Boy21 (10 page)

“Any black people in Harry Potter books?” Terrell asks.

“Why does that even matter?” Wes says.

Before Terrell can answer, Coach pulls up in his truck with Boy21.

“Look who it is, White Rabbit,” Terrell says. “It’s your shadow. Thought Black Rabbit didn’t play basketball?”

“Why’s he ridin’ with Coach?” Hakim asks.

“Dunno.” I peer up into the sky. Gray everywhere.

Coach unlocks the gym door and we all go inside.

I decide to ignore Boy21 and simply focus on my own goals. If I don’t even talk to Erin during basketball season, and Erin’s been my best friend since elementary school, then I shouldn’t feel bad about ignoring Boy21. Time to prioritize. Time to play basketball. My teammates need me.

Right?

The only problem is that Boy21’s parents were murdered and I know that I should be helping him, because he’s suffering.

As we shoot around, Boy21 hovers near me, but I just keep moving—chasing rebounds. I never really minded having a shadow, but Boy21’s presence feels heavy now, like it could slow me down. It’s almost like having a girlfriend during the season—an extra worry.

I catch Russ’s eye once and he looks really nervous, scared, which makes me angry because, if Coach’s assessment is right, Boy21’s the best basketball player in the gym, so what does he have to worry about?

When Coach blows the whistle we all sit against the wall. Boy21 plops down next to me, but I don’t look at him. Coach says he only has enough uniforms to keep eighteen players, and cuts will be next week. There are twenty-six players sitting against the wall, which means eight players will not make the team.

Coach talks about our goal of winning a state championship. He talks about teamwork and hard work and how we’re going to become a unit—a family. He says all the stuff he says every year.

I’ve heard these words a thousand times before, but even so, Coach’s message makes me feel lighter, focused. My muscles are ready. My heart wants to beat hard. My mind wants to shut off. It’s like falling into a trance.

The season is the only thing that really makes any sense in my life. There’s a clear objective. People come together to accomplish this objective, and the community celebrates that. Basketball’s the only thing around here that gets done right, the only thing
that people consistently support. It’s the best thing in my life by far, except for maybe Erin.

Soon we’re running full-court drills, but I can’t even lose track of Boy21 in the shuffle of the lines because he’s performing so horrifically that everyone notices him.

The first pass he makes goes into the stands.

The first four shots he takes are air balls or bricks.

He gets beat every time while playing defense.

He looks awful—like he’s drunk or something.

His shoulders are slumped forward and his knees are together, which is a terrible basketball stance. He’s always looking up at the lights, like he’s expecting to be beamed up into outer space or something, or maybe like he’s praying. It’s clear that he really doesn’t want to be here.

But the funny thing is: I’m not happy about this. I actually start to worry about Boy21, because the expression on his face makes it looks like he’s about to cry. I worry so much about Boy21 that it starts to affect
my
game, and when I throw a bad pass, Coach yells, “What’s wrong with you, Finley? You’re competing for your starting spot too! No free rides!”

Coach has never yelled at me like that before. It makes me really nervous and confused.

In order for Coach to be happy with my performance, both Boy21 and I need to play well, which seems unfair. I’m connected to Russ in a way that the other players are not.

When Coach goes over the new offensive plays, I’m relieved to find myself still practicing with the first squad.

Boy21 runs with the second team, but he can’t seem to
remember the plays, even after watching me run them for a good twenty minutes.

He’s awful.

Too awful.

Unbelievably terrible.

It’s almost comical.

The other starters exchange angry looks and shake their heads and mumble curse words, because Russ is single-handedly ruining the flow of practice.

It’s like Boy21 has never touched a basketball in his life.

It’s almost like he’s intentionally—

That’s when I understand what’s going on. Why Coach looks so frustrated and angry.

For the next two hours I play as hard as I can, but my mind’s elsewhere.

Toward the end of practice the girls’ team enters the gym. I glance up at Erin. She’s watching my every move, rooting for me with her eyes and fighting an urge to wave. I wish I could tell her what’s going on, but we won’t be speaking for another three months, and that’s just that.

My practice uniform is heavy with sweat. My hair and skin are slick. My muscles are tired and so is my mind, because of Boy21. Basketball has never been so stressful before. I’m thinking too much. It’s better when athletes don’t think.

As we run our end-of-practice sprints I make sure that I finish first every time, even though Sir, Hakim, Terrell, and probably Boy21 are much faster than I am when they’re not tired. I’m tired too, but because I’m not as gifted as the other top players, I have
to outwork talent, like Dad says, so I push myself harder and win every sprint by five to ten feet.

I try to make up for my poor practice and soon my lungs are aflame and my legs are screaming, threatening to quit on me.

Each time, Boy21 finishes dead last.

He looks pathetic.

“Bring it in,” Coach says.

We huddle together and put our hands in the center so that we make a big wheel of bodies with arm spokes.

Coach says, “Second session starts at three. Finley and Russ, I’ll see you in the coaches’ office. On three, team! One, two, three—”

“Team!” everyone yells, and then I follow Coach into his office and Russ follows me. Coach Watts herds everyone else into the locker room and the girls take the court with the noise of a dozen or so basketballs being dribbled and twice as many pairs of sneakers pounding the hardwood floor.

Boy21 and I stand on opposite sides of the office.

Coach shuts the door and says, “Finley, I asked you to help Russ transition to Bellmont, correct?”

I nod.

“Based on what I told you about Russ, do you not think that our team would have a better chance of achieving its goals if he played for us this year?”

Boy21 looks at his shoes.

“He’s known that you were clued in from the start, because I told him about our conversations,” Coach says. “So just answer my question, Finley.”

“Yes.”

Yes, the team would be better with a nationally recruited all-star point guard playing instead of me.

“Then why did you tell Russ not to come out for the team?” Coach asks.

My eyes almost pop out of my head. I never told Boy21 not to come out for the team.
Never!
I open my mouth but no words will come. My tongue just won’t work.

It feels like my heart is a squirrel trying to climb up and out of my throat. My hands are balled up. Sweat beads are jumping from my face to the floor.

“He never exactly
said
that to me,” Boy21 says. “Not with words.”

“What?” Coach says to Boy21. “You told me this morning that Finley said you shouldn’t play for our team.”

“That’s not what I said,” Boy21 says. “I said I could tell he didn’t want me to play. He never told me not to, but he never asked me to play either—he never encouraged me, and I could just tell. Coach, this is Finley’s senior year. I don’t want to come in and ruin it for him.”

“We do what’s best for
the team
,” Coach says. “Remember what we’ve been talking about?”

“Coach, Finley’s been so cool to me. He’s a good person. He loves this game a lot more than I do. He worked so hard in the off-season. Much harder than I worked. I can’t just jump in and take his starting spot. What kind of friend would I be?”

I study Boy21’s face for a long moment.

He doesn’t crack a smile.

He doesn’t even blink.

He’s completely sincere.

He wasn’t going to play basketball this year just so I could start. That’s why he was pretending he couldn’t play during practice—just for my benefit. I feel something akin to what I feel for my own family, Erin, and Coach as I realize what’s going through Boy21’s mind. I’m not sure anyone has ever offered to make such a sacrifice for me.

“I can’t take his number either. It wouldn’t be right,” Boy21 says.

I look down at the number 21 on my practice jersey, the number I’ve been wearing since freshman year. I knew this was coming, but I feel differently than I thought I would. Of course he’d want to wear that number.

“Finley, you never told Russ not to play basketball?” Coach asks.

“No, sir,” I say.

“I owe you an apology, then.”

I don’t really want an apology, but I’m feeling relieved. I just want to play basketball. I just want Coach to be happy with me.

“It’s been a strange situation for all of us. Listen. How about this? I’m going to step out of the room for a few minutes and see if you two can work something out,” Coach says, and then he does just that.

Boy21 and I stand in silence for what seems like a long time.

I can hear the squeaking of sneakers on the court and the girls’ coach yelling about hard work. The office smells of sweat and leather—like an old baseball glove. It’s pretty dusty too.

I’m sort of pissed about being put in this position. Isn’t it Coach’s job to make sure everyone’s on the same page? And he just leaves the room?

Eventually Boy21 says, “I don’t want to ruin your senior season, Finley. I don’t even care about basketball anymore.”

I don’t know what to say, so I say nothing.

Coach yelling at me during practice messed with my head, and I still feel a little out of sorts, even though I realize Boy21 basically lied to him. But I’m not mad at Boy21 at all. I’ve never met anyone who would cease doing what they are best at just so I could do it. I don’t think I’d stop playing basketball for
anyone.

“And I can’t play unless I’m number twenty-one. I have to be twenty-one. That’s just the way it is,” he says.

“Why?” I ask.

“My father was number twenty-one in high school, and he’s monitoring me from outer space. I promised I’d always wear number twenty-one for him, so long as I played ball. And now that he’s on a spaceship so far away, I feel like it’s more important than ever—but if I don’t play basketball this year, I won’t have to worry about numbers at all. Which is good, because you’re already number twenty-one, and you’re my best Earthling friend. I could just root for you from the stands, which could be a lot of fun. I could sit with your dad and Pop and we could cheer you on until I leave this planet. And I think Mom and Dad will be coming soon to take me into outer space, so what’s the point of me playing basketball anyway?”

I look into Russell’s eyes. He’s fighting back tears. I wonder if he really thinks his parents are on a spaceship or if he’s just using
space as some sort of shield—as a layer of words that allows him to express himself honestly almost in camouflage, as strange as that sounds.

Something is going on. It’s like Boy21’s giving me clues by making up stories about outer space.

Why?

This is the first I’ve heard Russ talk about outer space since we watched the space shuttle launch on my roof to mark his birthday.

If he’s as good as Coach says he is, I know what’s best for the team, and I’ve always put myself second for the team. That’s what good basketball players do.

I think I know what’s best for Russell.

I think about what good friends do.

I take off my number 21 practice jersey and toss it to Boy21.

He catches it and says, “Finley, if I take this, if I start to play basketball to the best of my abilities—especially if I use my extraterrestrial powers—there’s no way that you can beat me out for the position of point guard. You’ll have absolutely no shot.”

“We’ll see about that,” I say.

“You have to promise me that you’ll be my friend regardless. I need you to be my friend. Please promise me.”

“I’m your friend no matter what happens.” I mean it.

“I’ll hold back for as long as I can, but eventually, I won’t be able to control myself,” he says. “When I play basketball, something inside of me changes. It’s just the way I’m programmed.”

“I don’t want you to hold back.” If he’s going to take my spot, he at least owes it to me not to hold back. I want to win or lose it fair and square.

When Boy21 doesn’t say anything in response, I say, “Do you really believe that your parents are coming in a spaceship to take you away?”

“Yes. Early in the new year, most likely, but it’s hard to tell because Mom and Dad are not using Earthling calendars anymore, since they no longer reside in this solar system. Your calendar is based solely on the Earth’s rotation around the sun. Once you pass Pluto, your Earth calendars are meaningless.”

“But you’re still not going to talk about outer space with our teammates, right?”

“They’ll know I’m not human when they see me play basketball,” he says. “I won’t be able to keep it a secret, because my skills are…
otherworldly.
”

I nod slowly, waiting for Boy21 to start laughing, for Coach to come running in with the rest of the team, pointing at me and howling at the elaborate practical joke, but that doesn’t happen.

These words coming out of any other boy’s mouth would sound like hyperbole or plain old trash talk, but Boy21 is dead serious. It’s not even like he’s proud of his skills. He’s willing to hide his ability as if it were something to be ashamed of.

“You believe me, right, Finley? You believe I’m going back up into the cosmos with my parents. You of all people,” he says.

I nod. “Do you mind if I talk to Coach alone?”

“Okay.”

He leaves and Coach shuts the door behind him.

“I’m sorry I doubted you, Finley,” Coach says. “The situation has been hard on me. His father was a good friend of mine, so I feel a certain sense of—”