I took the book from her. ‘I think it’s “a mule”.’ I passed it back.
‘“…and was arrayed most strangely with bells and scarfs, her face and hands almost black” – that’s “black” with an
e
on the end.’
I duly wrote it all down. I had to admit that when we held my version close to Catherine’s, the two were more similar than I had expected. But I still said stubbornly, ‘Mine has more of a slant, and the verticals are longer.’
‘You’ve just taken up more space than she has; she had to squeeze it in wherever she could. Mind you, it’s surprising that she was able to write at all – she’s not an aristo or anything, is she?’
I shook my head. ‘No, but I think her mother must have been educated, and it sounds from what she says at the start as if her mistress might have taken a bit of a shine to her and encouraged her.’ I paused, staring at what I’d written. ‘Egypt’s a very long way from Cornwall,’ I said dubiously. ‘Are you sure that’s what it says?’
‘It’s the old word for “gypsy” – they thought they came from Egypt. Some of them probably did.’ She paused. ‘Did you say Cornwall?’
I had forgotten to explain that small detail. ‘Um, yes. She’s called Catherine Anne Tregenna – Cat, for her initials – and she worked at a manor house in the seventeenth century, somewhere around here, in fact. Ken – something.’
‘Kenegie?’
I looked at her in surprise. ‘That’s the name, yes. Why, do you know it?’
Alison’s eyes were wide. ‘It’s the name of the Elizabethan manor house – we’re within its old boundaries. In fact, we had a load of old rubbish from the manor house stuffed in our attic. Good heavens, that book must have been here for the best part of four hundred years: she probably lived right on this estate!’
The back of my neck prickled. ‘Is the manor house still here?’
Alison hesitated. ‘It’s probably not what you expect.’
I looked at her, waiting.
‘It’s… well, the Elizabethan house is still there, though it’s been renovated to within an inch of its life. They’re turning it into executive apartments.’ She snorted. ‘As if there were a load of aspiring executives converging on Penzance. And the rest of it is a sort of holiday village now.’
‘A what?’ I was horrified.
She spread her hands. ‘You can’t blame people: Cornwall’s the poorest county in England. All that’s left down here is tourism and fishing, and precious little fishing, given all the EU restrictions and the foreign factory ships. People have to make their money in any way they can.’
‘I suppose so.’ The picture she painted was rather different to the one I had been cherishing.
‘We could walk down there later, you could see it.’
‘Mmmm,’ I said non-committally. Shards of mundanity were beginning to puncture the illusion I had been happily constructing. Cat’s neat, secretive little jottings had been my escape from the unpleasant realities of the world. Poking around the place she had lived in meant sharing her with Alison, and I realized I didn’t want to share Cat with anyone.
‘What was her name again?’ she muttered, flicking to the title page. Her eyes lit up. ‘Catherine Anne Tregenna. You know, I think there are Tregennas somewhere in our family. In fact I’m sure there are. Or Tregunna. Or was it Tregenza? There’s a greengrocer in Penzance called Tregenza’s; then there’s Tregenna Castle at St Ives. I wonder if we’re all related? I’ve got the family bible somewhere…’ Her face fell.
‘What is it?’
‘It’s in the attic,’ she said flatly.
‘Oh.’ I didn’t feel like volunteering for that task.
‘I have to go up there again sometime, I suppose…’ She left the sentence hanging, as if I was meant to finish it in some way.
I said nothing, but I felt her eyes on me like a weight.
‘I’ll go,’ I said heavily at last. ‘If you can tell me where to look.’
She stood on the landing at the bottom of the stairs while I went up, her hands clutching the newel post like claws.
The attic space was as bright and fresh as the rest of the house, but a lot more untidy. A huge Velux window set into the hidden roof slope to the north of the house let in a wash of daylight for which I was profoundly grateful. Along one end ran Andrew’s desk, piled high with papers. The computer sat there blank-screened and resentful. No one had switched it on in the best part of a fortnight. The suicide note, Alison said, had been propped up against the monitor. In the centre of the room ran a huge wooden beam. A length of rope remained attached to it, its end severed as if by a sharp knife – by the police, I imagined, since Alison had not been able to bring herself to touch the body. I tried not to look at it, but my eyes kept straying back. It was bright blue, of some man-made fibre – nylon or polypropylene – and looked rough to the touch, hard to make a good knot with. I wondered where Andrew had learned what knots to tie, whether his fingers had fumbled as he pulled it tight. I imagined how its coarse texture would cut into the delicate skin of the neck, and had to push the thought away.
‘Can you see the boxes?’ Alison called up, sounding falsely cheerful. ‘They should be beside the big wooden plan chest.’
That at least was hard to miss: an old architect’s plan chest dominated one end of the room beneath the gable, three cardboard boxes in a jumbled tower beside it. The top one was thick with dust; they obviously hadn’t been opened in a while.
I hoisted the top box down and opened it. Andrew’s face stared out at me, florid and grinning, and his presence suddenly filled the room. I dropped the box, and photos spilled over my feet. Alison and Andrew, Andrew and Alison – the AA, or ‘fourth rescue service’, as friends had jokingly termed them – a hundred, two hundred images of them taken together and singly: in groups at weddings, on boats, on holiday, in overalls working on the house. Twenty years of bright Fujicolor history packed into a dusty old box.
‘Sorry!’ I called down. ‘Dropped something.’
I scooped the photos up and crammed them back into the box, averting my eyes from these images of another, better world. The second box contained old notebooks, diaries, a faded visitors’ book, but nothing that looked like a family bible. That left the last box. I wrestled it open. Under a bundle of yellowing newspaper lay a huge, musty-smelling object. I levered it out. Its leather cover felt damp to the touch, and it smelled of mildew, though the box and attic space seemed dry and weatherproof, as if it brought its own climate with it.
‘I’ve got it!’ I called down. As I hefted it, something shifted from inside its back cover and several pages of foxed, brown-edged paper dislodged themselves. For a moment I thought the whole thing was disintegrating; then I realized they were loose. Old letters, at a glance. I shuffled them carefully back inside the cover and took a last look around the attic space where Andrew Hoskin had taken his life. Despite the bright light streaming in through the window, the room seemed oppressive, as if not only the beams and joists and tiles of the roof were bearing down on me, but also the sky, the stars and the heavens beyond. Suddenly I felt a wash of utmost despair. I was a tiny, worthless speck of life in a huge universe. What did I think I was I doing here? I was wasting my time, wasting my life. There was nothing for me here; indeed, possibly nothing for me anywhere. I had no job, no family, no man, no children, no prospects; and certainly wouldn’t find them in Cornwall. Moreover, I was a woman, and faithless. The thought came to me, clear as a clarion call, that I should leave at once, just
go away
.
Clutching the bible, I fled down the stairs, already calculating the length of time it would take me to pack, call a taxi and make my way to Penzance Station.
‘What on earth’s the matter?’ Alison’s eyes were blue-rimmed and hollow. She looked like a stranger, an intruder in the house. All I wanted to do was to barge past her and get out.
I put a hand out as if to push her away. ‘I –’ And then the feeling passed. I blinked.
She took the bible away from me: I probably looked too unsteady on my feet to be carrying it. ‘Let’s go downstairs,’ she said firmly, tucking the huge volume under her arm. She put her other arm around me. ‘You look in need of a cup of strong tea.’
And, just like that, she had switched from being the victim to the carer, and I was the one in need of looking after. Perhaps, I reflected as I followed her down to the kitchen, that was exactly what she needed, this reversal in our roles.
There were no Tregennas listed at the front of the family bible. Lots of Pengellys and Martins, Johns and Bolithos; some Lanyons and Stephens and even a Rodda, a name I recognized from the tub of clotted cream Alison had in the fridge; but not a single Tregenna. I didn’t know whether to be disappointed or relieved.
An old Ægyptian woman came to the scullery door today. She came on a mule & was arrayed most strangely with bells & scarfs, her face & hands almost blacke
…
When the knocking came at the scullery door, Catherine was in the kitchen taking down a list of provender dictated by Lady Harris. The air was thick with the fragrant aroma of furmity, which Kate Rowse, the cook, had been boiling up all morning. The smell alone made Cat’s stomach rumble: Kate had added spices, butter and rum to the wheat porridge, and she wasn’t sure she could wait as long as the noon meal.
‘Go see who’s there, Catherine,’ Margaret Harris said, without moving an inch from the larder. She turned back to the cook. ‘Quite how we’ve managed to run through so much flour in a month I cannot imagine.’ Lady Harris, like her husband, ran a tight ship.
Visitors to Kenegie were not infrequent, and came for all manner of reasons: beggars to request alms, though they were not encouraged, for the Master donated generously to the parish and preferred to see the parson attend to the matter of charity; gamesmen offering a fine hare or a brace of pigeons; Market-Jew fishermen with their wares strapped in a withy basket on their backs seeking a groat for a mackerel, a penny for a pollock or thruppence for one of the great eels that lurked beneath the offshore reefs.
Outside the scullery, tying the halter of a bone-thin mule to one of the ornamental bay trees, was what appeared to be an old woman: but, if so, she was like no other old woman Cat had ever encountered. This bizarre little person wore a brightly coloured headscarf tied at the nape of her neck, vast hoops of gold in her ears, a bodice of patchworked fabrics and a voluminous pair of breeches caught close at the ankle by silk scarves and ropes of tinkling silver bells. But it was not even the impropriety of the breeches that gave Cat such cause for amazement; it was the colour of her skin, which was a most remarkable brown, as dark as a conker. A couple of years back some vagrants claiming to be Ægyptians had turned up in Penzance with a travelling show; but they had blacked their skin with a liquor of oak galls – as had become evident when the Constable had consigned them to the stocks and upturned the water butt over them. Two days later they’d been lashed out of town, never to be seen again, which Cat had thought was a great shame; true gypsies or no, they would have provided some exotic entertainment, a glimpse of another, more glamorous world.
She opened the door a crack. ‘What do you want here?’ she whispered. ‘You’d best be off quietly, for the folk here don’t look well upon your kind.’
The crone regarded her with an eye as bright as a blackbird’s. ‘A girl with her head afire and goodness in her heart: now there be a fine sign for a murky sabbado.’
Cat stared at her. ‘Whatever are you talking about?’
The gypsy leaned against the door frame and peered into the scullery. ‘Yon settle looks fair for resting a bundle of old bones that have been jounced since dawn’s light.’
‘I really can’t let you in,’ Cat said nervously. ‘Much as I’d like to – I’d get into trouble. There’s a bench in the garden, though; you could sit on that and I could perhaps bring you something to drink before you go on your way.’
The old woman continued to gaze at her, unblinking. ‘There be trouble coming your way whether or no you let me in.’
Cat took a step backwards. ‘What sort of trouble?’
‘I’ll take some repast for that, my maid,’ the Ægyptian said, sniffing the air like a little pug dog and setting her foot over the threshold.
‘Ah, no, you’d best come with me,’ Cat said quickly, before the situation got out of hand. She slipped out of the scullery door, leaving it on the latch, and drew the woman away across the garden, out of sight of the kitchen windows. The crone sat down on a bench beneath the apple tree and eased her feet out of her long leather shoes with a great sigh. ‘Treacherous as the serpent in Eden,’ she complained, glaring at them and rubbing her bunions with a great claw of a hand. ‘I paid good silver for them at Exeter; by Plymouth I was in agonies.’ She paused, then straightened up. ‘I’ll be needing new shoes in Penzance, I think.’
When Cat said nothing to this, the old woman rolled her eyes. ‘Be a good maid and give me a bit of silver, and I’ll tell your fortune.’
Cat caught her breath. ‘Are you a moon-woman? One as reads the path of life in a girl’s hand?’
‘The spirits have bestowed that gift upon me,’ the old woman said modestly. ‘Though it tends to work the better for the touch of silver.’
‘I have no silver; but I could get you something to eat, if you’re hungry. There’s some bread fresh baked.’
The old woman snorted. ‘Can’t wear loaves on my poor ruined old feet, can I?’ she demanded.
Cat desperately wanted her fortune told. But she had given her last coin to her mother the day before and would not be paid till the coming Monday.
‘The bread is good,’ she urged. ‘And there’s furmity in the pot.’
At the mention of the furmity the crone sat up straighter. She gave Cat a wide, lop-sided grin which showed off her strange collection of teeth. ‘Ah, furmity: now that’s worth a fortune to me. But, mind, if you want good spirits to guide your future, maidie, best make sure there’s plenty of good spirits in it, eh?’
Cat ran back to the scullery, wondering how on earth she was going to make away with a bowl of furmity without being seen.