Complete Works of Thomas Hardy (Illustrated) (839 page)

‘Ah, you’ll soon think nothing of forty in his grand new house!  Shall I bring in supper directly he comes, ma’am?’

‘No, not for half an hour; and, Mrs. Wake, you and Betsy are busy in the kitchen, I know; so when he knocks don’t disturb yourselves; I can let him in.’

She was again left alone, and, as it still wanted some time to Nicholas’s appointment, she stood by the fire, looking at herself in the glass over the mantel. Reflectively raising a lock of her hair just above her temple she uncovered a small scar. That scar had a history.  The terrible temper of her late husband — those sudden moods of irascibility which had made even his friendly excitements look like anger — had once caused him to set that mark upon her with the bezel of a ring he wore.  He declared that the whole thing was an accident.  She was a woman, and kept her own opinion.

Christine then turned her back to the glass and scanned the table and the candles, shining one at each corner like types of the four Evangelists, and thought they looked too assuming — too confident.  She glanced up at the clock, which stood also in this room, there not being space enough for it in the passage.  It was nearly seven, and she expected Nicholas at half-past.  She liked the company of this venerable article in her lonely life: its tickings and whizzings were a sort of conversation.  It now began to strike the hour.  At the end something grated slightly.  Then, without any warning, the clock slowly inclined forward and fell at full length upon the floor.

The crash brought the farmer’s wife rushing into the room.  Christine had well-nigh sprung out of her shoes.  Mrs. Wake’s enquiry what had happened was answered by the evidence of her own eyes.

‘How did it occur?’ she said.

‘I cannot say; it was not firmly fixed, I suppose.  Dear me, how sorry I am!  My dear father’s’ hall-clock!  And now I suppose it is ruined.’

Assisted by Mrs. Wake, she lifted the clock.  Every inch of glass was, of course, shattered, but very little harm besides appeared to be done.  They propped it up temporarily, though it would not go again.

Christine had soon recovered her composure, but she saw that Mrs. Wake was gloomy.  ‘What does it mean, Mrs. Wake?’ she said.  ‘Is it ominous?’

‘It is a sign of a violent death in the family.’

‘Don’t talk of it.  I don’t believe such things; and don’t mention it to Mr. Long when he comes.  He’s not in the family yet, you know.’

‘O no, it cannot refer to him,’ said Mrs. Wake musingly.

‘Some remote cousin, perhaps,’ observed Christine, no less willing to humour her than to get rid of a shapeless dread which the incident had caused in her own mind. ‘And — supper is almost ready, Mrs. Wake?’

‘In three-quarters of an hour.’

Mrs. Wake left the room, and Christine sat on.  Though it still wanted fifteen minutes to the hour at which Nicholas had promised to be there, she began to grow impatient.  After the accustomed ticking the dead silence was oppressive.  But she had not to wait so long as she had expected; steps were heard approaching the door, and there was a knock.

Christine was already there to open it.  The entrance had no lamp, but it was not particularly dark out of doors.  She could see the outline of a man, and cried cheerfully, ‘You are early; it is very good of you.’

‘I beg pardon.  It is not Mr. Bellston himself — only a messenger with his bag and greatcoat.  But he will be here soon.’

The voice was not the voice of Nicholas, and the intelligence was strange.  ‘I — I don’t understand.  Mr. Bellston?’ she faintly replied.

‘Yes, ma’am.  A gentleman — a stranger to me — gave me these things at Casterbridge station to bring on here, and told me to say that Mr. Bellston had arrived there, and is detained for half an hour, but will be here in the course of the evening.’

She sank into a chair.  The porter put a small battered portmanteau on the floor, the coat on a chair, and looking into the room at the spread table said, ‘If you are disappointed, ma’am, that your husband (as I s’pose he is) is not come, I can assure you he’ll soon be here.  He’s stopped to get a shave, to my thinking, seeing he wanted it. What he said was that I could tell you he had heard the news in Ireland, and would have come sooner, his hand being forced; but was hindered crossing by the weather, having took passage in a sailing vessel.  What news he meant he didn’t say.’

‘Ah, yes,’ she faltered.  It was plain that the man knew nothing of her intended re-marriage.

Mechanically rising and giving him a shilling she answered to his ‘good-night,’ and he withdrew, the beat of his footsteps lessening in the distance.  She was alone; but in what a solitude.

Christine stood in the middle of the hall, just as the man had left her, in the gloomy silence of the stopped clock within the adjoining room, till she aroused herself, and turning to the portmanteau and greatcoat brought them to the light of the candles, and examined them.  The portmanteau bore painted upon it the initials ‘J. B.’ in white letters — the well-known initials of her husband.

She examined the greatcoat.  In the breast-pocket was an empty spirit flask, which she firmly fancied she recognized as the one she had filled many times for him when he was living at home with her.

She turned desultorily hither and thither, until she heard another tread without, and there came a second knocking at the door.  She did not respond to it; and Nicholas — for it was he — thinking that he was not heard by reason of a concentration onto-morrow’s proceedings, opened the door softly, and came on to the door of her room, which stood unclosed, just as it had been left by the Casterbridge porter.

Nicholas uttered a blithe greeting, cast his eye round the parlour, which with its tall candles, blazing fire, snow-white cloth, and prettily-spread table, formed a cheerful spectacle enough for a man who had been walking in the dark for an hour.

‘My bride — almost, at last!’ he cried, encircling her with his arms.

Instead of responding, her figure became limp, frigid, heavy; her head fell back, and he found that she had fainted.

It was natural, he thought.  She had had many little worrying matters to attend to, and but slight assistance.  He ought to have seen more effectually to her affairs; the closeness of the event had over-excited her.  Nicholas kissed her unconscious face — more than once, little thinking what news it was that had changed its aspect.  Loth to call Mrs. Wake, he carried Christine to a couch and laid her down.  This had the effect of reviving her.  Nicholas bent and whispered in her ear, ‘Lie quiet, dearest, no hurry; and dream, dream, dream of happy days.  It is only I. You will soon be better.’ He held her by the hand.

‘No, no, no!’ she said, with a stare.  ‘O, how can this be?’

Nicholas was alarmed and perplexed, but the disclosure was not long delayed. When she had sat up, and by degrees made the stunning event known to him, he stood as if transfixed.

‘Ah — is it so?’ said he.  Then, becoming quite meek, ‘And why was he so cruel as to — delay his return till now?’

She dutifully recited the explanation her husband had given her through the messenger; but her mechanical manner of telling it showed how much she doubted its truth.  It was too unlikely that his arrival at such a dramatic moment should not be a contrived surprise, quite of a piece with his previous dealings towards her.

‘But perhaps it may be true — and he may have become kind now — not as he used to be,’ she faltered.  ‘Yes, perhaps, Nicholas, he is an altered man — we’ll hope he is.  I suppose I ought not to have listened to my legal advisers, and assumed his death so surely!  Anyhow, I am roughly received back into — the right way!’

Nicholas burst out bitterly: ‘O what too, too honest fools we were! — to so court daylight upon our intention by putting that announcement in the papers!  Why could we not have married privately, and gone away, so that he would never have known what had become of you, even if he had returned? Christine, he has done it to . . . But I’ll say no more.  Of course we — might fly now.’

‘No, no; we might not,’ said she hastily.

‘Very well.  But this is hard to bear! “When I looked for good then evil came unto me, and when I waited for light there came darkness.”  So once said a sorely tried man in the land of Uz, and so say I now! . . . I wonder if he is almost here at this moment?’

She told him she supposed Bellston was approaching by the path across the fields, having sent on his greatcoat, which he would not want walking.

‘And is this meal laid for him, or for me?’

‘It was laid for you.’

‘And it will be eaten by him?’

‘Yes.’

‘Christine, are you sure that he is come, or have you been sleeping over the fire and dreaming it?’

She pointed anew to the portmanteau with the initials ‘J. B.’, and to the coat beside it.

‘Well, good-bye — good-bye!  Curse that parson for not marrying us fifteen years ago!’

It is unnecessary to dwell further upon that parting.  There are scenes wherein the words spoken do not even approximate to the level of the mental communion between the actors.  Suffice it to say that part they did, and quickly; and Nicholas, more dead than alive, went out of the house homewards.

Why had he ever come back?  During his absence he had not cared for Christine as he cared now.  If he had been younger he might have felt tempted to descend into the meads instead of keeping along their edge.  The Froom was down there, and he knew of quiet pools in that stream to which death would come easily.  But he was too old to put an end to himself for such a reason as love; and another thought, too, kept him from seriously contemplating any desperate act.  His affection for her was strongly protective, and in the event of her requiring a friend’s support in future troubles there was none but himself left in the world to afford it.  So he walked on.

Meanwhile Christine had resigned herself to circumstances.  A resolve to continue worthy of her history and of her family lent her heroism and dignity.  She called Mrs. Wake, and explained to that worthy woman as much of what had occurred as she deemed necessary.  Mrs. Wake was too amazed to reply; she retreated slowly, her lips parted; till at the door she said with a dry mouth, ‘And the beautiful supper, ma’am?’

‘Serve it when he comes.’

‘When Mr. Bellston — yes, ma’am, I will.’ She still stood gazing, as if she could hardly take in the order.

‘That will do, Mrs. Wake.  I am much obliged to you for all your kindness.’ And Christine was left alone again, and then she wept.

She sat down and waited.  That awful silence of the stopped clock began anew, but she did not mind it now.  She was listening for a footfall in a state of mental tensity which almost took away from her the power of motion.  It seemed to her that the natural interval for her husband’s journey thither must have expired; but she was not sure, and waited on.

Mrs. Wake again came in.  ‘You have not rung for supper —  — ’

‘He is not yet come, Mrs. Wake.  If you want to go to bed, bring in the supper and set it on the table.  It will be nearly as good cold.  Leave the door unbarred.

Mrs. Wake did as was suggested, made up the fire, and went away.  Shortly afterwards Christine heard her retire to her chamber.  But Christine still sat on, and still her husband postponed his entry.

She aroused herself once or twice to freshen the fire, but was ignorant how the night was going.  Her watch was upstairs, and she did not make the effort to go up to consult it.  In her seat she continued; and still the supper waited, and still he did not come.

At length she was so nearly persuaded that the arrival of his things must have been a dream after all, that she again went over to them, felt them, and examined them. His they unquestionably were; and their forwarding by the porter had been quite natural. She sighed and sat down again.

Presently she fell into a doze, and when she again became conscious she found that the four candles had burned into their sockets and gone out.  The fire still emitted a feeble shine.  Christine did not take the trouble to get more candles, but stirred the fire and sat on.

After a long period she heard a creaking of the chamber floor and stairs at the other end of the house, and knew that the farmer’s family were getting up.  By-and-by Mrs. Wake entered the room, candle in hand, bouncing open the door in her morning manner, obviously without any expectation of finding a person there.

‘Lord-a-mercy!  What, sitting here again, ma’am?’

‘Yes, I am sitting here still.’

‘You’ve been there ever since last night?’

‘Yes.’

‘Then — ’

‘He’s not come.’’Well, he won’t come at this time o’ morning,’ said the farmer’s wife.

‘Do ‘ee get on to bed, ma’am, You must be shrammed to death!’

It occurred to Christine now that possibly her husband had thought better of obtruding himself upon her company within an hour of revealing his existence to her, and had decided to pay a more formal visit next day.  She therefore adopted Mrs. Wake’s suggestion and retired.

VIII

Nicholas had gone straight home, neither speaking to nor seeing a soul.  From that hour a change seemed to come over him.  He had ever possessed a full share of self-consciousness; he had been readily piqued, had shown an unusual dread of being personally obtrusive.  But now his sense of self, as an individual provoking opinion, appeared to leave him.  When, therefore, after a day or two of seclusion, he came forth again, and the few acquaintances he had formed in the town condoled with him on what had happened, and pitied his haggard looks, he did not shrink from their regard as he would have done formerly, but took their sympathy as it would have been accepted by a child.

It reached his ears that Bellston had not appeared on the evening of his arrival at any hotel in the town or neighbourhood, or entered his wife’s house at all.  ‘That’s a part of his cruelty,’ thought Nicholas.  And when two or three days had passed, and still no account came to him of Bellston having joined her, he ventured to set out for Froom-Everard.

Christine was so shaken that she was obliged to receive him as she lay on a sofa, beside the square table which was to have borne their evening feast.  She fixed her eyes wistfully upon him, and smiled a sad smile.