Code Name Verity (30 page)

‘My God, we haven't time for that – we're an hour and a half late already – '

‘OPEN THE COWLING OR I WILL SHOOT IT OPEN.'

I didn't mean that. But it was an inspired threat, mostly because it gave me the idea of levelling my Colt .32 at the driver's head and making him get out of the car.

He didn't even turn the ignition off – the engine was still gasping as we pried up the side panel of the bonnet with the tin-opener on Etienne's Swiss knife. All was inky pitch-black beneath it. The driver cursed and complained, but Paul murmured reassuring words to him in French, as I was clearly set on getting my own way. Got one of them to hold an electric torch for me while the other made a tent with his jacket to hide the light. Oh – the screw that held the cable to the choke valve had come loose – PROBABLY WITH ALL THAT BLASTED JIGGLING – the flap that is supposed to close over the air feed to the carburettor wasn't closing properly, and all I had to do was tighten the screw with my wizard pocket screwdriver nicked from the Nazis.

I slammed the bonnet shut, leaned in the driver's door and yanked the choke on, and the engine roared into life like a zooful of happy lions.

Then I climbed back into my maidenly spot in the back seat and didn't say anything else till we got to the field, half an hour after the plane had left. Most of the reception committee had left too, only a couple of them still waiting for us to turn up in case something awful had happened to us.

I was too mad this time to think of Dorothy at the end of
The Wizard of Oz
. I gave the poor Rosalie such a kick in the front mudguard that I made a dent in it with my wooden clog. Everyone was shocked. Apparently I've got a reputation for being quiet and a bit weepy – in a word, they think I'm gormless.

Paul again, explaining: ‘They couldn't have waited – it's so late now it'll be daylight by the time they get back to England. They couldn't risk being caught over France in daylight.'

Then I felt dead selfish and bossy and mean, and tried to apologise to Papa Thibaut's mate, in my rubbish French, for denting his fender.

‘No, no, it is I who must thank you, Mademoiselle –' says he, in French ‘– for you have mended my choke!' And he held the door open for me gallantly. No suggestion that he had wasted yet another night risking his life for an ungrateful foreigner who would never be able to repay him – the Aerodrome Drop-Off Principle taken to extremes.

‘Merci beaucoup, je suis désolée –' Thank you so much, I'm sorry, I'm sorry – seems like I'm always saying ‘Thank you, I'm sorry.'

One of the reception committee stuck his head into the car after me. ‘The Scottish airman said to give you these.'

Jamie left me his boots.

True to my reputation for gormlessness I blubbed most of the way back to Ormaie. But at least my feet were warm.

Penn's found her. Georgia Penn's FOUND
HER! Julie disappeared 13 Oct. and Penn talked to her yesterday, 19 Nov. NEARLY SIX WEEKS.

I don't recognise any of my emotions any more. There's no such thing as plain joy or grief. It's horror and relief and panic and gratitude all jumbled together. Julie's alive – she's still in Ormaie – she's in one piece, in her usual battle gear, every elegant hair swept neatly into place 2 inches above her collar, she's even still managing to do her blooming nails somehow.

But she
is
a prisoner. They caught her almost immediately. She looked the wrong way before crossing the street, typical Julie. Oh – I don't know whether to laugh or to cry. So fed up with crying all the time, but too upset to laugh. If she'd had the right ID on her when they first questioned her she might have got away with it. She didn't stand a chance without ID.

Miss Penn had asked if she could interview an English-speaker and they got to talk face to face, under guard, and Penn verified Julie by her code name. She wasn't told Julie's real name. Don't know what excuse they gave, Penn came away fairly well convinced the whole interview set-up was a complete sham, and Julie herself was being kept on a tight rein somehow. Invisible, but there. I suppose Julie knew that if she stepped out of line they'd silence Penn too – I know Julie would never risk that. She didn't even go against orders and say her name, all information was passed in hints and code words. The captain and slave-girl were both there, and one or two others, and they all sat around drinking cognac – except the slave-girl of course! – in the captain's dead swanky office where Julie has been temporarily put to work as a translator. So in fact she's actually doing what she was sent here to do!

No name given, no military service or rank mentioned – she introduced herself to Penn as a wireless operator. She has told the Nazis she's a wireless operator. MADNESS – that's not why she's here and so now they've gone to a lot of effort to get code out of her – Penn hadn't any doubt they'd got code out of her, must be obsolete or invented, but definitely something they can try to work with. Penn thinks that's exactly why she told them she was a w/op – they call it W/T in SOE, wireless telegraphist: so she could give them code. It's more common for a girl in SOE to land in France as a courier, but if Julie had told them she was a courier they'd have grilled her about her circuit – obsolete code is safer to betray, I suppose, than real live people. And it's straight truth in terms of Julie's original training and her WAAF commission, and it goes along with the pictures they took at the crash site, which they've certainly shown her by now. As long as they're focused on her non-existent wireless activities they won't ask her about Operation Blow-Up-the-Ormaie-Gestapo-HQ or whatever it's really called.

Penn was shown only a few of the administrative offices and an empty dorm room with 4 tidy beds in it – no contact with any other prisoners and no sign of the conditions they're kept in. Julie gave her some clues. She said

She

Julie was

– BLAST IT. Fly the plane, Maddie.

—

I WILL NOT CRY.

I got to talk to Miss Penn myself. Mitraillette and I met her by a little pond in a posh residential area of Ormaie and sat on a bench winding yarn while we talked, one of us girls on each side of Miss Penn and a canvas bag in her lap full of worn-out woolly socks to be unravelled. She must have looked like our nanny, she's nearly a foot taller than either of us. She talked and we kept dipping into the bag for more yarn while we listened. Suddenly in the middle of her report, as I reached for another sock, Miss Penn took hold of my hand and held it tight. Just mine, not Mitraillette's, don't know how she guessed that I was the one who'd take it hard. A bit of an interrogator herself, now that I think about it – same job as the rest of them, pulling sensational stories out of reluctant sources. They all do it differently, but it's the same job. And Julie, also an expert, made it easy, volunteering information that Penn didn't ask for.

‘You feeling brave, Kittyhawk?' Penn said, holding my hand tightly.

I gave her a sort of grimace of a smile. ‘I suppose.'

‘There's no nice way to tell you this,' Penn said, and her crisp, no-nonsense American voice was angry. We waited.

Penn told us quietly, ‘She's been tortured.'

Couldn't answer for a minute. Couldn't do anything.

Probably seemed quite sullen – not surprised really, but Penn was so frank it felt like being hit in the face. Finally I croaked stupidly, ‘Are you sure?'

‘She showed me,' Penn said. ‘She was pretty clear about it. Adjusted her scarf as soon as we'd shaken hands – gave me a good look. Ugly row of narrow, triangular burns across her throat and collarbone, just beginning to heal, looked like it had been done with a soldering iron. More of the same all along the insides of her wrists. She was very clever about showing me, cool as you please, no drama about it. She'd give her skirt a twitch as she crossed her legs, or let her sleeve ruck back as she took a cigarette, only moving when the captain was looking somewhere else. Ghastly bruises on her legs. But the marks are fading now, must have all been done two or three weeks ago. They've eased off on her, don't know why – she's made some kind of deal with them, that's for sure, or she wouldn't still be here. You'd have thought by now Ormaie would have either got what they wanted out of her or given up.'

‘Made a deal with them!' I choked.

‘Well, some of us manage to pull it off.' Miss Penn gently guided my hand back to the bag of socks. Then she confessed, ‘Hard to tell what your friend thinks she's doing though. She was – she was
focused
. She didn't expect to hear her own code name come up in the conversation and it shook her, but she didn't – you know, she didn't hint at rescue – I think she's still dead set on completing her assignment, and has reason to believe she can do it from inside.' Miss Penn gave me a sideways glance. ‘Do you know what her assignment was?'

‘No,' I lied.

‘Well,' Miss Penn said, ‘here's what she told me. Maybe you can make something of it.'

But I can't. I don't know what to do with any of it. It's like – it must be like palaeontology. Trying to put a dinosaur together based on a few random bones and you don't even know if they're all from the same kind of animal.

I'll write down what Julie's given us though – perhaps Paul will make sense of it –

1) The building the Gestapo use in Ormaie has got its own generator. Penn was complaining about power cuts, and how annoying it is not to be able to count on electricity when you work in radio, and Julie said, ‘Well, here we make it ourselves.' How like her to talk as if she'd become one of them. Like the time she took me to see
Colonel Blimp
and sat there weeping all through the scene where the imprisoned German officers are listening to Mendelssohn.

2) The fuse box is under the grand staircase. Miss Penn didn't say how our Julie managed to communicate that. Did also mention:

3) It is a known fact that the Nazis have a wireless office across the square from the Gestapo HQ, in the town hall, and according to Julie this must be because there is no regular broadcasting set-up in the Château de Bordeaux building – Penn thinks because the walls are too thick for good reception, but I reckon the generator interferes with the reception more than the walls. This information was passed dead casually. SOE call radio work ‘arthritis', easy peasy. Can just imagine Julie. Studying her nails. ‘Fortunately I don't suffer from stiff joints. No one does here. How these Nazis would take advantage!'

4) Penn also found out a lot about the slave-girl secretary. Julie thinks she is about to have a crisis of conscience which we might be able to take advantage of – suggests we watch her and make it easy for her to find a Resistance contact when she's ready.

It boggles me trying to think how Julie managed to communicate all this with the Gestapo captain
listening
. Apparently they were speaking English and the slave-girl had to translate for the captain, so either she just didn't get it or she put up with it, which partly proves Julie's point. Julie calls her ‘the angel' – ‘l'ange' – dead embarrassing if you ask me, no wonder the poor girl keeps mum. It's masculine too, in French, not just a plain noun like it is in English. It is a direct translation of her surname, Engel, from the German.

Sometimes Julie used to make me jealous – her cleverness, her ease with men, how posh she is – the grouse-shooting and the Swiss school and speaking three languages and being presented to the King in a blue silk ball gown – even her MBE, after she caught those spies, like being knighted, and
especially
her term at Oxford – and I HATE MYSELF for ever having thought any of it was worth envying.

Now all I can think of is where she is and how much I love her. And I start to cry again.

I dreamed I was flying with
Julie. I was taking her home, flying up to Scotland in Dympna's Puss Moth. We were heading up the coast along the North Sea, the sun hanging low in the west – sky and sea and sand all gold, gold light all around us. No barrage balloons or anything, just empty sky like in peacetime. But it wasn't peacetime, it was now, late November 1943, with the first snow on the Cheviot Hills in the west.

We were flying low over the long sands at Holy Island, and it was beautiful, but the plane kept trying to climb and I was fighting and fighting to keep it down. Just like the Lysander. Scared and worried and tired all at once, angry at the sky for being so beautiful when we were in danger of crashing. Then Julie, sitting alongside me, said, ‘Let me help.'

In the dream, the Puss Moth had dual controls side by side like a Tipsy, and Julie took hold of her own control column and gently pushed the nose forward, and suddenly we were flying the plane together.

All the pressure was gone. Nothing to be afraid of, nothing to battle against, just the two of us flying together, flying the plane together, side by side in the gold sky.

‘Easy peasy,' she said, and laughed, and it was.

Oh Julie, wouldn't I know if
you were dead? Wouldn't I feel it happening, like a jolt of electricity to my heart?

Amélie has just seen an execution at the Château de Bordeaux. Château des Bourreaux is what everybody calls it now – Castle of Butchers. The kids here get Thursday off school instead of Saturday, and Amélie had gone into Ormaie with a couple of her chums to a cheap café they like, which happens to be at the end of the lower lane at the back of the Gestapo building. Amélie and her friends were sitting in the café window and noticed a crowd gathering in the lane – being kids they piled along to see what was going on – turns out those bastards had got a guillotine rigged up in their rear courtyard and were executing people –

The kids
saw
. They didn't know what was going on or they'd have never gone to look, Amélie says, but they arrived just as it was happening and they saw it. SAW IT HAPPEN. She has been sobbing her heart out all evening, impossible to comfort her. They saw a girl killed and Amélie
recognised her
from her school, though the girl had been a few years ahead of Amélie and had already finished – what if it had been Beryl? Or Beryl's sister? Because that's what it's like, schoolmates being guillotined as spies. I didn't understand before – really didn't understand. Being a kid and worrying that a bomb might kill you is terrible. But being a kid and worrying that the police might cut your head off is something else entirely. I haven't words for it. Every fresh broken horror here is something I just DIDN'T UNDERSTAND until I came here.