Demon Hunts (34 page)

The Lower World disappeared in a silent rush, leaving me standing cold and numb in the company of mortals. My spear was unbloodied, but I could feel the wendigo's weight against it, for all that I'd left her spirit behind in another realm. I also felt questions building up in the air, everyone around me wanting answers and not quite bold enough to ask for them. I was grateful for that. Grateful enough, in fact, that I reached for magic and brought down the power circles, hoping their fall would keep silence in place.

Corvallis inhaled sharply, and Coyote came to my side, everything about his presence uncertain. I offered the spear, and he took it cautiously. “Jo…”

I shook my head, trying to will him into quietness. I wasn't ready to talk. I didn't think I ever would be, even if I knew I'd have to sooner rather than later. Later: a little later, at least,
because as he took the spear a whisper rifled the distant trees, and Herne was released into our midst.

He nodded once toward Coyote, whose hands fisted around the spear as he thrust it forward sideways, clearly trying to rid himself of it. Herne shook his head, then turned his attention to me, putting a branchy finger to his lips as I struggled to put a thought together aloud.

I hadn't needed to ask. Like he'd known what I wanted, he brought us home.

Laurie was right. The forest went all twisty. There was no better way to describe it: a violent twist of earth and trees, and we were a dozen yards from the hotel's back door instead of out in the far reaches of nowhere. I reached for a tree to steady myself as the others scattered for the hotel's warmth, safety and normalcy. I wanted to go with them. I wanted, really, to go close myself away somewhere silent and just
be
for a while. Just try to wrap my mind around the wendigo's death, and how I felt it as a loss in a way I'd felt nothing else over the past year. I wanted to step out of time and be safe and quiet until I felt ready to face the world again.

A breath of humor rushed through my lips. While that would be nice, it had no basis in reality. I stepped away from the hotel, closer to the forest. “Herne?”

The god stopped, and in his stillness was nothing more than a tree, all black branches in the moonlight. I waited for him to say something, then realized he wouldn't and blurted, “There was one other person we lost today, one of my friend's agents. Is he still out there?”

“I brought everyone who still walked the forest to you. If he is missing, there was no life to be found.”

I slumped. “I was afraid of that. Okay. Thank you.”

The tree bent a little, creaking as it did, and then was nothing
but
a tree, Herne's presence from it gone. I stood there alone for a moment, gazing at where he'd been, then twitched as Sara called my name. “What was that?”

I turned toward her, at a loss for anything but the truth. “That was…I thought you'd gone inside. It was a forest god. Sara, I'm sorry. He says your agent is dead.”

She stared at me a long moment, then passed a hand over her face. “Yeah. You said he probably was.” Another brief eternity passed before she shook herself. “All right. Thanks for telling me. You…you should go home for a while, Joanne.”

Cold, not quite so bad as the storm, but abrupt and uncomfortable, clenched my gut. Sara scowled, reading denial in my face. “I'm serious. If this is what you're doing…you should go home. See your dad. Talk to the elders. You should do that.”

Cold turned to ice and cracked in my voice. “Is he still there? Do you see him?”

“No, I live out here, but I go back sometimes. He was there last summer, anyway.”

“You live here? In Seattle?” That was an easier thought than my dad back in North Carolina. “Maybe we should…” I thought of Lucas, and watching Sara's expression, said, “Or maybe not. I'll think about North Carolina.”

Sara nodded and looked away, neither of us sure what to say next. We weren't friends, not anymore, but we were maybe less antagonistic than we'd been for years. Funny how rivalries could remain, even through time and distance and living only in memory. I didn't want to leave us with history as the last thing between us, and blurted, “What're you going to tell your bosses?”

She glanced back at me with a frustrated huff. “What
can
I tell them? Nothing. I'm going to spend the next six months
or more working on this case, until it goes cold to their satisfaction. You're sure it's over?”

“Yeah. Look, I'm sorry about your man, Sara.”

“Me, too.” Sara fell a step back, precursor to escaping my presence. “I'll see you around, okay, Joanne?”

“Yeah.” I didn't offer a hand, and neither did she. “I'll see you.”

She walked away, and I waited until she was gone before following her in, and driving home to Seattle in time for Christmas.

Sunday, December 25, 5:20 A.M.

I had long since gotten over leaping out of bed bright and early on Christmas morning. Someone, though, apparently hadn't: pervasive thumping on my door dragged me out of a very nice sleep. I crawled over Coyote and into my fuzzy green robe half inclined to yell at the interloper who'd dragged me out of bed at such an unreasonable hour, but holiday cheer got the better of me before I even got to the door.

There wasn't even anyone there to be cheerful at. A gift-wrapped DVD-sized package sat outside my door, and I could hear somebody thudding down the apartment building's stairs. Coyote said, “What happened, Santa forgot where the chimney is?” I shot him a sleepy smile as I tore the wrapping paper open.

It was, in fact, a DVD. Not a popular movie sort, just a silver disc with a note that said “For Joanne” stuck to it. I shuffled to my computer and dropped it in. Coyote sat behind me and I pulled his arm around my waist as the disc spun up and began to play.

Jeff the cameraman, it turned out, was a dab hand with a video camera. Even his crab-walked retreat from the wendigo
was surprisingly steady, and Coyote looked like a native god in the moonlight as he fought the thing. I blew in from offscreen, slamming into the wendigo hard enough that I grunted again, watching it. It and I flung each other back and forth, and Jeff's camerawork was only a half second behind as the wendigo leaped on Laurie Corvallis's prone body.

The next couple minutes were spent enthralled by the utter peculiarities of seeing what one of my psychic/real-world battles looked like from the outside. Every fight, every step, every gesture and every expression I made in Laurie's garden registered itself on my face and body in the Middle World. The wendigo wasn't visible. I just looked like the world's most dedicated mime, flying backward when something hit me, staggering around like a drunk after a bad blow. Not until I raised the spear and drove it down toward Corvallis, awakening her, did the fight have two participants. Moments later, Coyote opened a path to the Lower World for me, and I watched myself walk along it and disappear.

It looked, swear to God, like a magic trick. Like the audience should be peering around in search of the mirrors before applauding wildly. I was gone for a long time, long enough that Jeff panned around to the others. Coyote and Gary were all but leaning forward, both of them obviously—to me—offering strength and support and concern. Sara and Corvallis both looked grimly gobsmacked, and Laurie kept touching her breast where I'd very nearly impaled her. A clock came on in the screen's lower right-hand corner, then jumped ahead by half an hour, footage cut out before I finally returned.

The me on the recording looked so very sad. So tired, and so glad to hand the spear to someone else. I reached out to turn it off, and Coyote stopped me. I said, “C'mon,” quietly. I'd
already watched more than I wanted to, and all I could think was how utterly insane it was going to look on the evening news. Morrison would kill me.

The screen faded to black, then came up again in a news studio. Corvallis held a DVD between two fingers, turning it so it caught the light. “There are two copies. The one you've got, and this one.”

She broke hers into pieces, and the screen went dark.

 

After what seemed like a long time, I cleared my throat and turned the computer off. “Guess we scored one for the home team there.”

“So how come you don't sound thrilled?”

I shook my head. “Because I don't like making believers out of people. It's too big a thing to ask.”

Coyote chuckled against my shoulder. “You went and grew up, Jo. While I wasn't looking. I didn't expect that.”

“Oh, believe me, neither did I. I tried hard not to.” I twisted, trying to see him, and he got to his feet, then pulled me to mine and herded me back toward the bedroom. I went, grateful he didn't have an overwhelming urge to be up at five in the morning either, even if it was Christmas. We tucked up together, me tracing idle patterns on his chest before I mashed my nose against his pectoral and mumbled, “I can't do things your way. You know that, right, Yote? I don't know if I'd have been able to even if I'd stuck with studying with you all those years ago, or if the past six months had gone differently. But I don't think so. You…you're a healer. I'm something else.”

“Warrior's path.” He put his mouth against my hair. “I don't envy that. But you've still got a lot you can learn. A lot I could teach you,” he amended hesitantly. “If you want.”

I pushed up on my elbow, feeling all serious suddenly. “I can't think of a better teacher.”

The man had a smile like no other. I thought it had just been how happy I was to see him at first, but I'd had a few days to get used to it now, and it was definitely a grade-A smile. Bright and fleeting and all the more delicious for its quickness. He caught my hand and kissed the palm, then folded our fingers together on his chest. “Okay. I'll stop trying to remake you in my image, and you can…”

“Stop getting my ass kicked,” I finished firmly. “I want the shamanic handbook, Yote. I want it all.”

He laughed. “Oh how the mighty have fallen. It'd be easier if…” A crease appeared between his eyebrows and he sat up, exhaling a sharp breath that ended ruefully. “Okay, this is going to be harder than I thought.”

Nerves seized my heart and I sat up, too, clutching my pillow. I didn't want him to say anything else, because I was pretty certain of what he'd say. We had, in fact, spent most of the past couple days not-quite-actively avoiding serious talk, which was made easier by me having to work. That made the hours we had together a little more precious, and neither of us had wanted to gum them up with anything other than living in the moment. It took everything I had to whisper, “What's going to be hard?”

“My grandfather bought me a plane ticket home last night, so I could be there for Christmas evening. It leaves SeaTac at ten-thirty.” Coyote shot me an apologetic look and I shook it off even as a pang cut through me.

“You've been unconscious for months. I don't blame him for wanting you home for Christmas.” I wanted him
here
for Christmas, but I wasn't quite selfish enough to say so aloud. Or maybe I wasn't quite brave enough. “That's not the hard part, is it.”

“You're not supposed to know me that well. No, the hard part…it'd be easier to teach you if we were together. In the same place, I mean,” he said hastily, and then, less certainly, “And maybe together, too. I know you can't today, but…but you could come with me, Jo.”

I bent my head over the pillow, eyes closed. That was exactly what I'd thought he was going to say, and it made a hard little helpless place inside me. It took a long time to speak, and even then my voice was small and tight. “You're the shape of my dreams, Coyote. You came to me in my sleep when I was a girl and taught me magic, and now you're here and alive and beautiful and I—” I stumbled over the words so hard I almost swallowed my tongue, but I met his eyes so he could see me saying them: “I love you. You're my dreams come true. And this was going to happen,” I said even more quietly, and mostly to myself. “Right from the moment you came back, this was going to happen. And it isn't fair, because it would break my heart to go and it'll break my heart to stay.”

“But you're going to stay,” Coyote said very softly. He glanced down as I slumped over my pillow. “I knew you would. I still had to ask.” He touched my chin, making me raise my eyes, and offered a shaky smile. “Hey, I'll be back up here, you know. I've got to come back up when the weather clears so I can drive the Chief home. Maybe you won't be able to say no a second time.”

“Maybe I won't.” That idea hurt as much as the other. I snuffled and Coyote's gaze softened. He pulled me against his chest, and we stayed there, silent, until the alarm went off and it was time for me to go to work.

When I got out of the shower there was a flat rectangular black velvet box on my pillow. Not a ring box, but it didn't
have to be: even as it was, it made my stomach lurch so hard I actually got dizzy. I hung on to the bathroom door frame for a couple seconds, just staring at the box before the penny dropped and I snatched it up to run into the living room shouting, “Coyote? Cyrano?
Cyrano!
”

He was gone. He was gone, and I'd known it on some level from the instant I saw the box. I knelt on the living room floor, wearing a towel and nothing else, working up the nerve to open the damned box. I was already late for work by the time I made myself do it.

Four earrings lay inside it. Two were gold wraps. One was a bird, so stylized you had to know me to know it was a raven. The other was more obviously a snake, with a rattle and all.

The other two were a wire pair, meant for pierced ears, which I'd never had. I got to my feet and went into the bathroom, stopping for a needle on my way.

Popping the needle through my lobes didn't hurt at all, nor did threading the earrings through the raw holes. It only took a whisper of healing power to seal the damage over, and then I stood looking at myself in the mirror like I was a stranger. Looking at the earrings, made of bone so smooth it seemed shaped, rather than carved.