Bluefish

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PAT SCHMATZ

Copyright © 2011 by Pat Schmatz

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First edition 2011

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data 11 12 13 14 15 16 TK 10 9

8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

Printed in TK, TK, U.S.A.

This book was typeset in Warnock.

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Travis stood in front of locker number 78. The clatter and bang and yammering voices pounded at the back of his head. He started the combination, slowly spinning the dial. Seventeen . . . back to the left . . . KaBLAM! Something hit the locker next to his head and sent a jolt through him. He whirled, fists up and fight juice flooding. A shoe landed on the floor next to him, new white leather with a dark- blue swoosh on the heel.

Travis took a shaky breath in and out and wiped his hands on his pants. He picked up the shoe and looked around.

The hall was full of kids talking, laughing, slamming lockers, and heading toward class, but nobody so much as looked his way. Seemed like the shoe had thumped out of thin air.

Travis leaned against the locker and held the shoe sole- to- sole against his own. It was a size or three smaller and made his ratty Converse edged with swamp mud look like something he'd dug out of a Dumpster.

A head bobbed down the hall toward him, dipping with a one- shoe walk. The guy was small, and Travis figured him for a seventh- grader, maybe even sixth.

He had deep brown skin and hair cropped too short to kink, and he carried a nice new over-the-shoulder book bag. He was very tucked in and tidy except for his shoeless left foot. His right foot wore a new white Nike.

Travis waited until the kid passed, then edged up behind him. When he got close enough, he bumped the shoe into the kid's hand. The kid spun around, brown eyes big and mouth open to show a bundle of braces. Travis hustled on past, weaving into the crowd. If it were him, he wouldn't want to have a big chat. He'd just want his shoe back.

First period, Travis settled into a seat on the outside row, halfway back. Social studies, Ms. Gordon. She read down the roll call, made it through to the Ws, called

"Vida," and then tripped all over a last name.

"It's Would- ja- husky," said the girl behind Travis. "My public calls me Velveeta."

"Think cheap cheese," called a tall guy across the room.

"Ms. Gordon, you should know: Chad's kind a damaged," said Velveeta. "He repeats the same jokes over and over. I think it's a condition, but we don't talk about it."

"Shut up, Cheap Cheese." Chad flipped her the bird behind a raised palm.

"All right, enough." Ms. Gordon closed the roll book.

"Chad Cormick, come on up here and pass out the textbooks."

Chad dumped a text on Travis's desk as he passed by. It landed with a thud.

Heavy. Dense. Travis folded his arms across his chest and dropped his chin.

Another school year. No way out.

He slogged through a couple of hours of first- day science and math, the air pressing in hotter and heavier, the walls closing around him. Fourth period was a short one, only thirty minutes. He had reading in Room 134. He hadn't had reading as a separate class since fifth grade.

He stopped in the doorway of the classroom. The entire back wall of the room was a built- in bookshelf, loaded with books. Bookshelves lined the opposite wall.

No windows. The ceiling looked lower, the walls closer, than in the other rooms.

Travis backed out, dropped his pencil and notebook in his locker and headed for the double doors and the rays of sunlight. He pushed the door open, feet moving without stopping.

He turned left, crossed the asphalt parking lot, and headed out of town. When the sidewalk ended and he was walking on gravel beside the road, he looked over his shoulder. The school building squatted behind him, spread out beyond the cars, too far away to reach out and drag him back.

Travis had run away from school the first day Grandpa left him off at kindergarten, and three more times after that. The fourth time, he got smart and hid in a culvert, so they didn't find him for a few hours. They had to bring the sheriff in, and then Grandpa didn't think it was funny anymore.

You ditch out of school again, and the dog sleeps outside.

Travis hadn't ditched again. Until now. Rosco was gone, so why not?

At the county highway, he took a left, toward the old place. It was more than twenty miles away, but soft white clouds puffed across the clear blue overhead, and a light wind lifted his hair. He untucked his shirt, and the breeze cooled the sweat on his back. A car vroomed by, and a crow hollered from the other side of the road. His feet kept moving, his arms swinging, his body so relieved to be out of the school building that it was worth whatever came after.

Travis had been walking for a long time when the truck crawled up behind him.

He knew it was Grandpa without turning to look. Not just the familiar sound of the engine, but the feel of it, the slowing down of it, the ready- to-pounce of it.

Grandpa pulled over, got out, and slammed the door.

From the corner of his eye, Travis watched Grandpa stalk across the road. He got ready for Grandpa to step in front of him, shove him back. Then Travis would hit out like he used to in kindergarten, and Grandpa would laugh and slap Travis's hands away like pesky flies.

Only it wouldn't go like that, not anymore. Grandpa knew it, because he didn't step in front of Travis. Instead, he walked alongside, pulling a cigarette out of his shirt pocket.

"Where do you think you're going?" he asked as he lit up.

"Nowhere."

"I can't be leaving work to babysit you."

"So don't." Travis kept walking.

Grandpa grabbed him by the back of his shirt and pulled. Travis went with it, swinging around to face Grandpa, getting a faceful of smoke.

"That hound is not going to be waiting on the porch for you. He's gone, and we don't live there anymore."

Travis turned away from the smoke. He looked out across the fresh- cut hay field on his right. The hay lay in clumps, ready to be baled. Soft. The smell surrounded them. Travis tried to stop the sneeze coming on - he didn't want to give Grandpa that much. He turned away as it blew out of him, breaking the silence.

"Get in the truck." Grandpa flicked his cigarette butt on the ground. "Unless you know someone else who's going to buy your food and put a roof over your head."

And because Travis didn't know anyone like that, he followed Grandpa across the road and got in.

on TUESDAY

Hey, Calvin. Hi. I'm in your trailer. When I got home from school, Buttf ace Jimmy's truck was in the drive, so I came over like always and slipped my key into the keyhole and expected it not to work, but you know what? It slid right in.

The door opened.

Everything's exactly the same except for how much you're not here. The empty air in this trailer weighs eighty trillion tons, and it's jumping up and down on my lungs like an elephant on a trampoline. But that beats my creepy brother's wide- alive air any day. I'm going to stay here until he leaves.

Today was the first day of school. The madre was going to give me some money for school supplies, but guess what, she forgot. If you weren't dead, you would've bought me a three- ring binder and a protractor and a calculator.

Your trailer is still the safest and best place I know. Nobody knows I'm here. If you were here, you'd make me do homework. But you're not here. So who's doing homework? Not me.

The next day, fourth period, Travis walked into Room 134. He looked around, not knowing if they'd been assigned seats the day before.

Everyone else was dropping papers on the podium as they came in. A short, round balding guy with glasses came out of his office at the front of the room, spotted Travis, and walked over.

"Travis Roberts?" he rumbled in the deepest voice Travis had ever heard.

He nodded, and the teacher stuck out a hand.

"Owen McQueen."

His skin was soft, but his grip was hard.

"You can sit there." He pointed to a seat halfway up the first row. "Yesterday you missed my dramatic reading of Billy Collins's poetry, but there'll be more.

You also missed your first assignment, a one- pager on the best thing you've ever read in your life. Turn that in tomorrow, please." McQueen. What a name.

He probably got called Queenie when he was a kid, especially if he'd been short and round then, too. But his voice - that was something different.

"Thank you all for your fine papers. I can't wait to read them." McQueen stepped to the front of the room.

"I'm supposed to teach you how to take the standardized reading tests so you won't be the child left behind.

But because I'm subversive" - he turned and wrote the word on the board as he talked - "(look it up if you don't know what it means, and it will be on the vocabulary test next week), I'm actually going to try to teach you a passion for the written word. Emily Frasher, roll your eyes again in my classroom, and severe castigation will be the inexorable result." He wrote two more words on the board, then turned to face the class. "Between now and the ring of the bell in twenty- two minutes, you are to pick a book from the library wall. Then start reading."

"Mr. McQueen, what if we're already reading something? Can we use that, or does it have to be a book from the wall?"

It was the no- shoe kid, sitting up in the front corner. He was either a grade skipper or a really, really little eighth- grader.

"Excellent question, Bradley Whistler. You may read any piece of literature."

"Define literature," called a girl behind Travis.

"I'll tell you what, Rachel: you define literature. All of you. On Friday, please turn in a one- paragraph definition of literature. No copying from Wikipedia. Plagiarism" -he scrawled on the board again - "will have the same result as not turning the paper in - an F. Mean while, start reading, and if you can make a case for it being literature, that works for me. Okay, books. Go."

Everyone crowded to the back wall. Travis stayed in his seat until the rush cleared. Then he walked over with his hands in his pockets. The rows were messy, leaning this way and that where books had been plucked out.

Paperbacks slid off stacks on the bottom shelf, showing some covers. On one, a fox ran across a snow- covered field. Travis picked up the raggedy book and looked more closely.

A tiny hound in the distance of the picture ran behind the fox.

When Travis turned around, he almost bumped into the Velveeta girl who sat behind him in first- period social studies.

"Oops, sorry," she said. "I almost ran you over in my rush to get a book. I bet you took the one I wanted."

He handed it to her. One was as good as another.

"Oh, no, no," she said, waving her hands. "That's not the one I want. I'm sure there's something here that can make me" - she dropped her voice, trying to shove it down as low as McQueen' s - "develop a passion for the written word."

She wore a filmy, shimmery scarf wrapped around her gray hoodie, all July-sky blues and deep pine greens.

The colors hit Travis like a fresh breath in and out. The girl stepped around him and tilted her head, flicking book spines one at a time with her middle finger as she moved down the row.

"Need help choosing, Velveeta?" Mr. McQueen came up behind her.

"Don't rush me," she said. "Too important to rush."

"Are you a Kjelgaard fan?" McQueen asked, turning to Travis.

Travis shook his head, having no idea what McQueen was talking about.

"The book." He pointed to the fox cover. "Kjelgaard. If you like this one, he's written a lot more. All animals, all outdoors, all the time."

"Oh," said Travis, backing away. "Okay."

He went back to his seat, opened the book, and stared at the first page.

At lunchtime, Travis used his magic plastic card to buy his free lunch: a burger and fries and a cookie. He took the tray to a table in the back corner and sat down. He was about three bites in when a voice came up behind him.

"Hey, mind if I sit here?"

He shook his head, and Velveeta set her tray down across from him.

"Where'd you go yesterday?" she asked. "You were there first period, then gone.

Did you puke? Have to go home?"

"No," said Travis. "Had something I had to do."

"Evasive answer. I like that."

She tore open a packet of ketchup and drew a red smiley face on her burger.

Then she opened a mustard and added yellow eyebrows and a mustache.

"So what's your story?" she asked.

"What story?"

"Yours. Everybody's got one. You're new. What's yours?"

"No story." He squeezed ketchup on his fries.