Dark Witness (13 page)

"What?" I ask.

Then I see that it isn't a girl standing in the doorway looking at me.

***

As Duncan came up the stairs he was thinking of what Pea had said the last time he visited her.

Samuel 2:1-10

The Lord brings death and makes alive; he brings down to the grave and rises up.

The Lord sends poverty and wealth

he humbles and he exalts. He raises the poor from the dust

and lifts the needy from the ash heap; he seats them with princes

and has them inherit a throne of honor.

This was the prophecy of the biblical Hannah and now there was a real life Hannah in this house and under his protection. Hearing this message from the lord, Duncan faced a conundrum that bothered him. Was biblical Hannah asking him to raise mortal Hannah? Or was the passage to remind Duncan to rise up and heal the congregation? Up from the ash heap? That might refer to them all. But a throne of honor? That might only be Hannah. Or Billy. No, Duncan rejected the idea that Pea was referring to the boy. Billy was not humble. He was not orderly. He was a pain in the neck. He was always after Duncan to let him see Hannah. Duncan would let him do that when the time was right and not before.

Duncan closed his eyes and leaned against the wall in the narrow hallway. He raised his face, giving in to his mystical senses. Thinking of these glorious messages felt like rain falling upon his skin, it was as if he saw the glowing letters and numbers of the passage dancing in front of his eyes, it was if the sound of Pea's voice pulsated in his mind, a mind that never got enough of her wisdom.

Standing alone, face raised, Duncan's contentment was spreading from the very core of his mind to the deep cavity of his heart when it was disturbed by the sound of something breaking. The sound came from behind the door in the room where Hannah lay and that, he believed, was the answer to his question. It was not the congregation but Hannah who was meant to be raised up.

"You are so blessed, Pea," he muttered and then bypassed his sister's door and went to Hannah's.

Duncan's heart beat slow and steady in his narrow chest as he prepared himself to speak with her for the first time, for the surprise of her voice, for the energy that would come from the woman awake. In the dark he could see the white of her gown and the sheets, he could see the spark of her gold colored hair.

The breaking glass was the cry of a baby newly born, the first crack of the shell as a chick fights it's way into the world, the blaze of a star escaping the hell of a black hole. Duncan's eyes, so accustomed to the dark, could see every twitch and strain of her struggle. He smelled her sweat and felt the tears welling in her eyes. The Lord had reached down to the grave and up she came. He waited to see what she would do next.

"What?"

She asked this as if he had spoken and that pleased him. Her first word, a question, had no answer and yet a host of them all at the same time. It was for him to interpret which it was. This was yet another sign that she had been delivered to him for some heavenly reason.

Duncan went to the stove and opened the grate. The wood had burned to near cinders and the light cast was no more than a shimmering trail of firefly dust. He walked through it, shoulders back, head high, his stride long and purposeful. The girl on the bed was twisted and turned. He well knew that her face was hardly a face at all, but swollen and stitched up like Frankenstein. The skin around the stitches was scarlet, her hair a mat of knots, her breath was foul, and her heart was fearful. It was up to Duncan to make it all right. But first he must find out what her sin was. That was the only way to understand her destiny. That was truly the only way to heal her.

Sweeping up a ladder back chair, Duncan lifted it easily. He set it down just close enough to the bed to reassure Hannah, and far enough away to show he meant no harm. One of her eyes was nearly swollen shut, but he could see that both of them glittered, sharp and piercingly green. They were stunning eyes; gorgeous eyes; mesmerizing eyes. Those eyes assessed him as no other person ever had, and he waited for her to make her peace with what she saw.

What Hannah saw was a man moving through the indigo darkness. She had seen old men carry themselves like they were twenty and twenty-year-olds bent down as if they were old men. Until she saw his face or his hands she could not tell which he was. Not that it mattered. He was a man and men had not done well by her. She couldn't sit up, she couldn't roll over, and she could not protect herself if he turned out to be a bad guy. All she could do was lie there and wait for him to prove he wasn't.

Hannah tensed when Duncan reached for her but all he did was pull the chain that turned on the lamp. Hannah's eyes went toward it. She had pushed it so far that it teetered on the edge of the table. One more lunge and it would have gone over the side along with the glass. The man adjusted it so that it was stable, and then he drew it closer so that she could see him better.

"You've got yourself into a pickle," he said. "Let me help you."

Duncan slipped his hands under her head and cradled her skull. Hannah pulled back. He was not surprised. He had once awakened in a strange place himself, hurt and fearful and young. He remembered it as if it were yesterday. He was about to reassure her when she whispered:

"Are you a maniac? Are you?"

***

Mama Cecilia made new curtains for her son's room. She took down those of his childhood and put up yellow ones. The new curtains looked happy, but she didn't expect them to make her son happy when he came home. She didn't even expect him to pretend they made him happy, but she thought he would say that he noticed them. That would be enough for her. If he noticed that she had made curtains and mended his sheets and changed the pillow on his bed for the one from her bed that was a finer pillow then that notice would be good.

On the third day after she was alone, the mail came with another message from her granddaughter, Susan. Again, the girl asked for money. Mama Cecilia felt very tired when she read that letter. She sat down for a bit in her chair and looked out the window and into the purple/blue sky. She thought very hard about her life and how it had come to what it was. She put her head back as she thought. Soon she was asleep.

She slept a long while, and when she woke up she thought she was very much like her son who slept so he didn't have to look at his problems. Mama Cecilia didn't think she liked being like her son, so she got up and did some more chores. She thought about her granddaughter, waited for her son to come home, and for a sign as to what she might do when her house was clean.

***

"No. I'm not a maniac. You don't have to be afraid."

He straightened her head on the pillow and stepped back only to swoop down again. This time he put one arm under her shoulder and another under her hips. He lifted her up and set her right, before pulling up the covers and tucking her. She bit off her cries of pain; he talked all the while.

"It's easy to say that, isn't it? It's easy to tell someone not to be afraid. It's very hard not to be. I know. I truly do. I've been there."

He stepped back and put his hands in the pockets of his jacket.

"On top of that, even if you can make yourself unafraid, it's a whole other thing to believe there is no reason to be, isn't it?"

Hannah watched him as carefully as she could, which wasn't carefully enough for her liking. She started to speak, but her vocal cords were tight and unused. She tried a second time.

"Where's Billy?"

"Safe and almost well. I think he's with Glenn now." Duncan pulled up a chair and sat next to her bed. "You need to have faith, Hannah. That's pretty much it. When you have no information, when you find yourself in the most confusing circumstances, you have to let yourself go and believe that you are being told the truth."

Hannah stayed silent. What was there to say? Faith hadn't gotten her very far in her young life. Her mother told her things would be fine. She was eight when she realized that was always a lie. The court told her things would be fine. They weren't. It was only with Josie that Hannah ever had faith and that turned out to be a good call. One out of three wasn't a great track record. Now here she was, sitting with a guy telling her to take him at his word.

"I'm telling you the truth, Hannah, you don't have to be afraid."

He touched her again. His fingers rested on the back of her hand. She watched him do it and felt nothing bad when he did. Maybe that was the worst thing of all. Hannah had no faith in her own perspective. She was afraid to take her eyes off him in case he was lying, but she longed to know what he could tell her: What was this room? How badly was she hurt? How soon would he turn on her if she looked away?

"Are we good so far?" he asked and withdrew his hand.

She nodded once and clenched her hands. Her fingers tapped against the inside of her palm. Her eyes never left his face.

"Billy?" she whispered.

"He's well," Duncan answered. "Maybe not well, but recovering better than you. You've been gone from us for days."

"How long . . . in the truck?" she asked.

"We don't know. Robert – my brother – found you. Bless the Lord." He shook his head and his fringe of fine hair shimmered in the half-light. "There are miracles. You were saved for some wondrous reason, Hannah."

"Where is this . . ."

A sudden pain cut off her question. Her fingers went to her head but Duncan caught her hand before she touched her stitches.

"Don't touch. You are in Clara's Landing. It's a very romantic name for a place that only has three buildings and a dock." Carefully, he lowered her arm to her side. He pressed her hand into the soft bed so she would know he meant for her to stay still. "Do you know what state you're in?"

"Alaska." Hannah licked her lips.

"Yes, that's great you remember. It's been quite a chore keeping Billy away from you. As for visitors, we've only let the women come in, and me, of course. Melody and Teresa. Do you remember seeing them?"

Hannah moved her head so slightly it would be hard to know that she was shaking it, but Duncan knew.

"That's alright. You'll get to know all of us," he said. "We've tried to keep you isolated because we don't have a doctor here. We have only the most basic medications." He opened his hands as if to show her that what he was saying was true, but to Hannah he only proved his hands were empty. "We have good intentions in abundance, though, but that's not going to help if you get an infection. Do you understand that?"

Hannah nodded, but just barely; Duncan smiled, but just barely. She looked so fragile with the white nightgown buttoned up to her chin, the little fringe of lace framing her battered face. Her green, oh-so-painfully expressive eyes were filled with such fear and caution that the look of them cut Duncan to the quick. Still, he had no doubt that if the occasion arose to defend herself she would. She would be truly unique in their little community.

"Yes, well, I didn't really expect an answer to that. My name is Duncan Thoth. I am the head of this little group. The spiritual head, I suppose you'd say."

"Cult?" Hannah whispered through her cracked and dry lips. The swelling on the side of her mouth made it impossible to form her words properly.

"A group of like minded people," he answered as he looked at the shattered water glass and over his shoulder to where she'd thrown the bottle. Yet when he got up, he went out of the room without even trying to clean it up. When he came back he had a wet towel, and he put it to her lips.

"It's not much, but it will help. I'll have Melody or Teresa bring another glass for water when they come, but they're cooking now."

Hannah took the towel and held it to her lips. It was cold and fresh as if it had been dipped in snow. Her eyes closed. She had never felt anything so wonderful. When her hand started to shake, Duncan reached for the cloth. She let him have it, and he put it against her cheek.

"You don't have a fever. That's the good news. But your face is pretty beat up. Your leg is in a cast. You have fifteen stitches in your head. Now, hold this against the side of your mouth. That's where the swelling is the worst." Hannah did as she was told and he took his seat again. "You've got a lot of questions, yes?"

Hannah nodded.

"I won't answer them all. It will just make more work for the women if I wear you out and you get sicker." He crossed his legs and sat back in his chair as if he came everyday to talk with her. "So, where do I start? There are eight of us here. We live off the grid as much as possible. We are Christian. I don't think that makes us a cult, but everyone has their own word for people like us. We are a commune because we all work for each other. We're a retreat because we all spend some time each day in contemplation. I think most of us are too young to be hippies. But, cult? No, Hannah. You'll find each of us is quite different. No lockstep here," he laughed softly. "If you're interested, we will tell you more. If you're not, it's our duty to take care of you."

"Want to see him. . .Billy."

"You two have one track minds. You must have a very strong bond." Duncan smiled but Hannah thought he sounded peeved. Still, when he spoke again it was with kindness. "When you're a little stronger we'll get you back together."

He leaned forward and lowered his voice.

"Billy told me an amazing story about what has happened to you. I wondered if Billy might not have a vivid imagination."

"He doesn't lie," Hannah said.

"No?" Duncan leaned back like an old woman at a coffee klatch who was disappointed that the gossip wasn't juicy. "Then I am amazed you made it this far. Everything happens for a reason, Hannah, so there must be a reason you are here. Believe that. Trust that."

Hannah reached for his hand, more to see if she could make her arm work than to actually touch him. She had so little strength and that hand fell on his knee. She touched denim and the feel of it made her want to cry. He wore jeans, not sackcloth; he talked about God but like a normal human being. He was not scary and he would not hurt them. Duncan pulled a small smile from his inventory and his eyes glowed like a candle flame. He took her hand, cupping it in both of his.