Authors: J.C. Taylor
I rolled my eyes. “You’re really asking that question,”
He caught the ball again, and then looked at me. He sighed a
frustrated sigh.
“
Sorry,” He said. Just really frustrated
“
So I see,” I Try and joke a little, but it wasn't helping, he sat up from
his bed as his feet his feet had hit the ground.
“
Are we ever going to talk about what happened between us?” He
didn’t look at me. But he got up setting the ball on his bed. He then
pulled me close and kissed my lips fiercely.
I was now the rebound, did I really want to be,
Yes….
Chapter Twelve
I stopped him after a few minutes and looked at him.
“
Our parents are home,” I reminded him. He ran his hands through
his hair, and turned his back towards me.
“Right,” He said. He sat back down on his bed and I could see the
anger raging through him.
I weakly smile.
“
So what happened?” I kept pressing on, hoping I would be able to
make him at least feel better about the break up after he had talked
about it.
“
She cheated on me,” He said. Then he whispered. “While I slept with
you,”
“
You didn’t tell her,did you?”
“
No,” He says quickly. “Of course not, I would never tell anyone what
Happened between us,”
“
Is that why you have been distant?”
“
I haven’t been distant,” He said. Persisting.
I look at him with a raised eye brow. “This is the first time you have
even talked to me, or touched me since that night,” I reminded him.
“
Not true,”
“
Yes true,” I say back.
“
It’s been at least three weeks, next week will be four,”
“
I’m sorry,”
He then says.
I let silent come between us, wanting to reassure him how much of a
jerk he was being towards me. We just stare at each other, both of us
completely unsure of what to do now.
“
How can I make it up to you?” He asks.
“
You can’t,” I firmly say.
His eyes looked at me confused. “Why not?”
“
Because, I don’t want you to make it up to me for being a Jerk
Michael, what I want you to do is make up for not spending time with
Me,”
“
It wasn’t my idea to stay away from each other after we had sex if you
don’t remember,”
This was true, but I was hoping he would have fought it, but I was
wrong.
“
So its my fault?”
“
No,” He now stood up again. “Its not your fault, its Our fault,”
I looked at him a little appalled. “Our Fault? I think you mean your
fault,”
“
You’re the one who wanted me to be distant from you when my dad
and your mom are around, and news flash Grace, that’s all the time
since they have been back from my aunt’s house,”
This was true again, but even when we were in town together to go
shopping for groceries, he still could have been a little closer to me.
“
Fine,” I say. Starting to get annoyed arguing about something stupid.
“
How about this, it’s both of our faults, and we stop it at that,”
“
Fine,”
Fine, seemed to be the word we used the most, not just between me
and Michael, but my mom and Gary as well.
___
Night had arrived.
Mom and Gary were asleep, and I had been in the living room trying to
Figure out what I was going to do with myself, I was almost done with
Community college and I had to apply for grad school. I sat on the
couch with my laptop on my lap, looking at all the different listings of
schools.
Now that mom was happy and had a husband, I didn’t have to worry
about her as much, because I knew that she would be taken care of,
however, Michael was my other issue.
Would I be able to leave him, going to another state and moving on
with my life, not being able to think about what we once were…
If we were anything at all.
I didn’t know anymore.
Everything in my life was falling apart I felt at the very seam of it all.
Chapter Thirteen
Life was too short to worry about anything, however I still worried.
Where was my life going? Where was Michael’s life going?
I didn’t really know, Michael didn’t go to school, but he graduated
high school the same year I did.
Why was I worrying about his future?
Let’s face it, I’m falling in love with my step brother
Who could possibly just always be that – a step brother.
“
Grace,” I heard my mom call out as she turned on the light, I looked
Over my shoulder and closed my laptop. “It’s three in the morning,
what are you doing up?”
“
Just thinking,” I said. Which was the truth, mother walked over to me
And wrapped her arms around me from behind the couch.
“
Well you might hurt your brain if you think too much love,”
“
I think I’m already there,” I say. “Considering I have a migraine
coming on,”
“
Did you take some Motrin for it?”
“
No,” I reply. “Not yet,”
“
I’ll go get you some,” She said. Not hesitating to go and get it.
Mom came back about five minutes later and handed me orange juice
And the Motrin, I couldn’t take water with any medicine, it would
make me gag if I did.
“
Thanks,” I say, Taking it quickly.
“
Get to bed baby girl, it’s late, don’t you have class tomorrow?”
“
Online,”
“
Well still,” She said. She kissed the top of my head. “Get some sleep,”
I nodded and watched mom head up the stairs. She must have forgot
what she had come down for in the first place when she saw me sitting
her. I shrug, then I open my computer back up.
__
I feel asleep on the couch, and woke up to the front door being shut.
I wake up and look out the window, I see that Michael has taken his
car and left.
It hurt to know that he wasn’t fighting for me like I would hope, after
all this maybe the best choice for the both of us, I can go my way and
he can go his way, the secret affair we had with one and other remain
in a secret between us and we can live like normal brother and sister.
Then again, who knows what could happen in the future, our parents
Could get divorced, and we could finally be together?
Wishful thinking, mom was too happy to get divorced any time soon.
I yawned and stretched out my muscles after looking out the window,
And grabbed my laptop heading up to my room instead.
__
As hours had passed I had a productive day of home work and
searching for a graduate college, the sun was settling down, as Michael
had come back, I heard his car door shut, and saw Mom and Gary
leaving again, it was date night for them.
“Well be back in a few hours, don't wait up,” Gary said to Michael. Michael just nodded then headed inside the house.
I heard the front door shut, and his foot steps coming up the stairs. I
watched mom and Gary leave not even five minutes later.
As the pulled out of the drive way and drove off, Michael opened up
my door, and before I could speak, he kissed me roughly on the lips
and hovered over me, laying me under him, I moaned softly. I could
smell alcohol coming from him, as he started to take off my shirt.
I let him.
Why? Because he was angry, and I wasn't one to fight with him when
he was angry. My shirt fell onto the floor as he started to kiss my neck,
I tilted my head back and closed my eyes.
“I need you right now Grace,”
He said in between kisses.
I didn't know if that was the real him talking, or if it was the drunk
him talking.
“Are you drunk?” I asked. As he pinned my hands over my head.
“If I was I wouldn't have been able to drive home,” He said. I felt him