Broken Protocols (19 page)

–Because you were just talking about it, dumb ass. Maybe you should go and get your prescriptions filled now. Whatever the pills are. You’re starting to sound like you might need them.

Deep under the disbelief and fear that she truly was on her way to bedlam, irritation and anger stirred. She didn’t have to take this, especially if it was her imagination. She deserved respect – no, she demanded it.

–Snort. Let me know when you’re looking for some input on that. Not.

“If you’re not my imagination and you’re not a gorgeous Newfoundland, who and what are you?” There, that should fix the speaker. Thank heavens she was still alone in her corner where no one could hear her. She definitely needed to call her doctor when she got home.

–Go ahead and call him. Get more drugs into your system. Let more doctors into your head. Ignore what’s really in there. What do I care? I’m just a dumb basset hound to you. It’s not like you’re going to listen to me no matter what form I’m in. Your kind never does.

Basset hound?
That basset hound from the sun? Had she seen any other one? Really? Okay, that was a bit much. She spun around, looking for the fat one she’d seen earlier. “Okay, smarty pants imagination, I can’t see any basset hounds here.”

Just then the group of people standing in front of her moved.

The same huge basset hound she’d caught sight of before lay slumped on the floor, soaking up the sunlight, and taking up way too much space in a crowded room like this. With all those wrinkles he looked closer to a skin dog, what is that breed…a shar pei.

–Oh, aren’t you a comedian now? See if I care. Insult me all you want. I know what I am and I know what you are. Someone who refuses to accept what they have. A gift.

Stunned, she sunk as deep in the chair as she could get, staring in horrified fascination at the boneless mess of patchwork colors. She eyed him carefully. That dog was looking to get stepped on. And was that a food dish sitting beside him? Surely not.

What’s wrong with keeping my food bowl close? I want to be on hand when someone fills it. Is that so hard to understand? And you call me stupid. I’m Mosey. You. Are. Psychic.

As she watched, he rolled onto his back, his long ears flapping to the floor on either side of him. Then those loose jowls slopped to the floor as they reformed into a wide grin.

His mouth never moved, but the voice in her head, continued taunting.

–Boo. I see you
.

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What she doesn’t want…is exactly what he needs.

Shunned and ridiculed all her life for something she can’t control, Samantha Blair hides her psychic abilities and lives on the fringes of society. Against her will, however, she’s tapped into a killer – or rather, his victims. Each woman’s murder, blow-by-blow, ravages her mind until their death releases her back to her body. Sam knows she must go to the authorities, but will the rugged, no-nonsense detective in charge of tracking down the killer believe her?

Detective Brandt Sutherland only trusts hard evidence, yet Sam’s visions offer clues he needs to catch a killer. The more he learns about her incredible abilities, however, the clearer it becomes that Sam’s visions have put her in the killer’s line of fire. Now Brandt must save her from something he cannot see or understand…and risk losing his heart in the process.

As danger and desire collide, passion raises the stakes in a game Sam and Brandt don’t dare lose.

2:35 am, March 15th

S
amantha Blair struggled
against phantom restraints.
No, not again
.

This wasn’t her room or her bed, and it sure as hell wasn’t her body. Tears welled and trickled slowly from eyes not her own. Then the pain started. Still, she couldn’t move. She could only endure. Terror clawed at her soul while dying nerves screamed.

The attack became a frenzy of stabs and slices, snatching all thought away. Her body jerked and arched in a macabre dance. Black spots blurred her vision, and still the slaughter continued.

Sam screamed. The terror was hers, but the cracked, broken voice was not.

Confusion reigned as her mind grappled with reality. What was going on?

Understanding crashed in on her. With it came despair and horror.

She’d become a visitor in someone else’s nightmare. Locked inside a horrifying energy warp, she’d linked to this poor woman whose life dripped away from multiple gashes.

Another psychic vision.

The knife slashed down, impaling the woman’s abdomen, splitting her wide from ribcage to pelvis. Her agonized scream echoed on forever in Sam’s mind. She cringed.

The other woman slipped into unconsciousness. Sam wasn’t offered the same gift. Now, the pain was Sam’s alone. The stab wounds and broken bones became Sam’s to experience even though they weren’t hers.

The woman’s head cocked to one side, her cheek resting on the blood-soaked bedding. From the new vantage point, Sam’s horrified gaze locked on a bloody knife held high by a man dressed in black from the top of his head down. Only his eyes showed, glowing with feverish delight. She shuddered. Please, dear God, let it end soon.

The attacker’s fury died suddenly. A fine tremor shook his arm as fatigue set in. “Shit.” He removed his glove and scratched beneath the fabric.

In the waning moonlight, from the corner of her eye, Sam caught the metallic glint of a ring on his hand. It mattered. She knew it did. She struggled to imprint the image before the opportunity was lost. Her eyes drifted closed. In the darkness of her mind, the wait was endless.

Sam’s soul wept. Oh, God, she hated this. Why? Why was she here? She couldn’t help the woman. She couldn’t even help herself.

She welcomed the next blow – so light only a minor flinch undulated through the dreadfully damaged woman. Her tortured spirit stirred deep within the rolling waves of blackness, struggling for freedom from this nightmare. With one last surge of energy, the woman opened her eyes, and locked onto the white rings of the mask staring back. In ever-slowing heartbeats, her circle of vision narrowed until the two soulless orbs blended into one small band before it blinked out altogether. The silence, when it came, was absolute.

Gratefully, Sam relaxed into death.

Twenty minutes later, she bolted upright in her own bed. Survival instincts screamed at her to run. White agony dropped her in place.

“Ohh,” she cried out. Fearing more pain, she slid her hands over her belly. Her fingers slipped along the raw edges of a deep slash. Searing pain made her gasp and twist away. Hot tears poured. Warm, sticky liquid coated her fingers. “Oh. God. Oh God, oh God,” she chanted.

Staring in confusion around her, fear, panic, and finally, recognition seeped into her dazed mind. Early morning rays highlighted the water stains shining through the slap-dash coat of whitewash on the ceiling and the banged up suitcases, open on the floor. An empty room – an empty life. A remnant of a foster-care childhood.

She was home.

Memories swamped her, flooding her senses with yet more hurt. Sam broke down. Like an animal, she tried to curl into a tiny ball only to scream again as pain jackknifed through her. Torn edges of muscle tissue and flesh rubbed against each other, and broken ribs creaked with her slightest movement. Blood slipped over her torn breasts to soak the sheets below.

The smell. Wet wool fought with the unique and unforgettable smell of fresh blood.

Sam caught her breath and froze, her face hot, tight with agony. “Shit, shit, and shit!” She swore under her breath like a mantra.

Tremors wracked her tiny frame, keeping the pain alive as she morphed through realities. Transition time. What a joke. That always brought images of new age mumbo jumbo to mind. Nothing light and airy could describe this. Each blow leveled at the victim had manifested in her own body. This was hard-core healing – time when bones knitted, sliced ligaments and muscle tissue grew back together, and time for skin to stitch itself closed.

Sam understood her injuries had something to do with her imperfect control, paired with her inability to accept her gifts. Apparently, if she could surmount the latter the first would diminish. She didn’t quite understand how or why. Or what to do about it. Her body somehow always healed, the physical and mental scars always remained. She was a mess.

The physical process usually took anywhere from ten to twenty minutes – depending on the injuries. The mental confusion, disconnectedness, sense of isolation took longer to disappear. She paid a high price for moving too soon. Shuddering, Sam reached for the frayed edges of her control. It wouldn’t be much longer. She hoped.

Nothing could stop the hot tears leaking from her closed eyelids.

This session had been bad. Apart from the broken ribs, there were so many stab wounds. She’d never experienced one so physically damaging. Nervously, she wondered at the extent of her blood loss. If she didn’t learn how to disconnect, these visions could be the end of her – literally.

Just like that poor woman.

Sam hated that these episodes were changing, growing, developing. So powerful and so ugly, they made her sick to her soul.

Several minutes later, Sam raised her head to survey the bed. The pain was manageable, although she wouldn’t be able to move her limbs yet. Blood had soaked the top of the many Thrift Store blankets piled high on the bed. Her hollowed belly had become a vessel for the cooling puddle of blood. Shit. The stuff was everywhere.

The metallic taste clung to her lips and teeth. She rolled the disgusting spit around the inside of her mouth, waiting. She wanted to run away – from the memories, the visions, her life. But knowing that pain simmered beneath the surface, waiting to rip her apart, stopped her. Weary, ageless patience added to the bleakness in her heart.

Ten more minutes passed. Now, she should be good to go. Lifting her head, she spat the bloody gob onto the waiting wad of tissue and noted the time.

Transition had taken fifteen minutes this morning.

She was improving.

Oh God. Sam broke into sobs again. When would this end? Other psychics found things or heard things. Many of them saw events before they happened. She saw violence – not only saw, but experienced it too.

Occasional shudders wracked her frame from the coldness that seemed destined to live in her veins. The odd straggling sniffle escaped. She couldn’t remember when she’d last been warm. Dropping the top blood-soaked blanket to the floor, Sam tugged the motley collection of covers tighter around her skinny frame. Warmth was a comfort that belonged to others.

She wasn’t so lucky. She walked with one foot on the dark side – whether she liked it or not. And that was the problem. She’d been running for a long time. Then she’d landed at this cabin and had been hiding ever since. That was no answer either.

Her resolve firmed. Enough was enough. It was time to gain control. Time to do something. This monster had to be stopped. Now.

Christ, she was tired of waking up dead.

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A journey of exploration…

A journey of healing…

A journey of love…

Two people are forced by circumstances into a therapy class to help them deal with their problems. They are strangers. Forced to be partners. Naturally opposites.

Kane is dealing with anger of betrayal at the deepest level, needing to find his way back to forgiveness. Tania is a previous rape victim hoping to deal with her fear of intimacy so she can have a loving relationship.

Tania’s medium of expression – her camera.

Her subject – the human body – Kane’s physical body.

Looking through the lens of a camera, she learns to find beauty and compassion…and the strength to find wholeness…with him.

T
ania took her
seat in the small room. She was early, and the seminar room was empty. She liked to arrive early in class because it gave her time to settle before things got started.

She’d been in similar scenarios before. She could do this, again and again, if she had to. Using the meditation tricks she learned, she practiced her deep-breathing techniques to ease back the stress threatening to choke the breath from her body. Therapy was good for her. She was getting better. She could do this.

This particular program was special, a university workshop type of thing. Intensive, invasive, and guaranteed to help bring about change.

She could do this.

Liar.
She so sucked at this.

She stared out the large windows, her nerves raw, hot. Morning sunshine shone through the curtains, giving a muted look to the bright light. Kind of like her own life. As if she was living only a shade of the life she could be.

That was precisely what she was doing.

Several other attendees entered and took their seats. Special group, special problems, and they’d all signed up to do this willingly; had even paid for it. More than that, once committed there was no quitting. They were all students here at the University of British Columbia in Vancouver. They were all associated in one way or another with the professor who’d be leading this weeklong session. She was friends with one of the participants and recognized most of the others from Jenna’s lectures on internal healing.

In her case, her best friend had paid the hefty deposit to hold Tania’s place while she convinced her to get help. Five days in a hotel at the edge of campus. Workshops in the mornings, assignments in the afternoons, and therapy sessions dotted the rest of the evening. Even those who lived locally weren’t allowed to leave at the end of the day; it was all-inclusive. She wished it were otherwise, then she could return to her normal life instead of this intensive, no-hiding type of session. Which was, of course, the purpose of the seminar.