Authors: Jennifer Bernard
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RUSH
T
AYLOR WOULD
always be famous in the baseball world for his iconic pitching career. In recent years his legend had extended to the parties he threw at his home, Bullpen Ranch. Mostly these parties were opportunities for him to party with the Catfish and other members of the sports world, with the door always open to any interested females. But once a year he hosted a party for the Kilby community, with the purpose of raising money for a designated worthy cause. The Kilby Burn Center, the new library, and the Special Olympics had all been beneficiaries.
This year, the selected cause was kidney disease.
That was thanks to Mike, who had told Crush that choosing the Kidney Research Foundation would go a long way toward convincing him and Donna to agree to his proposed Catfish Wedding of the Decade.
Maybe he should have picked liver research, thought Mike as he watched Crush pour himself a hefty glass of bourbon at the bar near the massive stone fireplace. An early heat wave had forced the partygoers inside, giving everyone a chance to gawk at the spectacular interior. High ceilings with steel trusses soared overhead, angling down to meet incomprehensibly large panes of glass that looked out on spring-Âgreen pastures. All the furniture was large and upholstered in suede, cowhide, or nubby oatmeal-Âcolored fabric. Every room had a built-Âin bar, and ashtrays sat on every surface. Bullpen Ranch was definitely a man's world.
Specifically, Crush's world, judging by the lineup of Cy Young awards and photos of the pitcher posing with Âpeople like Catfish Hunter, Nolan Ryan, and Dwight Gooden. Not to mention the many, many women he'd dated and/or married over the years.
It seemed that the entire city of Kilby had paid to attend the event, which included a cash bar, dinner, a silent auction, and a country-Âswing band called Kissing Cowboys. All the Catfish players had shown up in their nicest outfits, which ranged from Yaz's purple leather tie and patchwork deer hunter cap, to Leiberman's black suit jacket.
“Is that what you wore to your bar mitzvah?” Mike teased him. Not that he had any grounds to mock; he was wearing the same blazer he'd worn to his high school graduation. It strained over his shoulders and didn't quite reach his wrists. Since he'd left the Navy he'd had little use for formal clothes.
“I think that suit looks great on you,” Donna told Leiberman, who blushed violently. “You look like a young Cary Grant.”
A miniature Cary Grant, maybe, thought Mike with a flash of jealousy. Donna looked incredible. He couldn't stop sneaking glances at her. She'd put her hair up in some kind of tousled knotlike arrangement, and wore an off-Âthe-Âshoulder black dress that made her skin glow like pearls and her eyes glimmer like gold.
She'd wanted to wear her horrible boxy blue jacket, but he'd reminded her that things were different now. They were an engaged Âcouple trying to make a certain impression on the movers and shakers of Kilby. She'd risen to the occasion perfectly, but the problem now was that he couldn't stop touching her. He hadn't let go of her hand once since they'd walked in, except to grip her elbow, or nestle his palm into the small of her back, where he could feel the flexing of each muscle along her spine. The deep curve of her hip tempted him to explore further, but he clamped down on the urge. Something was bothering her; over the past weeks he'd gotten familiar enough with her expressions to know that.
He had to get her alone, find out what was up. Maybe if they could sneak into a closet somewhere . . .
He was scoping out the nearest closed door when a tall Âcouple approached them. The woman was all too familiar. The last time he'd seen her, she'd been aiming a camera at them. Bonita wore a sleek white sheath and sky-Âhigh stiletto heels. The tall, sleepy-Âeyed man with her had to be Harvey. His fringed suede jacket made him look even more uncomfortable than Mike. Bonita's sharp eyes slid from Donna to Mike, then back again.
“Engaged?” Bonita said skeptically. “You expect anyone to believe that?”
In a gesture one finger removed from rude, Donna raised her left hand. All the fingers curled to her palm except the ring finger, which bore a sparkly cubic zirconium ring they'd selected together. Nothing fancy, since she'd refused to accept anything more expensive.
“I guess seeing is believing,” chirped Donna.
“That doesn't mean anything. It won't matter to Judge Quinn until you both sign that marriage certificate. In the meantime, I hope you know that everyone's laughing at you.”
At the look on Donna's faceâÂas if her pet goldfish had just been devouredâÂMike's determination hardened. This woman was too petty to get custody of Zack. And she should not be allowed to lord it over Donna. Donna was worth a million Bonitas. “We'll be sure to fax you a copy as soon as it's official,” he told them. “We'd invite you to the wedding, but I'm afraid there isn't room. Too many major leaguers are coming, not to mention members of Sting's band. Of course we have to leave room for Sting himself, just in case.”
Bonita's smug sneer evaporated. Mike wanted to do a victory dance, but Donna's fingernails were digging into the inside of his palm. Oops. Wrong move?
“Would you two excuse us?” Donna tugged him away from Bonita and Harvey, who shot a yearning glance toward the bar. Mike couldn't blame him for that.
He followed Donna, who seemed to know exactly where she was going. He remembered that they'd both been here last year for Crush's All-ÂStar party, though the events of that night were pretty fuzzy. After careening through the kitchen, where the catering staff was busy filling trays with little bacon-Âwrapped scallops, she pushed open the door to a pantry and dragged him inside.
He looked around at dimly lit shelves stocked with bottles of liquor, cans of olives, and jars of mixed nuts. Apparently, Crush followed the Bar Snack Diet.
“Are you hungry? You should have told me. I would have fixed you up a plate,” Mike told her.
Donna crossed her arms over her chest and set her jaw. Her usual dimple was nowhere to be seen. The shadowy sheen of her skin in the low light made him want to lick her cheek. “You're not going to joke your way out of this. What are you doing, making up details about a wedding that probably won't ever happen? I mean,
Sting
?”
“I said âjust in case.' Seriously, you never know.”
“You're not being
at all
serious. You want serious? How's this? We're never going to get married.”
He froze, noticing for the first time that she seemed genuinely upset. “What are you talking about?”
“Mike, I went over and over our last conversation. I've been thinking about everything you said about Angela and your brother and your family.”
“So?”
“You're still in love with Angela. How can I marry someone who loves someone else?”
Drawing back, he took in the stubborn cast of her wide mouth, the lips turned down at the corners, quivering just slightly.
“Is that what's been bothering you the last Âcouple of days?”
She lifted her chin. “I wouldn't say it's been bothering me. It's just a piece of information I'm taking into account.”
With one short step, he came to her and caught her in his arms, pulling her against his body.
“
Wrong
information. I'm not in love with Angela. How could I be, after seeing who she really was?” Donna's pile of fiery hair held a sweet, faint fragrance, like early spring wildflowers. The curves of her breasts pressed into his chest. “I loved an illusion. An idea of Angela, someone pure and gentle and perfect. I was this rowdy, physical kid, and she was like a Madonna painting. I never knew what was really going on inside her head. She was so quiet, so untouchable. When she broke off our engagement, all those delusions fell away. I don't love her anymore. Not in any romantic way. I swear.”
She tilted her head up, leaning back in the circle of his arms. “I'm nothing like that. Nothing.”
“So? You're you. Our relationship is nothing like mine and Angela's. It's more real.”
“More real? How can you say that? We're pretending to be engaged!”
He took her chin in his hands. “I'm not pretending. I intend to marry you.”
She pulled her bottom lip between her teeth, a crease appearing between her eyebrows. “I don't understand you, Mike Solo. Are you saying our relationship is different from yours and Angela's because you have no illusions about me, therefore you wouldn't ever be
dis
illusioned?”
He let out a hoot of laughter, so loud that her eyes went wide with alarm and she reached up a hand to cover his mouth. He grabbed the opportunity to nibble the soft heel of her hand.
Her eyes darkened. It occurred to him that they were once again alone in a tiny, dark room. “See, that's what I like about you, Donna. You always make me laugh, and you say things no one else will say. Our relationship is different because I'm not a naïve kid anymore. I'm a grown man now.”
He shifted his body so that one thigh slid between hers, so she could feel the thrust of his erection. It was rock-Âhard and threatening to burst through his slightly too-Âtight pants.
“That doesn't prove anything,” she whispered fiercely. “I bet you got hard-Âons all the time back then too.”
He had to laugh, even though his cock, teased by the contact with her shape, pulsed painfully. “See? You know me so well.”
“How can I be sure you aren't still pining for her?”
“Hmm. Well, you could give me a chance to prove it by letting me lick the crook of your neck, right here, where it curves into your shoulder.” He nestled his face into the body part in question, felt her tendon go taut, then slid his tongue across it. She shivered.
“That doesn't . . .” she said weakly.
“Okay, fine. How about this?” He sank to his knees before her, gripped her hips, and drew her toward him. Burying his face between her thighs, he breathed in her scent through the thin layer of fabric. “Showing is better than telling, anyway.” He inched the cloth up her thighs.
“Solo, you're crazy.” Her voice held a quiver of laughter, but no hint of objection. He smiled, amazed that he felt so comfortable with this girl who had burst into his life like some kind of fiery-Âhaired comet.
“Crazy for you, babe. I've been thinking about nothing but this since I saw you in that god-Âawful blue suit.”
“I didn't know it was such a turn-Âon.”
“You're a turn-Âon. Face it. You make me wild, Donna.” He ran his tongue up her inner thigh until the soft flesh gave way to the silk of her panties. He inhaled the heady scent of her private, secret self, the Donna no one else got to see. The vulnerable and tender Donna.
Her breath caught, and she shifted her legs apart. He nearly came right then and there. Her willingness to surrender to him went right to his head. She would never hold back, he realized. Never put false barriers between them. Never treat him like he was barely good enough to touch her shoe.
“I want you, Donna MacIntyre. More than you know.” He reached a finger inside her panties and touched wetness. “I'd finger-Âfuck you right here on the floor if the entire city of Kilby wasn't right outside.”
A shudder went through her. She dug her hands into his hair. “Maybe this isn'tâ”
“Are you scared, Donna MacIntyre? We're engaged, remember? No one would blame us for getting a little carried away before the wedding.” He wrenched her panties away from her sex, exposing the soft cleft with its wink of moisture. “As long as you can keep from screaming, we should be fine.”
“Stop . . . talking . . . about . . . the wedding . . .” she moaned.
“No. I won't. Wedding . . .” He ran his tongue across the curls protecting her sex. “Wedding . . .” He circled his tongue around her clit, used his thumb to spread the moisture across her lips. “Wedding . . .” He hooked one long index finger inside her clinging channel. “Wedding . . .” His breath hot, he spoke against the hardening, warming kernel.
She gasped and said something unintelligible.
So he kept talking. “Next time I'm going to spread you apart on my lap, baby girl. Bend you over my knee and see what your sweet little ass looks like. I'll put you on your hands and knees and fuck you until you can't say your own name. Let you ride me until I'm raw. Until we're both raw. Until we can't say another word because we've screamed it all out.” He kept going like that, the dirty words inflaming him. He put a hand on his own cock, which felt as rigid as a lamppost. At the first hint of tremors shaking her body, he whipped his hand away and clamped it on her ass. As convulsions racked her form, he held her steady, locked between his hand on her rear and his mouth on her clit. Warmth flooded his mouth, the soft flutter of her orgasm like a gift.
Lost in the darkness between her thighs, he heard only vaguely her muffled squeaks as she tried to contain her ecstasy. God, what he wouldn't give to take her to a real bed and make love to her with every part of him. Hands, mouth, cock.
Except . . . the vow. He was in new territory here. Did his
intention
to marry Donna, even when she hadn't fully signed on yet, void the vow?
When he finally withdrew his mouth from her, she was limp as a noodle, while he was still the polar opposite. He stood up, dragging his erection against the length of her body. She fisted her hand into the neck of his shirt and twisted it. Molten gold eyes met his. She looked satisfied and fierce at the same time. “I want you inside me, Solo,” she whispered. “You'd better rethink that vow of yours.”
He gave a shaky laugh. “I was just thinking the same thing. At this rate, my dick might explode.” He remembered what Father Kowalski had said when he took the vow. “I may have a loophole. My priest was looking out for me. He said something like âunless you decide to get married.' I
have
decided to get married. The way I see it, if you agree to actually have a wedding, then the vow's history.”