Authors: Caroline Graham
In the kitchen the Beavers were clearing up after lunch, Heather washing and wiping, Ken (hop, rest, âaah!' hop) attempting to stack.
âWhen I think of all that sprout timbale.' She sounded quite peevish.
âYou haven't thrown it away?' Ken was naturally aghast. Throwing away was the irredeemable sin. Everything, even the contents of the vacuum bag, went on the compost heapâwhich at the Windhorse obtained to an almost iconic status. It was lovingly tended, dampened, activated by Garotta, forked sides to middle, gee'd up with a little lime and gently compressed by Arno's wellies. Worms were thought specially beneficial and many was the
lumbricus
going modestly about its day-to-day affairs that would suddenly find itself tenderly whisked from terra firma and sent flying through the air to land, like as not, on a heap of rotting egg shells.
âDon't be silly,' Heather now replied. âWe can heat it up for supper.' She tipped the Ecosudz down the sink. This, too, was not wasted. All water, bar that from the loo, was diverted via an elaborate ganglia of tubes and hoses to the herb garden which remained ungratefully sodden-rooted and spotty-leaved. âOhâdo be careful. Hereâlet meâ¦'
Ken, balancing as best he could to put a stack of plates away had almost toppled over. âSorryâ¦a myriad thanks. A bit difficult getting earth-centred today.'
Pouring out the hyssop tea, Heather reintroduced a topic which had kept them awake and chatting the previous night well past sleepy-bye time. âHave you thought any more,' she said, âabout what we're going to do ifâ¦'
Ken shook his head. He drank a little tea, lifting and stretching his top lip in a rabbity fashion to keep his moustache dry. âSomething might turn up today.'
There was no need to elaborate. They both knew that âsomething' meant a Will.
When the matter was being discussed earlier, Ken and Heather had looked very higher-planeish and disapproving, being drawn in, they made clear, quite against their own selfless and delicate inclinations. But later,
à deux
, they had to admit that facts were facts no matter how the nut roast crumbled. And that uncertainty had entered their lives in a big way.
They were very contented at the Windhorse and had become deeply attached to the idea of sleeping beneath a solid roof, washing in hot water and staying fairly warm. Neither wished to rejoin the hipoisie of which their memories were keen. Both recalled sharply lurching about the country in leaky caravans and filthy buses. Hounded and moved on none too gently by the police, or hard-faced, granite-hearted landowners for whom the words âcare and share' might never had been invented. Wearily shifting from one smoke-filled bivouac to the next, crouching round a listless fire surrounded by snapping ribby dogs and whining children. Breaking ice on cattle troughs to make tea, shopliftingâKen had especially hated shopliftingâand outbreaks of violence at dead of night if the local barbarians sussed their arrival. Heather had been woken once by the roar of motorcycles to find fiery rags burning on her pillow.
Neither of them had any idea of course, in those far-off Gandalfian days, that they harboured such a multiplicity of psychic gifts. Yet, now, here was Ken chosen to be a channel for one of the greatest minds the world has ever known, and Heather visiting Venus and being sent back with outstanding powers of healing.
It was mainly because of their work that they were anxious to retain the Windhorse base. They saw it as a haven where the ailing and spiritually bereft could come and be succoured. Should the house prove to have been deeded to some unsympathetic stranger or, worse, be enclosed by Government fisc, where would these poor souls go? Where, come to think of it, would Ken and Heather go? Property was theft, of course, but even if that were not the case they had no savings with which to buy. And no children to qualify for council housingâKen, on top of the leg, having a quite minuscule sperm count.
Even ordinary day-to-day expenses might prove to be a problem. The DSS, when first approached for Income Support a year ago, had been especially unimaginative. In vain had Heather explained the importance of their work: the ripple effect (a loving smile in Uxbridge warms a heart in Katmandu) and the thousands of pounds her ministrations saved the NHS. The department had been equally short-sighted over Ken's claims for a disability allowance, rapping boringly on about the need for a conventional examination plus X-rays.
âThat'll be the day,' Ken had retorted defiantly, âwhen I trust my body to some chemical-dispensing allopath and his cancerforming rays.'
Heather had proved loyal in support, crying, âWhy not just send him to Chernobyl and be done with it?'
Good old Heth. Ken watched her now, languidly taking the mugs to the sink, rinsing them out. She was wearing a cheap white cotton boiler-suit through which the outline of her homely black-knickered bottom clearly showed. Having removed the crystal, her forehead rose naked, high and bumpyâgiving a quite erroneous impression of towering intellect.
âFar be it from me,' said Ken, lowering his voice, âas you know. But I couldn't help wondering if Suhami will still want to give her money to The Lodge now the Master's gone.'
âOh, I do hope so!' cried Heather. âEven if one manages to remain personally non-corrupt, unearned wealth is still the most enormous barrier when mutating to harmonal soul-rule.'
âRight.' Ken reached for the bread bin. âIs there any jam left?'
âI've just put it away.' She crossed to the cupboard. âAnd you sat there and let me.'
âSorry. Do you want a slice?'
âI shouldn't.' Ken sawed off one more. âFunny, Trixie running away like that, don't you think? After Guy Gamelin died. I wondered ifâ¦wellâ¦if they might have been in it together.'
âThey didn't even know each other.'
âShe said that afterwards but May saw them driving off together the afternoon he arrived. Before he'd supposedly met any of us.'
âProbably after a bit of rumpy-pumpy.'
âKen, honestly!' Heather applied a slab of pear and rhubarb stick to her bread. âFor a highly graded planetary light-worker you can sometimes be awfully coarse.'
âHuman nature, Heth. Who are we to judge?'
The telephone rang. There were three: one in the office, one in the kitchen and one on the hall table. Heather let it go saying: âIt'll be business of some sort. May's in the office.'
But if May was, she did not respond and eventually Heather, sighing, âAs if I didn't have enough to do,' picked it up.
Ken watched and listened, becoming more and more intrigued by his wife's disjointed and seemingly harassed response.
ââ¦but she's not hereâ¦not at the moment⦠I really couldn't sayâ¦oh I wouldn't have thought soâ¦no, noâit's not at all that sort of place. Weâ¦well, I was present myself as a matter of factâ¦Heather Beavers. Writer. Healer and Priestessâ¦priestess. MPFS⦠I'm not trying to spell itâthose are my qualifications⦠Gosh I'm not sure about that. We live communally here you see. Talk everything over together⦠Really? That's not longâ¦will you? I could askâhullo? Hullo?'
She rattled the receiver before hanging up and turning to Ken, her face stretched taut by the muscular effort needed to conceal the intensity of her reaction.
âThat was the
Daily Pitch
.'
âEarth-bound profaners,' said Ken automatically.
âOh yesâof course. They wanted to talk to Miss GamelinâSuhami. I said she wasn't here.'
âQuite right too. Thank God someone caring took the call.'
âWe must protect her, Ken. That's vital.'
âEvoke the crystalline hordes.'
âTrouble isâ¦après moi le déluge, ducky.'
âAy?'
âThat's what this woman said. This reporter. We're going to be absolutely besieged.'
âTory lackeys.'
âAbsolutely.' Heather looked around the empty kitchen and spoke more quietly. âThey're so slick. After she'd kind of trapped me into admitting that I was there when the murder took place she began talking about an exclusive. Start counting your noughts my loveâall that sort of thing.'
âChrist.' His voice had gone quite pale.
âI know.' Heather locked her fingers in a vain attempt to control a shudder.
âWhat a load of shites. You'd never feel clean again⦠would you?'
âI should say not,' agreed Heather, painedly studying the interlacing digits. âOn the other hand⦠I got to thinking, Ken. Likeâyou knowâwhat are we about here?' She waved at the honest home-made loaf and sturdy jam. âWhat are we into?' Her husband screwed up his eyes sternly and frowned. âCooling the egoâright? Thinking of others, putting them first. Now here's an opportunity to protect a bereaved sisterâwe could speak to them and draw the flak from her on to ourselves who are better able to bear it.'
âOhhhâ¦' Ken groaned, mangling his crust in self-abnegation. âSorry sorry sorry⦠Of course you're right. Poor Suze. Once again Heth you show the way.'
âAnd it would mean more merits for our karma.' Her husband laughed and shook his head. âSeems it's impossible to get away from the ego entirely. Lookâhow would it be, just to reassure both of us, if I checked it out with Hilarion?'
âShe'll be ringing back in a minute.'
âA minute is all it takes.' And Ken straightened his spine, crossed his eyes, concentrated on the tip of his nose and tuned in to the Intergalactic World Brain.
May had not answered the telephone because she was upstairs starting on what she had already recognized would be a lengthy and most formidable task. Nothing less than the reclamation of the soul of Felicity Gamelin. May had started simply at the most basic level, for physical strength must first be restored.
Now, stroking Felicity's thin hand and holding her in the light, May poured all her energy, (hardly at its peak after the last two days), into the pale motionless figure. She was working quite alone for Felicity seemed to have no will at all. She simply lay, dull eyes staring at the ceiling, looking as if she were about to shrivel up and die.
May's gentle consoling voice had been rippling on for half an hour when Felicity suddenly turned and looked at her. May saw cold, hard stones resting in ivory sockets.
âI hated him.'
âSsshh.'
âI hated him. So why aren't I glad?'
âBecause it is not in your true nature.'
May had seen that straight away. The aura, though tattered, was surprisingly well balanced. Quite a lot of pink and green, even a little blue. Not at all like that young policeman with red flickers everywhere. What a way he had to go, poor boy. May laid her hand on Felicity's brow, picturing divine love flowing down her arm, through her fingers, and entering Felicity's body to heal and comfort.
âDanton called him my mid-life Croesus.'
âIs Danton a friend?' asked May.
âNo.' A ghostly thread of sound. âNot at all a friend. Just someone I used to know.'
These few words seemed to exhaust her but she murmured something else before rolling her head away again. It sounded like âchaos'.
âOur Master used to say that there is an order within apparent disorder, and I'm sure that is true. Just be still my dear and quiet, and all the mudâall the unhappinessâwill settle and things will become clear and bright. You have lost your way Felicity, but together we will find it again.'
Felicity lay back on the pillow, her hand resting in May's. Gradually she felt stealing over her a most delicious lethargy. Her limbs felt so heavy they might have been melting through the mattress. May's voice came and went: deep, rhythmical and soothing like the ocean's tide. Felicity slept.
Arno was pulling radishes for a side salad, stopping sometimes to wave encouragingly to Christopher who was tying up runner beans at the far end of the garden. The radishes were poor forked things quite unlike the glowing crimson globes promised by the seed packet. One of them was covered in little scales and plainly destined for the bonfire. He tried to arrange the rest on a wooden plate brought out expressly for the purpose, but no matter how he turned them they always finished whiskery-side upmost and looking faintly rude.