Braver (3 page)

I thought for a few moments. “We could do interviews,” I suggested. “We could put — perhaps not in a newspaper — that we’re an opportunity to work and live in the same place. You don’t have to have money to live here — you earn your keep by working. Then we could have them come in to look the place around. We’d explain the chores, the living situation, the nightclub, everything.”

“Everything?” Mama asked, raising an eyebrow. “I seem to remember you saying we shouldn’t tell them ‘everything’ right off.”

I sighed. “I never wanted to shock the new girls, is all,” I said. “Maybe it wasn’t the right approach. I don’t know. But we need to figure out something so that girls know what they’re getting into.”

“I like your interview idea,” Mama said, stroking her chin. “Maybe that is the right approach.”

“We could advertise on Craigslist or something,” I continued, excited that Mama was feeling positive about my idea. “Lots of people look on there, nowadays.”

“Good girl,” Mama said, “good girl.” She rubbed her hands together, that money look in her eyes. “I know I can always count on you, Cocoa.”

“You know you can, Mama,” I said, feeling proud of myself.

“Well,” she said with a heavy sigh, standing up, “I gotta do some things today before we open.”

She made a move to grab the dirty plates, but I shook my head.

“You made breakfast,” I said. “It’s only fair that I clean up.”

“You’re a good girl, Cocoa,” Mama said. “Thank you for all your help.”

“Oh, Mama,” I said quickly before she could leave. “Think I could take out about ten bucks? I need to get some things at the store.”

“Sure thing, sugar,” she said. “Just stop by the office. I’ll be there.”

She left the kitchen and I washed the plates before putting them back in the cupboard. I knew girls would be down after a while to start getting their own meals, but I scraped the grill anyways, watching it smoke from the oil and cleaning block.

I poured some hot water in a mug and plopped a teabag in it. The fresh, almost floral scent of chamomile wafted into my nose and opened my pores as I sniffed at it. I could live on tea alone, I believed.

I grabbed the marker and added a note on the chores whiteboard before I forgot.

“Meeting at five-thirty,” it read. “Important — don’t be late.”

That way, I could remember to impart Mama’s message before we all got busy working to open the nightclub.

I hung the whiteboards out and was just getting ready to leave the kitchen when Blue sauntered in. Her fine blonde hair stood up in every direction away from her head. I was surprised to see her — she was usually one of the last girls to wake up for the day.

“What’s shakin’, bacon?” she asked sleepily.

“Just finishing up here,” I said, pulling the teabag from the mug and tossing it in the garbage. “What are you doing up?”

Blues grimaced. “Car alarm outside. Couldn’t go back to sleep.”

“Poor thing,” I said, pouting and tweaking her cheek. “You gotta get some beauty rest!”

Blues chuckled and twisted away. “A full stomach will do it,” she said. “Smells good in here.”

“Mama was here right now,” I said.

“Damn,” she remarked. “If I’d given up on sleep just a little bit earlier, I could’ve feasted on that famous breakfast.”

“Just not looking like it’s going to be your day, Blue,” I joked.

Blue was perhaps one of my closest friends at the nightclub. We’d been roommates back in the day, before Mama designated me as the one who should be the first face the new girls should get to know. I knew Blue always had my back — from behind the bar and everywhere.

“What’s the meeting about?” she asked, noticing the whiteboards for the first time. She leaned closer. “Sweet. Vacuum duty.”

“You wanna hear it now or at five-thirty?”

She shrugged. “Both. That way, maybe it’ll sink in.”

“It’s not really for you, though,” I said. “Mama was telling me that we had a customer complain about a girl not being ‘fresh’ for him.”

“Ugh,” Blue said, wrinkling her nose. “Like fishy?”

“I have no idea,” I said, laughing and waving my hand in front of my face. “Mama didn’t elaborate and I didn’t ask her to. Now I get to figure out a way to tell everyone to make sure they shower between encounters. Or rest. Or try to remember to please the customer.”

“I don’t envy you for that,” Blue said, pouring herself a glass of milk and leaning on the counter.

Since Blue was a bartender, she rarely came in direct contact with our customers. She was kept busy all night by drink orders from the girls serving the tables. However, once in a “blue moon,” as we all laughingly called it, a customer would take a shine to her and ask her to dance or sleep with him.

She always cheerfully agreed, enjoying the intermittent nature of these occurrences — as well as the added boost it gave to her paycheck. We all tipped out the bartenders at the end of the night. But the real money was always made from the bedroom business.

“Any fun plans for today?” Blue asked. Her oversized T-shirt swallowed her whole and made her look younger than she was. She was petite to begin with.

“Not really,” I said. “Maybe I’ll run to the corner store a little later and get some more hairspray. Gotta redo this hairdo. You need anything?”

“Nah, I went yesterday,” she said. “Got some awesome new nail polish. Purple glitter — my favorite.”

“You’ll shine tonight when you’re mixing all those drinks,” I said.

“That’s the idea,” Blue said over her shoulder, rooting through the refrigerator until she came up with the eggs. “I’d offer you an omelet, but I’m sure your breakfast was far superior.”

“Don’t be jealous,” I teased her. “I was just lucky enough to come across Mama in the kitchen this morning.”

“I’m going to start getting up earlier,” she grumbled, cracking the eggs in a pan that she placed over a burner instead of the grill.

“See you later, then.”

I left the kitchen and climbed the stairs. Girls were starting to stir. I heard the faint buzz of televisions from behind some doors. Two of the showers in the bathroom were running.

Mama’s girls were starting to wake up for the day.

When I was back in my room, I shed the kimono and pulled on a pair of jeans and a Yankees T-shirt, sipping on the tea the whole time. I knew that chamomile was a calming brew, most often taken before going to bed. But I always buzzed with energy. It helped calm me down.

I looked again at my reflection as soon as my tea was done. The hair needed some serious tending to, but I couldn’t do a thing without hairspray. Little kinky curls had sprouted right out of the braids. I looked a mess, but I was only going to the corner store. There was nobody to impress there.

Ready to go, I left and locked the room. For the most part, I trusted all the girls. But I knew the moment I let my guard down, something I valued might go walking out of my door. I chalked it up to the bad neighborhood I’d grown up in. I could never leave the door unlocked when I was leaving the nightclub or going down to work a shift.

“Morning, Cocoa,” Shimmy mumbled, slipping by me and into the bathroom, rubbing her eyes.

“Afternoon,” I called after her, grinning. The only time you couldn’t find Shimmy dancing was right when she woke up. She was definitely not an early bird.

I jogged back downstairs and knocked on the office door. It was located right by the kitchen.

“Come on in!” came the muffled reply.

“It’s me, Cocoa,” I said, pushing the door open. “Just ten dollars, please, Mama.”

“I remember,” she said, smiling and still in her curlers and terrycloth robe. “I’ve got it right out here for you.”

She held out the bill and I took it, stuffing it into my little purse. Mama made a notation in the open ledger in front of her. I knew it was where she kept all of our accounts of the money we made and took out. It was Mama who’d drilled into my head to not leave anything of value in the rooms. She made all of the girls keep their earnings with her, effectively operating as the bank of the nightclub. She said it was so she could keep our money safe and that we could withdraw any amount of our earnings whenever we needed to.

I’d never personally had a problem with the system, but two of my former roommates did. Neither of them trusted Mama to handle their money properly.

I wasn’t sure that Jazz had left the nightclub with even a penny to her name.

“I’ll see you later,” I said, stepping out and closing the door.

I left the nightclub via the back — an exit that led out to the alleyway. It was a silly idea to come strutting out of a closed nightclub on a busy sidewalk, meaning the front door entrance. Mama encouraged us to do things outside of the nightclub, like shopping or recreation, whatever we wanted to spend our money on. But she pushed us to be discreet.

Everything Mama did, she did to protect the nightclub. It was much more than a business to her.