Conspiracies of Rome (4 page)

It wasn’t all bad in Richborough, you know. I was too young to remember the time before Ethelbert had killed my father and taken our lands. While they were alive, my brothers would tell me what scraps they could themselves remember. My mother never spoke of the past.

    So Richborough was all I really had. I was happy enough there as a child. I’d run about with the other boys, playing at hide-and-seek in the empty shells of the administrative buildings. Often, I’d climb onto the broken walls to watch the grey, surging waves of the Channel.

    I even got an education there. When I was seven, I went to the school run by Auxilius. He’d killed a man in France. Even under King Chilperic, that was considered not quite proper for a man of the cloth. So he’d gone on the run. Safe in Richborough, he’d taken a wife and some students.

    He used to teach in a little church that still had most of its roof. ‘I am a man of God,’ he would say. ‘Therefore, God’s house is mine.’

    To be fair, no one else wanted the place. The few Christians left in town were even more lapsed than he was. He taught me and a few of the other boys in town. In return, we dug his garden and took him drink and whatever food we could lift from the local villages. What I remember most about him is his pockmarked face and his habit of blowing his nose on the ragged hem of his monastic robe – I don’t think he had any other clothes. But he was a good teacher.

    He started me on scratching the letters and syllable combinations on bits of broken roof tile. Then he taught me the use of a stylus he’d dug out of the ruined basilica. Bronze, a point at one end, a flat blade at the other, this had been used in the old days for writing on wax tablets. In small things as in great, Auxilius believed in the old ways, and he had me and the others smearing mutton fat on small pieces of board. He would dictate. When I’d got it right, I had to wipe the fat smooth and start on the next task.

    On hot days, he’d take us round what was left of the town, getting us to read the inscriptions. Or we’d go out to one of the graveyards. In those days, the stones were still in place, not yet taken off to build into walls. To my knowledge, he never instructed anyone in the Faith. But he could really bring the stick out for linguistic faults. He wasn’t interested in teaching the debased, conversational Latin of our age. What he gave us was the pure language. ‘
Petere fontes
,’ he used to say as he let us read from the few books he’d stolen before going on the run from his monastery – ‘Go to the sources.’

    If I now preside over the greatest centre of learning this side of the Balkans, it is due to the start Auxilius gave me in that crumbling church, with a pigsty at one end and a tree pushing up the mosaic pavement in the middle.

    I saw him again only once after my mother’s funeral. As soon as he heard the news, Ethelbert relieved me of any family duties I might have inherited. He took my half-sister away – she was his child, after all, and he was thinking to marry her to one of his grade-two retainers. Then he had me thrown into the street. His men turned up on the third day after the funeral. They took a silver brooch that had been my mother’s only remnant of our old standing, and chased me out of the house.

    What Ethelbert wanted with the place I never did learn, but it was one of the few buildings in town with a sound roof. As I picked up my only change of clothes, which they’d tossed into the mud, his men advised me to go sell my arse in Canterbury if I didn’t want to starve.

    But that sealed reference to Maximin from Auxilius saved me from both. How they knew each other is unimportant. Why they were in touch is simple. The work of claiming England for the Faith was more important than remembering old and distant crimes.

    When I wasn’t out faking miracles with Maximin, I’d sit in the mission library to continue my education. I can’t say the majority of the books there were to my taste. They were mostly lives of saints or diatribes against the Arian and Monophysite heresies. Bishop Lawrence was always very hot against these, and he had the missionaries asking incomprehensible questions of the converts about the relative status of the Father and the Son. I had enough trouble myself with the orthodoxy of three gods in one, and soon gave up on interpreting the questions Maximin put through me.

    What I loved was the small collection of ancient writings that had been sent over from Rome. Opening a volume of Cicero was like stepping from deep shadow into the sunlight. This meant far more to me than the matter of baptism. It was through Cicero that I made my first acquaintance with the sceptics and with the great master of all wisdom – Epicurus. Oh, what a revelation he was through Cicero. It was as if a lamp had been set alight in my head. Or perhaps it was that I’d been given words to express what I already knew by instinct – that happiness, rightly understood, is the purpose of life; that knowledge of the world as it is must be the key to happiness; that the world works according to laws that we can investigate through our own rational faculties; that no authority, whether religious or secular, should be allowed to stand in the way of our individual search for the ‘good life’.

    I was young. The Church was part of an obviously higher civilisation than my own. I was eating its bread. I was in a part of the world where its priests were necessarily all devout believers. I might have been got properly for the Church. But, good and often greatly good man as he was, Maximin was the last person to be set over anyone of intelligence whose mind was already inclined to scepticism. With his endless pious frauds, he gave me no reason to believe in the claims of the Church. With the little that I read and the much more that I inferred in the mission library, I had every reason
not
to believe a word of those claims.

    But for the knock on the head, I suppose I might have given in to Maximin’s urging and gone into the Church. He was increasingly sure he could get the rules set aside in my favour. After my last appointment with Ethelbert, though, there could be no more talk of accelerated ordination, or any other place for me in the English Church.

    It was to be Rome now or nothing.

    In the event, it was nearly both.

4

There is no pleasure, I have always thought, at once so selfish and yet so intense as a good shit. And I’d just had a very good one. Its cause was last night’s meal, our first real one in a couple of days – Italian bread, olives, fish from the sea, which we’d roasted on the beach, and a big jar of wine we’d got in return for some of our bread.

    We were on the Aurelian Way, somewhere between Populonium and Telamon. Rome was still a few days along the road. I’d dodged off the road for my shit, leaving Maximin to fix breakfast, and was now washing myself in a little stream that ran down to the sea. Birds sang in the trees around me. Above, a spring sun shone from a cloudless sky, warming me after the night frost.

    That, though – considerable as it was – marked the limits of my pleasure. I’d grown up in a world of ruins, and nothing much should have affected me. But my people had moved into England centuries before, and had completed their work of destruction long before I was born. We’d driven out the Romans, pushing them west and southwest, or across the Channel, and had looted and burned until precious little remained. By my time, we held the land, and the few bits of town that were left had become wretched, crumbling places, the ruins mostly decorously hidden under little mounds. Until the missionaries turned up and began the rebuilding, it was a world of balance, in which the old was passing out of memory and the new becoming immemorial.

    Italy was different. The signs were all around us of recent, savage destruction. Coming out of France, we’d entered an active war zone. This wasn’t the half-hearted fighting within the royal family that had been slowly ruining France for generations. It was nasty stuff. Farms and villages and whole towns were abandoned. Whole regions that still, here and there, showed signs of formerly dense habitation, had reverted to wilderness. The roads remained – they were constructed of solid basalt on deep foundations. But they passed mostly through a desert, going for whole days from nowhere to nowhere else.

    It was all such a pity. Until just a few generations before I was born, Italy had been much the same as in ancient times. There was no emperor in Rome or Ravenna, and the Eastern capital, Constantinople, had no authority here. But the territory had passed under quite a decent barbarian, who’d tried to keep up the civilised decencies.

    Then that fool Justinian had reached out from Constantinople, eager to reunite all the provinces under his rule. It wasn’t enough for him to be emperor in the East and to enjoy a vague primacy over the new barbarian kingdoms of the West. He wanted it all.

    After twenty years of hard fighting, and the plague, there wasn’t that much left of Italy worth ruling. Since then, it had drifted further towards ruin. With the more settled barbarians shattered, and the imperial forces barely strong enough to collect the taxes, it hadn’t taken much for the Lombards to break in and really tear things apart.

    A nasty lot, the Lombards. They were rather like my own people. They’d recently improved somewhat by taking to the Faith – even if this was the usual Arian heresy. They’d also sort of agreed to stabilise the frontiers between their bits of Italy and the fragments left to the Empire. But it was all very grim. There might be hopes of peace, but its reality was a fading memory.

    After passing though a thin strip of imperial territory on the coast, Maximin and I had gone into Lombard territory. Except for the fact we had to hand over all our silver and persuade some barbarous priest got up in stolen finery that we weren’t wholly convinced by the Nicene Creed, we’d been let through unmolested. Now we were back in the part of imperial territory that surrounded Rome. At least, that was the theory. But there had been another hard winter, and a bit of plague the year before had got the Lombards back into a mood for localised plunder.

    We’d come across evidence of this the day before. Maximin had urged me up the road all afternoon, telling me about a nice monastery outside Populonium that would put us up for the night. Just before sunset, we arrived by a pile of smoking ruins. A plundering band had got there a few days earlier and somehow broken through the fortification. There was a bit of food left in an undamaged outhouse – hence our nice dinner. But the monastery itself was no more. We’d smelt what we found there from a good quarter-mile away. But two-score rotting bodies, many hideously mutilated before death, was a dispiriting sight. Maximin had studied with the abbot, and was naturally upset to find parts of the man carefully draped around what remained of the chapel.

    I found a couple of books that hadn’t been consumed by the flames, but they were too heavy to carry away, and weren’t worth the effort. At every monastery we’d stopped at along the way to beg a meal and a warm place for the night, I’d charmed my way into what library was available. In the evenings, I’d read. By day on the road, when not talking with Maximin, I thought about what I’d read. It was a good continuing of my education. But this was a dead monastery. There was nothing here for me.

    ‘We could spend the night here,’ I’d suggested, looking round the outhouse. It’s surprising what bad smells you can get used to after a couple of hours, and it would be warmer than bedding down again by the side of the road, and perhaps safer.

    Maximin wasn’t so sure. ‘This repose of the godly has been made into a house of Satan,’ he’d insisted.

    So we’d gathered up what food we could carry and started along the road again, turning after a while to the seashore, where some fishermen were looking for somewhere safe to put in for the night.

    We’d slept eventually in a little copse by the shore, waking in terror every time we heard the undergrowth rustle. Now it was morning, and I was sitting by the stream deliberately washing my bum.

    All the signs were for a lovely day ahead. During our passage of France, Maximin had kept me cheerful in the bitter cold and rain by teaching me Greek – he’d recite from
The Acts of the Apostles
, and let me struggle to compare this with what I could remember of the Latin version I’d read in Canterbury – and by assuring me that the world would soon come to an end. It was because of this, he said, that he’d volunteered for the English mission. Augustine and company and Pope Gregory were of a different opinion. They saw the mission as one of permanent occupation. Maximin’s interest, though, was in getting as many souls converted before the Second Coming of Christ. This would atone for his many sins. What these were, he never let on – I imagine he’d had a few impure thoughts twenty years before: his lack of scruple in advancing the Faith was evidently not something that had ever preyed on his mind. So he declaimed on and on about the approaching end, warming to his theme whenever we passed another derelict villa, or, once into Italy, some present evidence of the decline and fall.

    For myself, the decline and fall seemed purely a human matter. The trees still blossomed. The birds still sang in the trees. The warm Italian sun still shone as it surely always had. And it was a lovely sun – quite unlike anything I’d seen in Kent. It bathed the land in a beautiful golden light, and was reflected back in the living greens and pinks of the vegetation, and in the deep blue of the sea. It could even make the human devastation all around less bleak than it might otherwise have been.