Authors: Tim Winton
Abel and his mother went ashore to wait for trouble. But trouble never came. Once or twice they saw the mirror flash of binoculars upon them, but fairly soon the compressor started up again and Costello and his offsider went back to stripping the reef bare, as though nothing could keep them from business. Plenty of abalone came to the surface but no speared fish, and, to Abel's great relief, no huge blue groper. Old Blueback stayed holed up, nursing his sore head, safe from spears.
Then, quite abruptly, at four o'clock, a Fisheries patrol boat swung in around the headland and skated across Longboat Bay. It ran alongside Costello's boat and three officers boarded her. Half an hour later the abalone boat left Robbers Head at the end of a tow rope with a cloud of gulls off her stern. As it steamed out onto the open sea, the patrol boat let off a blast of its horn that echoed all the way into the forest.
For the rest of that summer, Blueback kept clear of Abel's mother. Costello's fines cost him his licence and put him out of business. Abel was a little disappointed that he had never met the man. It would have been thrilling to come face to face with a real life villain.
But a couple of weeks after the Costello business, Abel got to know enough about the man to know he never wanted to meet him after all.
A huge tiger shark swam into the bay. Abel took his boat out to see the thing swimming sluggishly up and down the beach. His mother stayed ashore; she said she never wanted to see a tiger shark again as long as she lived. Abel couldn't blame her but his curiosity got the better of him.
The shark looked wrinkled and flabby when it should have been thick and powerful as a tree. It wasn't hard to see why. Everywhere it went it towed a big red buoy on a length of chain. It had a stainless steel meat hook in its jaws and it swam like a ghost of itself. The shark couldn't dive without being defeated by the buoy and dragged painfully back to the surface. The day it was hooked it would have dragged it underwater for hours but now its strength was gone and every turn of its head, every kick of the tail was agony. The buoy dragged behind like a ball on a chain. The tiger shark was starving to death and dying of exhaustion. It was a pitiful sight and it sickened Abel. If he'd had a gun he would have pulled alongside and shot it through the head to end its suffering. There was no way he could save the shark now, even if he could cut it free.
So Abel watched the shark all afternoon. In the end he came ashore and watched it from the jetty. It swam feebly up and down, restless with its terrible agony. That night he sat on the verandah and saw moonlight flash on the dragging buoy which made a miserable sparkling wake on the still water.
In the morning the tiger shark was dead. The tide left it stiff and leathery on the beach and Abel turned the red buoy over in his hands to see the name stencilled on the side. COSTELLO.
He towed the shark out to sea, replaced the buoy with some lead weights and cut it free. It sailed down into the black deep like a torpedoed ship.
Abel went back to school in the new year feeling older, different. That summer he learnt that there was nothing in nature as cruel and savage as a greedy human being.
In his high school years, Abel Jackson felt like he was holding his breath. It was like diving, only not nearly as much fun. From the moment he left Longboat Bay at the beginning of every semester, something inside him took a deep breath and held on until he got back. Like a good diver he taught himself to relax, to resist panic, to believe he had the strength to do what he needed to do.
During those years he wondered if his mother would marry again. It didn't seem right that she should live out on the coast alone. She was still beautiful and strong. Men liked her and looked up to her but she seemed to fend them off like friendly puppies. Secretly, Abel knew that he wouldn't like to go home to find someone else, a strange man, in his life. Still, he did want her to be happy. But Dora Jackson, his mother, never married again.
It was during these years that the developers came to Longboat Bay. They were businessmen and councillors in suits and BMWs who wanted to build a resort in the bay. All the land around the Jackson place was national park and could never be touched. But a hotel and golf course and swimming pool and a marina could all fit on Jackson land. When these men saw Longboat Bay they saw money, piles of it. Rich tourists, they thought, could moor their yachts and sit out on resort balconies here and watch kangaroos grazing at the edge of the forest. International entrepreneurs could play golf and make deals. Helicopters could bring people in daily for whalewatching tours. Charter boats could take fishermen out every morning. And scuba lovers could meet that big old groper the Jackson kid played with every day. To them it was a goldmine, a fortune waiting to be made.
But Dora Jackson didn't want to sell. The businessmen were friendly at first. Their fat red faces were splitting with grins. They brought flowers and chocolates and bottles of champagne. Little gifts were followed by bigger gifts: a new outboard motor, a wind generator. This is no place for a woman on her own, they said. They offered her good money, but she didn't sell. They brought experts, tax men, lawyers, agents, but still she told them politely that she didn't want to sell. The smiles faded. The gifts stopped coming.
And then little things, annoying things, began to happen. The Longboat Bay road began to get rougher and more potholed because the council grader never seemed to come. The mail was always late or wet or it never came at all. Deliveries of diesel fuel and petrol had water in them so that Dora Jackson's outboards and generators and truck engine began to stall. There were mysterious bushfires in the forest in the middle of winter.
Abel read about it in his mother's letters angry that he could not be there to help out. At night he lay awake thinking of her and the bay. He knew she would hold out against whatever the money men did. She was stubborn as a tree and just as strong. But he hated how it wore her down, wasted her time, pinched at her nerves. Those men didn't understand that a place isn't just a
property
.
They didn't see that Longboat Bay was a life to his mother, a friend. And maybe a husband to her as well.
Every day at that peppermint tree there she was, thinking about Abel's father. It puzzled him how a person could do that year after year. But as he grew older, Abel could see how strong her love was for all these things: the sea, the bush, the house, her husband's memory. It was love that stopped her from being lonely, that made her strong. It was like food to her. Abel knew that it was his mother's love that kept him going all those dull high school years while he was stuck inland, holding his breath until he was blue in the face.
Abel Jackson's mother beat the sneaky businessmen. She simply outlasted them. Her calm patience wore them out. They got bored and fed up, and after five years they left her alone.
Abel had graduated from high school and was home on the holidays when all the pilchards died. There was no storm, no warning, no oil spill, no explanation. One morning he stumped down to the jetty to see the whole beach blackened with dead fish. The air roared with flies. Gulls hovered uncertainly over the stinking mess. Abel walked along the beach trying to understand it. He helped his mother load the truck with mushy piles of the fish and for hours they spread them on the soil of the orchard and the gardens.
âSomething's wrong with the sea,' said his mother. âThis isn't right. It's not normal.'
Late that day, Abel took his boat out and dived in the bay, along the point and out at Robbers Head. The abalone had recovered from the season that Costello had come. Trevally and tarwhine and garfish twitched along in healthy schools. Everything looked normal. The kelp and the coral were alive. He fooled around with Blueback and biffed him a couple of times with his hip as he passed close by. All of it seemed ordinary, usual.
He thought about Blueback that evening. If only fish could talk. Maybe then Blueback could tell him how the water felt, whether something was wrong somewhere along the coast or in the deeps. Abel sat on the verandah with his feet on the rail, thinking about it. Imagine that, he thought, knowing what the old fish knew. Blueback was probably old enough to have known Abel's mother as a girl. Hadn't she come out here as a teenager, staying summers with his father's family? Did he see them swimming together, his parents? Two young lovers. Had his father dived down to look at a small greenish groper out at Robbers Head one day? People said his father swam like a fish. They said sometimes he thought he
was
a fish. If Blueback could speak, thought Abel, he could tell him about his father. All the secrets of the sea would be there waiting for him.
When Abel went inside that night his mother caught him staring at the photo on the mantelpiece.
âYou look like him, you know.'
Abel shook his head. But then he looked again and saw that it was true. He had his father's face.
Later that month, tuna skippers told the Jacksons that pilchards were floating dead all along the coast. No one had a clue what it was about.
âThe ocean is sick,' said Abel's mother. âSomething's wrong.'
It was a mystery. And the more he thought about it the more the whole sea seemed to be a puzzle. Abel wanted to figure it out.
Abel Jackson went to university to figure out the sea. His mother smiled about that. He'd lived half his life underwater, his best friend was a fish and now he was leaving Longboat Bay to learn about the sea. It seemed a bit mad to her but she shrugged her shoulders and let him go.
Abel moved to the city. The university was like a small town inside the city itself. It was ugly and dreary and full of talk. In his university years, Abel pretended to be a scientist. He explored the sea with computer modelling, with books and specimens in jars, with photos and films. Now and then he went on field trips with other students. He dived in new places, from new islands and boats and beaches, but he felt the same old sea on his body, through his hair, in his ears.
Between semesters he came home and sat on the verandah at Longboat Bay and knew he was no closer to knowing what fish think. He saw whales spouting and dolphins surfing. With his mother he netted salmon and smoked herring. He painted the house and patched the driveway. In autumn he scraped out the water tanks and pruned the vines. One year he brought home some solar panels so they didn't need the noisy generator any more. That was the year he fell in love.
Abel Jackson met a girl who loved the sea. She was sleek as a seal and funny. Her hair was black and shiny. She grew up in the desert and didn't see the ocean until she was twelve years old. Her name was Stella. That summer Abel brought Stella to Longboat Bay.
When he climbed out of his car and introduced Stella to his mother, Abel was surprised at how lined his mother's face was. With a young woman standing beside her, Dora Jackson looked old. There were lines like gulls' feet all over her face. To him she'd always been young, but now, standing beside Stella, her skin seemed dry and papery. She was an old woman. I'm away too much, he thought. I'm missing things.
Abel was nervous that first day, worried that the two women would not like each other. He saw that his mother knew it. Her smile said it all.
âStella,' she said, âyou know that you'll have to share Abel, don't you?'
âOf course,' said Stella. âYou're his mother.'
Dora Jackson laughed. âActually, I was thinking of somebody else. Abel, let's show her who we mean.'
So the three of them went out to Robbers Head and swam with Blueback. The old groper flirted with them and ate crabs out of their hands. Stella shrieked in her snorkel when he nuzzled up to her. The fish's eyes twitched and his gills heaved. He looked as fat as an opera singer.
When they swam back to the boat Abel saw that his mother had trouble climbing the ladder to get aboard. He floated up behind and boosted her up. She laughed, suddenly embarrassed. Blueback swirled deep below them, just a blur.
That evening they had a feast on the cool verandah. The table bristled with crayfish and abalone. They ate squid and urchin eggs, apricots, grapes and melons. Cold champagne frosted their glasses and sweated on the driftwood table. Stella watched Abel and his mother.
âYou two,' she said. âYou seem to be able to talk to each other without saying anything.'
âPractice,' said Abel.
âIt's the fish in us,' said Dora Jackson. âWe don't always need words.'
Out on the moonlit bay, dolphins jumped and hooted. It was like a celebration. Abel remembered the dolphins as a good omen because that was the night he asked Stella to marry him.