

The men tied Gina’s legs and hands and placed a gag over her mouth, then wrapped her in a hooded cloak. The solidly built coachman carried Gina along the path. Through the gap in the cloak saw that she had guessed correctly, the cabin lay at a distance from a small white-painted inn.

There wasn’t a soul around as he laid her on the seat in the carriage. Frustrated, she tried not to cry, as the gag threatened to smother her. She took even breaths; fearing hysteria would take her over.

They’d been traveling for over an hour. “I’ll remove the gag, if you promise to behave,” Ogilvy said.

She sniffed and nodded her head. Her hatred burned so brightly that if she could get hold of his pistol, she would shoot him dead.

He pulled the gag from her mouth, her lips bruised. Then he barely glanced at her, turning to look out the window. He wasn’t interested in ravishing her, she felt sure. And for now he wanted her alive. For what she didn’t know. Although still frightened, a tiny, flame of hope began to burn within her.

* * *

After another full day in the coach, broken by two brief stops where she was carefully guarded, Gina grew afraid she would lose her reason. The only hope she had was to engage Ogilvie in conversation. She tried again, hoping to learn something that might help her escape. “Where are we going?”

He didn’t raise his eyes from his newspaper. “To my home in Caithness. You’ll like it there. It’s magnificent.”

Did he intend for her to stay there with him? The thought struck a shaft of icy horror in her. She would rather die. She swallowed. “How much further is it?”

“We still have a way to go. I’d advise you to stop annoying me with your questions, or I’ll replace the gag.”

Gina lowered her gaze to hide the flash of anger. She would have to bide her time. She closed her eyes and tried to sleep.