Cut and Run (3 page)

For the first time in more than forty years, Hendrik de Geer felt himself swelling with nostalgia. He had to blink away hot tears—him! A couple hurried past him, and when they opened the door, he heard the tinkle of a little bell and smelled cinnamon, nutmeg, anise, butter, and fresh coffee. It was almost more than he could bear. They were the smells of his youth, and he choked with emotion, unable to hold back the memories.

He didn't venture inside. He shoved his cold hands into the pockets of his cheap overcoat and stared through the window, watching a couple torture themselves over which cake to choose. The chocolate or the buttercream? If only his choices were that trivial.

A woman appeared behind the glass case, and for a moment Hendrik thought her radiant smile was directed at him.
Catharina…
he wanted to cry out to her.

But the sight of him would only bring her pain, and he stepped back so that she wouldn't be able to see him out on the street, alone in the dark. She spoke to the couple, and he watched, marveling at how little she'd changed. Even now, in her late fifties, there was something so captivatingly fresh and innocent about her. Her wispy white-blond hair was braided on top of her head like some long-ago Dutch queen, but without queenly arrogance, and she wore a turquoise knit dress beneath her apron. She had a strong chin and nose, almost too strong, but her dark green eyes were round and soft and exactly as Hendrik remembered.

She helped the couple choose the chocolate cake and wrapped it herself, and when the Dutchman heard the tinkle of the little doorbell as they left, he was halfway down the block.

Choices. What nonsense was this about choices? He had no choice. As always he would simply do what had to be done.

 

Eric Shuji Shizumi had lit a cigarette over coffee—a bad sign. He was demonically good-looking, a wiry man with sharp features, longish fine black hair touched with gray, and probing black eyes. He was notoriously single-minded. Born in San Francisco, he was
sansei,
third-generation Japanese-American. But his earliest memories were of a concentration camp in Wyoming, something he never discussed, never permitted to be printed in his program notes. He could have married a dozen times over, but it was the piano that possessed his soul and consumed his life—and, some said, Juliana Fall. She had heard the rumors but had always dismissed them. She knew Shuji at least as well as he knew her, and whatever had bonded them together for the past twenty years, it wasn't sex and romance. Their relationship was volatile and incomprehensible. In their own way, they were devoted to each other, but neither had shown any inclination to marry, either each other or anyone else. Shuji was no longer formally her teacher, but she was still widely described as his sole student and continued to rely on his advice and guidance. She supposed she still needed his approval, and, too, he understood the demands of international artistic fame better than most. Yet the isolation demanded by his profession never bothered him the way it often did Juliana. He was content to sit for hours at the piano, alone with his work, day after day, month after month, year after year. He had little sympathy with his sole student's need to be with people on occasion.

He blew out his match and dropped it in an ashtray, exhaling a noxious cloud of smoke. “Juliana,” he said, “we need to talk.”

Her heart pounded.
He's found out about J.J.!
But that was impossible. Shuji would never have gotten through dinner if he'd known she'd played Mose Allison at a SoHo club that very afternoon. He'd have gone after her with a steak knife. “About what?” she asked.

“What's happening to you.”

“Me? I've just returned from a grueling European tour, and Saturday night I'm doing my hundredth concert this year at Lincoln Center. That's what's happening to me.” Shuji held the cigarette in the corner of his mouth, not in-haling. They were at a tiny, bring-your-own wine Italian restaurant just off Broadway on the Upper West Side. It wasn't glitzy, and if any of their fellow diners recognized the two world-famous musicians, they left them alone. Juliana was drinking decaffeinated café au lait, hoping it would counteract the wine and food and jet lag so she could go home and run through the Beethoven concerto she would be performing in two days.

“And after the concert?” Shuji asked. “Then what?”

“I go to Vermont for a week or so on a well-deserved vacation, and then I come back and spend the next few months working and recording. I don't have another concert until spring. I'm cutting back some this year. You know all that, Shuji, so what are you trying to get at?”

“Don't go to Vermont,” he said.

“What?”

“You heard me. Don't go.”

“Shuji, I need rest. Dammit, I
deserve
a break!”

“You need work.”

“I work all the time. I've been on the road for four months—”

“The real excitement of being a pianist is in the practice room, not on the concert stage. Juliana, you've been operating at a killing pace the past few years. I know that. And you know I support your cutting back from a hundred concerts a year. But I don't support your going to Vermont, at least not right away. You need to experience the excitement of the practice room again, and as soon as possible.”

“Jesus Christ, Shuji, I'm only going to be gone a week!”

Shuji took a deep drag on his cigarette, held the smoke a moment, then exhaled. Juliana coughed and drank some of her café au lait, but he paid no attention. As usual, he was absorbed totally in his own thoughts. If we were married, she thought, we'd last two weeks.

“A pianist doesn't look forward to a vacation where there is no piano,” he said.

You shit, she thought, but held back. She owned a small, antique Cape Cod house overlooking the Batten Kill River in southwestern Vermont; during the winter, she liked to keep a fire going in the center chimney fireplace. She would sit in front of the flames with an old quilt spread on her lap and read books, not thinking about music. It was true she didn't have a piano in Vermont. She didn't even have a stereo. What she had was silence.

“Shuji,” she said carefully, controlling her impatience. “I am not you. I need this time out, and I'm going to take it.”

“It would be a mistake.”

“Why all of a sudden would going to Vermont be a mistake? It's not as if I've never done it before.”

“I was in Copenhagen, Juliana.”

“Shit.”

“Yes.”

Copenhagen hadn't been one of her more memorable performances. In fact, it had been distinctly forgettable. But Shuji didn't comprehend things like bad nights, and Juliana knew better than to make excuses. “It was an inferior performance,” she admitted, “but skipping Vermont isn't going to change that—and what the hell are you sneaking into my concerts for? Haven't you got anything better to do?”

“I was in Paris also.”

“Well, then, you know Copenhagen was an aberration.” She had received a standing ovation and rave notices in Paris—and had earned them.

But Shuji was shaking his head solemnly as he crushed his cigarette in the ashtray. “I'm not interested in what went on on the surface, I'm interested in what's going on
beneath
the surface.” He always talked like that; it drove her nuts. “I heard something in Copenhagen and in Paris—on a ‘bad' night and on a ‘good' night, if you insist. It was an uneasiness, I believe, a hint of unpredictability. No one else would notice, of course, but soon they will, if you let it get away from you. Be aware of it. Control it. Find out what it is, Juliana, and use it to your advantage. The only place you can do that is in the practice room.”

What he'd heard was J.J. Pepper creeping into her work, but that wasn't something Juliana wanted to discuss with Eric Shuji Shizumi. “Fine. I'll work on it after Vermont.”

“You're in a funk, Juliana.”

“I'm not.”

His black eyes probed her face. “Are you afraid of burning out?”

“No.”

“I was, when I was thirty. You don't remember. You were just a child and had no understanding of such things. But despite all the acclaim, the recordings, the bookings, I wondered if I'd still be around when I was thirty-five. Countless young pianists are just flash-in-the-pans, brilliant for a few years and then gone—
poof.
Sometimes it's their choice; sometimes not.”

“I'm not going to go ‘poof', I'm going to go to Vermont.”

“God knows the public's fickle, always searching for a new star, and our competition system thrusts pianists into the public light at an incredibly young age. The pressures of being a virtuoso are enormous. You're so exposed, so vulnerable. At thirty, the novelty's worn off. You've made a great deal of money, and you must decide if you want to be in this thing for the long haul or not.”

“I've never considered
not
being a pianist.”

“Haven't you?”

He gave her an unreadable half-smile, aware that she was lying. Of course she had. Lately, more than ever. But she couldn't tell Shuji about the mornings she'd lain in bed wondering what her life would be like if she'd never taken up piano, if she never played again. What would she do? What
could
she do? She couldn't tell him about her mounting exhaustion as the tour had worn on, about her fantasies of sticking a jazz improvisation into the middle of a Mozart sonata, about her tiresome fights with her manager, who wanted her to maintain a hundred-concert schedule and at the same time expand her repertoire and do more recordings. She couldn't tell Shuji about her boredom with the review, the constant travel, the fancy dinners, the men she met. She couldn't tell him about the growing monotony of it all and her fear that the monotony would follow her into the practice room, where it never had before. J.J. had counteracted some of the monotony, but she wouldn't be around forever—and Shuji couldn't know about J.J.

He was right. She was in a funk. But in nineteen years, she'd never once told Eric Shuji Shizumi he was right. They argued and struggled and discussed, but she never gave in to him, never permitted herself to be intimidated by his legendary status. When that happened, she would lose her independence as an artist and, she thought, as a person.

“I'm not worried about being around when I'm thirty-five, and I'm not in any funk.” She pushed aside her café au lait and sprang up, feeling tired and scared and so furious she couldn't see clearly. Why the hell couldn't Shuji just leave her alone! Why did he always have to push and press! “I hope to hell you're happy, Shuji. You've ruined Vermont for me.”

“Good,” he said.

“Bastard. Go to hell.”

She stalked out, leaving him with the bill and a smug look on his handsome face.

 

From his shabby hotel room on Broadway, Hendrik de Geer put a call through to United States Senator Samuel Ryder. The Dutchman had been given the senator's Georgetown number, and he wasn't surprised when Ryder picked up on the first ring. It was precisely nine o'clock, when Hendrik had said he would call.

“You have your answer?” Ryder asked.

The Dutchman heard the tension in the young senator's patrician tone, but he took no pleasure in it. “I will meet you at Lincoln Center on Saturday night.” His English was excellent, only lightly accented; he spoke Dutch only when there was no alternative. It was the language of his past. “After the concert. You'll have a car?”

“Of course.”

“Meet me there.”

“All right. But take care the Stein woman doesn't see you.”

Hendrik closed his eyes, just for a second, and felt the pain wash over him. The Stein woman…
Rachel.
But—“I need no instructions from you, Senator.” His voice was cold. “Bloch knows none of this?”

“Do you think I'm a fool?”

“Yes. You tell people what they want to hear, Senator. I know. See to it you tell Bloch nothing, do you understand? Otherwise, my friend, we have no deal.”

S
enator Samuel Ryder, Jr., edged into the narrow wooden booth of the crowded, smoke-filled Washington, D.C., diner. It was not the sort of place he frequented, ever, but he had chosen it for this meeting—a breakfast meeting not on any calendar known to his protective, thorough staff. His aides would have been horrified to see him give the chubby waitress a halfhearted smile as she slapped a sturdy mug of black coffee down in front of him.

“See a menu?” she asked.

The unappetizing menus were printed on cheap white paper and shoved between pieces of peeling plastic. “No, thank you,” Ryder said, concealing his distaste as he looked for any sign of recognition in her bored eyes. There was none. “I'll just have coffee for now.”

She shrugged and waddled off, moving her bulk with surprising ease. Ryder tried the coffee; it was hot and strong, although not of high quality. He didn't mind. During the past month he'd slept little. Coffee kept him going, as well as his sense of duty, of optimism. Things would work out; they had to.

Without a sound, Otis Raymond materialized in the opposite bench and slid into the corner with the ketchup and sugar packets and A-1 sauce, as if he were the one afraid to be seen. Ryder, forty-one and single, tall, sandy-haired, square-jawed, and well-dressed, stuck out in the greasy diner. Army Specialist Fourth Class Otis Raymond—the Weasel, his buddies in Vietnam had called him—fit right in. He had to be forty, but he was even ganglier than Ryder remembered. Otis still looked like a teenager, a doped-up kid on the road to hell. He wasn't aging, he was yellowing. His bug-bitten skin, his sunken eyes, his teeth, his fingertips. Even his hair had a dead, yellowish cast.

Otis grinned. “Shit, man, it's been a long time. You done good since 'Nam, huh, Sam?” Fortunately, he seemed not to expect an answer. He rubbed his hands together. “I gotta have coffee. Fucking freezing up here. How the hell do you stand it?”

“You get used to it,” Ryder said.

“Not me, man.”

The chubby waitress appeared with a mug and a fresh pot of coffee. She poured Otis a cup, refilled Ryder's, and took out her order pad. Although Ryder gagged at the thought of what such a place might serve, he knew if he didn't eat, Otis wouldn't either, and the Weasel looked even more gaunt and hungry than Ryder remembered. He ordered ham and eggs. Otis said, “Make that two,” and gave Ryder a manic grin. “Can't remember the last time I had a decent breakfast. You?”

“I usually play tennis early Friday mornings,” Ryder said.

Otis laughed, snorting. “Tennis, shit. You wear them little white shorts?”

“They're considered de rigueur, yes.”

“Fuck that.”

The Weasel pulled out a crushed pack of Camels and tapped out a cigarette, taking three matches to light it. The matches were cheap and damp, and his hands were shaking. Ryder had a feeling they always shook. He dragged deeply on his cigarette, his fingers trembling noticeably. Raymond had always believed he and Ryder had some sort of special rapport because he'd saved Ryder's life in Vietnam, but of course that was absurd. Raymond had just been doing his job. Ryder didn't feel he owed Otis any special thanks. He appreciated the former helicopter door gunner's extraordinary skill with an M-60 machine gun, his principal weapon, which he'd treated with more care and concern than he had himself. But that came as no surprise: Otis Raymond had never planned on making it out of Southeast Asia. And in many ways, he hadn't.

Breakfast arrived, smelling of salt and grill grease, and the Weasel attacked his with the relish of the half-starved. The coffee and cigarette seemed to have calmed him, and his hands were steadier. He bit into the butter-slathered toast. “Bloch thinks you're up to something, Sam.” Otis seemed to enjoy calling a U.S. senator by his first name. He swallowed the toast. “That's why he sent me up here. He doesn't give a shit what you do, so long as he gets his money. He's not worried about you giving away his operation, because he knows if you do, you'll end up swimming in shit, too.”

“He's overextended,” Ryder said coldly, wishing he could feel as confident as he sounded.

“Yeah, I know, but that don't matter. He's putting the screws to you so you can pull him out. Man, he's been doing this crap for years. You try and mess him up, you don't come out of it. He will; you won't.”

Ryder said nothing. It rankled him that Bloch—Master Sergeant (ret.) Phillip Bloch—had sent Otis Raymond as his messenger. The Weasel, for the love of God. A drug-addicted loser giving him, a United States senator, advice!

“Don't bullshit Bloch, man. You got something going, level with him.”

The acidic coffee burned in Ryder's stomach as his contempt for Raymond and Block and the underlife they represented again assaulted him. They'd been in Vietnam together—or, more accurately, at the same time. Weasel, Block, Ryder. And Stark. Mustn't forget Matthew Stark, although he'd tried. Of the four, only Ryder had successfully put their shared past behind him. He'd overcome all that had happened to him in Vietnam, all he'd done, all he'd seen, all he'd had done to him. He'd been a first lieutenant, a platoon leader, and Bloch had been his platoon sergeant. Stark had been a helicopter pilot, Otis Raymond his door gunner. They'd all survived their tours of duty.

Ryder understood tragedy as well as anyone—better than most, he felt. But why dwell on what you couldn't change? Why not move forward? He loathed men like Otis Raymond, still living the war, letting it destroy them, but at least Otis wasn't always whining and complaining the way so many were. Ryder had never had much in common with the men with whom he'd served, the men he'd led. Most were from the dregs of American society and had gone to Vietnam not because they believed in or understood the cause for which they were fighting, but because they had had no other real option. “I got into some trouble,” Otis had explained once. “Judge told me, go to school, go to war, or go to jail.” But Ryder came from an old, prestigious central Florida family and was himself the son of a U.S. senator; going to Vietnam for him had been an honor and, as his father's son, a duty.

“What more does Bloch want from me?” Ryder asked, hating the hoarseness in his voice. Normally his strong sense of self, which some called arrogance, could conceal his fear.

“Anything he can get, Sam.”

He licked his lips, resisting the impulse to bite down. “What does he know?”

Otis shrugged. “He knows de Geer's in New York, that you two got something cooked up.”

“Did de Geer tell him?”

“The sergeant's got snitches all over camp. He knows what's going on.”

“He would,” Ryder said, dispirited.

If he leveled with Bloch, the Dutchman would be furious and perhaps impossible to control. Technically, de Geer worked for Bloch, although as an independent his only loyalty was to himself. It was in his role as Bloch's messenger that Ryder had first met the Dutchman. De Geer turned the screws on Ryder on the sergeant's behalf—demanding more money, more favors, making those demands impossible to refuse. But now Ryder was the one turning the screws on the Dutchman.

Still, Ryder knew that if he didn't level with Bloch, the sergeant would keep digging until he found out what he wanted to know. Right now, Ryder didn't need that kind of interference. He needed to keep Bloch where he was, at least for the moment. “Can't you stall him?”

“Me?” Otis gave a croaking laugh that ended in a fit of coughing. He slurped some coffee and settled back, his bony frame almost disappearing against the tall wooden back of the booth. “Shit, Sam, you got a sense of humor, huh? I don't stall Bloch—man, nobody stalls that fucker. I try, I'm a dead man.”

“My God, what have I gotten myself into?”

Ryder hadn't intended for Otis to hear him, but the skinny army combat veteran nodded solemnly. “You know it, Sam, don't you? Let me help, okay? Trust me, I know Bloch. Man, I ain't going to let you go down.”

My God, Ryder thought, am I so desperate I need Otis Raymond to protect me? “Thank you, Otis, but I can handle Bloch. Everything will work out.”

“That's what you always say.”

“It will. Trust
me.
”

“I gotta give Bloch something.”

“Of course. I understand that. Explain to him that Hendrik de Geer and I are meeting at Lincoln Center tomorrow night to discuss a plan to get Bloch enough money to purchase the weaponry he needs and to get into his permanent camp—and out of my life for good. That's to his advantage as well as mine. Our current arrangement is too dangerous for us both.”

Otis nodded at Ryder's plate, and Ryder shook his head and pushed it over. “I ain't had a good plate of eggs in I don't know when. You should see the crap the sergeant feeds us. Granola, for chrissake. So, what kind of plan?”

“I'd rather not say.”

“Man, you gotta.”

“Look—”

“You want Bloch at Lincoln Center, then you clamp up right now.”

“That's the last thing I want!”

Otis dug into Ryder's cold eggs. “Then talk to me, Sam.”

“I'm going after a diamond.” Ryder measured his words carefully, trying to ignore the grinding pain in the pit of his stomach. He was so afraid. Dear God, he was afraid. But everything
would
work out. “It's the largest, most mysterious uncut diamond in the world.”

“Huh?”

“And if I can get it—if—I intend to turn it over to one Master Sergeant Phillip Bloch.”