Breaking Point (10 page)

What harm might it do her?

Truth was, Byron probably
was
a nice guy. If he'd met him away from Megan, he suspected he wouldn't have had any problems with him. Yeah, he'd been out of line when he got between a divorced couple in a long-running fight he didn't understand, but he would have done the same thing in Byron's place. Michaels had been ragging on Megan--justifiably so, in his mind--but what kind of man were you if you didn't step up to protect your woman? Even if she was in the wrong?

Or even if she was somebody like Toni, who could protect herself better than you could?

Michaels shook his head.
Toni !sn't your woman anymore. Don't go there.

"So when are you coming to see me, Dadster?"

"Pretty soon, Li'1 Bit. Next month."

Yeah, next month. Friday, July 1. The day of the first round of the custody hearings. His lawyer, Phil Buchanan, was confident they could win, or at least stall things for a long time, or so he said. But the question was: Did he really want to do that?

"Spiffy! Did Momster tell you that Scout caught a rat?"

"A rat?" Scout was a toy poodle Michaels had come by when an assassin, a woman disguising herself as an old lady walking her dog, had used the little beast as part of her subterfuge. Fortunately for him, the dog had barked at just the right time, saving his life. He'd thought about keeping the pooch, but figured he needed more attention than he could give a pet, so now Scout was his daughter's companion.

"Oh, yeah, we heard them fighting under the porch last night and then Scout came out dragging it by the neck! It was a big rat, all brown and bloody, and it was dead, but he bit Scout on the leg, so we had to take Scout to the vet to get a shot so he wouldn't get rat disease. He's okay, though."

The idea of the toy poodle tangling with a wood rat and coming out the winner was amusing. When he'd lived there, Michaels had used D-Con or traps to keep the rat and mice population down.
That
was a long time ago, in a galaxy far away ...

"I gotta go, Daddy. Daddy-B is coming over to take us to the new IMAX 3-D. I love you."

"I love you, too, honey. Bye."

Michaels stared at the phone.
Daddy-B.

Well, okay, sure, what was she going to call him? An eight-year-old using his first name somehow wasn't right, but "Daddy-B"?

Michaels sure as hell didn't need to hear that, regardless of what was best for his child. That wasn't right, either.

So, what was he going to do about all this? He had only a few weeks to decide, and the decision would affect him and his daughter for the rest of their lives.

Wasn't
that just
one more straw his camel didn't need. His life had become a damned soap opera.

London

"Are you sure?" Carl asked.

Toni nodded and sighed. "Yes. I have to go."

They were in Carl's
silat
school, which occupied the second floor of a four-story building between a tandoori restaurant and a boarded-up charity shop in a less-than-posh section of town called Clapham. The school was bare-bones, old wooden floors and a few mats, run-down, but kept spotlessly clean by students offering
hormat
and
adat--
basically honor and respect--to their instructor. The first evening class would be starting in about an hour, and the students who volunteered to sweep and mop the floors would be there soon.

Carl nodded in return. "I understand."

Impulsively, Toni put her hand on his chest. Under the thin white T-shirt, the muscle was tight and warm. "Thank you. I appreciate all you've taught me."

He caught her hand with his, pressed it against his pectoral a bit harder. "It has been mutual. Listen, if things don't go well with your Mr. Michaels, let me know soonest, would you?"

"I will."

"I have occasion to visit the States now and then. I'd be pleased to see you there whether this works out with Alex or not."

"I'd like that," she said.

"Are you going to stay for class?"

"No, I need to get packed. My flight leaves early in the morning."

He nodded again. "I'll miss you."

"I'll keep in touch, I promise."

He bent and kissed her gently on the lips, leaned back, and smiled. "Travel safely," he said.

Toni nodded and smiled. Carl was a path not taken, at least not fully, and she had a feeling she would always wonder how it would have been to travel that way.

Back at her flat, Toni looked through the things she had gathered during her weeks in the country. Some of it would fit into her bag. Some of it she could have shipped if she wanted. Most of it would stay here. A coffeemaker, a blender, a small microwave oven--they would be useful for the next tenant. What she would mostly take would be her memories, and now they were jumbled in a way she had to reconsider. Alex hadn't slept with Cooper, whatever his reasons for allowing her to think otherwise. It made a difference to her, and she had to resolve it.

She could have had her com receive his daily call. Could make the connection herself and ask him about it from thousands of miles away. No risks to that. But no long-distance voice, even complete with a video image, was enough for such a conversation. She needed to be able to see into his eyes, watch him closely, pick up the little movements of his body language, to touch, smell, maybe even taste him. She didn't kid herself that she could always tell if somebody was lying to her, but she thought she could tell if Alex was lying, if he was standing right in front of her and if she was looking for it. So if what Cooper had said was true, if he
hadn't
cheated on her, then what would that mean? She had left him, quit her job, and if she had done it because she had made a mistake--it was a very
big
fucking mistake. If she had been that
wrong,
then what did
that
say about her?

She had to know. One way or another. And if she had to swim across an ocean and then walk the rest of the way when she got to dry land, then that was what she was going to do.

The doorbell chimed.

A deliveryman dressed in blue shorts and a matching shirt and cap stood there, holding a small package. She signed for it, then went back inside. What could this be?

Inside the box, enveloped in fat green plastic bubble-wrap, was an eight-inch-tall, dark blue glass bottle, about as big around as a cardboard toilet tissue tube.There was a small sheet of print rubber-banded to the cylinder, and a note in the box. The note said, "Toni--I thought you might be able to use this. It won't do anything for your ego or your soul, but it might help with external aches and pains. Cheers, Carl."

The sheet of print turned out to be instructions for using what was inside the blue bottle:
Balur Silat,
also called
Tjimande Silat,
or if you liked the newer spelling,
Cimande,
where the "C" was pronounced the same way as the "Tj."

Toni grinned.
Balur Silat
was a training aid, coupled with conditioning devices like padded punching and kicking targets. Toni didn't use it much anymore, but she still had a striking ball that Guru had made for her years ago. It was an old athletic sock with about three pounds of copper-coated steel BBs in it, the kind used by air guns. The BBs were tied off in the toe of the sock, which was then clipped to make a globe about the size of a baseball. This was then wrapped tightly with layers of duct tape. What you did with this was to punch it, or hold it in one hand to bang it against your forearms or elbows or shins, to help get them used to being hit.

Balur Silat
was a blend of coconut oil and different roots and herbs, a concoction that took about a month to make. You ground the herbs up, cooked and mixed them together, put the resulting goop into a dark glass bottle, and stored it in a dark cool place for months, or even years, to age.

After a bruising session of bone-to-bone contact during a workout, battered shins and forearms were common. Like the Chinese herbal remedy
Dit da jow,
or "iron hit wine," the classic Indonesian preparation was said to be a great help. Literally,
balur
means "to crystallize" or "to harden." The stuff was solid at room temperature and had to be heated slightly to liquefy. The liniment thus created was used to help speed healing of bruises, and to help to condition and toughen the skin. There were practitioners of some fighting arts who had shins so hard and impervious to impact they could break baseball bats over them without apparent harm or pain. Toni had seen a picture of an old
Serak
stylist who could do that once, and she had no desire to have her shins scar and knot and wind up looking like his; still, a certain amount of conditioning was a good idea, and
Balur Silat
was a help, though finding the authentic stuff wasn't easy--every other guru out there had his or her own recipe, and some were better than others. She was pretty sure that Carl Stewart's stuff would be decent.

She hefted the bottle. If it
would
work on bruised egos, the maker could name his price and retire rich in a few days. She smiled again, and went back to her packing.

Chapter
10.

Thursday, June 9th

Gakona, Alaska

Morrison had given Ventura the tour of the facility, but the man hadn't seemed too awed or even interested by anything, other than the main power generators. Those were fairly impressive. The power building, more than twenty thousand square feet of it, was constructed originally to house a huge coal-fired steam generator that was to run an Air Force Over the Horizon Backscatter Radar installation originally sited here. At the termination of the OTH-B program and the shift to HAARP, the steam generation gear was hauled off, and the backup diesel generators were used instead. They had plenty of power to operate the transmitter and the ISR. Originally, HAARP had been tapped into the local power grid for lights and heating and like that, but interruptions during really bad weather were sometimes a problem--nobody much enjoyed sitting in the cold and dark even if the transmitter still worked, so the local grid was eventually switched over to their own generators. Power-wise, they were self-sufficient--as long as the monster fuel tank was kept filled.

Morrison could understand why Ventura wasn't all that impressed--a lot of the older buildings that were supposed to have been temporary were still there, and they weren't anything to write home about. These were no more than trailers with cheap wood paneling and external conduits for switches and electrical plugs, beat-up old computers and monitors, steel desks and press-board filing cabinets. Not what you thought of as cutting edge.

Still, impressing Ventura was not the point. Running the next test was.

Which was what he was about to do. He had another target, and the conditions were as good as they were going to get this time of year, so he was ready to begin.

Ventura stood behind him, wearing a disguise that ought to fool anybody here into thinking he belonged--black polyester slacks over brown loafers, a white shirt with a pen protector in the pocket, an ugly vest, uglier tie, and dark plastic rimmed glasses. A perfect geek.

There was a gun tucked under the vest, Morrison was certain, but even though he knew it was there, he couldn't see it.

The controls in the auxiliary trailer worked as well as the main ones, but they were less likely to have unexpected visitors here, and unexpected they would be if any showed up.

Morrison said, "With our computers up, and if the sun-spot activity isn't too bad, we can hit the mark ninety-eight times out of a hundred." He adjusted a control, and a liquid crystal display of numbers flashed new digits.

He and Ventura were alone in the HAARP auxiliary control room. The ACR was where Morrison usually conducted his calibrations and, in this case, an unauthorized use of the equipment. The thing was, you couldn't tell by looking where the energy generated by the array was going. Since the project was shut down for the summer, except for maintenance and calibrations, no real scientists would be looking over his shoulder--and the guards wouldn't have a clue what he was really doing.

In his guise as a geek scientist, Ventura chuckled.

Morrison frowned. "Something funny about that?"

Ventura said, "In some circles, ninety-eight percent accuracy is considered failure."

Morrison adjusted another dial, then turned to look at Ventura, the question apparent in his raised eyebrows.

"In the late 1800s, there was a trick shooter named Adolph 'Ad' Topperwein. In December of 1906, he decided to try for a record. He had a sawmill in San Antonio, Texas, make up a bunch of wooden cubes, two-and-a-quarter-inches square."

"A bunch?
There's
a scientific term."

"Give me a minute, I'll get there."

Ventura held his thumb and forefinger apart, about the thickness of a modestly fat reference book. "Blocks were about so, a little bigger than a golf ball."