Chained: A Bad Boy Romance (4 page)

I walked into the small bathroom behind my desk. It was a room the size of a closet, barely enough space between my knees and the sink. I wanted to fix my hair and ensure I looked presentable. I didn't want to look like a mess for the appointment.

With my fingers entwined in my hair-tie, I froze.
What am I doing? This is ridiculous. Owen is bad news, and here I am, getting pretty for him.
I dropped my hair, scowling at myself in the mirror.
I'm not letting him get to me today, I can't. I haven't stopped thinking about him since last week and I need to.

No more.

I had to take a stand against this school girl crush.

My job was to get the answers the prison needed to decide Owen's release or not. That was my reason for being here, and that was where my focus needed to stay.

A knock on the door startled me. I left the bathroom just in time to see the heavy door open. My eyes were immediately drawn to the massive figure that filled the space. Owen smirked at me from across the room.

The calmness I had tried to regain disappeared while a barrage of butterflies filled my insides. A voice from behind Owen told him to head over to his seat. His size hid the guard that led him there.

“Welcome back,” I uttered out, my voice stumbling across my tongue as it tried to find its footing.

Owen bowed his head to my greeting as the guard secured him to the table. He seemed less tense, his body moved more fluidly as he sat.

I felt a rush of excitement as I made my way over to him, settling into my chair. I wasn't going to let him fluster me, not this time.

“How's it going?” I asked while I took out my pen and opened my notebook, making the conscious effort to keep control.

“Same as it has been, things don't change much here.” Goosebumps rose across my skin with the richness of his voice.

“Cold?” he asked, his smile broadening as his eyes skimmed my flesh.

“A little, it's chilly out today.” I rubbed my forearms with my hands. I didn't want him to think he was the cause of my skin prickles.

“I wouldn't know, I haven't been outside in a while,” he said with a chuckle as he lifted his hands to show me the chains and cuffs.

I let out a light laugh, it took me by surprise.
Stay on track, get down to business.
“So last time you were here we talked a little about your plans for after all of this, I was thinking about that—” I was trying to direct our conversation when he cut in.

“You were thinking about me, huh? I'm flattered.” His smile touched his eyes. “I thought about you, too.” He winked as he leaned in closer, his chest resting over the table.

I was tempted to lean in towards him. The comment filled me with a warmth, I could feel my cheeks lifting to smile and my breathing become heavier.

He thought about me... No. No. Stop.
I was not going to play these games. Yet the mere idea I could have crossed his mind made me giddy.

Where had my resolve gone?

I was angry with myself for my weakness. I was running this show, not him.

“Alright, let's keep going. Tell me about your past. What was it like for you as a child?” I'd decided to jump into a tough question, throw him off a bit.

He arched an eyebrow. “You're not from around here, I can hear your accent. Where are you from?” He was avoiding what I'd just asked. His forehead wrinkled up, hands shuffling together as he waited for my reply.

I debated giving him an answer. I twirled my pen on its tip against the table, wanting to make sure I did this right.
I can't give too much info on myself, we can't get too familiar, but a little info could really help him open up.

“Louisiana,” I said, “I grew up in a small town south of Baton Rouge. How about you? Have you lived here your whole life?”

“Ah, Louisiana, did you ever go to Mardi Gras? I always thought that would be a cool thing to see,” he asked as he leaned back in his chair.

“Yeah, I've been to Mardi Gras.”

“I bet you had no trouble getting.” He glanced down at my chest, his eyes fixed on my breasts.

The butterflies that were patrolling my stomach burst into flames, the warmth spreading across my body. I brought my hand up to the back of my neck and felt the dampness of sweat.

He wanted to work me up?

Fine.

Two could play this game.

Against my better instincts, I gave him a sly smile. “Well, let's just say my neck hurt for a few days after. My turn now, did you grow up here in Greene?”

“No, I bounced around a bit as a kid. Ended up here about two years before all this shit went down,” he said as he looked around the room.

“Why did you move so much as a child? Was it because of your parents?” I knew he'd had several different residences, but most of the information from when he was under age was sealed. I wasn't allowed access to it.

I was able to get the basics; his father's name, his brother's name, and any arrests either one might've had. One thing that confused me was Owen had no priors before this incident. That was fairly odd considering the background of his other family members.

“I don't know why,” he said. “That's just how it was. Some people move a lot, others don't. It's not really uncommon you know.” He leaned on the table with both arms,  his eyes sliding back to my cleavage.

A piece of me wanted to conceal myself, instead I leaned in and pressed my biceps into my chest, lifting my breasts higher for him to see. Owen's eyes widened, his stare fixed upon the fresh skin emerging from my blouse. A surge of electricity buzzed through me.

It was intoxicating, knowing how much he wanted me.

I want him to run his fingers across my shoulders, down until he feels how hard my nipples are from the wild aura around him. I...
Blinking, clarity hit me hard.
What is wrong with me? God, am I that desperate?

I didn't remember the last time I'd had sex, but I didn't think I was so eager I'd throw caution to the wind and flirt with a damn convict.

I pushed on, struggling to speak calmly. “Tell me about your brother, were you guys close?”

Immediately his body language changed. Owen sat up straight, a sternness on his face. “I'm not going to talk about him, so don't ask me again.” He looked towards the back wall, taking in the clock.

His demeanor had changed so drastically. Obviously, that was a sore spot for him.

Owen whispered, “I could smell your perfume for a while after last time, it stayed with me. I enjoyed that.” He inhaled a deep breath through his nose then exhaled a sigh of pleasure. 

I swallowed the lump in my throat. “Owen, we need to talk about you, what happened between you and your—” I was unable to complete my question.

He lifted his fists and slammed them down on the table with such force that my pen rolled off. It landed by his foot. “Don't,” he growled.

I was frozen for a moment, stuck in limbo, unable to move an inch. Forcing myself to move, I bent under the table and reached down for my pen.

Owen did the same.

In that moment, his hand brushed mine. Our eyes met and his finger rubbed my wrist with a soft, sensitive touch. Pleasure rode through my body, tingles shot from head to toe. Quickly I pulled my arm back, abandoning the pen.

He sat up and held out the pen to me. “Sorry, that's just not something I'm going to talk about.”

I wanted to grab his hand, I wanted him to touch me more. That single stroke of his finger was addicting.

Ugh! You can't do this! He's a convict, a murderer! Why am I feeling this? Stop, Charlie! You need to get control. This is insane.

Despite the rage I had just witnessed, I wanted him. I wanted to feel him, feel his hands against my skin. My heart raced uncontrollably inside my chest. Our eyes were locked on each other, neither of us breaking the stare.

He exhaled a deep breath. “Look, there are some things that I can't and won't talk about. My only reason for being here is to get out early, nothing else.”

Nothing else.
Of course, he just wanted his freedom. Still, hearing him say that it was his
only
reason... it cut me a little. Yes, he didn't know me—and I shouldn't want him to desire me—but I couldn't deny some disappointment from his bluntness.

You don't want to be his reason for coming here, Charlie.

Focus.

I considered his reaction again. His face had turned to stone, I'd seen the hurt in his eyes.

Owen's brother had cut him deep.

“Okay,” I said, “he's off the table. What about other family, your dad? Your mom?” I wanted to be cautious with what and how I asked. His reaction unnerved me, but I didn't want him to shut down.

“My mom I don't even remember, all I was ever told was she moved out west and wanted nothing to do with us. My father... well, let's just say he's a waste of life.” His eyes moved from me to his arms, hands interlocking while he rubbed his thumbs together.

“Everyone has issues with their past, with their families,” I said. “I understand that, my family is far from perfect. Why do you think I became a therapist?” I wanted to create a common ground for him, have him see that he wasn't alone.

He shrugged his shoulders while looking around the room. “Am I supposed to just pour my past out for you onto this table? Do you expect me to fill your notebook with stories of abuse so you can rationalize my behavior? Put the blame on them? I don't work that way. I gave you an answer. It might not be what you want, but it's all you're fucking getting.”

I was unprepared for that, no one had ever been so candid towards me. I didn't know how to respond, but I made myself speak. “That's not what I expect at all. Your past doesn't free you from responsibility. You chose to kill that man. I'm just wondering what led you there, and if you've changed since it happened. I'm not just here to shoot the shit with you.” I added the last part in a crisp, no-nonsense tone. I wasn't going to let him think he could get away with speaking to me however he wanted.

I waited for his rebuttal. My eyes tried to burn into his thoughts.

The smile he turned on was faded. “Ask me something else then, what's the hold up? The clock is ticking, Charlie.” The anger seemed to settle and his confidence returned.

I tapped my chin with my pen, I wasn't sure what to ask. Our eyes locked, searching each other for insight.

“You're thinking too hard,” he said. “Don't think, just ask.”

I decided to just go for it. I knew he would most likely give me the run around, but it was worth a try. “Why did you kill that man?”

“That was just a matter of being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Which, oddly enough, I feel like right now I'm in the
right
place.” His teeth flashed as he grinned, then winked.

My heart that was already charged with feelings, beat faster than it ever had before. The smile he had was mesmerizing. I had to look away, I didn't want him to see the subtle cockiness forming. With no place else to look I glanced down at my notes, hoping my haze would fade.

“Ah, you agree with me,” he said as he laughed.

How could I respond? He was right, I
wanted
to be here across from him. I wanted to feel his presence in front of me again. I'd thought about this meeting with him since our last.

Every piece of me wanted to climb over the table and grab his broad shoulders, feel the strength of his arms around my waist. I envisioned him pressing his lips against mine as our tongues entwined.

“Times up,” he said. At that very moment the buzzer sounded and I heard the resonant sound of the door.

No, not yet. I'm not done here,
I thought to myself as the guard entered to remove Owen. I wanted more time, I needed more time.

I watched him stand, his eyes remaining on mine. He held his smile as the guard unlocked him from the table, ready to bring him back to his single cell existence.

So badly, I longed for that tattooed beast to just break free, to jump across the room and grab me in his arms. His teeth and lips nibbling over my neck, his scent filling my head until I was lost.

I itched for all that and more.

But, in the end, all I had was that final image of his orange back as he vanished.

Owen

I
could feel the cold of the small, round, metal table through my clothes . A space of mere inches separated my knees from the top.

For the first time ever the plate in front of me looked unappealing. I prodded the small portion of peas, gazing at them without a blink. The sounds of men conversing around me were muffled by my thoughts.

Her skin.

The soft smooth feel and tranquil color of cream had stayed with me.

That brief moment of contact made me want her more than I had ever wanted anything. I hadn't been able to clear the image of her from my mind.

The way she looked at me, her eyes filled with curiosity... the desire she had to figure me out, pick my brain.

It was fucking sexy.

I absolutely need to have her.
She got my blood pumping. I liked a woman with backbone. She'd refused to back down when my anger took over, that gave me a rush. No running, no hiding. Charlie had guts.

Maybe it was my attitude, but every other doctor in the past had given up on me.

Charlie hadn't. She'd stayed.

When I had sat across from her, all I could think of was how much I wanted to be inside of her. She was flooding every thought I had. I enjoyed this distraction, it's refreshing to think of something different.

I used to spend my nights dreaming about the outside world, but now they were full of visions of her. I saw her face in my mind like a photo in my grasp, a picture I couldn't take my eyes from.

Whatever it takes, she'll be mine.

I'd never in my life felt such a drive to have one single thing. As a kid, I'd followed everyone else. I never went for what I really wanted.

I had spent an entire lifetime trying to please others with what I thought
they
wanted.

When I got here, things changed.

To have no one but yourself is a lonely and yet fulfilling feeling. This place gave me the ability to find myself, a chance to truly think about what I wanted for once.