“Why do you say that?”
Nick pointed to the kitchen tableâit was covered with empty brown-and-silver Mylar bags. “MREsâthey're eating the same food we are. MREs are usually government-issueâwhoever it is must be connected with some local agency.”
“Probably Detwiler,” Beth said. “He stopped hereâit's probably his house.”
“I don't think soâbut it should be easy enough to find out. Look around for a magazine, a diploma, something with a name on it.”
They found nothing in the kitchen. In the entryway beside the front door there was a dusty foyer table with a small lamp and a withered houseplant. Leaning against the lamp was a stack of stamped letters waiting for a postman who would never return. Beth flipped through the letters and checked the return address.
“You were right,” she called to Nick. “It's not Detwiler's house.”
Nick poked his head around the corner. “Who lives here?”
“Never heard of him,” she said. “Somebody named âLaTourneau.'”
“Try to remember,” Beth said. “What else do you know about him?”
“Almost nothing,” Nick said. “Jerry and I met LaTourneau the first morning after the stormâhe was the only other guy working the Lower Nine. He said he was with the NOPDâI gave him a hard time about all the officers who didn't show up for work.”
“Why did you do that?”
“Just to stay in practice, okay? Get off my backâit's LaTourneau we need to focus on here.”
“You say he was in the Lower Nine every day?”
“He was the first one there in the morning and the last one back at nightâa one-man rescue team.”
“He worked alone?”
“Yeahâexcept for the day he worked with me.”
“He
what
?”
“It was the day after Jerry disappeared. I needed protection, and LaTourneau was a copâhe carried a sidearm. We worked together all afternoon.”
“Maybe he wanted to keep an eye on you.”
“No, I asked
him
âI practically had to beg. He didn't want to work with meâhe wanted to keep working alone.”
“Maybe that's what he wanted you to think.”
“No way. I can tell when somebody's playing me, Bethâhe genuinely didn't want me around. So what's the connection between LaTourneau and Detwiler? Detwiler wanted to kill meâhe would have done it if he had the chance. LaTourneau had the chance all afternoon, and he had a gunâbut he didn't do it. Why not? It doesn't make sense.”
“What else can you remember about him? You were together all afternoonâhe must have told you something.”
“He didn't talk much.”
“Did you ask questions? Did you volunteer anything about yourself ?”
“I don't need a lecture on interpersonal communication, okay?”
“Men. If he were a woman, we wouldn't have this problem.”
“If he were a woman, he would have talked me to death. Can we get back to the subject? What's the connection between LaTourneau and Detwiler?”
“I have no idea.”
“We're not going to figure it out standing here,” Nick said. “Let's look around the house and see what else we can find.”
They went down the hallway to a small bedroom, only recognizable as the master because of the adjoining bath. There were two closets, one on either side of the bed; the closet on the left was empty.
“He's separated or divorced,” Nick said.
“How do you know?”
“That closet is emptyâbut look at all the hangers. There used to be clothes in there.”
“Maybe his wife left before the storm and took her things with her.”
“In an emergency you only take basicsâyou don't clean out the closet.”
Beth went into the bathroom and checked the medicine cabinet. “She left a few things here too. You're right, he's probably separated or divorcedâand I don't think he's handling it well.”
“Why not?”
“Look at the bedâhe doesn't even bother to make it up anymore. He doesn't do dishes, he doesn't dust, he doesn't cleanâhe's lost interest in the house. This isn't
home
for him anymoreâit's just a place where he eats and sleeps. Maybe that's why he works such long hours.”
“Let's try across the hallâmaybe he's got kids.”
The bedroom across the hall was equal in size but very different in appearance. The bed was neatly madeâthe dust ruffle was crisply pleated and every throw pillow was carefully arranged. Each item on the dresser and vanity was neatly ordered too; nothing was on the floor; nothing was out of place.
Nick pointed to a purple-and-gold pennant hanging over the bed. “LSUâshe's either a student or a fan.”
Beth crossed to the vanity and looked at the photographs sticking out from the mirror's frame. “Student,” she said. “Sorority photoâshe's a Pi Phi. No graduation photo, thoughâshe's probably still in school.” She ran her index finger across the glass top; it left a track in the thick dust like the wake of a boat. She slid open the closet door and looked inside; it was packed completely full. She checked the top dresser drawer; it was full too.
“I've got a bad feeling about this,” Beth said. “The girl used to live here, but not anymoreânothing's been touched for months. It looks like she left suddenly, and she left everything behindâall her photos, all her mementos. If her parents kicked her out or if she ran away, she would have at least taken some of her clothingâbut everything seems to be here. And nothing's been moved or rearrangedâit's like someone's trying to preserve the place as it was.”
“I was thinking the same thing,” Nick said. “This isn't a bedroom, it's a museum. I think the girl's deadâthat's my guess.”
“That would explain a lotâthe father's long hours, his disinterest in the houseâit might even explain the breakup of his marriage.”
“Let's keep looking,” Nick said.
At the end of the hallway was the smallest of the three bedrooms, little more than a large closet. It was furnished as an all-purpose roomâa combination office, storeroom, and gymnasium. In one corner there was a sagging particleboard bookshelf packed with NOPD training manuals and unmarked three-ring binders; in the center there was a rickety bench press with one red vinyl pad split open and urethane foam poking out; in the opposite corner there was a small desk piled high with unopened letters and unread magazines.
Beth went to the desk and shuffled through the papers. She opened the center desk drawer; there was a newspaper clipping on top from the
Baton Rouge Advocate
. She read the headline: LSU Student Dies in Apparent Overdose.
“Nickâlook at this.”
Nick took the article and read:
Sherri LaTourneau, 20, a third-year pre-med student at LSU, was found dead in her apartment Thursday, the apparent victim of an accidental drug overdose. According to official sources, LaTourneau's roommate confessed to LaTourneau's occasional use of methamphetamines around the time of final exams. According to sheriff 's deputies, the emaciated condition of the body indicated regular and excessive use of the drug. In response, LSU officials have issued a public statement, warning students that “the pressure to succeed does not justify dangerous and illicit practices . . .”
Nick looked at Beth. “You said that you once thought I took meth. What made you think that?”
“I told you: your compulsive work habits, your excessive hours, your inability to sleepâthey're classic symptoms. Why?”
“I saw the same things in LaTourneau. He never seems to stop; he doesn't take breaks; and I remember something else nowâhe told me he can't sleep. I remember thinking,
This guy's just like me
. I figured he keeps going the same way I do, but maybe not. Maybe he's got a different methodââbetter living through chemistry.'”
“You think LaTourneau is a user?”
“I don't knowâthat doesn't seem possible. If a man's daughter died of a drug overdose, wouldn't that man stay away from drugs? Wouldn't he find them abhorrentârepugnantâjust because of what they did to his daughter?”
“Sometimes just the opposite,” Beth said. “Sometimes when a man's daughter dies of a drug overdose, he wants to understand why. He wants to know what she was thinking, what she was feeling, he wants to understand the power of the drugâso he becomes a user himself. Children of alcoholics become alcoholics; friends of suicide victims commit suicide. It's a common psychological phenomenonâit's entirely possible. Did you notice anything else unusual about his appearance or behavior?”
“Like what?”
“Extreme nervousness; dilated pupils; dizziness or confusion; dry or itchy skinâ”
“Itchy skinâthat reminds me of something else he said. When I told him I work with maggots, he told me he hated maggots. He said they get under his skinâthat he could feel them crawling around. I had no idea what he was talking about.”
“I think I do,” Beth said. “I've seen it in some of my cocaine patients. They call it âcocaine bugs'âmeth users call it âspeed bumps.' It's a form of delusional parasitosis known as
formication
âthe delusion that insects or snakes are crawling all over your skin. It's a psychosis that can result from stimulant abuse.”
Nick looked around the room. “If you were taking amphetamines, where would you hide your pills?”
“If I lived alone? In the medicine cabinet; why would I bother to hide them?”
“I'll check his bathroomâyou check the one across from the girl's room.”
Nick hadn't even reached the master bath before he heard Beth's voice: “Nickâcome here. Look at this.”
He entered the small bathroom and found Beth standing beside the medicine cabinet, ashen-faced. The medicine cabinet was empty except for one orange pill container on a center shelf. Beth was holding the wastebasket. She tilted it toward him so he could see inside; the bottom was lined with empty pill containers that looked exactly the same.
She reached up without a word and closed the medicine cabinet door. Taped to the mirror was a photograph of Nick sitting in the john-boat. Underneath the photo, written in lipstick on the mirror, were the words: “Kill him, Daddy. He's the worst one.”
Nick stared at the photo. “Now, that's what
I
call creepy.”
“They've been using him,” Beth said. “They've been feeding LaTourneau names and locations of people to killâand using his dead daughter's voice to do it. They're supplying him with meth too. That's your photo, Nickâthey're telling him to kill you.”
“I get it now,” Nick said. “They let LaTourneau do the killings for them, then when they're through with him they just turn him overâjust another good cop gone bad.”
“Can you imagine anything more despicable? The man is undoubtedly grief-stricken over the death of his daughterâthen suddenly his daughter speaks to him from beyond the grave and reveals to him where to find all the drug suppliers? LaTourneau would be more than happy to kill themâhe'd think he was doing it for her.”
“Who wouldn't?”
“Most people would experience the emotions, but they wouldn't act on themâthey would grieve, they would get angry, but the better part of them would win out in the end. Not LaTourneau; Turlock and Detwiler pushed him over the edgeâthey were feeding his psychosis and using it for their own benefit.”
“But LaTourneau doesn't seem psychotic. He saves people's lives all day longâwhat kind of a killer does that? All day long heâ”
Nick stopped.
“What is it?”
“âAll day long
.'
LaTourneau kept telling me not to work at nightâto go homeâto wait until morning. He said, âEverything changes at night.' What do you suppose that means?”
Beth took a deep breath. “It means you're lucky to be alive.”
“What?”
“He might have been telling you that he didn't want to kill youâto go home before his bad self came out.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Methamphetamine abuse produces paranoiaâit's one of the most common symptoms. If you take the drug too long or too often, paranoia turns into schizophreniaâa state where your personality splits into different identities, sometimes antagonistic identities. LaTourneau is a good cop, a public servant, a man who saves livesâbut he wants to do something very bad too: He wants to kill all the people who killed his little girl. So how does he reconcile these two contradictory parts of himself ? He can'tâso he mentally splits himself into two different people. The good LaTourneau would never murder anyone; it's the bad LaTourneau who does that.”
“But only at night?”
“Sometimes the different identities are linked to environmental cues: A good boy at work becomes a bad boy at home. In his case, a good boy during the day becomes a bad boy at night. Think about it: During the day, LaTourneau is a relentless doer of good. But at nightâ”