Changing His Game (21 page)

"You're getting paid, aren't you?"

"That's not what I mean and you know it. I have angry production companies calling me every time I turn around. You're pissing a lot of people off."

Jared stands up and takes his plate to the sink, "Can we talk about this in the car?"

"What? You still don’t want precious over here knowing what's going on?"

Precious? Since when did Kelly have a nickname for me? I'm pretty sure it isn't a positive nickname either.

"My work is none of her business. We'll talk about it in the car," Jared says sternly.

"I think we should talk about it now." Kelly isn't backing down and Jared looks pissed.

"If you don't drop this shit now, I'm going to drop you on your ass without a job. I keep things confidential for a reason, so either shut up and get in the car, or you can leave and look for another job."

This shuts Kelly up, but now I want to know what they're talking about. I just have to find the proper way to word it so it looks like I want to help and I’m not being nosey.

"Is there something I can help with?"

"No," Jared shouts at the same time Kelly whispers, "Yes."

Kelly grabs her purse and Jared turns towards me, "We'll hang out tonight, I promise."

It doesn't matter what I just witnessed in the kitchen because Jared wants to hang out, and earlier he said he wants more with me. That has to mean something, right? But what does he want from me? He might want to be friends with benefits, or a couple as long as I’m okay with him screwing women at work. Would I ever be okay with that?

No, I wouldn't. I need to not get my hopes up because at the end of the day, I will never be okay with that kind of relationship.

★★★

I realize after they left that Jared never gave me any instructions on what to do for the day. I'm caught up on everything, his office is clean and organized, his fan mail is all caught up, and I shopped for groceries the other day so we aren't in need of any food.

I decide to sit in the living room and read. It's been a while since I've had a chance to read any of the new books on my e-reader, and one of my favorite authors just released the next book in her young adult series.

I've only been reading for a few minutes when I hear someone walk through the front door. I look over at the digital clock on the display of the cable box and realize it's way too early for Jared or Kelly to be returning home. I set my e-reader down to see who's here.

"Bonjour!" I hear a woman speak. "Jared, darling, are you here?"

I walk into the entryway and see a woman standing next to a set of luggage. She's wearing a mink coat. Her dark hair is down and white sunglasses cover her eyes. Even in the outfit, and ridiculous accent, I'd recognize her anywhere.

"Tawny?"

She turns around and lowers her glasses before a giant grin spreads across her face. "Autumn!" She screams.

She runs over to me and we embrace in a tight hug. We haven't been that close the past couple years, but I realize in this moment just how much I've missed her. Tawny pulls away from me slightly and holds my shoulders, looking me over to make sure I'm all there.

"You look good."

"You do, too, Tawny. Paris suits you."

"Ah, yes, Paris. Beautiful city, but I missed home like crazy. What are you doing here?"

"You did tell me I could come visit you whenever I wanted to."

"Right, but I assumed I'd be here when you visited."

"So did I."

She gives me another quick hug and then takes off her mink coat, tossing it on top of her luggage. She peels off her heals and grabs me by the hand, dragging me to the living room. We sit down on the couch and turn our bodies so we're facing each other, and our knees are touching.

"So really, how was Paris?"

"Marvelous! The fashion is to die for and the people aren't as rude as we Americans think they are."

"And your Italian boyfriend?"

"Over. He was too old anyway, and after a while doing coke together was no longer sexy. I did enjoy spending his money though." She giggles as if thinking about a memory. "So, how long have you been here?"

"Um... Almost two months."

"Two Months! Why didn't Jared call me?"

"I don't think he knew how to reach you."

She rolls her eyes, "That may be true, but Jared always finds a way. I would have come home sooner if I knew you were here. I hope Jared didn't bore you too much."

"You don't seem at all surprised that he let me stay here so long."

She looks at me knowingly, "Honey, Jared knows who you are. If it were anyone else I'm sure he would have kicked his or her ass out, but not you. He's intrigued by you."

"How do you know that? He didn’t even know who I was until I came walking in the door two months ago, and at first I though he was going to kick me out."

I watch as Tawny tucks her feet underneath her butt to get more comfortable.

"Autumn, he knew who you were. Jared and I have become friends the past two years. He's seen all my pictures and was immediately taken by you. I’ve never seen anything like it. He would ask me questions about you anytime I talked about my past. I would tell him how envious I was of you because you knew what you wanted in life. He was intrigued by your dedication to Brock and how you've been together for eight years, even though I told him Brock's a total ass." She looks over at me apologetically, "Sorry, but he is."

"You don't have to apologize to me."

"Anyway, there was something about you. I promise you, Chica, he knew exactly who you were when he saw you, and he'll probably do whatever he can to keep you here. He's a player and that will never change, but he's captivated by you."

I smile at her and mimic her position, tucking my feet under my butt. "Well, when you witness our hostile relationship, you'll disagree. He did give me a job though."

"You work for him?"

"Yeah."

"What about Brock?"

"Brock and I are over. I caught him fucking Lexi Sanders a few days before my graduation."

"Oh, honey," she comes in to give me another long hug. "I know you're upset, but that doesn’t mean you should do porn. You're better than that." I freeze at her words, and she moves to look at me.

"I'm not doing porn, I'm Jared's assistant."

"What happened to Kelly?"

"She's still his assistant, too."

She laughs uncontrollably, wrapping her hands around her stomach as she tries to control her laughter. "Oh, honey. Sure... Jared can't stand you, yet he invented a job for you just to get you to stay."

I'm mildly offended at her insinuation. "He didn’t invent this job for me, he needs another assistant."

"Oh yeah? And what are your assistant duties today?"

"Well," shit. "He actually didn't assign me to do anything today so I'm taking the day to read on my e-reader. Usually, I'm really busy."

"Sure you are," Tawny says knowingly. “Well, since you have nothing to do today, we can catch up."

"That sounds perfect."

★★★

Three hours, a pizza, and two margaritas later, we’re sitting on the couch and Tawny has pulled out my laptop. She's checking her emails, but when she realizes how many she has from not reading any for two months, she logs out and decides to read them later.

"Tawny, can I ask you something?"

"Sure."

"How come you didn't tell me you were doing porn? I would have been supportive."

She looks at me thoughtfully and reaches out her hand to pat me on the knee. "I know you would have. It's just that so many people had found out and most were unforgiving. Your sister knew and she was supportive, but I knew, I still knew deep down she probably looked at me differently. You're so pure, and genuine, and sweet... I didn’t want you looking at me that way. So I lied and said I was getting small parts in movies, instead of blowing guys and letting them fuck me in adult films."

"Do you like it... I mean, are you happy?"

"I wasn't at first, but Jared changed that. He showed me that as a female porn star, I held the power. I could control what I did and didn't do as long as I stayed clean, and I did for the most part. He also paid for my tits when I told him I wanted them done. I felt bad taking his money, but he told me it was an investment for him as long as I signed under his production company exclusively for a year. That was a no brainer, everyone knows Jared treats female porn stars like queens. He's a really good guy, Autumn."

I think her words over in my head. She's right, and I know it. He has shown me so much kindness in the last two months and I know he treats everyone around him with the utmost respect.

"I know," I whisper.

"So, you two haven't..." she lets her words drift off.

"Um..." I can feel my cheeks turn bright red and I look down to avoid her eyes.

"O...M...G... you have! You dirty thing. Are you two together?"

"No, I would never be okay with having a boyfriend who is still sleeping with other women when he's with me. I like monogamy."

"But you want him... and he wants you? No wonder Kelly called me and is a basket case over everything happening on set."

Tawny mumbles the last part to herself, but I caught the entire thing.

"What's happening on set?"

"Oh, never mind. I'll fix that. I'll just need to talk to Jared and show him how good it can be."

I'm lost at where she is going with this conversation. Show him how good what can be?

"Have you watched any of his videos?"

Jeez, am I ever going to loose the blush that has permanently taken over my cheeks? "Just a few," I whisper quietly.

"Have you seen any of mine?"

"No! That would be too weird."

"No it wouldn't. Here, you can watch me with Jared."

"I don't think that's such a good idea."

I think watching him with another woman after everything we have gone through would probably make me want to vomit. Tawny looks at me with understanding, but she doesn't let it go.

"I promise, it won't be so bad."

She types in Jared's website and logs in. It takes her only a minute as she types in her name and eleven different videos come up with her and Jared.

"You've slept with him eleven times?"

"For work, yes. We also would fuck sometimes for fun, but it was more out of convenience. Neither of us have feelings for the other."

I don't know how to take this new information. I've been pretty open minded in our non-existent relationship, but knowing he fucked Tawny is a little weird for me.

"Don't make it weird," Tawny says from beside me, reading my mind. "Oh, this one is my favorite. It's Jared, Dorothy, and me. This was my bestseller, everyone loved it."

Tawny clicks the play button on the screen and Brandon Boner Productions comes across the screen. I watch as the scene starts. The three of them walk into what's meant to be a ski lodge. The girls set down their skis. They're in bikinis, but have snowcaps on their heads to indicate how cold it is outside.

I would roll my eyes at how ridiculous the scenario of two girls coming in from outside in their bikinis from skiing is, but my eyes are now trained on Jared. His hair is longer in this video, and it's not buzzed on the sides. He sets down his skis and I watch as the muscles in his arms flex. He's shirtless and wearing a pair of snow pants.

Tawny and Dorothy giggle as Tawny pulls the snowcap off Dorothy's head. She leans in as the camera draws in closer, and Tawny opens her mouth and kisses Dorothy, sensuously. I hear moaning and Dorothy lifts her hands and unties Tawny's bikini top, letting it fall to the ground. Her hands move up and cup Tawny's breasts, squeezing and massaging her firm tits.

I look up at Tawny and she looks at me unapologetically. "What? Don't knock it until you've tried it." I shrug my shoulders and look back at the computer screen. Both girls are now groping each other, but not like a man would grope a woman, they are touching each other softly, knowingly. You can tell they are giving each other exactly what they would want themselves.

I move my eyes from them and watch Jared at the edge of the screen. He's removing his pants, revealing his long, hard, erect cock. He walks up behind Tawny and wraps a hand around her stomach, pulling her back into him. His other hand is on his cock, stroking it up and down.

His hand on Tawny's stomach moves to one of her breasts, and Jared plays with it, pinching and squeezing her nipple as he sucks on her neck.

Dorothy lowers her head and brings her mouth to Tawny's other breast, sucking Tawny's nipple between her teeth. The scene is highly erotic, and I can feel myself getting turned on. I should be weirded out by seeing two of my friends getting it on, but the pulsing feeling between my legs is telling me differently.

Dorothy releases Tawny's nipple from her mouth and lowers herself to her knees. I watch as she pulls Tawny's bathing suit bottoms down her body, and Tawny steps out of them. Then Dorothy removes her own bottoms so both women are naked. Jared stops stroking his dick and moves his other hand to Tawny's other breast, playing with her tits as Dorothy spreads Tawny's legs and goes down on her.