Authors: David Donnell
I don’t know what Jay Leno had to say about the
Persian
Gulf. But what an opportunity to be an asshole about other people’s
deaths. He probably had 2 or 3 lines every other night from August 15
to January 15; & then 2 or 3 lines per night until late March. A
big mouth with those big ears.
Almost none of his jokes are funny but the
studio audiences seem to break up.
So we’re supposed to think he’s
funny. The guy’s got a face like a package of breakfast cereal. What’s
so funny about that?
Even that little kid with the glasses
who does the Heinz ketchup commercial, he’s about 7 or so, is a much
better video communicator than Jay Leno.
And Madonna? Well at least
Madonna’s beautiful, and when you compare her to Jay Leno then you have
to say, Sure, she can sing, sort of.
But neither one is as good as the
little kid with the glasses.
Or sometimes
I think I love the dead Confederate soldier in that Matthew
Brady photograph
sprawled face up under a gun carriage eyes closed mouth
relaxed the gentle line of the jaw pressing into sweet
Pennsylvania earth.
The soil
where you are born, or where those touched
you as a child were born, is part of your bloodstream.
It is March & I am flying over the Avalon
Peninsula. Over the Gulf/Stream.
Down below through
the grey March clouds
the blue is astounding
as blue as Madonna, as blue
as the dark blue sands of the desert under a Persian
or Mesopotamian or Saudi moon.
As blue as my 4th image the Louisiana Gulf
where an old man is tying up a rowboat with a piece
of rope.
That is the granddaughter of the old man
dancing in a circa 40s roadhouse near Hamilton
on the cover of the book you picked up.
He gets
out wiping his hands & begins unloading
4 crates of crayfish.
I am at home again
with things I understand & feel comfortable with; I am not
being jacked off by a thousand eager & empty-headed
young newsguys
plus some well-intentioned Susan Haratas.
Takes a handkerchief out of his pocket & wipes his face
stuffs the handkerchief in under his collar & walks 150
feet to back his truck up to the boat.
If we don’t sell
our trucks & boats to Europe,
who in the name of Jesus
will we/
sell our trucks & boats to?
Dolly Parton has a flamboyant
Vanity Fair
cover, June, 1991,
well after the official cease-fire. She is sitting
on the shelf edge of an enormous tank
& almost spilling out of an expensive silver lamé
dress.
They have a huge orange
VANITY FAIR
behind her
blonde head, & a slightly smaller red, Desert Form! across
her sexy knees.
Dolly Parton
is loquacious,
she has big ba-booms, & she can’t sing for beans.
She can’t sing like Patsy Cline.
And she can’t sing like Lyle Lovett.
At the intersection of the Dhahran-Khafji highway, an equipment truck connected to the 82nd Airborne has built a wall of pale rosy white bricks at the back of their truck. They have painted a large sign in approximately 12″ – 18″ black letters, facing outward on the white bricks. The sign says:
P I N K F L O Y D
T H E W A L L
Patsy Cline was a great singer.
She sang that song called
“I Fall to Pieces.” She died in a plane accident
when I was a child. I like her voice & I think her death
probably means more to me even now than the children of
Baghdad, whom I think about,
but whom I find abstract. Lyle Lovett, well, he’s a great,
he’s a natural, he’s a great singer. And me? I’m just a guy
who keeps thinking about how infinite the desert sands seem
to be, the amazing blue of the gulf waters, the hot sun, & how
the women hustle, herd, nudge, their children along, comeon,
comeon, hurry up, if you’re not careful you’ll get us both
killed, with little gestures & clucking sounds that go back
perhaps 2 or 3 or 4 thousand years,
long before the invention of mainstream Nashville
or the use of mustard gas in WWI.
POSTSCRIPT
This page is also a concept of borders. Obviously now I’m going to talk about other things including social divisions, mangoes, the nature of the self, death, sex, jazz, love, the erudition of professors, darkness, gay as a phenomenon, bread, and the appearance of blue moons over Dubuque.
Taking this page as a border is simply a form of respect.
for Victor Coleman
Mondrian’s
Broadway Boogie Woogie
[which the English for some perverse reason
pronounce bugee wugee
& this is not, one gathers,
because they’ve seen any of the remarkable photographs
by Widgee – who probably knew every theatre
& late-night restaurant on Broadway –
from 4th up into Harlem –
]
was painted in 1942. The
Germans
from whom Mondrian has intelligently fled
are pouring into Russia
& the Russians are dying by the thousand as they stop them
cold in the huge white snow & blow their heads off
like slaughterhouse chickens
might, if they had stopped
to think,
have learned something from this painting. It is
a favourite of art critics, but it is not really about
Broadway at all; it is about New York as a set of grids
& according to Mondrian there is no poverty
& no stock exchange
it is all colour & music &
Oklahoma
–
pretty girls in flapper skirts perhaps, although it is 1942,
& perhaps they are drinking Pernod. Who the hell cares,
it’s a great painting, isn’t it, his only gureat,
& who the hell was Lissitzky – just some goddamn Russian
& probably dead of a head wound cf
Appollinaire
in that remarkable photograph showing the wide head-bandage
after he defended Paris from the Germans in WWI.
Around late June somebody up in heaven
must spill a tub of soft butter into the air.
Partly
the heat perhaps, & the way light bounces off so much
foliage & bright glass;
but this light which lasts into
late August, this light,
goddammit, this particular
Summer Light
makes the entire
city as clear as an endless astronomical circuit –
every ash, elm, maple,
every child dropping a strawberry
popsicle on the pavement & crying, “O poopsy,”
every Samantha slipping
into a loose summer dress & feeling that she’s the most
beautiful girl in town,
even ideas, lost emotions, stray ends,