Bound by Fate (Moon Bound Series Book 1) (20 page)

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It’s not hard when you reach my age, child.  I’ve seen it all and am rarely impressed.”  She continued her hemming of a pair of ladies pants, her deft fingers moving swiftly, belying her age.

Marybell listened to the conversation with a dispassionate ear, sipping occasionally from her tea cup. 

“I need to know everything you know about being Bound.”

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We wondered when you’d get around to that,” Marybell spoke for the first time.  “What do you want to know, Beth?”

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Everything.”

“
Everything is a lot, child,” Margo quipped.  “Be specific, unless you want to be still sitting here at supper time tomorrow.”

The heat in the little house worked its fiery fingers into the chill along her spine, and eased her concerns from her dry mouth.  She poured herself another cup of tea and settled in to tell the story for the second time today.  Both women listened, interrupting occasionally to clarify a point or ask a question.  Neither one judged prematurely nor told her how stupid they no doubt thought she was. 

“It’s no wonder you’re in a muddle,” Marybell announced with an air of sympathetic grace that Bradley had severely lacked.  “Here you are, little more than a child, knowing less than most children of this pack, dealing with issues best left to the adults.”

“
Hush, Marybell,” Margo admonished.  “She doesn’t need to hear all that right now.  What she needs is confirmation that her present Bonded will not be harmed when the Bond is broken.”

Beth nodded eagerly.  “That,” announced Marybell.  “Unfortunately, we cannot give you.”

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When one is Bound,” explained Margo, her face wrinkling in distaste.  “It rarely unwinds by itself, as our Alpha would have you believe.” 

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Rather,” continued Marybell.  “It fades, turns sour and recedes to the most inner-recesses of the heart.  But,” she frowned in sympathy.  “It doesn’t just go away.  Ever.”

“
So the Bond can’t be broken.”  Her heart hurt.  She was forever chained to Gareth.  Oh what a tangled web she’d weaved that night on the banks of her creek.

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Now we didn’t say that,” Margo rushed to correct Beth, white head shaking from side to side.  “It can be broken.  But, like anything else that’s broken by sheer force of will, it will not be pleasant.”

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It could be downright dangerous!” Marybell added, her eyes following her stitches in deep concentration.

“
Marybell has the right of it, child.”  Margo sighed.  Laying her hemming aside, she folded her arms and gestured for Beth to pour from the pot of tea sitting by the fire.

Beth filled three cups as Margo spoke, her hushed tones lending gravity to her claims.  “When a Bond is forged, it is usually for life.  But there are times when for one reason or another, the ties must be severed.”

Marybell opened her mouth and drew breath.  To say what, Beth couldn’t guess; Margo hushed her violently, with censure in her eyes.  “When this happens, it is usually a mutual decision.  Some matings just aren’t right.  And even then, when both parties want out, it can be dangerous.  It depends on the strength of feeling to begin with, and strength of will.”  The old woman took a slurp of her tea, regarding Beth over the rim of the delicate china cup. 

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Sometimes it works as hoped.”  Marybell nodded agreement.  “Sometimes it doesn’t work at all.  Sometimes, one or both parties get heartsick,” she explained softly.  “And they never get heartwell again, understand?”

“
No,” Beth whispered. 
Heartsick?
  Her head felt woozy.

“
Sometimes the Bond is simply supposed to be there,” clarified Marybell.  “Fate, Divine Intervention – call it what you will.  But when you get heartsick, and a bad case of it, you never recover.  Wolves with heartsickness retreat into a world of their own.  A world full of pain and mistrust.  A world where nothing is as they wished it would be.  A world they don’t want to be in.”

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And then,” Margo whispered sadly.  “When they can’t stand it anymore, they assume their wolf-form and withdraw from civilization, fading from the world, becoming the wolf forever.”

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So they turn feral?  Never again to assume human-form?”

“
There’s only been one that we ever knew to come back from the brink,” Marybell whispered, eyes flitting to Margo for signs of censure.  “And he left his heart there.”

“
So you see, child,” Margo concluded.  “It is a wager on a death sentence.”

Crestfallen, Beth nodded twice slowly, sipping once again from her cup.  This tea was wonderful.  It made everything seem clear.  All she had to do was never mate with another male, suffer in silence and convince Donovan to do the same.  And then everyone was, not happy, but alive and healthy. 

“How many teas have you had, dear?” Margo inquired, with concern.

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A few.  Five, perhaps?”

“
Oh dear,” muttered Marybell. 

“
You don’t want to be drinking any more of that, dear,” Margo told her, removing the cup from her fingertips.  “It’s laced with my own infusion of herbs.”

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No wonder I feel so calm while my life is falling apart,” Beth laughed uproariously.  She had no idea what was so funny, but something sure was.

“
It’s a calming tea, dear.  A sedative.”  Margo snorted and laughed, finishing off with a good hearty cough.  “And will have you asleep in less than ten minutes if you’ve drank that much.”

“
Oh dear,” Beth laughed.  “No Bonding for me tonight, then.  Just as well, really.  I don’t want Gareth to die, even though he’s an ass.”

Both ladies snorted with laughter this time, and Beth, in good spirits for the first time all day, joined them.

“Fetch one of the boys,” Margo instructed Marybell.  “One of the good ones,” she emphasized.  “One who’ll help her home to bed.”

“
Can’t I just hide out in here for a while longer?”

“
No dear,” Marybell’s voice wavered in and out like a dream.  “You’ll be missed, and we can’t be accused of drugging you,” she whispered with a wink that seemed to make several eyes sprout on her forehead. 

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Too late, I’m afraid,” Beth chuckled.  “Evil old biddies, drugging me.  Poor Donovan won’t get his way with me tonight!”

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Tsk.”  That was Margo, she thought.  “Impudent child.”  She said this good natured.  “Time for bed, my dear.  Go, Mary.”

“Hey, who’re you?”

“
I’m Mickey, remember?  We met yesterday, although I can’t say we got so close then.”  His yellow eyes twinkled in the moon light.  How long had she been in the weaving house drinking that concoction for?  Long enough to tell her story and get some sort of straight answers, she supposed.

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Ooooh, I remember you.”  She tapped the end of his nose with her index finger.  It took three tries; her hands didn’t appear to want to work in her favor right now.  “You have owl eyes.  Pretty.”

“
Why thank you, ma’am,” he drawled.  “Any more of that and you’ll have one more admirer in this pack.”

They were walking across the clearing toward the Alpha’s house, Mickey supporting Beth like a drunk and half walking, half carrying her toward the door.  “One more?”

“Made quite the impression on some of our males here, you did, Miss.  Seems there’s a fan club starting up soon.”  He smiled down at her, and it was so kind that she almost start blubbering on his shoulder. 

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You should tell them I’m not half as nice as they think I am.  I’m quite devious, actually.”

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Now, I don’t believe that for a second,” he told her, hoisting her up the steps.  “Butter wouldn’t melt in your mouth,” he surmised, laughing while propping her against the door frame.

“
You’re laughing at me?”

“
Yes, ma’am.  A fine sight you are.  Legs akimbo, slumped over on your own doorstep.”

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Oh.”  When had she fallen?

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Give me your hand and I’ll get you inside,” he said, holding out one callused hand.  They were rough and scratchy on her palm, and she longed for Gareth’s hand in hers.  Afraid she’d start to sniffle again, she allowed him to help her inside and, with some assistance from the balustrade, managed to get her to the foot of her bed, where she curled up in the fetal position and murmured a sleepy thank you before the door clicked and she was at last, alone.

“Beth?”

She was floating on a pink corduroy cloud, trying to catch a flake of blue snow on the tip of her tongue.  Perfectly at ease, and then the voice interrupted her once again.

“Beth?  Hey, darling one.”

“
Wha…”

“
There you are.  I thought you were out for the count,” Gareth told her.  Only it wasn’t Gareth’s voice.  It was Donovan's voice in Gareth’s mouth.  She laughed.  Both of her mates rolled into one.  “C’mere,” she muttered, trying unsuccessfully to clear away the cobwebs from her brain.  “Kiss me.”

Warm and moist, his lips met hers and she drank from them, greedily pulling at the lapels on his jacket.  “Missed you…”

“Missed you too,” he murmured between kisses.  “If I’d known I’d get this sort of reception, I’d spend more time away.”

“
No,” she barked into his mouth.  “No away.”

“
No,” he agreed, spreading fire through her body with his lips.  They trailed from her lips to her cheek and the lobe of her ear, earning a sharp yip when he bit down.  He stretched out on the bed beside her, and she could feel the difference in his body.  It wasn’t as lean and chiseled as it was in real life.  She didn’t care.  She just didn’t want to wake up.

“
More,” she whispered frantically, combing her fingers through his hair, directing his head lower. 

He obliged by lifting the hem of her tee shirt and running his hot tongue up her stomach, across her ribs, right to the spot she wanted him.  At the first touch of his tongue on her nipple she cried out.  At the second, she moaned, and when he took it into his mouth and sucked hard and harder, she sobbed with relief, knowing that even more was around the corner.

“Mmm,” she moaned.  “Feels so good.”

“
You’re telling me,” he paused to say.  She liked this new infusion of Gareth and Donovan.  She would call him Garovan and love him forever and ever and never wake up.

The room seemed to swirl in rhythm with his tongue on her sensitive nipple, and that suited her just fine.  It seemed only right that her dream world should be rocked on its heels as they joined. 

“Clothes should disappear,” she suggested, fully expecting them to, and frowning in disappointment when they didn’t.

“
I agree,” Garovan told her huskily.  “And that is exactly why I’m going to make them disappear.”

“
Ah, good.”  Now it made sense.  He would make their clothes disappear and then they would love each other slowly. 
Or not,
she thought as he ripped her tee shirt down the middle and pulled the ragged remains from her arms. 

Maybe they’d love each other fast and furious first, and get around to slowly in time.  Perhaps it was just right that they love each other quickly.  She could wake up any moment, after all. 

His mouth worked her tight buds frantically, lapping at them as a cat would a bowl of cream.  She moaned and writhed, sobbing for more, faster.  “I want this to be good for you, Beth,” Garovan whispered.  “So good.  But I’m not going to last very long.”

“
I don’t care,” she replied, guiding his hand to the button on her jeans.  “Just…please.”

With a long growl, he snapped open her jeans and ripped them down her legs, taking the panties with them.  He stopped briefly to remove her shoes, and she almost wept.  “Better?” he asked, running a hand up her bare leg, to the junction of her thighs.

“Much,” she approved, and let him know so by wriggling when his hand slowed.  “More.”

“
I’ll give you more,” he growled, stripping himself of his own clothes. 

By now, the ceiling had come down to meet them where they were twisting on the bed together.  She laughed at it, and tried to explain, but just then, Garovan put his mouth where his hand was, and all thought fled out the window, which was laughing at her.

“Ohhhh!”

“
You like that, hmm?”

“
Yes,” she replied raggedly.  “Oh yes.”

In seconds she was frenziedly pulling at his hair, and begging him not to stop.  She was going to detonate and bring the entire dream world down on them, but she was beyond caring.  She was not Beth anymore.  He wasn’t Gareth, or Donovan, or Garovan.  He was simply the beating of her blood, the pounding of her heart, and the pulsing of her secret nub.  His tongue swept across it one last time and she came on a scream.