Bonds of Denial (29 page)

“…this will be the centerpiece of the national campaign that we’ll be taking to the Pentagon and Congress…”

Carter swayed on his feet, and someone grabbed his arm to hold him steady. He sought out Rock in complete disbelief. He was looking right back at him, sure and direct.

Why?
Carter mouthed.

Rock only smiled, a faint curl of his lips that really said nothing. Then he was moving onto the stage to the rousing applause of the crowd.

“You still with us?” Tyler asked, giving Carter a shake.

Physically, he was there, but reality was skewed. He moved his head in a slow shake that confirmed how lost he was.

“I asked Leslie if I could take a moment to say a few words,” Rock said clearly. His deep voice rolled from the speakers and seemed to wrap around Carter as he stared back at Rock. The man hadn’t looked away from him since he’d started speaking. “I wouldn’t be standing here today, let alone have the courage to not only take that picture but have it published and displayed to the world if it wasn’t for a man who is much stronger than me. I may be a soldier, but Carter Montgomery is the one who showed me what strength really is.”

Carter blinked a few times, the burning in his throat and eyes threatening to counter Rock’s words and show everyone how weak he really was.

“I spent thirty-four years denying and hiding who I was.” A breath. A small sniff. He glanced down then brought his gaze back up to meet Carter’s. “I hadn’t realized how unhappy I was until you showed me how happy I could be. I love you, Carter. Thank you.”

Rock stepped back from the podium, and Carter found himself moving forward, pulled to Rock. The crowd separated to let him through. The applause was like thunder around him, but it hardly registered. All he knew was Rock. The amazing man standing on stage, openly declaring to the world that he was gay. The same man who couldn’t even say the word four months ago.

That was strength and courage personified to the nth degree. If Rock could do that, then Carter certainly could meet him there.

He reached Rock and didn’t even pause to think or question his next move. He pulled Rock to him and lost himself in a kiss that didn’t come close to expressing the rush of emotions pounding within him, but he tried anyway.

Everything hit him at once. The sweet taste, the distinct scent, the solid form and firm
hold of his man. It was his lover, boyfriend and the man who had somehow become his world.

He eased back, seeing no one but Rock.

“I love you.” The words tumbled out, filling the darkness that had held a place within him for so long. Why had he not said those words before? “God, I love you so much.” He claimed another kiss before Rock could speak.

He wanted more—hell, he wanted to strip the man naked and show him exactly how much he loved him. Luckily, Rock had more sense than him. Rock ended the kiss with a series of soft withdrawals before he moved back just enough to rest his forehead against Carter’s.

“It’s about time you realized that,” he said.

“I’ve known for a long time. I just now have the courage to trust it.”

“Are you ready to face the world now?”

Carter nodded, his head rubbing against Rock’s. “Yeah. With you I am.”

“Good. Because we kind of have an audience.”

Carter gave a small laugh and together they turned to another round of applause, a few catcalls and whistle from the line of friends along the wall and too many camera flashes to count. He grabbed Rock’s hand, a smile hurting his cheeks as he knew without question that he could do this.

With Rock—he could have the future he never thought possible. They both would—he’d make sure of that.

Rock leaned against the front door, taking a moment to appreciate the man he loved. The word eased everything inside of him and left a smile on his face. He’d never imagined he could be this happy.

Never.

Carter loosened his tie and turned around. His brows lowered when he saw Rock watching him, but a smile followed, a slow curl that had his groin tightening. Somehow he’d managed to keep his touches decent during the rest of the art show. But now, there was no need to hold back.

Carter stalked toward him, his focus burning into him to sear Rock’s heart. “Thank you,” Carter whispered. He ran a finger down Rock’s scar, the touch so light Rock barely felt it skimming along his jaw. “I don’t know how I got so lucky.”

“Neither do I,” Rock answered, but he was done questioning it.

“Did you do that for me? The picture?” Carter searched Rock’s eyes.

“I did it for both of us.”

“It’s a good thing we found each other, isn’t it?”

“Yes,” Rock murmured as he leaned in to kiss the lips he’d been holding himself back from all evening. It was like coming home and yeah, he was a total sap. He didn’t care. The certainty that this was exactly where he was supposed to be settled through him.

He shifted back, a grin forming. “No mint.”

Carter gave a soft laugh. “I forgot them.”

“I like it.” Rock kissed him again, savoring the deep heat and lingering sweetness of champagne. “I missed this. You,” he finally said when they came up for air.

“Me too.” Carter grazed his fingers over Rock’s face, his eyes tracking the movement. “I was certain you’d walk away.”

“I’ll always come back for you.” Always.

“I’m so sorry,” he said, squeezing his eyes closed. “If I could take that night back, I would. I’ve never been ashamed of myself until that night.” The remorse was etched on every feature from the scrunched brow to the clenched lips.

“I love you,” Rock whispered, holding him close. He inhaled and Carter’s scent filled him. “Show me how it should be.” He wanted it. They needed it.

Carter stepped back, opening his eyes, searching.

Rock put every ounce of belief he had into his voice. “We need to put it in the past.”

“God, I love you. I don’t know how I got you, but I am never pushing you away again.”

The fierceness in Carter’s voice had Rock believing him but he still asked, “Promise?”

“Forever.”

He linked his fingers with Carter’s and together they made their way to his bedroom. The light of the moon showed them the way until he could turn on the bedside lamp. They undressed each other, removing clothing in a slow dance of lingering kisses, lazy touches and quiet gasps. Every action was a new beginning, a fresh start that wiped away the pain and wrongs of that one night.

“Lay down,” Carter urged, walking him backward until he hit the bed.

Rock gratefully complied, making sure to pull Carter with him as he went. “I don’t think I’ll ever get enough of you.”

“I know I won’t,” Carter said as he pressed a kiss to Rock’s chest, his fingers scratching
through the hair. “I’ll never stop wanting you.” Another kiss. “Needing you.” Another kiss, lower. “Loving you.”

The next kiss landed on Rock’s erection. He swirled his tongue around and around the head, teasing and tempting before sucking it deep. Rock rolled up, his abs clenching against the shot of pleasure that sailed down his dick to his balls.

He sagged back to the mattress, panting. “Yeah. Never enough.” His eyes wanted to close, but he wouldn’t let them. Watching Carter love him was too perfect to miss. He raked his fingers through Carter’s hair and held on, following the bob-and-glide motion without forcing.

Carter took him all the way in, the head of his dick nudging against the back of the man’s throat. Rock almost lost it when the constricting motion of Carter’s swallow rippled over his sensitive flesh.
Damn
.

Rock yanked on Carter’s hair, his voice gone. Thankfully, Carter understood. He pulled off, a wicked grin matching the devil in his eyes. “Problem?”

His smirk was fucking gorgeous. This was the man he’d fallen in love with. Rock sat up, hauling Carter to him for another scorching kiss. His tongue tangled with Carter’s in an aggressive onslaught of everything that was bursting free within him.

The need for air forced him to pull back, but he rained kisses down Carter’s neck, across his shoulder, everywhere that he could reach. The taste of salt and skin and everything Carter was driving him insane.

“Make love to me,” he begged, his voice rasping in need.

Carter eased him back until Rock was lying down again. He held himself over him, his eyes dark in the soft light from the lamp. “I always have,” Carter whispered.

The blazing truth of his words nailed Rock. “God, yes.” From the very first time, it’d been more. They’d both danced around it, avoiding the word and what they’d been building. Not anymore.

Carter kissed him again, hard and thorough before he reached for the supplies. There was nothing but anticipation within Rock. He lifted his legs and held himself open for his lover. Carter groaned as he dove down to nuzzle his balls.

“Damn,” Rock mumbled around an exhale. His grip on the back of his thighs was so tight he’d probably have bruises tomorrow. He didn’t care.

The touch around his opening was gentle, circling and nudging before a finger finally slipped inside. He groaned. “God. More.”

“I don’t want to hurt you,” Carter said, kissing the inside of Rock’s thigh as he worked another finger into him.

“You won’t,” Rock insisted. He sucked in a breath when Carter added a third finger, his tight ring of muscles resisting in the best way. It made no sense, but he loved the burn. His cock twitched on his stomach, a silent cry for more. “Just get in me.”

It seemed like forever before Carter positioned himself at Rock’s entrance. He leaned over, staring directly into Rock’s eyes as he slowly pushed his way in. So much emotion was displayed in Carter’s eyes that Rock almost came right then.

“I love you,” Carter said when he was fully within Rock. His breath cooled the dampness on Rock’s neck with each deep exhale.

Rock released his legs and wrapped them around Carter so he could grab his man and yank him down until they were touching everywhere, fully connected in every way. The kiss was brief but powerful before he pulled away, gasping.

“You have to move. God. Please.” He rolled his hips as much as he could, seeking
the motion that would ease the demand hammering through his blood with his racing pulse. The pressure filled him, then Carter withdrew to plunge back in, and the pleasure slammed into him. This, yes this was what he needed.

Carter held his gaze through each thrust and drive, which only drove their connection deeper. The slap of skin, the uncontained sounds that came from both of them, the musky scent of sex and arousal wrapped around them until Carter was everything. His only thing.

His orgasm rose too quickly, the craving seeming to tangle in his groin until he fought to contain it. His dick slid between their bodies, ready to go off without his permission.

“I don’t want…” He sucked in a breath, his restraint tested when Carter shifted angles and hit his gland. “To come,” he panted.

“Do it,” Carter said, hammering harder. “Grab your dick and come.”

Rock didn’t need to be told twice. He pushed his hand between them and fisted his hard cock with a groan. Carter nailed the spot again, and his fist flew over his dick until his orgasm roared through him.

“Come with me,” he managed to grind out before his ability to talk vanished. His free hand clutched Carter’s nape, keeping him connected as he lost himself to the pleasure. The force drew every muscle tight, his release shooting between them in powerful bursts.

Carter tensed above him, his hips grinding into Rock’s ass, back arching in his quest to get closer. His hoarse, garbled, open-mouthed cry was almost identical to Rock’s.

The rush finally passed and Carter collapsed onto him, their panting breaths competing for air. He bound Carter to him, his legs and arms wrapping around his man in a desire to never let him go.

“I love you,” he said between breaths. He’d never said that so much in his life, but he’d never wanted to before now.

“I love hearing that,” Carter mumbled into Rock’s neck.

“Good. ’Cause I’m going to keep saying it until you believe me.”

Carter shifted until he could see Rock. “I do. There’s no way what we just did is anything but love.” The tender kiss skimmed over Rock’s lips. “I’ll never stop loving you.”

Those were the best words Rock had ever heard. “I’ll hold you to that.”

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