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Part Two

The horizon is never reached.

The Strain of Biomites

Steven picked a week-old scab.

“Stop,” his mom said.

Instead he slouched in the chair, stared at the color print on the wall. The sling made it hard to cross his arms. Besides, his forearm hurt too much. But once her eyes dulled, she was back to internal chatting and he went back to picking. 

The door opened.

“Good morning,” Dr. Vinja said.

It took a moment for Mom to pull out of her chat. “Hi, Doctor.”

“You’re here early.”

“Steven has a tournament tomorrow. This morning he wrecked his bike.”

“Boys will be boys.” Dr. Vinja washed her hands, asked about Steven’s dad and his brother and sister. They had seen the doctor at the pool last week.

“Hop up.” She patted the paper-covered table.

Steven climbed on. She used a light on his eyes, listened to his breathing, and felt the glands beneath his chin.

“So how are you feeling?”

“He hurt his wrist,” Mom said. “That’s the sling we used last time. Third broken bone in a year.”

“We don’t know it’s broken,” the doctor said.

“Trust me, I know. His brother and sister were the same way, their bones as weak as crackers.”

The doctor asked him to move his hand. It hurt in every direction. He didn’t think it was broken.

“It’s best if we get an x-ray,” the doctor said. “Biofeedback probably won’t be necessary. If anything, it’s a hairline fracture.”

He was relieved to hear that. Biofeedback made him nauseous. They did that last time, when he broke his femur. His biomites chattered with a medical scanner, giving detailed reports of his internal injury. It felt like he swallowed a dental drill.

“Honestly,” Mom said, “he needs a biomite boost.”

The doctor took a slim box from her white coat, placed it against his chest. The surface was slick and cold, but quickly heated up. For a moment, he was filled with marching ants.

She pulled the box away. It said 9.9%.

“There is a new strain of biomites that improve bone density,” the doctor said. “They’re registered with M0ther, non-replicating, and fully compliant with the transparency laws. Right now, they’re using them to offset osteoporosis.”

“Perfect.”

“I can prescribe a 0.1% boost this afternoon.”

“That’s not enough.”

The doctor washed her hands again. Drying them with a paper towel, she said, “Liz, it’s all we can do. He’s ten years old. Ten percent is the legal limit. We need to let his body grow through puberty; otherwise, the results could be unstable. I think his bones are trying to catch up to the increased strength and agility he’s received from previous biomite seedings.”

“He was diagnosed with hyperactivity and attention deficit disorder. Those programming biomites were absolutely necessary to get him to focus. He shouldn’t be penalized for that.”

The doctor bristled at the phrase “programming biomites
.
”
Adults don’t typically admit to adjusting their children’s thought patterns, but Steven knew what they did. He remembered that, before the programming, he used to daydream.

Now, he was sort of empty.

Mom crossed her arms, tapping her fingers on her elbow. She had that look, like a lecture was coming. Only she couldn’t give it to the doctor, not like she gave it to Steven and his siblings.

“Slow down, Liz. Let his body catch up.”

“A tenth of a percent is useless.”

“If he goes over 10%, M0ther will report it. He’ll be disqualified from sports. There’s no way around it. All right?”

She rubbed his shoulder.

“I’ll have someone take you down to x-ray.”

They confirmed the fracture. Steven’s arm was put into a cast, but Mom refused the 0.1% boost.

The following week, someone that his dad worked with came over to the house. Steven didn’t want to wait for it to heal. He didn’t want to rest, either. He was a three-sport athlete. He would go far.

The man from his dad’s work boosted Steven’s biomites and his arm felt better the next day. He said the boost didn’t take him over 10%, but it didn’t make any sense. His mom said that would be useless.

These biomites were special, Dad’s friend said. They would make sure his bones didn’t break anymore.

“This is between us,” his dad said.

The chains lift a link at a time, leaving indelible impressions on Jamie’s psyche. Her body is filled with sand. Her teeth hum.

Fabric scratches her face.

Her eyelids crack open. Lines are scratched into the vinyl, her breath blowing back in her face. She stares at the felt ceiling of a car. The windows are dark. The air is ripe with body odor and the sharp tang of urine. It’s not until she pushes up that she notices the wet stain in her inner thighs. The seat squeaks as she sits up.

Her head is heavy.

A look of shock—usually that reserved for concussion victims—holds court until her name, her very own name, falls out of the sky.
Jamie.

My name is Jamie. I’m in the backseat of a car.

A semi-truck flies past, jostling the car. Its headlights, for a moment, illuminate a man sitting in the grass. Darkness returns and the highway is lonely again.

Recall,
Jamie thinks.

The thought command kicks in. Pressure builds between her ears like air inflating a dead tire. It’s followed by trickling sensations as brain biomites reboot neural connections, connecting memories buried in the subconscious, bringing them to light like defragging a computer.

Charlie and the club.

Fallen bodies.

Police.

And the old man. She remembers the old man named Marcus Anderson. His watery gray eyes and wispy hairs loose on an otherwise bald scalp. He’s the last thing she remembers, his face seething inches from hers.

Three days ago.

She remembers nothing after that. As if she’s been knocked out. 

The man remains still, as if the jagged edge of a distant mountain range is speaking to him. Her confusion is replaced with the instinct to move. She focuses on the back of his head, chats in his direction, a sort of welcoming gesture, a digital way of saying hello. And identify yourself.

He’s closed down lines of communication, no chatting or opportunity to know his name. Strangely, she can’t locate where she’s at. Her biomites are not locating GPS, just churning out a subtle clicking sound that’s searching for data. Jamie stays seated several minutes before slowly pulling on the door handle.

Cold air rushes over her wet denim. The highway is dark, flat, and long. “Hey,” she says.

He doesn’t move.

Jamie grips the door, her fingers shaking. She could command biomite cells to give up energy to warm her core temperature but she’s already depleted. Perhaps she hasn’t eaten in as many days as she’s forgotten.

The stranger is wearing a t-shirt.

“Hey!”

She digs gravel from the frozen ground, heaves it in his direction.

“Where the hell am I?” she screams.

He turns his head, slightly, before rolling to his knees and standing. Green lines focus Jamie’s vision on the darkened face but her facial recognition churns like the GPS. But she recognizes a memory. She saw him in the warehouse.

He’s the one that helped.

“Idaho,” he says.

He stops several feet from the car, hands on hips. The lower half of his face is shaded with stubble. His hair is a mess. He wears the same shock that greeted Jamie in the backseat.

“Who are you?” she asks.

He looks down the road like the answer might pull up and honk. Stress can trigger a memory dump, especially in cops that witness fucked up things. A biomite reset would temporarily wipe the slate, reintroduce memories a little at a time.

Memory dumps don’t compel a man to kidnap.

“We’re almost out of gas.” He points at the car.

“Why am I with you?”

He searches for another answer. He gestures to her trembling fingers. “We should find a place to sleep.”

“Stay the fuck away from me.”

Hands up, he begs innocence, stepping no closer. She wonders if she mistook his exhaustion for shock. Maybe he’s been driving as long as she’s been out.

“There’s a town up ahead, about ten miles or so,” he says. “We’ll get separate rooms.”

“Why?”

“We got to rest.”

“No, why you doing this? Why am I in a car with you?”

“I don’t know. I just…I need to get you far away from there.”

He points in the other direction, as if Seattle is to his left. He probably has no clue what’s back there, but he’s right.

It’s dangerous back there.

“You got money?”

He nods.

“I need clothes,” she says.

He moves around the front of the car. Jamie keeps one foot outside until the motor turns. Maybe if it wasn’t the middle of winter, if she hadn’t pissed herself, if she had a clue where she was…she would run for it.

Instead, she climbs into the back and sits on a wet seat, watches the dashed lines race through the headlights.

***

Jamie sits on the corner of the bed twisting her fingers, staring at her reflection above the dresser. Her eyes are sunken, her cheeks ashen. Exhaustion gnaws at her, but sleep has been elusive.

Synthesized dance beats haunt her. No matter how many guitars grind in her ears or how edgy the death metal rings in her head, the warehouse’s party mix lives on. She wants to scream, wants to cry, wants to smash the flat-screen TV. She can’t remember the last time she ate or had a period. She doesn’t get emotional, not like this.

She killed those feelings a long time ago.

This backwards-ass hotel has no Internet service and her personal account had been royally fucked by the old man and his bricks. Jamie has no connection to the outside world besides a TV.

It’s not enough to distract her.

A shadow passes the window. She eases one eye between the curtains. The parking lot is mostly empty, snow mounded around the perimeter. The car outside her room is empty, the back doors open.

Paul comes into view with a sheet over his shoulder. Jamie turns the music down to a whisper, waits several seconds before peeking again. He’s tucking the sheet over the backseat to cover the piss stains. His hair is damp and combed. Even through the windshield, his color is better. More normal. And he’s not moving weird.

He looks directly at her.

Jamie jumps back. He felt her watching him, she’s sure of it.
Are we synchronized?

She had synchronized with Charlie, put their biomites on similar frequencies so they could share resources. They could access each other’s music, video streams and apps. Before that, they chatted like regular people but after synchronizing she started receiving his thoughts, began to feel his emotions. Even when they were miles apart, she knew what he was feeling, even after he charred. That’s how she knew she didn’t want to char herself.

It was a merged consciousness, the sort of thing that meant true love. Her pain was his; his affection was hers. There was no hiding once you synchronized. Two people living as one.

But now there’s no one on the other end.
And it’s cold inside
.

The knocking is sudden. She rubs her face, whispers, “Relax, Jamie.”

She cracks the door. It’s the middle of January. Icy air blows under her collar.

Paul stands back. His coat is new. “You sleep all right?”

Jamie barely nods.

“I’m going to check us out.”

“Where we going?”

“East, for a while.” He looks to his left. “Maybe turn south into Colorado.”

“Why?”

“Because Seattle’s the other way.”

“No. Why are we still driving?”

The unfocused haze returns. He throws his hands up when she starts closing the door. “Wait,” he says. “You don’t have to go with me.”

The door knob twists, the gold-plated surface strained beneath her knuckles. Right before he said it, she was thinking that she wouldn’t get in that car with him. She wasn’t going to go.

The wind whistles through the pencil-thin opening.

“I didn’t kidnap you, you’re not under arrest, and this is still a free country, so you’re free to go.” His padded gloves drop to his sides. “But where to, then, huh? Where will you go? Back to Seattle? There won’t be any halfskin dens up there for a while, if that’s what you’re thinking.”

He tips his head, looks around for thoughts.

“Will you go back to your mother? Sleep on her couch while she numbs out on pills and booze, pays the bills with government cheese? How long will you last, Jamie? How long before the walls start shrinking and you get back to facing that ache you carried into the warehouse, the one Charlie promised would go away if you swallowed the pill? You can go back to your old life, climb back on that mouse wheel and start running, but it’ll take you to the same place:
nowhere
. I’m not going to stop you.”

She wants to close the door, slam it shut so his words won’t come true but that last half inch just won’t close. His words are cruel. But they’re true.

He pulls on a stocking cap.

Jamie pushes the hotel door closed, the bolt snicking into place. She shivers with her hand on the knob, the wind gusting against the window. She feels it howl inside her.

In just a few minutes, he had scooped all the bullshit out of her, left her hollowed out, staring into an emotional hole.
The one Charlie promised would go away.

***

A little bell rings above the door.

“I’ll be right with you, hon.” A waitress snaps a ticket to the short-order carousel. Tuna melt sandwiches prod Jamie’s salivary glands.

Several old timers hunch over cups of coffee on padded stools. A row of red leather booths line the plate glass windows with men reading newspapers with prescription glasses. Paul is in the back corner, a television anchored above his head. At thirty-some years old, he could be the youngest one in the diner. Certainly the most handsome.

The diner’s music clashes with her audio. She silences the heavy metal crashing in her head. Paul has a newspaper folded in one hand, arm stretched across the seat.

She wanders over. “How’d you know all that?”

“Good morning.”

“How’d you know?”

“Know what?”

“Everything you said back at the hotel, it was true. How’d you know?”

“It’s obvious.”

“No, it isn’t. Last night you looked like an empty puppet, now you’re reading my mind.”

Paul drops the paper next to a plate of bacon and half-eaten eggs. He looks out the window. Dirty frost is crusting the corners. “I know you,” he finally says. “I can’t explain it.”

“Try or I’m not getting in the car.”

He raps the table, shaking his head. A secretive smirk comes and goes as the waitress tops off his coffee and pours a cup for Jamie without asking.

“Something changed,” he says. “When the bricks arrived at the warehouse, something changed. I’m having a hard time sorting it out. They did something to all of us.” He taps the table, again, hanging his head. “It was like…thoughts and…and emotions…they were like information floating freely. I was feeling things and hearing thoughts I knew weren’t mine. I couldn’t tell if I was scared or you were scared or someone else. There were just no barriers.”

“You’re saying you can read my mind?”

“That’s not it. I just…had a sense. Really, Jamie, you’re not hard to read. The waitress knew you wanted coffee before you did.”

Jamie’s hands quiver. She shakes three packets of sugar, stirs them into the cup. “So you just decided to kidnap me?”

“I didn’t kidnap you, Jamie. They were going to take you. I’ve heard the rumors of what they do to confiscated halfskins, you probably have to. Call it twelve years of law enforcement instinct that made me do it.”

“They can track us, you know.”

“Probably. But I have plenty of cash and it’s been a couple days. Nothing so far.”

“It’s been that long?”

“As far as I can tell.” He seems a bit disturbed by this.

“So now what?”

“We keep moving, find a safe zone.”

“There’s no such thing. M0ther sees all.”

He shrugs. “Maybe.”

She clutches her coat sleeves, tapping her foot. Her eyes flick to his plate. Paul waves at the front desk, holds up two fingers. He shoves his plate aside, points at the cracked leather bench opposite him. Jamie swallows in protest, refuses to budge. He’s got all the answers, says everything she wants to hear. She’s got no reason to leave, but she can’t sit down, can’t take his invitation.

Until the food arrives.

Jamie finds herself reaching for the spoon, sliding across the stiff sit and shoveling food into her wet mouth. She doesn’t look up until she’s finished. Within minutes, her stomach goes from shriveled to bursting. She pushes the plate away.

Paul goes back reading the newspaper. His eyes are bright and alert. Jamie sips her coffee, tries to run him through facial recognition but there’s no free service in this dirt-hill town.